Shadows and Light

So I am thinking about using this story for a writing competition this year. I would appreciate it if you guys let me know if it's worthy of it. Thank you so much!

Chapter1

I grew up within the House of Odin as the daughter. I learned Frigga's magic and had magic of my own that was able for me to obtain. Frigga had sealed the dark side of me when I was six years old. Every year around this time I was given a sealing to keep the monster inside of me contained. Years have now gone by and I have advanced into womanhood and now, here I stand, woman, warrior and Goddess of Asgard.

I smiled when I saw the bifrost open at the edge of Asgard. They had returned home "Mother! They're home! Loki and Thor are back!"

Frigga looked up from her book and smiled at me "Then I would suggest that you go meet them. You have been waiting there all morning, I was afraid you were going to burst."

My smile brightened and I quickly took off down the hallway and out the door. I ran past the throne room where Odin was waiting "What is your hurry child?"

"They are home. Loki and Thor." I said, not stopping.

I wasn't always this bright, I wasn't always smiling. I had my difficulties as I grew into womanhood. My control over my magic was difficult. Many of nights I had nightmares that would cause my brothers to come to my room to save me, or Frigga to come and hold me. Odin was careful with me, however he was not a father to me like I considered Frigga my mother. When I learned magic and I learned to control it.

The doors opened and I bolted down the hallway. The bright smiles of Thor and Loki were greeting me. "Sister!" Thor's booming voice called as he wrapped his strong arms around me, squeezing me tightly, picking me up off of the ground and spinning me "Thor! Welcome home brother!"

He put me down on the ground, I was dizzy after the spin that Thor caused. I turned to look at Loki, his bright green eyes sparkled, and he quietly smiled at me and wrapped his arms around me, kissing my cheek "Hello Cayna. How beautiful you look."

I grinned at him "I have missed you, Loki." I looked at my brothers "I missed both of you."

We walked together to the throne room. Loki taking my arm. Loki and I were the closer of the two of my brothers. We were taught together, I was always together, where you would see one, and you would see the other. We walked into the throne room to meet Odin and Frigga. Frigga greeted her sons with a hug and a kiss on the cheek "Welcome home my sons."

I let go of Loki and stood next to Frigga "My boys, how was your newest conquest?"

"It was well received father." Thor said. "It was found well."

Loki, who was standing closer to us whispered "After you came storming in with your hammer."

Frigga and I both tried to suppress a smirk and we exchanged glances. Odin looked at the two of us and gave us a warning. "My son's I have news for the both of you. While you were gone I had some strong decisions to make. I had to make the decision on who was going to take over the trone. I have made the decision."

We looked at Odin with our hearts in our throats. I secretly hoped that Loki would receive the Throne. He wasn't the kind of person to go into battle without a plan. He wasn't the kind to go in swinging. Odin stood up "I have chosen for Thor to ascend the throne as the all father."

The disappointment showed in Mine, Frigga and Loki's faces. I looked at Loki and his shoulders slumped slightly. Odin looked at him "You will have your gift from me, Loki."

With that, he waved us away, leaving just Odin and Thor in the room. Frigga and I exchanged glances and she pointed for me to follow Loki, who was making his way out of the throne room "You are the only one that can calm him now. Go, make sure he doesn't cause harm to himself, or anyone around him." I nodded and I quickly ran to catch up to Loki, whose pace had intensified down the hall toward his chamber.

I made it shortly behind him and closed the door behind me, sealing it with a spell. He made no notion of knowing that I was in the room. Instead he vented to, what he believed was an empty room "I cannot believe this. My brother, the oaf, not the wiser of the two of us! I am the more planned of the two."

I walked over and sat down in the corner of the room, watching him pace. His movements were sharp, his eyes sparking with hostility.

I summoned up whatever courage I had and whispered gently "I didn't realize that you even wanted the throne."

He jumped slightly, finally realizing my presence in the room "Where did you come from?"

I gave him a look of pity and surprise "Even as strong as my perfume is?" I said, trying to make a joke, though from what I could tell, he would have none of it. I sat forward in the chair and sighed "I followed you in."

He walked to the door and I interrupted his steps "The door is sealed…I made sure of it."

He turned and looked at me "You are a tricky one yourself."

I smiled and looked down at the floor "I had an excellent tutor."

He walked over and sat in front of me, taking my hands in his and smiling "What have I done in this life to deserve such fidelities?"

I gripped his hand gently "I don't know. You must have done something right."

A sudden pain gripped my chest and I jumped, letting out a slight cry of pain. Loki looked at me with surprise "Are you alright?" He asked, becoming slightly alarmed. Trying not to alarm him further, I nodded "I'm fine, I must have pulled a muscle or something."

"That cry came out as more than a pulled muscle."

I stood in front of him, letting my hands fall in front of him "I promise you, Loki. I'm fine."

I never told Loki about Agrboda, I didn't want him to worry, and I didn't want him to fear. Though I think, somehow, Loki laughed at fear.

I dreamed about that side of me sometimes; wrapping her arms… my arms… around him, kissing his jawline, neck, and chest; saying that he would belong to her. I dreamed that he enjoyed her…my…skin as it turned cold against his hands. That is what scared me the most.

Loki stood to look at me "Cayna…." His hands touched my face and it was almost cold to the touch. I took his hand and entwined my fingers in his "Are you alright now?" I asked, hoping that the anger that had consumed him had managed to calm. He nodded "you always manage to do that, you have a calming effect on me."

The pain erupted again but this time I tried to hide it with a smile "I care about you Loki. Believe it or not. I do care."

He leaned in and kissed my forehead, a smile playing on his lips. I smiled "Alright, I am going to go. I need to talk to Mother before the feast tonight. You might want to rest up. You're going to be required to dance with me." I said with a smile

He returned the smile and nodded "Since I don't have a choice in the matter."

As soon as the door closed behind me I leaned against the wall for comfort and grabbed my chest. My vision was blurry, and the sudden feeling of anger caught me. I became cold and like my insides were hardening. I looked at my hands and saw that they were beginning to take on a blue tint "Oh no."

I hurried down the hallway toward the library, where I knew Frigga would be. She liked to take an hour of personal time in the library then. She was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room. She looked up at me and saw the panic in my face, seeing immediately that something was wrong. "Are you having any pain, little one?"

I nodded and looked at her with some concern. "What's happening to me?" She shook her head "Come forward, I had a feeling that this would happen. What scares me more is that the pain is coming more frequent."

I walked over to her and she pressed her hands over my chest "Be still."

A sudden wave crashed into me and knocked the wind out of me. My heart slammed against my chest, pounding hard. My muscles tensed in waves causing me to shutter. Light burst through my back into the air. Frigga held onto me and I, unconsciously, gripped at her shoulders. My eyes shot to hers and the sudden red glow illuminated everything I saw. Hate coursed through my veins and a deep voice erupted from my lips "You cannot contain me forever crone! The girl belongs to me, and so does your son!"

Then my muscles began to relax, and my heartbeat began to lighten. My legs buckled and I fell to the floor, taking Frigga with me. Uncontrollable emotions flooded me and I began crying. "Oh mother, I am so sorry!"

She hushed me "It's alright darling. You're alright. Hush now sweetheart."

My muscles hurt and my head was swimming and my nerves were shot. "Come on darling. You need rest."

I suddenly realized that there was another body in the room I looked over my shoulder. Our mother followed my gaze to see Thor standing in the doorway "Is everything alright?"

"Yes, Thor, it would seem that Cayna had a horrible time sleeping last night. Would you be ase kind as to help me carry her to her chamber to rest?"

I suddenly felt his arms wrap under me and lift me off of the ground "She's cold."

Frigga nodded "It's been a long day."

I looked up at Thor as he carried me to my chamber, as he sat me down gently on the bed, I tried to smile gently "Thank you brother. I will be alright, I just need to rest for a while."

Thor looked worried, but he smiled in reply, moving my hair from my face and tucking me into the bed and I quickly drifted off to sleep.

The mirrored image of my eyes looked at me, red like blood from edge to edge, my dark hair carrying a crimson tint and my lips black as night. I looked at myself and shuttered. This was Angrboda, my sorrow "You seem week little Sigyn. Maybe I should calm your tension for a while.'

I stepped away from her "No, I will manage."

"You cannot contain me forever." She growled "Just think, I can get you everything that you possibly desire, and even more. You want power, you want the thrown, and I can even get you the man that you love most…"

I glared at her "You won't lay a hand on him."

"You think you can stop me?! He is a very handsome man, very…full…don't you agree."

I blushed at the innuendo but pursed my lips "I don't want him that way."

"Oh Please!" She scoffed "You really think I believe that lie?! You want him in every way possible, every way imaginable. You and I both know that. After all, little one, I am you."

I cocked an eyebrow "You think that you can provide me with his needs. Or is it you that wants him wrapped up in your sheets."

"Does it matter? Both of us would be feeling the pleasure." She said with a wicked smile "Just imagine it, his hands tangled in your hair, your legs wrapped around his, and his mouth on every part of you, ravishing every curve and crevice of your body…"

"Enough!" I growled "You are not me. You live inside of me. I will keep you contained, and you will not control me."

"You cannot hold back what you really are."

"And what is that exactly?" I said defensively "You and I both know that father never told us, except that we were Asgardian, like he was."

"Maybe you should ask the man that has been caring for you all these years." She suggested harshly, "It's time that you know. Now, you better wake up, we have company.

The knock on my chambers caused me to jump from the bed. "Who is it?"

"It's me Milady, Arah, your mother sent me to help you get ready." A small voice said from the other side of the door. I rubbed my eyes and sighed before kicking my legs over the side of the bed and making my way over the door. "Come in." I grumbled sleepily. The little red headed woman looked at me nervously and I smiled gently "Don't just stand there little one, come in."

She did and I closed the door "So tell me, what I am going to look like when I am all done?" I asked with a grin

"I thought I would curl your hair and put it in a layered way in the back, and then of course, add your headband." She suggested

"I like that Idea greatly, it will go well with my dress." I said pointing to the white one-shouldered dress that reached the floor.

'That will look beautiful on you Milady, especially when you walk with Thor."

I knew better than that. That was the plan was for Loki and Frigga to walk together in line, and Thor to escort me. However, Thor, having the bigger ego than the rest of the family, even Odin, wanted to make his entrance unforgettable. "Thank you Arah, I appreciate that." I took a seat at the make-up table and she got to work on my hair "Please do not forget to freeze it, unfortunately my hair is so thick that any curl possible doesn't stay."

"Yes, milady."

I heard the door open behind us and I looked into the mirror to see Loki step through "Well, she's awake."

"I just woke up." I said tiredly "I would think you would be ready by now."

"No, I, myself just woke up." He said with a smile "I received a note from our father saying that he has a surprise announcement for us. He will make the announcement after we are all gathered."

"In front of all Asgard?"

"It would seem. It will be a surprise to everyone."

I blinked and nodded "Alright. Then. Thank you for telling."

He bowed his head and took his leave. Arah looked at me "Prince Loki seems to be cold this evening."

"It has been a long day." I stated as I began putting on make-up for the evening.

I shifted uncomfortably and shifted my dress skirt for the millionth time tonight. I stood on the other side of the throne room doors, sighing with impatience, I hated these things. Then checked my headband. "You keep trying to fix yourself and you're going to make a mess." I turned around and smiled "Then fix me dear Loki, for I don't think I shall ever be satisfied with this outfit."

Thor and Loki both walked down the hallway Loki wearing the helm he had with the long curved horns. And Thor holding his helm. "Nonsense milady Cayna, you look much too beautiful to fix." He said, leaning into kiss my cheek. Thor did the same "You look beautiful. Mother always did say that you could pull off white."

I shrugged my shoulders "Speaking of which; where is our mother?"

"She is watching for guests to arrive." Thor replied "are you feeling better sister?"

Loki looked at me with caution "Were you ill?"

I shook my head. "I was just tired and needed rest. I was so excited for you two to return home that I had over extended myself. I promise you, I am fine."

Loki kept his eyes fixed on mine. Thor, who seemed tense said "I am going to go for a walk."

"Are you nervous Thor?"

"Why does everyone keep asking me that?" He stated walking off.

Loki and I were left alone "You know you shouldn't lie to the God of Lies." He said, looking at the door

I smirked "You're the God of Mischief, Loki."

"It was because of that pain that you had earlier today wasn't it?"

"Loki." I breathed, however he interrupted me "Cayna….what happened to you?"

"I don't know." I mumbled

"Cayna…." He warned

"I don't know!" I snapped "If I did know I would tell you, but I don't."

He took me by the shoulders and made me look at him "You know I can't help you if you don't tell me."

"I can't seem to help myself because I don't know what it is." I stated. "I will talk to Odin, after tonight. I promise."

Before he could say something else, Frigga flowed into the room and smiled "There you two are. Where is your brother?" She said, asking Loki

"I don't know."

"I am fairly certain that he is going to make his own appearance, on his own." I replied "You know how he is."

"Well you can't be escorted yourself." She replied

I smiled "Don't worry about that mother, I will be fine." The doors opened "It isn't like my honor is at stake, I am the adopted daughter, after all." I said with a grin. "Now, go make your appearances." I said, shooing them off. I watched the two of them and sighed "Thanks alot Thor. A gentlemen you are not."