Max
Me and Millie sat in the car just staring at Helena, she had noticed us but she didn't move from where she stood. I was shocked that Helena was even here after I told her that I didn't want to see or speak to her again on the phone. Millie opened the car door and got out slamming the door behind her, I followed her out of the car just in case anything was going to happen. Helena looked between me and Millie, this was the first time Helena had seen Millie and she was obviously sizing up her competition. Helena looked down at the floor not saying a word and Millie was giving her daggers "What are you doing here Helena?" I asked her to get this conversation done and dusted with.
"I came here to see you. I wanted to talk to you… about us" She replied in her strong Polish accent.
"There is no us Helena, I am with Millie and I love her" I replied and I grabbed Millie's hand as a sign on truth.
"She can't be what you really need or want. Your mother told me all about her and I know that she cannot make you happy. We were together for a long time, you forget that I know you Max. I was there during your darkest hour and it's things from that time that we need to talk about" She said.
"Oh I would love to know" Millie stated.
"I just want to speak to Max" Helena said to Millie.
"And I want to be a millionaire… we can't all be happy" Millie replied angrily.
"Max there is something that you need to know. I don't think it's something that your new girlfriend should hear" She told me.
"Just say whatever it is you want to say then leave" I stated.
"Fine but if she isn't happy then you can't blame me" She told me "Yesterday afternoon I had some cocaine posted through my door, there was a note that said 'from Charlie'. You an I both know who this is Max and I don't want him in my life anymore… that's why I came here. I know that you would be able to help me like you always do, you always come to my rescue" She explained to me.
"Who's Charlie?" Millie asked.
"Charlie is a drug dealer who deals in cocaine… hence the name Charlie" I told her.
"How do you know him? Did you arrest him once?" Millie questioned.
"Quite the opposite really, Max used to buy off him" Helena said.
"Helena please shut up a minute" I said to her before turning to Millie "Look I can explain everything, I promise you but please don't start jumping to conclusions" I pleaded with her.
Millie looked at me like she had just been slapped in the face. I sighed in annoyance and turned back to Helena who was looking pretty pleased with herself "I can't help you with Charlie. I am a police officer and if I tell them you're getting drugs through your letterbox to you back on cocaine then they will start asking questions. It won't take them long to figure out that I was on cocaine when I was in uniform, I could lose my job and all arrests I've made since could be questioned and the ones in prison could be released" I explained to her "If you're worried then get yourself a dog or something" I added.
"What if they don't let it go, you know how Charlie can be" She said.
"I'm sorry I can't help you. Now you need to go" I told her.
"I only got on the stuff because of you!" She shouted at me before throwing a packet of white powder on the floor and storming off.
I knew in that it was cocaine in the packet and I couldn't leave it here laying on the street so I walked over to it and picked it up "Millie come upstairs so that we can talk, I need to explain things to you" I said to her and held my hand out to her.
This was not what I needed right now. Things with Millie were getting back on track and now Helena shows up and tells Millie about my history with drugs which I would rather keep in my history and never speak about again. Helena must have done this on purpose, she planned this to try and split me and Millie up, I bet my mother was in on this as well. She knew about my past drug issue, it was her that sent me to rehab in the first place. Her and Helena must have cooked this up together.
When me and Millie got into my apartment I put the cocaine down the toilet before going into the living room where Millie was pacing around. I can't begin to imagine what is going through her head right now but I bet it's not good at all, I can't believe all of this is being dragged back up again. I thought when I got back from rehab all of this was left in the past and I got a clean slate… clearly not with Helena around.
"You better start explaining yourself right now Max or I swear to God I am walking out that door and I will not be coming back" She said angrily.
"Millie sit on the sofa… please. I will explain everything and answer anything you want to know" I told her.
After staring at me for a few moments Millie finally sat down on the sofa as far away from me as possible as if I was diseased or something "When Karolina died I was in a bad place, I was going out most nights to get drunk and forget about things but the alcohol wasn't helping. I wanted something stronger so after speaking to a couple of informants I got the number for a drug dealer, Charlie. I told him I was a copper but I was there to do trade and he didn't seem to mind, he gave me what I wanted when I wanted. After testing a few things cocaine did the best job on me and after a couple weeks I was hooked on them. I got with Helena and I got her to do them with me, I didn't want to do them on my own because it made me feel like a loser" I explained to her.
"You were a drug addict?" She asked me.
"Not for long. My mother started noticing that there was something going on and she spoke to Helena… she ratted me out to my mother and she sent me to rehab" I told her.
"Why didn't you tell me any of this? Why did I have to hear this from Helena? I thought we agreed that there would be no more secrets" She said and stood up from the sofa, she started pacing around again.
"Millie I'm sorry for not telling you but I wanted it to stay in the past. There was never a time to tell you everything and to be honest telling your girlfriend you used to be drug addict is not a conversation you ever wanna bring up" I explained to her.
"So Helena telling me was the best way?" She questioned.
"I didn't think that this would happen" I admitted.
"Well it did!" She snapped "How many more secrets are there Max? How many more times is Helena going to tell me your secrets?" She questioned and I could see she was trying to hold back tears.
I got up from the sofa and approached her but she took a step back from me "Millie please… don't be like this" I pleaded with her.
"I don't know how much more I can put up with" She said as tears fell down her cheeks "Being in a relationship is hard enough without people knowing but all of this on top… You're not making this easy" She added.
"I'm not trying to make things difficult" I replied.
"I want to go home" She stated.
"Millie-" I started but Millie cut me off.
"Please Max, I just wan to go home" She said sounding exhausted.
I knew there was no point and trying to get her to stay so I agreed to drive her home, when we got to her place I pulled up and stopped the car. Me and Millie sat there in silence for a few minutes, neither of us really knowing what to say, I never wanted Millie to find this out. I knew it was going to change her opinion of me from now on… I never wanted any of this to happen.
"I think you need to think about any other skeletons in the closet you have" She said sadly before getting out of the car.
