Unforgettable Nights, Unforgivable Mistakes

Chapter 18: Unbreak My Heart

After seven years, Emily still tried to run away from her feelings and not face what was really in her heart for Aaron, but she failed miserably. She fought for many years not to show what her heart felt for him...since the first time she saw him, she was in love with him, and there was no question in her mind about that, how could she not love him. He was a strong, hard workingman, plus he was driven and dedicated. And no one could deny he was handsome and charming with a killer smile that could melt anyone's heart. She also loved his intense stare that could make her tremble and cut to her core, but that also made her want him. The very stoic and emotionless Aaron Hotchner was the sweetest man she had ever known. When he was smiling and his dimples were showing, she felt like she could touch the stars; he was sweet and caring and he was a gentleman.

Ever since they had been intimate that night in her office, and he had admitted to her that he was in love with her and wanted a chance to prove to her what he felt for her, she was in a quandary...it wasn't that she didn't want to give him a chance, the truth was she did, but she was so scared of many things. She was afraid of being heartbroken, and she was wary that he might dare to break her heart because her experiences with life with a man told her to be very cautious and take one step at a time; after all, they had hated each other for several years, and he had acted like an asshole to her, then suddenly, here he was wooing her with sweet words and loving touches.

She was also very worried about the fact that he didn't know Bay was his daughter yet, and when he did know, she knew he would hate her and that scared her; okay, that was selfish but she didn't know what to do. She wanted him to know about Bay and be there for her, but she also knew that even if he knew about Bay, that didn't mean he would love her like he did Jack. She knew he was a good father to his son, Jack, but that was with him, she didn't know what kind of treatment he would give her daughter, or if he would even accept her as his daughter. Emily knew she was in love with him, but, she didn't know him completely, and the way she wished she did. Her own insecurities had led her to hide this Bay's paternity for far longer than she had indented, and now she just wasn't sure when she would be able to tell him, so that was the reason she kept pushing him away. No matter how hard Aaron tried, she just kept distancing herself from him. However, the truth was she was failing miserably and every day she just fell a little more in love with him.

As she saved the last letter she was working on in her laptop, she wanted to go home, take a shower and then head to the hospital to stay with Bay; she closed her laptop as Aaron entered the office.

"You know I'm really starting to believe you live in this office..." He teased as he stepped in with a stack of files.

"I know, I actually do, it's past midnight, and I'm still here. I just had to type some letters for the Bureau, and I can't find a stack of files I was supposed to work on. I swear I had them here, but I might have taken them home." She said in a sleepy voice as she stood up from her desk.

"I think I found your files." He said, waving around the stack of files he had in his hand and smiling at her.

"Oh my God, Aaron, you took them?" She asked, incredulously.

"I just wanted to help you, you've been working so much...here they are, all done." He said, handing her the stack of files. Emily smiled, and her face became soft.

"Thank you, but you really didn't have to do them, you already do enough to help me." She walked closer to him.

"I don't mind, I really want to help you." His dimples were showing deeply as he smiled.

"Thank you very much, but I really feel bad you are doing all this. "She said, as she tried to grab the files from his hand, but he lifted them into the air away from her.

"Can I at least have a kiss?" He teased, smiling. Emily blushed and rolled her eyes.

"Aaron." She scolded, shaking her head.

"What, just a small kiss...that's all I am asking for?" He pointed to his check with his free hand showing her just a tiny kiss on his check.

Emily rolled her eyes again and leaned up to kiss his check, but he immediately grabbed her by the waist pulling her to him and kissing her passionately. When they pulled away, Emily grabbed the files and scolded him.

"You are terrible, you know that!"

"I am, and I think you like that." She smirked and placed the files on her desk.

"Thank you very much, Aaron, but you have to stop doing all this for me, please, you're making me feel bad."

"I don't mind helping you, Emily, and you need the time for your daughter, so we're both happy." She smiled softly at him and just shook her head.

"By the way, Strauss wants us to work on the new Interrogation Questionnaire, we have to change it around every year." Aaron said, looking at her.

"I know, I was thinking we can do it tomorrow night, my mother can stay with Bay all night if it takes us that long, and at least I know Bay will be with someone.

"Okay, that sounds good, how about we do it at my place. I can make some dinner, and we can work peacefully there." He offered, but Emily looked at him in shock.

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Why not?"

"Because we're doing work stuff...we should do it here in the office".

"Fine, but this might go for hours, it can get pretty uncomfortable, you know." Emily just glared at him.

"I'm just saying, we should be focusing on the questionnaire, that's all."

"And we will, unless you're afraid, that something else might happen." He said softly, getting closer to her and brushing his finger over her face lightly.

"Aaron, please behave." She warned.

"You know, we've already made love here at your desk once, so being at work won't stop us, if something did happen." Her cheeks blushed and she moved away from him.

"Nothing will happen, Aaron! Fine we can do it at your house. I have to go." She grabbed her coat and purse and walked out of the office leaving Aaron smiling widely. He would set up a great night for them, whether she wanted it or not.

The following night, Emily arrived at his apartment around six o'clock; they had finished their work at the office, and now they wanted to concentrate on the questionnaire. She knocked on the door gently and a very smiley Aaron greeted her...he was wearing black slacks and a light gray shirt, no tie, and he looked very comfy. He kissed her cheek when she walked in as helped her out of her coat.

"I made some pasta if you're hungry. I also cleared the table so we could work on the questionnaire." He pointed to the table where several books for the FBI and Interrogation Techniques were set up.

"Thank you, I think we should just focus on working on this. I want to finish as soon as possible so I can get back to my daughter at the hospital." She answered a little abruptly, and he noticed she was a little nervous and anxious.

"Okay, so let's get to it, may I at least offer you water? He asked politely.

"Sure, thank you." She sat at the table and pulled her own stack of books out of her briefcase.

They concentrated on working on the questionnaire for the next two hours, Aaron kept glancing at her and watching her as she concentrated deeply on the task at hand; he eventually did serve them a plate of pasta, and they ate while they kept working. They got through most of the questionnaire, but they were both tired and there was still a lot to do. Emily ran her fingers through her hair tiredly.

"I think I need some coffee, I'm seriously so tired." She said.

"I'll make some, and let's take a short break, then we'll get back to it." He suggested.

"Okay, I'm going to call and check on Bay." Emily said, grabbing her cellphone and calling her mother to check on her daughter; after the ambassador assured her that her daughter was fine, she disconnected the call and sat back down at the table. Aaron was still in the kitchen making the coffee. She picked up one of the books and started glancing through it, thinking of something else she could add to the questionnaire. She was searching through the pages when Aaron came from behind her and placed his fingers on her shoulders massaging her back gently.

"Aaron, what are you doing?" She asked nervously.

"Relax...you're too stressed out, I'm just trying to release some of your tension." His rough calloused hands were turning her muscles into butter, but she knew she needed to stop him.

"Aaron, please stop." She said trying to push his hands away. But he ignored her statement and continued his job, feeling her muscles on her back relax and feeling her surrender to his touch. Emily closed her eyes leaning into his touch, as he massaged her shoulders and her back. He slowly brushed her hair away from her neck and continued massaging her shoulders there, and then very slowly he leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on her shoulders and then on her neck. Emily tried to stop him, but he pushed her hand away. He gently captured her earlobe in his mouth as his hand moved to the front of her blouse and began slowly unbuttoning her top buttons.

"Aaron, we can't, we have to stop." She whispered, as she felt herself becoming wet. He slowly and gently helped her up from the chair and turned her to him, capturing her mouth and pulling her close to his body; Emily wasn't able to stop herself as he picked her up in his arms and took her upstairs to his bedroom.

Aaron placed her gently on the bed as their mouths battled in a kiss; he finished undoing the buttons of her white blouse, spreading it open and revealing a beautiful white satin and lace bra...they pulled away from each other as her hands moved to unbutton his shirt. Emily didn't want anything to happen this night, but it was impossible to resist him. He softly smiled at her and gently took her hands as she finished with his shirt, and then he kissed her palm sweetly moving to her fingers pulling them into his mouth and licking them tenderly. They continued to undress each other slowly between kisses and looking at each other all the time. When they were both finally down to their underwear. Aaron pulled Emily gently to the middle of the bed, kissing every single inch of her body starting at her toes to her forehead. By the time he was done. Emily was dying to have him inside her. He gently returned to kissing her with so much passion while his fingers softly stroked her smooth legs.

"What do you want baby?" He asked, looking at her intensely.

"I want you." She whispered breathlessly, and Aaron smirked.

"I'm here, tell me what do you want. I'll do anything you want me to do to you." He said, as his hand finally stroked between her thighs. She threw her head back moaning softly, while he nibbled at her neck gently.

"No hickeys, Aaron, I mean it." She warned severely. He laughed and continued kissing her neck using gentle bites, while he listened to the soft moans her throat was making.

"God, baby, I love the way you moan." He said sweetly as he unhooked her bra and slowly tossed it to the floor.

His mouth now had complete access to her breasts, and he wanted to take his time playing with her breasts, in fact, he wanted to take all the time in the world satisfying her...tonight wouldn't be a cheap. drunk, having sex night, or a quick version of sex on the desk in the office night...tonight, he wanted to devote to her and find everything that satisfied her and made her scream with ecstasy. So, he took his time kissing her and touching her, he took his time with every single stroke, every single thrust, listening to her moans, listening to the way she enjoyed it while he made love to her. They made love several times that night, in different positions, they just took their time, and God, was it worth it!

A while later, they were lying beneath the sheets naked after she had at least three orgasms...she rested in his arms listening to the soft beats of his heart, playing with the curls of his chest.

"You know we were supposed to be working." She said, looking at him with a pout.

"We were, we're exploring human anatomy." He teased, and she burst into laughter, spanking his ass playfully.

"I'm serious, Hotchner." She reprimanded.

"We got through most of it, sweetheart. We'll be okay. I'll finish the rest tomorrow." Aaron said, kissing her gently. Emily smiled and nuzzled his chest.

"I have to go." She said, not wanting to leave the warmth of his arms.

"Why, Em, just stay with me, spend the night with me." He pleaded.

"I have to get back to Bay." She said, as she ran her hand to the back of his hair.

"Why do you always run away from me, Emily." Aaron asked sadly.

"I'm not running away, I just have to get to Bay."

"I want a full night, Em. I want more."

"What?" She asked, astonished.

"I want a full night with you, I don't want you to run away every single time...like this is some kind of dirty meeting."

"I'm not." Aaron placed his finger on her lips gently stopping her from talking.

"I want a whole night with you where I can treat you as a beautiful woman like you deserves. I want to make you a nice dinner and woo you with flowers and candles. I want an entire night where I can take my time exploring your beautiful body. A night where I can show you how much you really mean to me. I want to please you as many times as is possible, then I want to hold you all night and watch you sleep in my arms, contented and satiated, then I want to wake you in the morning with a kiss, flowers and your favorite breakfast. Just because your smile melts my heart. I want it all Emily. Just give me a chance, please." By the time he was finished speaking, Emily was sure she had tears in her eyes.

"Thursday night." She replied, smiling widely at his words.

"What?" He was caught off guard.

Thursday night, Penelope and Morgan want to have a movie night with Bay. I'm sure they would love to stay all night with her. I can spend the night with you." She smiled as she kissed his lips sweetly.

"All night!?" He said, with puppy dog eyes.

"Yes, all night, but now you have to be a good boy and let me go." She said, as he was holding her close to him.

"Okay, then..." He released his hold on her and just as she was going to sit up on the bed, he pulled her down hovering over her again.

"Aaron!" She squealed, laughing. He ignored her statement and kissed her passionately.

"This, you and me, I'm all in. I don't want a game...I want it all. I want something serious, and no matter what I have to do, I'll show you how much you mean to me." Emily smiled and caressed his cheeks, then she captured his mouth in a sweet and slow kiss.

"I want that, too." Aaron kissed her nose.

"I really have to go, honey. I need to go check on Bay."

"I know, come on, I'll walk you to your car." They got dressed slowly and when they were done, he once again pulled her into his arms kissing her, and they went downstairs for her to pick up her purse and belongings. He grabbed her hand and walked her to her car, opening the door for her like the gentleman he was.

"Drive carefully okay, baby." He said, pressing a kiss on her lips.

"I will, thank you for everything."

"I can't wait till Thursday." His dimples showing deeply as he smiled widely at her.

"Neither can I." With one last kiss, she got in her car and drove away with a big smile on her face. Maybe it wasn't such a bad idea to give him a chance and they could work things out, working on their relationship, and he could be there for her and Bay when she could find a way to tell him about Bay. She was now almost sure he would understand and he would be there for her. Maybe she could take this time to really get to know him and tell him that Bay Arian was his daughter.

That night, she slept at the hospital with a big smile on her face...she couldn't deny what he did to her, and what he made her feel. Emily hated to admit it, but she was crazy about him, head over heels in love with him, and she knew he was a great father, the kind of man she wanted for her daughter; things were working in her favor and very soon, she would tell Aaron Hotchner the truth.

The day before they were supposed to have their first official date, they had to drive to Washington State Penitentiary to do a custodial interrogation on an old case that could possibly be related to a recent body they had discovered. Emily took Aaron with her because he was an expert on custodial interrogations, and he was the one who had the most experience on the entire team, and he would be a tremendous amount of help for her. The rest of the team stayed behind doing paperwork and other tasks she had assigned.

The interrogation took most of their morning, but after a very intense interrogation, the inmate, Mark Graham, confessed to the murder of the victim they had found, Cynthia Havlicheck. This meant the case would be reopened, and his sentence would be increased, and he would have to face a new trial for this specific murder. After their duties were finished, they headed back to Quantico. Emily wanted to take the afternoon off to spend with her daughter and her mother. She was happy because the interrogation had turned out just the way she wanted, and now she could go see her baby girl, and tomorrow night, she would go on her first official date with the man she was madly in love with...things were starting to get better and better.

Aaron parked the car in the parking lot of Quantico, and they were both smiling over a joke he had made. He loved to make her smile, he loved her laughter and to see her happy, but as they both got out of the car, and Emily picked up her briefcase and the files for the Graham case, just as she was closing the door of the SUV, and Hotch was about to do the same with his door, a tall, pretty brunette woman approached them.

"I've been calling you for a few weeks now, why haven't you answered my calls, and who the hell is she!?" Beth Clemons jumped on them and started yelling as soon as she approached them. She had been waiting for him, trying to call him for over two hours now, and she was not happy at all when she saw him with Emily.

"Beth, what are you doing here!?" Hotch asked her, angrily.

"You haven't answered any of my fucking calls, and we need to talk!" Beth screamed at him. Emily just stood there in shock wondering who this woman was and why she was attacking him like this.

"Is there a problem?" She asked politely.

"Who the hell are you?" Beth asked, rudely.

"I'm SSAIC Emily Prentiss, Unit Chief of the BAU." She said, looking at Beth with questioning eyes.

"Beth, you need to leave, please, we have nothing to discuss." Aaron said nervously, looking at Emily who was giving him a questioning look.

"I'm sorry, who are you?" Emily asked, cutting Aaron off and sending him a cold stare.

"Hi, I'm Beth Clemons, Aaron's girlfriend." She said with a fake smile.

"His girlfriend?" Emily asked, making sure she heard her correctly, feeling her heart shatter into a million pieces, the tears immediately began burning in her eyes.