Shadows and Light Chapter 3

This is kind of a romantic chapter…no sex…just cute smut lol. Enjoy! Please review J

I was frozen in my seat as he stepped down in front of me "What?"

He looked down at me and sighed "You are not hard of hearing, girl. That I know of you."

The thought went through my head and I was reeling with sudden despair "Why did no one tell me of this?"

'Because your father wanted to protect you."

"And what? For me to marry another Asgardian you would breed the other half out of me?!" The fury sent a wave through me. In the back of my head I heard my evil half chuckle "Demand the Truth!" I stood up to him "My mother was a frost giant wasn't she?"

"She was. A woman of pure evil such as her was a dangerous thing for your father. She seduced him, transforming and hiding as one of our own within Asgard. Your father was, at first, weary of your mothers actions, not realizing that the suspicious woman was in fact, a spy for Laufey. She became pregnant, bore your brother, and you. Your brother had been born of Asgaurd. But you carried the frost giant gene. Your father recognized this and saw your mother for what she really was.

"Your father told me what she was and we went to arrest her, but we found her in your home, holding you in her arms, her own magic being sent into you, her evil. The darkness of your mother rests inside of you. Your mother died that night, the night that you were sealed with her evil. Your father and I had the evil part of you sealed tightly into you..."

'The rune on the back of my neck' I thought. Odin went on

"Frigga has contained it, but it would seem, from the look in your eyes, your going to have to learn to contain it on your own…or Theoric will, when you marry him."

Ask him about the night he found you

That sparked something inside of me… "And the night you found me…it wasn't a frost Giant that killed them was it?"

Odin looked down to the floor "It wasn't." He stated.

"It was me." The realization came over me "That evil part of me…Angrboda…she took over and…killed my father and brother."

"You lost control. You were young."

"But I am still a monster am I not?! I killed my own family!" the red rings of rage showed up in my eyes again "And no ne bothered to tell me or teach me how to control it!"

The energy suddenly burst out of me and before I could stop a large ice spike appeared and embedded itself in the wall. I glared at him "How do I stop it?"

You cant,

"You can only control it when you can control your anger, and your emotions…something you never could do."

I glared at him "And by me marrying another?"

"It was an agreement between Theoric and I, nothing more."

"Then are you aware that he is his own evil?" I revealed the bruises on my arms

"He doesn't know his own strength…you will marry him."

I couldn't believe it. I suddenly gritted my teeth "Then you, my dear allfather, are a fool, and you are as cold to me as an adopted daughter as that ice spike I just embedded into the wall. I will do as you ask, I will marry him…but I will do it under my terms, and I shall forever hate you for what you have done."

I lifted my dress and headed out of the throne room, leaving the old man to wallow. I went to my chamber where Arah was cleaning. "Arah, your excused for the night, send word to my mother that I was ill and that I do apologize."

"Yes milady and a note from the Prince Loki was left." She said handing it to me before taking her leave

I took it from her and looked at it, it only said three words

Talk to Me.

"Well, seems he fancies a night with a half frost giant. This could be good.

"I don't remember asking your opinion" I said outloud

"And I don't remember sealing my work into a pretentious royal brat but that seemed to happen."

I wondered if I could summon her in a magic form and she chuckled Are you sure you want to do that? After all what kind of evil could I start?

"Not a very big evil if I can wave my hand and you disappear. Now, I will make you adeal, since you and I both don't seem to care for Odin at the moment, I will let you into a smoke form, momentarily. If you say or do anything that I don't like, you go back in my head…do we understand?"

I don't usually make deals with such annoyances, but under the circumstances that I havent seen the outside world except through your dull eyes…I will take that deal."

I took a deep breath and let her come forward through my hands and into a smoke filled cloud. It was a slow emerge but I managed it. She had dark hair and blood red eyes, her skin the dark cobalt blue with the markings of a Jotun on the face. Her and I shared a mirrored image. "So…this is the thing that my mother sealed inside of me? I guess I could look worse." I said. She sneered and took a seat at the foot of my bed "And you could be a lot nicer t the woman who has given you most of the power for all f these years."

I rolled my eyes "I am only talking to you now because I am not going to let you take over my body. I may be angry, and I may be furious, but I am not going to kill the people I love." I walked over to my closet and stripped off my dress, looking at her slightly. She stared at my naked form as I slipped into a long silk nightgown and robe. "How about the man who disrespected you by putting those bruises on you?"She sat back "I guess if you wanted love bruises you could have gone to Loki.

"Again…I don't remember asking you. Now..let me ask you this…Are you my mother?"

She burst out laughing as if I made a joke "Not at all. I am simply the frost giant side of you. Mother simply slipped her dark magic inside of you and..well, some of her evil murderous tendencies. She was very talented. She didn't manage to get all of the evil inside of you before Odin killed her. I would think of you as bipolar but….I am afraid that isnt a proper word…you are just suppressing me until the time is right.

I sighed with frustration at her temptations "Is there any way to get rid of you?"

"yes..you can make a clone of you and let you free…or you can just let me take over you…any other way I don't care for.

I waved my hand and she disappeared You can't suppress me forever. I am, after all, one that brings sorrow

I looked at Loki's note one more time and made the decision. I made my way out of the chambers and down the hallway. Until I found the doorway in the dark and knocked. I heard shuffling from the other side "Who is it?"

"It's me." I replied

The door opened slightly and Loki's eyes emerged, glowing, it's seamed, in the dark. "Come in." He said, "Is everything alright?"

I was quiet for a moment, biting at my thumb nail as I was deep in thought. Loki was the only person that I felt I could tell.

"Cayna!"

I looked at him and the tears began to well up "Loki…I can't do this. I can't marry him." He walked over to me and took hold f me gently "What did he do to you?"

I slowly slipped the robe off of me and showed him the hand prints on my arms. He looked at me with worry and I showed him the bruises that were large and black on my hips. "Odin told him what I was. Then I found out."

He moved a piece of my dark hair out of my face "What is it?"

I looked at him "Loki…I am half frost giant…my mother sealed her evil inside of me….I killed my own family." I told him everything, the story of my mother, the story that Odin gave me. All of this as I slowly broke down into tears. I looked at him and suddenly cried out "Please don't leave me."

He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. "I can't believe that he has done this to you. Suppressed you for so long. Now he expects to fix his mistakes by marrying you to a man that would rather beat such beauty out of you. No, I won't leave you…I am going to fix this."

I pulled away from him "What are you going to do?"

He smiled slightly and moved my hair back away from my face once more "For right now I am going to make you forget that this night ever happened. You're going to spend the night with me."

My brow furrowed in confusion and Loki held my gaze or a couple seconds, his eyes grazing over me "You have become beautiful as you have grown." He pressed his lips to my wrist and kissed the bruise on my forearm, it was tender, sweet. "Are you sure that you want to be this close to me…since I am purely evil." I asked as his mouth trailed up my forearm to the crook of my elbow

His eyes sparked with anger slightly and he lifted his head from my arm "You are no more evil than I. Before you think it, you are not a monster either." He touched the side of my neck "tell me what you want me to do." He whispered

I looked at him

Tell him. Take the pain away

I cursed at that voice in the back of my head but the tears were starting to well up again in my eyes "Take the pain away."

He moved his face to mine and pulled me into a kiss that sent sparks into my brain. He tangled his fingers in my hair and pulled me into him. I touched his chest to feel his heart beating faster. I needed him to save me, just for tonight. He pulled away from my mouth and gently kissed my neck and my collar bone. Bending in front of me to kiss a trail down my chest "Lay back on the bed my darling."

The wave of panic raised up in my body and I looked at him "Loki…I can't…" The fear that I would be married to another man and my fidelities were to stay with Loki…the title of the Goddess of Fidelity would be stripped of me. I was already crossing that line anyway.

"I am not going to…those are not my intentions. Not tonight." He lightly pushed me "lay back sweetheart. My righteous one."

I did as he commanded and lay back on the bed. He rolled up with me and hovered over me for a moment "I am going to heal your bruises…if I see any more of them on you, I will kill him."

I nodded as he sat next to me and lifted my forearm to his mouth one more time to place a kiss on the bruises before setting a hand on my arm and a warm glow. He continued, kissing the bruises before healing them entirely. I feared the ones on my hips would be harder to heal You can always tell him to go lower.

'Shut up.' I thought 'no one asked you.'

He kissed my hip gently "This might hurt a little more…I don't wish to do that."

I shook my head and closed my eyes. His hands touched my hips and sure enough it was painful to take away and I gasped. "Are you alright?"

The tears were starting to roll down my cheeks and he kissed them away "I am sorry."

I shook my head again "It isn't your fault…you're not the one that did this to me."

He pulled himself up to me and lay down on his side. Pulling me close to him and kissing my forehead. "He isn't going to hurt you again." My head rested against his beating heart.

I took a deep breath to keep my crying shallow and he hushed me "Sleep. Close your eyes and rest. I let his heart beat send me into a deep sleep.

He cares for you…You and I both can see that, you're not blind

'Neither are you.' I said to Angrboda "What do you want from me?"

"For us to join together…become one"

"You really think that I am going to join together with the evil part of me. What do I look like…Yin and Yang?"

You are week, Sigyn, Instead of fighting and plunging that stake through Odin's heart, you embedded it in your wall. What fear did that arise in the all father?

I don't want him to fear me…I want him to understand that I am not to be messed with

Then let's think of it this way…if we do join forces, then you will be able to show him that we are not to be messed with

I sighed

You will be able to have Loki…

"Let me handle it and you back off!" I growled

You will come to me.

I woke up the next morning to hear the knocking on the door. I saw that Loki was still holding onto me when we were woken up. I let him up and he went to the door. The magic seal was broken and Frigga walked into the room "I had a feeling that this was where you would go." She said simply. This is not the first time that she had seen me on Loki's room, during my childhood if I ever had a nightmare, I would go to Loki's room and sleep there. She had always assumed that Odin would allow Loki and I would marry. She looked at Loki "Did she tell you what happened?"

Loki nodded "She told me everything, Mother. She isn't going to marry him! I won't allow it."

Frigga nodded "I had a feeling that this would happen. Cayna, can you excuse Loki and I for a moment? Please."

I looked at Frigga and saw a glimmer in her eyes. She was planning something. I walked out of the room and closed the door behind me. "Well, good morning Sister." I saw Thor behind me and smiled "Hello Thor."

"Heading to breakfast."

I nodded "Yes. Would you be so kind as to escort me to breakfast?"

"Of course." He took my arm and walked with me. I would change into a dress later this morning. I had to go to a court meeting this morning. The only problem with being adopted into royalty, I had to go to court and listen to the problems of the court. Most of the time I wasn't allowed to make a decision, Frigga and I were there for a pretty face. Thor and I joked on that many times "Maybe you should twirl your hammer and make sure that our hair blows perfectly and the men can drool."

The doors to the dining room opened and I stood in fear as I saw who was at the table next to Odin "Look has joined us for breakfast." Theoric stood and looked at me with a smile "Good morning, Milady."