A/N; This chapter is sort of a bridge between the first and second part of this story. That is why it is a bit shorter and it would be too confusing to do the time jump that I am planning in the middle of a chapter…anyway more about that in the next chapter and onto this one as that is why you are all here.

12. I called you mine

Days went by in a haze for Addison, mostly a haze of sleeping mixed with a very nice dosage of morphine. People came and visited, she played a silly card game with Lily that one of the nurses had thought her…but Alex never came. She pretended she was cool with it, after all she had scared him off. She should be happy with all he had done and not miss what he hadn't done…right?

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"You still haven't talked to Derek?" Meredith had long ago stopped the nice act and had gone into a very annoyed mood when it came to her friend.

"Why should I?" Alex ripped his locker open and started to dig through his things, throwing old food in the trash while collecting his more personal possessions into a duffle bag.

"Because you want to be a surgeon" this time it was Christina who answered while she tucked her hair up in a pony tail, preparing for her time in surgery later.

"You just have no idea" Alex shook his head before he slammed the door to his locker closed with a loud bang.

"So tell us" Meredith jumped up to close off his way out of the room.

"Yes please do" Christina added as she slowly stepped up next to her friend, her motions much less enthusiastic.

"Lets just say I had damn good reasons to do what I did and I hold no regrets apart from me not being allowed to kill that bastard" Alex answered before he took a step up to move past them but just then Christina threw her arm out, hitting him square in the chest and pushed him back. "What the hell are you doing?"

"I don't know why everyone wants to know what is going on with you because frankly I don't give a damn. What I do care about is them hovering around me trying to find out so if you will please just tell us so they can go on with their sad little lives and leave me out of it" Christina starred her eyes into his, trying to use a trick Callie had once taught her on her wedding day during what can only be described as a all out chaotic day.

"You kept Burke's secret" Alex said simply.

"That was different, that was big…"

"So is this…" Alex moved by her. "Do you really think I would be risking my career if it wasn't?"

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He should have gone home, he knew that. So why did he find himself lying on the bed in the on call room on the fourth floor? It was easy…he didn't have a home to go home to.

Sure he had a nice apartment with the fantastic view, he had the luxury furniture and everything he could want…as long as material things went that was. He had fooled himself that he was his work, that the other parts would come later…the reality was he had blown it. One single day so long ago he had blown it and every single day since then he had regretted it.

With a deep sigh he slammed his hands down onto the mattress under him, the motion was even so hard he never heard the door open.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know anyone was in here" she turned to leave but he jumped up of the bed.

"Please stay" he reached out and took her hand guiding her back into the room.

"I was just looking for a bed" Addison said.

"Why, what's wrong with your room?" Alex asked all while he helped her over to the bed, holding her hand and even making sure she held on to the bed before he let go.

"Derek called my mum" Addison grimaced.

"Oh that was not nice" he said with a soft laugh. "You can have this room. I should leave anyway."

"Why did you do it Alex?"she asked the question just as he laid his hand on the door but her froze there and turned around to meet her gaze.

"Why did I do what?"

"I know you got suspended" she said. "I also don't know why as no one wants to tell me anything" she added. "So please just tell me."

"I met Ben at Joe's" Alex said.

"And…"

"I kind of…might have broken his nose" he couldn't keep the grin from spreading across his face.

"You did that?" Addison asked shocked. When he nodded she got up and took the few steps that separated the two of them and within seconds she had him trapped against the door in a kiss.

At first he was taken off guard but as his body started to relax he laced his arms around her waist. As soon as he was about to get comfortable and deepen the kiss she stepped back. "Thank you" she whispered.

"For what?" his brain was no longer working like it should and for some reason there was no way to get his heart to calm down.

"For stepping up" she answered, still standing so close to him that she could feel his heart racing against hers.

They stood there or a few more moments before Addison once again started to feel her injuries and she stepped back out of his arms. She sat down on the bed again and Alex followed and took a seat next to her.

"You should be resting" he stated.

"Fine just don't make me go back, my mum will surely drive me insane" she said and gave him a pleading look, even adding a pout she had learned at an early stage from her daughter.

"Fine" he said. "But that pout is just unfair; you look so cute I could never say no."

"That is the plan" She said and leaned over, placing a quick kiss on his cheek. "So will you stay with me?" she asked as she lay down on the bed.

"Of course" he lay down against the wall and after a bit of uncomfortable turning around he landed behind her with his arm loosely around her waist.

"Don't let me fall Alex…" she mumbled and backed closer to him and even though he had a feeling she was not meaning the bed he still wrapped his arm tighter around her body.

"I will never let you fall…" he whispered into her neck before he placed a kiss against her soft skin…

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You're dedicated, You took the time. Wasn't long 'till I called you mine