"Kai your finally here" I positioned my head to Jay who peeked his head out of the door. His hair, like mine was in every other direction, some even in clumps from him trying to yank it out. His eyes were forcing themselves to keep open and his pale face, flushed from the incident. He reached behind him and grabbed the odd gold door handle and walked out into the hallway still locking eyes with me.
"What are you doing out here?" he asks. His voice was hoarse from the hours of crying. He wiped his wet eyes trying not to show his weakness. But why not, I mean, it is a human emotion we all get, and if I'm a pussy for being scared for my sister. That's fine.
"I can't see her like that bro... With all those tubes and wires. She's still so young... She should be running and playing... Not stuck in a hospital bed." I felt my own tears well up inside my eyes as I stared back at him. He had a serious tone to him, and he is never serious, this must be bad.
"I don't want to see that either" my eyes drifted to the floor again. I could only see his temper rising. "Look at me." he grabbed my shirt collar bringing our faces together "I know it's tough O.K. I know, but we have to be strong for her now... She needs her brother right now to tell her it's going to be okay!" he takes one of his fingers and pokes me in the chest.
"But what if she won't be?!" the words didn't mean to come out of my mouth. It was out of fear, desperation, and sadness.
"It will... It will" we stood in silence with only the sounds of patient sin our ears. I only could think about the inevitable. That earsplitting sound that would haunt my nightmares. In only a pitch black room I would see a bright blue line and that sound. The monitor had a continuous beep sound. One after the next, as if a city truck was backing up on the street, alerting anyone near by. Then just out of no were the monitor changed its tone. This time the sound was constant. No breaks in between the beeps. Just a long flat piercing sound the penetrated my ears. The monitor had flat lined. I would always wake up in a cold sweat swimming in my own tears.
"Come on Kai..." I looked back at Jay who had his sleeve dampened once more. I couldn't escape it, I had to face my fears once more. The fear that I may loose my family member, my only family member. Jay already entered the room once more leaving me alone in the hallway. It seemed that It was only me there dealing with my own mental thoughts. I stood back up holding myself against the wall trying not to vomit from my own fear and aroma of the hallway.
I stumbled over to the door, exhausted, and grabbed the cold door handle and slowly opened it.
Sorry for the shorter chapter
