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DISCLAIMER-I DO NOT OWN NARUTO, OR ELSE...
Death does not arrive, no matter how I wait. When I wake up again, I find Sasuke beside me.
Naruto, why did you not bring me with you; my heart aches in loneliness and no one understands why I'm like this.
They took me to the hospital this time, damn them! All I want is to fall into eternal sleep so I can be reborn. To be reborn and to be with you.
"Sakura, are you awake?" says the annoying voice of Sasuke, a voice that I do not need to hear. My only response is silence; a hateful silence, as your voice is no longer here to fill it. I want to respond but if I do he might never leave me to my sorrow.
"Sakura, do you still hate me because of Naruto?"
Why does he state the obvious!?
"You know that we all love Naruto, all of us wanted to save him."
Shut up, your voice annoys me!
"Sakura, answer me, talk to me. Please."
I will not waste my time talking to someone I hate.
"Sakura, I'm sorry. I know I've had told you this many times before but please forgive me?"
Even if you beg on your knees I'll never forgive you.
"You must be tired, I'll go now."
Good, gone at last!
I don't know what I used to see in him- when you are clearly better, Naruto. All that you did for me when we were young; why did I never notice you before? The times you wore that orange jumpsuit, (ha! All the time) ate ramen and then off you went to train. You even found Sasuke for me, to make me happy.
You grew so much when you came back, I thought that maybe we could be together- but all you thought about was ramen and silliness and training and I was too embarrassed to tell you. It was like we were Team 7 again except there was no Sasuke and slowly I fell for you.
You had become my reason to live and now I'm all alone again.
For two years I wished for my death, hoping that next month, next week, tomorrow or even today would be my last.
Sometimes when I'm alone, I can still feel your corpse lying in my arms. I can remember all the time we spent together; I remember your smile, your tears and just how important you were in my life.
Naruto, why did you leave me in this cruel world, unloved?
Sasuke is coming back again; I'll just pretend I'm asleep, all the while thinking of you.
……….
Mornings are always a terrible pain for me, the dawn only bringing another torturous day in my miserable lonely life. I'm not close to you in any-way because of this seemingly never-ending life. I wish I was, but my dreams never come true.
When I look out of the hospital window, I see your face carved on the Hokage Mountain.
Everyone remembers the mischievous boy who vandalised the face on the mountain, the boy everyone thought was a demon but actually turned out to be a great ninja, greater even, than those famous Hokages of the past whose faces were carved on the mountain, just as your face is carved in our memories.
Everyday Sasuke comes and begs me to forgive him, to talk to him or act as if he exists in my heart.
"Sakura, stop daydreaming, NOW!" a voice came from behind me.
"Tsunade-sama! I never noticed you!"
Tsunade-sama doesn't usually come to visit me, I wonder why she has come.
"Sakura, sorry I haven't seen you for a while. You look even more sick than the last time I saw you."
"I just can't forget about him, he's stuck in my mind and is forever etched in my heart," I sighed.
Now she's looking at me with those eyes of sympathy, everyone looks at me like that now. Should I smile or should I cry?
"Have you ever considered being with Sasuke?"
Why do they all think Sasuke is perfect for me.
"Why does everyone think that Sasuke and me should be together just because Naruto died two years ago!?"
You should have seen the look on her face, the surprise that I had actually answered back instead of nodding along.
Why should I care anymore, there's nothing left for me anymore.
"Do you even appreciate what Sasuke have done for you for the last two years?"
I can't answer, around Sasuke all I feel is hatred. Anger. Emptiness. The time we all spent together was a happy time for me, but the time without you is like hell.
"Just think about it, Sakura. Try to like him and not be consumed by hate."
Why does she asked me such stupid questions, she should know that my heart belongs to you, Naruto.
Maybe in a day or two, I will be with you.
………
Everyday's the same: Sasuke, the nurse and the doctors come in and out, every now and again Lee or Gaara or someone else comes to visit me.
I'd rather not have their company, I enjoy being alone with only you in my heart.
Naruto, remember when we were first told that we were going to be Team 7? I was so upset that you would spoil the time I could spend alone with Sasuke, but also relieved that it was Sasuke and I, rather than Sasuke and that stupid Ino-pig.
Whenever I remember that, my infatutation with Sasuke, my blindness, I feel like such an idiot.
I gave up on the only thing that I owned, the only one that I love. I miss you Naruto, I know I say this to you every day, but I just can't stop the tears flowing from my eyes.
I wish we hadn't thrown you to the open sea, then I'd have somewhere to go to see you, remember you and cry for you. Then I might not feel so lonely.
Every time Sasuke comes he says the same thing: "I'm sorry, please talk to me." Does he not understand how I feel about him and how much I miss you?
He's coming again. I don't want to see him! Why am I still crying, I don't want to show him my weakness.
"GO AWAY, SASUKE! LEAVE ME ALONE!!"
I just shout out my feelings, why am I like this? I musn't do that, no-matter how much I hate him.
He's smiling, not a smirk or a grin but a genuine smile. Why is he not hurt?
"I'm happy you can show me your emotion, but I have to say goodbye to you now. We have found the location of the Akatsumi! I can finally defeat them, I can avenge Naruto, and maybe then I can see you smile. Please look after yourself once I'm gone. Farewell!"
Naruto, what is that supposed to mean? He just says that and walks away. I feel so uneasy, my emotions in turmoil.
Why do I feel this great pain in my heart, the same pain I felt when you were dying in my arms?
WHY?
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