Clarke sat on the bed. Lexa hadn't stopped pacing for what felt like hours. Clarke was so terrified Lexa wouldn't speak to Clarke or look at her. She was starting to get mad. This was both their problem and Lexa wouldn't even include her in whatever she was thinking. They got into this together they had to deal with it together.

"Lexa?" She whispered. Lexa either didn't hear or ignored her so Clarke couldn't help herself. "Leksa!" She yelled hoping her native tongue would snap her out of her thoughts.

"Sha, skiaprisa." She said it in her Heda voice and not the one she normally spoke to Clarke in. This made Clarke lose it. She didn't know what was going on lately but her emotions were a mess. She started crying.

"Nothing," she didn't wipe her tears. "I don't want anything. I'm just gunna go." Lexa blinked. How could she be so stupid. These things need to be discussed between them this was their child.

"No." It wasn't a statement it was an order. She kneeled down in front of the blonde. "I'm sorry. This is for both of us not just me. Please forgive me." She pulled Clarke into her arms. "It is your body Clarke. I cannot make you do anything you don't want. I am asking you to consider keeping our child. I will not pressure you into anything. Our child. Our baby," she smiled. "Will be in so much danger. Between whoever still wants to harm you and Nia who will not stop from taking everything I love. But I will always protect you." She put her and on Clarke's stomach. "Both of you whatever you decide. You are mine now. Whether you like it or not. You will always be mine"

Clarke didn't know what to say. She wanted to hear those words but having an option like that. On the ark it was normal. The ark couldn't sustain more than one child. The termination of a pregnancy was a common practice to survive. Clarke didn't want this. She really did love Lexa. She was sure of it. Even if the trust wasn't all the way healed. But a baby. She was still a kid and Lexa was right about the danger. Nia would exploit this. It would be weakness and as much as Lexa wouldn't admit it. This would be her greatest weakness.

"I... I want the baby." Lexa let the breath she was holding out. "Nia, she will use us against you." Clarke's hand rested on her stomach.

"I won't let any harm come to either of you. I will die for you I will die to protect you both. My family." Lexa said as she placed her hand on Clarke's.

Not long after Clarke fell asleep Lexa's hand on her tummy rubbing circles. She was afraid. She would do what she said. She would die for her family if that's what it took to keep Clarke and her child safe. She stopped for a second and whispered, "yu gonplei ste begon". Clarke drifted out of her sleep to hear these words. It made her heart swell. To see Lexa so open and happy about this. Lexa kissed her stomach and returned to her spot with arms wrapped around the blonde.

Lexa woke panicked. She had a terrible dream. sweat dripped down her forehead. When she opened her eyes she realized it was still night outside and it would be for quiet sometime. She needed time to think. This was a good time with Clarke asleep.

Clarke was carrying her child. This was not good. The Lexa who had said those things to Clarke was gone. The Commander stood straight not moving. She couldn't let this happen. How could she have been so reckless? She knew these things could happen. Especially with who very strong spirits like the commander's and Clarke's. And now this baby would have half of each of there spirits. Anyone wanting that power could easily take the child and kill it.

Lexa needed a plan. She couldn't be the mother of this child. Many people wouldn't even think about the old legends and the sky people would never know. Lexa loved Clarke. She had since the minute they met and if things were different she would love to raise a baby with her and be a family. She couldn't though. She couldn't put either Clarke or the baby in this much danger. Her mind was made up. Head over heart. She knew what she was about to do would rip Clarke apart but not as bad as it would hurt Lexa. She knew she should have never let her feelings be this open with anyone. Now she was about to seal them back in the vault forever. She kissed Clarke's forehead and put on a coat with a hood, looking nothing like the Commander she left in search of one person. Bellamy.

It didn't take her long to reach the camp. Right away she found Octavia and Lincoln sitting by he fire. She walked over not giving away who she was. Clarke trusted these people so she must. Their child depended on it.

"Octavia," she stood in front of them head down so they couldn't see who it was. They both knew right away. "I need to see your brother. It is important and must be done quickly"

Octavia didn't even stutter she hopped up and took off. Lincoln still looked confused.

"Heda," he bowed. "Is everything okay? Is Clarke okay?" He knew she shouldn't ask like this but he needed to know.

"Everything is alright, I just must see Bellamy." Her face was set. It showed no emotion. This was the commander Lincoln knew.

Bellamy and Octavia ran over trying to avoid any suspicious looks.

"Clarke?" Bellamy was out of breath, "is she okay? What's wrong? Why are you here so late? Why is she not with you?" He fired these questions off so fast that Lexa knew she chose the right person.

"Sit. All of you. I need to tell you something." She told them about the old legend and then of Clarke's condition. She gave them a few minutes before getting to the part that was ripping out her heart. It took them a second to digest and Lincoln was the first to speak

"Heda, it has been so long since this has happened. The spirits are blessing you." It was a statement and a congratulation in the same sentence. Bellamy and Octavia were silent.

"I need you to do something for me Bellamy. I love Clarke with all that I am. I love this child just as much. But the baby cannot be both of ours. It is too much power in one spirit and many will seek to take it. I cannot be the child's mother. I am asking you to please look after Clarke and my child." Her voice hesitated like what she was saying was killing her but she remained un moving. "I.. I... Am going to have to break her heart again it is the only way both of them will be protected. Please Bellamy take care of them." Bellamy was in shock he could tell this was killing her ripping her apart from the inside out.

It took a minute to say anything. When he spoke he stood a little straighter.

"I vow to protect both of them with my life." He said. Lexa stared at him with fierce eyes making sure it was true. When she got what she wanted she turned to Octavia and Lincoln. " I still want my child to have trikru in there blood. Teach my child all that you can without giving to much information. Lincoln please make sure our traditions still remain. Thank you for your help." Lexa was about to walk away when Octavia grabbed her arm. The commander almost ended her fight right then and there but she restrained herself.

"Clarke," she hesitated, "she will never forgive you for this."

Lexa dropped to her knees. It felt like her heart was being ripped out of her chest slowly so she could feel every bit of it.

"I know. That's what I'm hoping for." Lexa stayed kneeled for a moment. When she rose there was no emotions left on her face. She was stone she would be from now on. She snuck back out of the gate and to her horse. She mounted the large black beast and when she was far enough from the camp she dropped her head and let the emotions take over. She vowed that no harm would come to that child as long as she was still in this fight.

She commanded her horse to speed up the light was coming over the mountains. It was time to face Clarke for the last time.

She made it to her room before long before Clarke woke up. She knew this was going to be hardest thing she ever have to do. She hadn't moved since she arrived. She sat on the chair

A/N: it's about to go down. Once again please review. I have a plan maybe hope you enjoy!