There's a thing about they called love. It is sweet, colorful, happy and miscellaneous. It is unexplainable in some ways and also mysterious. You will never know when it will come to you. It's contagious. Its terrifying. It's how he sees it. Ciel thought as he looks idle while he waits for Marco outside the restaurant that they decided to... well... to get to know each other. Ciel wondered why he decided to have dinner with this Marco character.
For pass time? To fool around?
Wait. Is Marco gay?
Ciel reclined his back. Wait. Now its coming to him all too sudden. He didn't expect it to turn out like this. If that's, maybe, the situation, then he'll flatly turn him down. That's the right thing to do, right? Its very awkward, like, he just gave up earlier about him being gay toward's his ass-y boss. Just why the hell is he flirting right now. Is it counted as flirting? Is it?
The moment he realizes what he was about to do, he saw Marco crossing the other road and was running towards him.
Marco is looking quite stunning per se. It looks like Marco doesn't have a car just by judging how haggard he may look like right now. But, Ciel thought that the real beauty still looks beautiful when youre haggard. Man, that was an idiotic phrase.
Marco stops infront of Ciel as he catches his breath.
'Dow- Downtown... is really in traffic jam.' He laughs as he explained himself to Ciel.
Ciel chuckled as he helps Marco catch his breath by patting his back a little. Once he finished patting Marco, he felt his broad back. His wearing a simple polo shirt that is colored red, black khaki pants and Keds sneackers. He looks like a teenager.
'You look good today.' Marco added as he breathe calmly. Ciel then looks at what he was wearing. He's just wearing his usual clothes. Just his white V neck shirt and black skinny jeans and his favorite black shoes.
Ciel nodded as he agreed to Marco, maybe he looks good right now, Marco said so.
Marco then said to Ciel that he knows this awesome restaurant near this street. Ciel, with no other choice, agreed to come with him.
He might as well give love a try.
He learned a lot from Marco this whole biggest thing that he now knows, well, Marco loves to paint. They share the same forte. Ciel does love to paint when his old fart is not busy on his schedules.
He focuses more on portraits. Faces of different people he met. Ciel remembered that Marco said to him that he loves Ciel's different eye color. He explained that his amethyst-like color really reminds him of the jewelry he bought last week for his mother. Of course, this made Ciel jitter and wants to blush because how can a man mid 20s can say such sweet and embarassing line like that.
It made him smile like he never knew.
Well, it didnt end like that. It was never easy for Ciel to know Marco in just a single night. Marco explained everything he knew what the world is. It was too perfect to put into words, Ciel thought.
After their dinner, they went to this park. It was very beautiful. The wind smells like autumn. The place is so quiet that it bothers Ciel because he can feel Marco's breathing. He tried to think of something but it just cant go away. He feels like he wants to jump so that this feeling will come off his body.
Ciel then explained what kind of person he is. Marco just nodded and laughs whenever Ciel jokes about something. It was too perfect. They look like an old couple whole walking slowly at the park. It was just perfect.
The moment lasted quite too mainstream but it wasnt bad at all. Marco escorted Ciel to his apartment and wished to see him more often. Ciel didnt deny that he wanted to talk to Marco more than he think it should be. Maybe this time, Alois is not stupid for once in a while.
Marco then asked Ciel if he could give him a hug. Ciel at first thought it was awkward and all, concerning that earlier, he got his heart broken by Sebastian.
He never wanted to get through that again.
He just gave Marco a very fast hug and opens the knob to open it. Marco laughed and bid Ciel his last goodbye.
Ciel never expected to see love that fast. Too fast. Like, its too good to be true. But, it made him happy yet a little bit sad. He really does need Sebastian go. It wont take him long if he keeps on holding. It'll never work out. They always said that first love never lasts. Sebastian was his first love. And that'll be his last mistake.
It was so cruel.
Alot happened in a week and it was so fast that Ciel didnt remember any of it. He found himself laying on the bed. He felt a pang of pain at his temple. He massaged it a little bit harder this time to ease the pain. He must have got this headache last night - drinking with Marco and Alois. It's a boy's night.
Well, That night Alois asked him about Marco and him. He asked if there's any progress and if there's any booms happened. He denied Alois' ugly accusations. He and Marco is not an item. Yet?
He felt his eyes trying to close again but he fought for it by standing up. He strached his aching muscles from side to side. Limber up a few jumps and tries to shake off the stress away.
Cel yawn as he moves beside his bed towards the kitchen that is pretty sure the fridge is waiting for him. As usual, Ciel would not dare to open the fridge because he knew what was only inside the damn cooler - the bananas he bought for his old fart last week. It must be molding inside the fridge. It cringe Ciel's body when he thought of it.
It's already 7am when he reached his phone just to check whatever it is to see in it. Surprisingly, Marco sent im a message last night, telling him that he really had fun last night and wishing not to be redundant about telling him he wanna hang out again some time if Ciel has any free time. Ciel chuckled and it was a great thing to start a day, he replied by saying an okay and will tell you whenever there's a chance.
He put down his phone as he scanned the room. Ciel was sure that his uncle went to Ms. Beckett for the dresses that were done. He wishes his old fart would just stop working and let him handle everything. The guy is too old to be working. He never misses to remind him not to overwork himself yet his uncle. But whenever he nags, the old fart just keeps denying everything and he can still do everything.
Ciel knew that his uncle doesnt want him to feel that he's a burden. It was always his gut telling him that that's how his uncle is thinking about it.
Ciel then saw the sketches he made at the table. He received a custom made gown from their neighbor and told him they want their daughter to look like a royal princess for her upcoming birthday also invited him to visit the party. He told him he'll come. Why waste free food?
He then suddenly thought the image of Sebastian by looking at the sketches again.
How was he? Did he accomplish everything? Did he get his revenge?
He sighs as he tries to not to recollect everything they shared moments with. It was painful. The painful thing is, he had to fall in love with a straight guy who wants him because he looks like his fiance and wants to take revenge by using him.
Ciel is having a distasteful look. He doesnt like what he was thinking right now. Well, its been a week since they last talk in personal.
He felt bitter when Sebastian did lose contact of him.
He's not gonna deny it. It made him unhappy.
To relieve himself off, he decided to go to his workplace and talk to Alois before he wanders off somewhere else.
It's already 1 pm and the curtains are still covering the dim room. The room smells like smoke. The linens smell like tobacco. He haven't had alot of drag ever since the day his fiance died. Why was he smoking again?
Sebastian wanders his eyes to his room. It was dark and the only light that is giving him is the small opening from his curtains and his litted cigarette.
Yesterday, he received a call from Bard that Claude is not being suspicious for a week and is doing pretty good, and also told him that Hannah was with some other clients that are not likely to get looked on.
Sebastian is irritated. What was those two planning? He was able to talk to Claude calmly. He never expected Claude to be better than he was before. Is Claude receiving all his threats? He's very devastated.
It's been a week since He last saw Ciel. Well, he didnt blame Ciel afterall. Ciel was right. He's just using him to take revenge to those people who killed his lover. But, he doesnt get why Ciel had to confess to him.
Ciel confessed to him. He confessed that he liked him.
Sebastian wondered if it was like: the one you give for an idol or like you have feelings for that person. Which is which?
Sebastian doesnt have to act like an idiot not to know what that confession was. He's not that stupid. Of course it meant Ciel grew feelings for him. But what's to like about him? What did Ciel see in him?
He wanted to see him. What he was doing. He wanted to know what his life like right now.
He remembered their last parting its horrible. Why would he do that to Ciel. Hurting him is the last thing he wanted to do.
He was just desperate not losing him because he needs him. He needs him to complete his revenge. He needs him. Without him, it'll be useless. Without him, What's the point anyway?
I just did this so u wont think I given up on this fic, guys :)
Alot happened. School. Family Business. My problems to the world and etc.
Anyways, ill be active again and will post a new chapter around november or december :))
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