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Kid Flash POV
A few weeks ago when I first spoke to Robin about possibly moving in with them and becoming a Teen Titan, he had told me about the recent events involving Sparkbomb and how crazy things had been. That was when I knew I had to come.
When I got here and saw her, I could see how different she was, she seemed so distant... we had kept in contact after she left our old team, but it wasn't the same. So being here and making her feel better, while catching up with my best bro, while making new friends was awesome! What I arrived, that was when I knew I was needed here.
But now... Geez! Who could have seen it coming? Rob's been really down since the Riddler scare the other day, me and the Titans have tried everything to cheer him up, but he wasn't buying any of it. He wouldn't leave his work. Serious much? I tried telling him that Batman and the league would understand about what happened when they saw the video... I still can't believe that the Riddler videoed everything that we did... But Robin would not accept it; He was too embarrassed and angry at himself. Honestly he has to reason to be, we were all at fault and the day after the incident the people of Jump city had been awesome!
There were news reports dedicated to us, saying that they were proud of how we handled such a difficult situation and anyone who disagreed should be ashamed. They were totally supportive of Robin and he choices. They had said 'Titans, if you're watching, we want you to know that no matter what people outside of Jump city may think. You are our heroes and we will be here to support you... And Robin. Thank you.'
As if dedicated News broadcasts weren't enough we were sent letters, people waved at the tower as they passed and posters were up at the coast line, that the T-tower faced, giving us peppy messages and the classic 'Go Teen Titans!'
But, then I only knew that from looking out the window. No one, not any single one of us had stepped out of the tower since it happened, I guess everyone felt a little put down, but were all arguing that we are only inside because we haven't had a reason to leave.
Well, there's no point in lying to myself now is there?
I sighed and pulled a bag of potato chips out of the cupboard, ripping them open and stuffing them in my mouth in the same second.
I looked around the main room, because Cyborg was keeping busy working on the T-car, Raven was meditating, Star was doing who knows what and Robin was hidden away in the dark evidence room, I only saw Beast boy as a puppy, sitting beside Spark on the floor by some desk, with a music player lying on top. That was another thing that made me wonder, why hadn't she done something? Back on our old team days if Rob was feeling down, Spark would be there by his side cheering him up in an instant, from what I had heard she generally managed to make him feel better with some happy story from his flying Grayson days when they were younger or some philosophical quote that she copied from a book.
But now, she was just so... so... so out of focus.
She hadn't gone to see Robin in the evidence room. She hadn't gone back to old memories, she hadn't reassured anyone, and she hadn't quoted anything! It's like she just didn't care.
But everyone on the old team knew about Robin and Sparkbomb. We had all seen those looks/glances and the protective attitudes and there occasional hand brushings. But know that I'm here in the Titans tower, everything is so much different, I don't know what the others knew and didn't...well certain things I knew they didn't know, Robs history for example.
I guess I'll get used to it.
So chomping on my chips I left Beast boy to stay with Spark and went to the dark evidence room to continue my effort to help Robin.
Dude needs to relax... what's the worst that could happen? Batman glares at hi... Oh damnn, that's scary! Hmm... Maybe Rob's hostility is understandable, I only had Bat-glare once and I never wanted it again.
As I reached the outside of the door, labelled 'evidence', I dropped the chip bag on the floor and forced the automatic door open, hearing the crashes and slams I knew what to expect. And sure enough there he was.
"Rob!" I shouted as the door close abruptly behind me
He turned and glared, "what?!" I flinched as he kicked the table again and threw a bird-a-rang at the wall, with an aggressive shout.
"Dude! Bro! Stop!" I put my hand out to nudge his shoulder.
He turned away and launched his fist at the wall, before falling down the floor, with his back to the wall and legs loosely pulled up to his chest. I sat beside him, like any good bro would right?
"It's not your fault Rob. You can't blame yourself."
He stared at the wall opposite and I knew I finally cracked through to him after my many separate attempts. He didn't try to hide the obvious sadness and anger on his face.
Since I first arrived here he had seemed different, more grown up I guess. But now He looked like how I remembered him, my younger brother.
Right now, He looked like he could smash everything in sight - and looking around it seemed like he had tried - but he also looked like he wanted to cry... I hadn't seen that look on him since we had that fake mission, and he realised he didn't want to grow up to be Batman. I remember him telling black canary, that look was so similar to now...
"You don't get it KF" I took a shaky breath
"'course I do. Just because the Riddler says you're not up to scratch, that doesn't make it true. I mean, why would you even think that you -"
He cut me off, "That's not it. Well, that's not all of it. I'm just not any good at this KF! On the old team, the league was always nearby and we always had help to keep the team together and grounded. On that mission I couldn't even keep Beast boy from running off to the wrong location, where he could've got injured! Or keep the Riddler from shooting us to death! I mean that's basic training: Be aware of your surroundings! I couldn't even do that. Then even now I'm failing as the leader and I'm failing as Robin and I'm failing Batman! I haven't even cracked what's going on with Sparkbomb and how long have I known her?! 11 years! Since we were 6! and I can't get what's wrong with her! Of all people I should be able to get through to her right? I mean, she's the girl who knew my family! And She's the girl that yelled at Batman for training me for 3 hours straight when were 9 And She's the girl who I took fear gas for when we were 12 and She's the girl who I lov-"
I raised an eyebrow, I knew it.
He changed the theme of his stress relief rant.
"I can't do this KF. If I can't even talk to her, How can I be what's expected of me? Riddler was right I can't be like Batman and I can't be a leader." He scrubbed at his eyes threw the mask with my arm in frustration and to get rid of what I'm guessing were on coming tears that he didn't want to been seen.
I took a moment, "Bro. You don't need the league and you don't need Batman. What you need is a boost. You had a rough fall, and trust me I have gone through many of them. But we'll get you through it."
He tilted his head back and said numbly and slight sarcastically, "how do you suggest you do that?"
I grinned, "Don't worry dude, I got Ideas."
He shook his head and I'm guessing he rolled his eyes, he looks totally beaten down. I patted his shoulder, in what I hoped was, reassuring. "I'm here for you Rob." He just nodded, looking at the wall.
We sat there for a bit in the silence, just like we used to after a rough time, hanging out... well, kind of. Sitting in silence, and one of us was depressed and upset, and the other was me. Enough said.
Sparkbomb POV
After leaving Beast boy asleep in the main room, I softly walked in my room and glared at the white toy dove sitting on my bed. "This is all your fault." I picked it up and with a flex of my fist and a click on my finger I blew it up, from the inside. As I starred at the pieces as it fell, I looked to the window and then I looked at my dressing table. "I stared at myself in the mirror and glared pulling at my cape and throwing off my boots. I bent forward and stared at my face in the mirror a tear rolled down my cheek as I whispered, "Why is my reflection someone I don't know?"
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So, we have some negative emotions building up. A hint of Bromance, and a secret that no one has yet to guess ^-^
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