Shadows and Light Chapter 5

I wrung my hand and I tried not to break into tears, today was my wedding day, it was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, instead, I was not. I was terrified. The worse part about the whole thing was that I was going to be dealing with it alone. Thor had been called away to Valhalla and Loki had gone missing shortly after our talk in the gardens, the only good side to the whole thing was, I hadn't seen Theoric in that time either."Can't you send another party out to look for him? Or at least we can wait until Thor and Loki return?" I swated at the maidens hand as she continued to work on my hair. She stepped backwards to dodge my hand, then began tugging on my dark locks again. I glared at her, frustrated.

Frigga was thinking the same thing that I was but she shook her head "I am sorry honey, I tried to convince Odin, but he wouldn't have it."

I sighed and rubbed my temples "And what of me? Does he not care that I want my brothers here?"

She tried to calm me "They may show up at the last minute. You never know."

"The only hope I have is that the Groom doesn't show at all." I said, leaning my forehead against the mirror. Frigga knew my pain.

I put my hands up to cover my eyes and I nodded "I really don't want to do this."

"I know darling."

Over the last couple of days Frigga had been fighting with Odin to stop the marriage, demanding to allow me to chose who I wish to marry. He refused each time, saying that my duty as the adopted daughter was to be regal, and marry someone with a high standing. When Frigga suggest that I marry either Loki, or even Thor. Odin refused again, arguing that the evil inside of me would encourage both them. "I can see that its already beginning to encourage her."

I would hide in Loki's chambers, while that was usually the first place anyone looked for me, I found comfort there in the darkness of his rooms. It isnt too late, you can still try and kill him. You don't need Loki to do it

'yes because that is how I came t be known as the goddess of fidelity.' I thought

A knock on the door caused me to shake suddenly. Frigga opened the door and smiled "Hello Arah."

"A gift from the groom." She said handing me a box. Inside was a circular pedent with green jewels on it within swirls "All of eternity." I said, though something about it caused me to furrow my brows "What is it sweetheart?"

I looked at Frigga "I oddly don't see THeoric giving me something like this? He doesn't seem the kind…No This would be more of something…"My words trailed off

"Would you like me to put it n for you sweetheart?" Frigga asked her words kind, sweet,

"Hmm? Oh…yes, please." I stated letting the cold metal touch my skin. My eyes looked at it gleam in the mirror and I moved a piece of hair out of my face. "What time is it?" I asked

"Almost time." Frigga replied

My heart was pounding at the sound of the harps, I walked alone with the feeling of abandonment, and the thought that I was truly alone. My dress flowed behind me the flowers in my hair smelled lovely, I loved beautiful, but I felt horrible. In front of my Adopted mother, my friends, and my Adopted father, I stood in glory. Odin smiled when he saw me and I saw him, and Theoric in the front of the throne room, I sneered slightly when I saw Theoric. Unhappy at the situation.

As I arrived, Theoric offered me his hand and I took it to be assisted to stand up in front with him. Odin looked down at the two of us "All of Asgard has come to see these two, stand together as Husband, wife and consorts under the throne. Together, you two shall be comrades, warriors, and loves, fighting together, and serving together, as loyalties have taught you. I ask you now Theoric, Do you take my daughter, Sigyn Arcayna Cainson, as such, your comrade, your warrior, your lover, and as the goddess of fidelity for the rest of your years."

"I Swear." Theoric stated, looking at me

"Do you, Sigyn Arcayna Cainson. Take Theoric as such, your comrade your worrior, your lover as your consort and your partner, for the rest of our days?"

I was about to say no, but the look that Odin gave me told me that if I didn't want to spend my honeymoon in the dungeons, I would have to say it. I turned and looked at Theoric, and something, I had noticed, had changed. Theoric's usual dark eyes had turned pale…bluish green that I had recognized in someone elses face, I had seen them so many times before to know that these eyes did not belong to Theoric, they belonged in the body of….

"Loki." I whispered

"Cayna!" Odin snapped

I blinked "I swear." I said quietly…too involved at looking into the bluish green tint to say it any louder. Theoric took hold of my hand and we held them together. Odin wrapped his cape around our hands, joining us together "I as All father, see these two, as consorts in the nine realms. Together they be joined as husband and wife."

As Odin did his final speech I watched the green smoke encircle Theoric, and he changed into the man that I knew. I smiled as the crowds of people gasped, and even Odin was left speechless. I beamed at the fact that I had been saved by my dearest friend, Loki, had come to my rescue.

"What is the meaning of this?!" Odin roared

Loki grinned "Just a bit of fun really."

I turned and looked at Frigga who was sitting there calm…She had been in on it the whole time. She was going to find a way to make sure that I not marry Theoric…but that I marry Loki instead. Angrboda chuckled in the back of my head and she called us mischevious.

Loki looked at me and smiled, pulling me in to kiss him to seal out union. The look on Odin's face told us one thing and one thing only…

Every single one of us, were going to be in trouble

"How dare you disobey me, you're family, and the court; by believing that you could get away with such things!"Odin paced back and forth in anger, throwing fingers and showing us his booming voice.

Loki and I stood next to each other. The throne room had since been emptied, there would be no festivities for a wedding, just Loki, Me, Frigga, and Odin. If, of course, Odin didn't take it upon himself to execute us first. "This is not the worst thing I have done." Loki argued calmly "If anything, this should not have surprised you."

He had a point. Odin, however, wasn't having any of it "You believe that this will save you?! Think again!"

"If you annulled the marriage it will cause you embarrassment and you will be the laughing stock of the court!" Frigga said

"And you are not out of the woods either wife! Don't think that I didn't realize you had an idea to do this. Where do you think Loki got it?"

He also had a point. I thought, Loki was too involved in tugging at my dress to really pay close attention to what they had to say. I was too busy trying not to show my utmost happiness.

"Like you are so innocent of trickery." She mocked.

Loki leaned into me and kissed my temple, smiling against my ear, while the two of them were fighting "How did I do to save you?"

"You saved me the better part of misery." I whispered "Though I believe that you sent me to the gallows."

He grinned "I doubt that, very much." He pulled from me "Have I told you that you look beautiful yet?"

"Not yet."

"And you two!"

Loki and I both looked at Odin and he glared at the two of us "I married Theoric and Cayna together… whether he was here or not, I demand that you go and retrieve him!."

"Well that is impossible to do seeing as though he is dead."

I looked up at Loki with some concern "Don't look at me like that, Love, I didn't do it. Believe it or not we both got into some trouble and he was killed by something else."

I wasn't sure that I believed him, but I wasn't going to press it, instead I was just happy that the abuser was dead. Odin glared down at Loki and he knew that the prince was winning. I looked at Odin and knew that it was my turn to defend us "Odin, you made me the goddess of Fidelity for a reason did you not?"

Loki had hold of my arms for protection, but Odin didn't make a move. I stepped forward, trying hard not to show how terrified I was "You made me to be loving, to be faithful to anyone, any person, cause of believe. To demonstrate my loyalty…You married me to Loki, whether you see it or not, I am afraid that even if you were to annul our marriage, my loyalties, and my fidelity….will forever lie with him. I you banish us…I will follow, if you execute us, I will die with him."

Loki wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me on the temple "What a fidelious creature you have created, even with her frost giant heritage."

I stiffened but he let me know to relax. "If you excuse me, father, mother, I have a honeymoon to go on and I don't want to keep my bride waiting to consummate our marriage."

I blushed but he took hold of my arm and tugged me out the door, before I could say anything, he lightly pushed me up against one of the columns and kissed me deeply, I allowed it. I was, after all. His wife. He hiked up my leg and held me to him. I couldn't help but smile against him as he kissed me and touched my skin. He pulled away for air and looked down at me "I tricked a whole kingdom into believing that you married another. I…my dear, believe that you owe me one." He said

I grinned at him and a small purr rose from deep within my throat "How shall I make it up to you my prince."

He smirked and licked his bottom lip "I think I can come up with a couple of ideas."

His room eliminated to show that my belongings had been moved there. I laughed "I was beginning to wonder where all of my things were going."

He chuckled "well you can't be in your bed…now that we have a union." He kissed the back of my neck and moved the hair out of the way. "How shall I take this dress off of you, my dear?"

I felt the buttons of the back of the dress slowly lift away, one by one and I looked over my shoulder "Such delicacies of this dress. It would be a shame if it were to get torn, wouldn't you agree?"

I gave him a bored look as he kissed my shoulder and ran his fingers down my arm to my hand. I spread my fingers for his but he didn't take hold of them, instead, he places his hand on my abdomen and held me in place against him, causing me to lose my breath. Finally he reached the last button and slowly slid the dress off my shoulders and let it pool unto the floor. He turned me to him and lifted my chin "Such a unique beauty." My eyes gazed over his. He leaned in close to me and I felt his breath on my face. He kissed me lightly on the lips, so light that I barely felt it. Then he said something that caused me to stop in my tracks, my half naked form chilled "Let me see the other side of you."

I suddenly pulled back to look at him "What did you just say?"

I pulled away from his touch and stood back. When he went to touch me again I held my hand out to distance him "Is that…is that the only reason that you did all of this?"

He didn't reply, "You didn't save me from Theoric did you? Not for me…you did this to see what I was…"

"Cayna, that isn't…"

"It is! You wanted to see what the other part of me was, what mind of monster I am…."

"I told you that you are no more monster than I."

I snorted "Well then that shows us what we both are then. A frost giantess married to a prince of lies…I should have known."

"You know nothing!" He suddenly snapped, causing me to shiver in fear. He looked down at the floor and sighed, he wasn't going to win this one. "Believe me or not I saved you from him. He wasn't going to stayed married to you…He was going to kill you."

"And you know this how?"

"I spoke to him…Cayna I wasn't going to let him harm you. I do care for you…." I glared at him for a moment as he continued "I would have killed him myself if it wasn't for the creature that killed him."

I looked down at the floor "But yet you still want to see Angrboda…you want to see the other part of me…" He didn't reply "I think I better go to the library…I have some…research that I have to do."

He gave me a confused look and I sneered "You want to see the monster within me…fine…I need to find a way for her to become part of me, but remember, dear husband…you asked for this."

I burst from the room and walked down the hallway toward the library, Were you serious back there?"

'If he wants to see it, I am bound by fidelity to show him….but that doesn't mean that you and I are one…I will still have control."

So your going to find a way to bring me forth and still have control?

'If I can.' I thought

You can still go back and consummate your marriage…I am sure that he is patient.

'He may be…but so am I. I will leave him to brood for a few days...leave him hanging on a thread.'

Just dont wait too long darling...you know how men are

'I expect that Loki will find someone if he wants someone to bed...It wouldn't be the first time I have seen him bed another...that will just drive us more this time...dont you agree?'

I heard the smile in her voice I must be having more of an influence on you than I figured.