Chapter 8

Cloud sighed as he stepped into the warm water of the bath, breathing deeply as he relaxed fully into it. His menstrual had passed the night before, the three long days of constant sleeping, pain, and eating nothing but porridge finally over. He washed himself thoroughly, using the special soap Yuffie had given him.

He stood when he felt clean enough, stretching his arms up into the air. He dried himself off before putting on his uniform, opening the bathroom door. He nearly jumped when he saw Tifa standing in front of the door, Cloud giving her a small smile as he tried to calm his rapidly beating heart.

"Hey," he whispered, not wanting to wake the others from their slumber. Tifa grabbed his hand, leading him to his room. Cloud followed without a thought, knowing that his room was best to talk in so they wouldn't wake anybody. Tifa led him in, closing the door behind them. Tifa turned to face him, her eyes searching his.

"Has Sephiroth touched you, Cloud?" Cloud froze. From how she said it, her words would have been a statement because he could tell she was already convinced of her answer. To the woman that took him in like a mother, he didn't want to lie to her. Cloud knew from the look in her eyes that he couldn't lie to her.

"I let him."

Cloud gasped when he was slapped, touching a hand to his burning cheek. He looked to Tifa with disbelieving eyes, never thinking the woman could ever do such a thing. He took a step back, fixing his posture. He fixed his clothing, taking in everything that just happened.

"Tifa. It was my decision."

Tifa looked away from him with an angered scowl, but Cloud could see the glimmer of tears in her eyes. He looked away from her, moving away and sitting on his bed.

He sighed, wondering if maybe he should say they hadn't had intercourse yet.

"Do you love him?" Tifa asked, Cloud's mouth not skipping a heartbeat.

"Yes. More than I know I should." Tifa walked over, sitting down on his bed opposite of him. Cloud didn't look to her, just looked to the candle and watching its flame as it flickered. There was an almost frightening silence echoing in his ears, but he knew he had made Tifa cry.

"Why? Why do you love him?" Tifa whispered, her voice rather calm despite her sharp inhales. Cloud wished he had a better explanation than the one he would give her.

"I fell in love with him when I first saw him." Cloud looked over his shoulder, seeing Tifa's shaking shoulders.

"And when he touched me the way he did, it was the first time I didn't feel disgusted by a man's touch." Tifa took in a sharp breath, her hand touching his own. She squeezed gently, Cloud looking away from her with a small sigh.

"It's not fair," Tifa whispered softly, Cloud almost agreeing with her. He had no control of who he had fallen in love with, and now he knew many things awaited him. A butler was not supposed to fall in love with his master.

"I love you, Cloud." Cloud looked to her over his shoulder sharply, his ears ringing in disbelief.

He was the one she had loved?

Cloud had guessed everybody else in this chamber, coming to the conclusion that maybe she loved a Duke or someone else with lots of money. He never thought that maybe Tifa had loved him.

Tifa stood, letting go of his hand. He saw her wipe away her tears, turning to face him with a smile.

"So, Sephiroth's wife?" Cloud smiled at the thought, looking to the flower set on his dresser. He had said yes to him, making Cloud Sephiroth's fiance. He had never expected that, but it was strictly only between them. Nobody else knew, and that might be how it would always be for the rest of his life.

"I'm happy for you. Out of all of us, you deserve a happy ending." Cloud looked to Tifa as she left his room, standing slowly from his bed. He had hurt her more than anybody else, and he knew that. He left his room, everybody still fast asleep. Tifa had escaped to the bathroom, letting Cloud sneak from the chambers.

He looked to the clock he passed by, the time reading only four in the morning. He sighed, heading for the kitchen.

"Cloud."

He stopped, looking over his shoulder to Sephiroth who stood on the stairs. Cloud looked down to the ground, his throat closing up as he tried not to cry.

How could he ever be accepted as Sephiroth's woman?

Cloud felt arms encase him, his eyes closing as he turned in the embrace to press his face into Sephiroth's chest. Cloud bit his bottom lip, his shoulders shaking slightly.

Sephiroth picked him up like he was a child, letting Cloud know that even though he gained some weight he was still very small. Cloud clung to him, wondering if maybe he should go with Tifa instead. At the thought of it though he cried, his entire heart and soul not wanting to leave this man.

Sephiroth closed them off in his room, placing Cloud down on the cold tile. Cloud pulled away from his chest, looking up to Sephiroth with glistening eyes. Sephiroth touched Cloud's cheek where Tifa had slapped him, his lips pulling down into a frown of worry. It was already bruising it seemed.

"Who hurt you?" Sephiroth asked with a scowl, Cloud not wanting to think about it. He pulled Sephiroth down, kissing his lips. Sephiroth hadn't expected Cloud's smaller body to have such strength, but he quickly pushed away his shock to kiss back the shaking blonde.

Cloud moaned when Sephiroth's tongue forced its way into his mouth, taking away what remained of his air supply.

Cloud pushed down Sephiroth's sleeping pants, feeling the hard erection against his fingers.

Cloud pulled away from the kiss to breathe, Sephiroth quickly taking off his shirt before stripping down Cloud.

"Do you love me?" Cloud whispered breathily as Sephiroth kissed his neck, his larger hands roaming over his skin. Sephiroth stopped, pulling away to look Cloud in the eye. Cloud had stopped crying, but he knew he would break if Sephiroth told him no.

"From the first moment I saw you." Cloud searched Sephiroth's eyes, his lips parting but no words coming out. Cloud grabbed Sephiroth's hand, leading him towards the bed. Cloud got on the soft luxurious bed, Sephiroth following after him.

Cloud laid down amongst the pillows, spreading his legs for Sephiroth who crawled between them.

Cloud only wanted this man. He didn't want anybody else to touch him like this. Didn't want to be told he was loved by anybody else.

Cloud swallowed thickly as he stared up at Sephiroth, his hands rising up and his fingers lacing with silver stands. Cloud took in a sharp breath when Sephiroth leaned down and kissed him, his eyes closing in bliss. Cloud parted his lips, allowing Sephiroth to enter his mouth. Sephiroth took the invitation, dominating Cloud's mouth with a few aggressive licks with his tongue. Cloud pulled him closer, grabbing a handful of Sephiroth's hair and giving it a sharp tug.

Sephiroth growled softly, the vibration sending a shiver through Cloud's body. Cloud pulled away from the kiss to breathe, Sephiroth attacking his neck and chest with kisses. Cloud moaned, arching against Sephiroth to feel more of him.

Cloud pushed Sephiroth up suddenly, keeping him at an arm's length. Sephiroth panted softly, looking down to Cloud in confusion. Cloud felt his eyes burn again, looking up to Sephiroth.

"What if I can never give you children?" He whispered, Sephiroth giving him a small smile. He ran a hand over Cloud's cheek, Cloud feeling the tingling feeling of a cure.

"You don't have to give me anything. Just stay with me."

Cloud felt his bottom lip tremble, Sephiroth leaning down and kissing it all away. Cloud held onto him, taking in his scent as his heart screamed to be let out.

He didn't deserve this man.

He didn't deserve this kindness.

Cloud didn't deserve this love, this tenderness.

But this one man believed he deserved all of it and more. Cloud felt tears fall down his cheeks, his eyes closing tight as he arched against him.

Cloud gasped when Sephiroth reached a hand down, touching his core. Cloud pulled away from the kiss, arching with a gasp when Sephiroth pushed in a finger. Sephiroth massaged him at first, pleasuring him gently from the inside. Cloud let go of Sephiroth's hair to grab the pillow beneath his head, biting his bottom lip with a moan.

Sephiroth watched from above, resting on one elbow. Cloud kept his eyes closed to savor and only feel his fingers inside of him, letting out a hiss as Sephiroth pushed in another finger. He opened his eyes when Sephiroth called his name, Cloud gripping the pillow when Sephiroth grabbed his member.

Sephiroth was on his knees next to Cloud now, watching Cloud's every reaction. Cloud spread his legs wider, licking his bottom lip before releasing a small whine.

It was stimulation overload for Cloud, his hips bucking against Sephiroth's fingers, but yearning to buck up into the hand that stroked him with teeth grinding slowness. Cloud arched when Sephiroth pushed his fingers deeper, gripping the pillow with a choked moan. His member pulsed but didn't release, Cloud panting as he came down from his orgasmic high.

A vaginal orgasm always dragged out more than the other, a pleasurable explosion inside that left Cloud lost in ecstasy.

"Oh Gaia," Cloud whispered, Sephiroth pulling his fingers out of his body.

"Did you cum?" Sephiroth asked, Cloud nodding once. His member still ached to release though, leaving Cloud feeling miserably stimulated. Cloud whimpered softly in agony, Sephiroth stroking him faster. Cloud gasped loudly, bucking his hips up into Sephiroth's hand.

Sephiroth kissed Cloud's inner thigh, Cloud spreading his legs wider for him. Sephiroth watched Cloud's face for any sign of discomfort as he moved between his legs, his tongue licking Cloud's weeping womanhood. Cloud arched with a moan, this part of him seeming rather sensitive.

Sephiroth moved Cloud's balls up, fondling them as he licked away the leaking juices. Cloud cried out loudly, his spine nearly snapping from the pleasure that attacked his body.

"Seph... Seph I..." Cloud could almost cry from the sensory overload, arching with a scream. He couldn't cum yet, Cloud getting frustrated and angry. He grabbed a handful of Sephiroth's hair, Sephiroth prodding his tongue deeper. His hand went faster, Cloud not hearing his own screams of pleasure over the blood rushing in his ears.

Cloud stopped breathing.

He went from being feather light to crashing down to the ground, his brain pouring out of his ears.

Cloud gasped for breath when he could breathe again, his entire body feeling light.

That was the most intense double orgasm he ever had.

Cloud fell amongst the sheets, panting as he tried to not faint. Sephiroth let go of his member, squeezing his own to relieve some of the pressure.

"Can I?" Sephiroth whispered, Cloud looking to him with lidded eyes of pleasure. He opened his arms like a child, Sephiroth moving over him and letting himself be embraced. Cloud wrapped his legs around Sephiroth's hips, a fear bubbling up in his chest. He trusted this man though, trusted that he wouldn't hurt him. Sephiroth aligned himself, breathing in Cloud's scent.

He rose up, looking to Cloud's face as he pushed in. Cloud bit his lip when he moved, the heat near unbearable as he pushed in the head. Sephiroth grabbed Cloud's wrists, pinning them down. Cloud started to shake, Sephiroth's eyes reassuring him. Sephiroth pushed in halfway quickly to not prolong Cloud's pain, capturing his yell of pain with his mouth.

Cloud panted with his eyes closed shut, the pain a throb that didn't seem to want to go away. It ached, but slowly it seemed to dim. Cloud opened his eyes with a sigh, his dormant tongue playing with Sephiroth's.

Sephiroth apologized with sweet kisses and soft nips, slowly inching his way further Cloud's body. Cloud gasped into his mouth, the small ache accompanied with pleasure.

Cloud pulled away from the kiss to breathe, looking down to where he was connected with Sephiroth. He couldn't see much besides Sephiroth's hips slanted towards his, so he rose up, lifting his balls to see where they were connected. Sephiroth groaned when Cloud clenched around him, his arms shaking to keep him up.

Cloud moaned himself, liking this new feeling. He dropped his balls, laying back down. He ran his hands up Sephiroth's chest, feeling all of his hard contours. Cloud moved his hands to Sephiroth's shoulders, lacing his fingers with some strands of silver hair.

He gasped when Sephiroth thrusted into him, looking to Sephiroth's face. He was fighting his urges, Cloud wanting him to feel the same pleasure he was.

"Move," Cloud whispered, Sephiroth building up a pace that left them both breathless. Cloud held onto him tightly, closing his eyes with a moan. Sephiroth kissed his lips with a groan, moving faster in his body. Cloud arched beneath him when he grinded against him, reaching between their bodies to stroke himself. Sephiroth grabbed Cloud's wrists, pinning them down to the bed. Cloud felt his body burn, arching against him with a moan.

Sephiroth bit down on his nipple, Cloud crying out from the sharp pain that was instantly complemented with pleasure.

Cloud shivered when Sephiroth sucked on his captured nipple, Cloud wincing when his back started to cramp. He pushed against Sephiroth, easily moving him up. Sephiroth raised an eyebrow in confusion, Cloud arching slightly to try and get out the cramp.

"Can we switch positions?" Cloud asked, Sephiroth nodding with a smile. Cloud pushed Sephiroth onto his back, moving to straddle his thighs. He stretched out his back, Sephiroth getting the idea and massaging his lower back.

Cloud sighed softly when it went away, shaking it off. Sephiroth stopped massaging, gripping Cloud's body when the blonde grabbed his member. Cloud rose up, lining himself so it would be a smooth entry.

Cloud looked down to Sephiroth, the bigger man's lips parted to let out soft pants. His cheeks were pink, bringing out the jade color of his eyes. The slitted pupils weren't even visible in the sea, Cloud shivering in anticipation.

This man was all he needed to survive.

Cloud lowered himself down onto his member, arching with a moan when he let him enter deep. Sephiroth bucked up, bouncing Cloud in his lap. Cloud bit his bottom lip, grinding against Sephiroth with a needy moan. Sephiroth delivered, quickly bucking his hips and making Cloud bounce.

Cloud arched with a cry of pleasure, holding onto Sephiroth's shoulders for balance. He let his head fall back, sweat sliding down his throat.

Cloud grinded against him, so lost in it all that he didn't feel Sephiroth sneak a wet finger to his ass. Cloud arched with a cry of surprise when Sephiroth pushed a finger into his body, looking down to him with a confused look. Sephiroth twisted his finger, his hips continuing to bounce Cloud in his lap. Cloud's moans became more distracted, his eyes closing and his eyebrows furrowing in discomfort.

"Seph-!"

Cloud arched with a cry when he suddenly felt a shock of pleasure travel up his spine. Cloud came suddenly, the force of it nearly knocking him out. He let out a strangled scream, Sephiroth pulling his finger out and turning them over, placing Cloud's legs on his shoulders before he took him roughly.

Cloud couldn't breathe, his nails leaving angry red marks on Sephiroth's back and shoulders. Sephiroth stilled suddenly, groaning as he released into Cloud's body.

Cloud panted heavily, his lips pulling up into a smile. He covered his face, laughing at what just happened.

He just had sex with the man he loved.

Sephiroth started laughing himself because it was contiguous, pulling out of Cloud and putting down his legs. He laid down next to Cloud, looking up to the ceiling. Cloud turned onto his side, pressing against Sephiroth.

"I love you," Cloud whispered, Sephiroth kissing Cloud's forehead. Sephiroth knew he would marry this blonde. Regardless of what others tried to do our say.

"I love you too."