A/N; So my writers block seems to have lifted, thank God. It was just so frustrating to not be able to write, lol. Anyway as you see I got you a fast update (fast in the way that I wrote this Monday morning when my internet had decided to not work…isn't that just typical…but hopefully this will be up not too long after)

So chapter 5 is up, hope you like it 

5. Torn in half

"See! what did I say?" Derek flashed her one of his famous smiles. "Just a broken arm, she should be good as new in no time."

"She's my daughter" Addison said simply. "If she sneezes I worry."

"Well I can rest you by saying that I did not spot any kind of cold in her" he tried to joke but only received a cold look. "What? I thought I was being funny…" he turned his attention back to Lily who was now sitting up while Callie was carefully putting a cast on her arm. "Is your mommy always this boring?" he asked quietly but made sure he knew Addie would hear him.

"Lily think very hard before you answer that one" she said and put on her strong face but the girl just giggled and moved closer to Derek, showing him a tiny nod.

"That's what I thought" he laughed.

"Okay there missy, what color do you want on your cast?" Callie asked and got Lily's attention again. "We have the fashionable purple, the calming blue…maybe pretty red…" she couldn't help but smile as Lily tilted her head in thought. "…I think you want the stunning pink, right?" Lily nodded large with a big smile.

"Can I have the pink mommy? Please."

"Of course" Addison smiled.

"Its always the pink" Callie laughed and continued her work just as there was small knock on the door and a nurse peeked her head in. "I am sorry to bother you but her father is here."

"Daddy's here?" Lily's smile died away. She looked from Addison to Evelyn and last at Derek. "Will he be mad?"

"Of course not silly" Derek smiled. "I bet he is very happy you are okay. So why don't you let me and mommy talk to him and once you are done you can show him your pretty cast, okay?"Lily nodded but gave her mommy a look before the two adults left the examination room.

Addison was the first to spot him by the nurses station and moved her steps towards him with Derek soon behind. She could feel Ben's eyes on her and she knew this would take a lot of self-control both for him and for her.

"Hey" she leaned up and gave him a quick kiss. She could feel how tense he was but pretended not to see the look he gave Derek.

"How is Lily?" he asked simply.

"She's fine. She fell off a swing and broke her arm" even if Ben was looking at Addison it was Derek who answered. "She will be as good as new in a few weeks."

"Derek would you please just give us a second" Addison asked.

"Sure no problem, I'll check on my other patients but if you need anything just page me" she nodded and he moved away.

"Since when does your ex husband look after MY daughter?" Ben asked.

"Since he is the best there is, he wanted to make sure she didn't hit her head" Addison shot back. "Can't you just be happy Lily is okay?"

"This has nothing to do with her you know that" he hissed quietly. "This has to do with that neighbor not being able to look after a child and about your ex husband acting like he knows everything."

"You can't possibly blame this on Evelyn" Addison gasped. "She has done nothing wrong."

"Watch me" Ben took a step towards the room prepared to give the woman a piece of his mind but Addison was faster and hurried up in front of him, blocking his way.

"Please…" it was definitely a plea but she didn't know what else to do. Evelyn didn't deserve this.

"Get out of my way" his voice was stern and she had seen that look in his eyes too many times but she stood her ground.

"It's a public place…it will be fine" she kept reciting that over in her head. She knew the rules to the game just as well as she did. She would be fine.

"You want to move" he said and his eyes wandered over the hall. The hall that had been filled with people but was not scary quiet.

"Ben" she begged but it did little to help her…

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An hour later Addison was in the attending locker room. She was desperately trying to get her foundation on straight all while she tried to get the arms on her lab coat to grow longer to cover the small bruises on her wrist.

"Daddy was angry" Lily said quietly. She was sitting on the counter right beside her mommy.

"He was just…" Addison tried to find a better word but it didn't seem to be one. "…yes he was angry" she sighed and put the makeup back in the bag. She did a look in the mirror, noticing how the flawless skin was back – the magic of make up.

"Why did he make Evelyn cry?" Lily asked, thinking back to the scene in the examination room earlier.

"He thought she was to blame" Addison said and smiled at the girl. "But don't worry, we'll fix that. You can still play with Sarah, okay?"

"Okay" Lily said. "Are we going home now?" she looked up at her mommy hopefully.

"No sweetie, I have to work" Addison pulled Lily up and set her down on the floor. "But…" she went over to one of the open lockers and pulled out a small white coat. "…you get to be my helper, how about that?"

"I get to be a doctor?" Lily asked happily and let her mommy help her on with the coat, placing it over the cast. "Cool."

"Yes you get to help me" Addison said and took Lily's hand and they walked out of the locker room.

They only made it out into the corridor before they were almost attacked by Austin. "Dr. Montgomery hi again. So what's our new case?"

"Austin hi" Addison forced on a smile. "This is my daughter, Lily, she will join us the rest of the day" she added.

"Well hi Lily" Austin said and gave the girl a big smile. Lily however took a step closer to Addison and her grip of her hand tightened. "She is such a cutie…"

"Yes, isn't she?" Addison smiled just as her beeper went off. She looked at it and frowned. Quickly she looked around, her eyes landing on the one person she was hoping to find.

"STEVENS" she hurried up to Izzie who by the sound of her name turned around.

"Addison, hi" She gave the redhead a big smile and even a quick hug.

"I need a huge favor" Addison confessed and Izzie looked over to where Austin and Lily were standing.

"I do kids but not Austin" Izzie said seriously. "Do not dump her on me, I swear I can still hear her laughing since last time."

"Well it was actually the little one I meant. She had an accident and I promised she could be with me today but I got paged and…well you know how it is."

"I do know" Izzie laughed just as Lily came running up to them and tugged at her mommy's coat.

"She scares me" she whispered and looked back at Austin.

"Well does this nice lady scare you?" Addison bent down to Lily's level and looked over at Izzie and Lily shook her head. "Good, now mommy has to do a surgery so do you think you can help Izzie out?"

"Do I get to use a stethoscope?" Lily asked.

"Yes" Izzie pulled off her own and gave it to the girl. "See it even matches your cast."

"Thanks" Addison rose again and gave Izzie a smile. "I'll be back as soon as I can but if I am not back in an hour Ben will pick her up."

"No problem, we'll have a blast, won't we?" Izzie held out her hand and Lily happily took it but her eyes followed her mommy down the corridor for as long as she could. She just had a bad feeling she couldn't shake…

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"Hey how about a snack?" Izzie suggested little over thirty minutes later.

"Sure" Lily nodded and followed Izzie to the cafeteria.

"You see those people, they are my friends" Izzie nodded towards one of the tables where all of her friends from her internship were seated.

Lily followed Izzie over to the table, at first the awkward and curious stares made her uncomfortable but the second she spotted Alex she shone up.

"Alex" she said happily and ran up to him.

"Hey if it isn't my favorite girl" Alex caught her and brought her up in his lap. His eyes landed on her cast and his smile died away. "What's this?..." he eyed her closely. "Did you get into a fight?"

A giggle came out of her. "No silly. A swing kicked me off."

"Oh the swing accidents" Meredith who was sitting next to Alex smiled at her.

"So Alex who is your friend?" George asked.

"This is Lily, she is Addison's daughter" Alex answered.

"Oh yeah Derek told me about her" Meredith nodded.

"Will you come over again to watch a movie?" Lily looked up at Alex, making all the other people at the table turn to look at him as well.

"Well…" Alex started but before he could continue Ben walked up to them.

"Daddy" Lily said, her voice filled with fear this time.

"We need to go" he pulled Lily away from Alex but she tried to hold herself back.

Ben was stronger and placed her on the ground, holding her back. "We need to go now" he took Lily's hand and pulled her with him away from the table. "Should have guessed your mother would dump you on someone" he muttered quietly but not quietly enough.

"She was in surgery…" Alex called after him but Ben kept his head up and his eyes in front of him, not even moving a muscle as to show he had heard him…

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Ready kiss, but no love. I feel I'm torn in half