A/N: First off, Thank you all so much for your reviews in the last chapter, they really make me want to keep writing.

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Oh and something you need to know before reading, towards the middle, anything in italics is a flashback.

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"The doctor says I have very high blood pressure which could lead to me having a heart attack and that if I had one, it may be server." She starts crying again.

"Oh my." Was all Richard could say. Outside in the hall Luke was sitting in a chair with his heartbreaking for her.

I can't believe she didn't tell me.

"I didn't even tell Luke. He is going to hate me, he was right. All these years I never listened to him. I eat too much junk and drink too much coffee and now it's killing me."

"Lorelai, you are not dieing. You just have to watch what you eat and how much stress you put yourself under. Have you considered talking to a professional?" He asks his daughter while he hugs her, which surprises Lorelai.

She wipes her tears. "No, I guess maybe I should talk to someone. I really shouldn't be like this, crying all the time. Lying and keeping secrets, it's not good."

"You'll be okay Lorelai, You'll be okay." He told her over and over as he held his scared daughter.

"I'm going to send Luke in now, you need to talk with him." Lorelai nods and looks at the floor even after Luke enters the room and sits next to her.

"How could you not tell me?"

"I'm sorry; I just didn't want you to have to worry about me."

"What do you mean, I didn't have to worry about you Lorelai, I love you and I wish you would just talk to me about things that happen and not keep bottling them up inside. That may one of the reasons of the high blood pressure. Can't you just talk to me, tell me everything that is going on inside of you. Just let it all out."

She just looks at him and shakes her head. "I can't talk to you Luke, my dad's right. I should go to someone. I think that's what I'll do tomorrow. Can you handle a day alone with the kids tomorrow?"

Luke is a little hurt that she said she can't talk to him. "Okay I'll ask Rory to help me tomorrow. You just go and get helped by someone who isn't your husband."

She can tell he is mad. "Luke I'm sorry okay! I don't know what is wrong with me, I need help and I know no one in this family can give it to me. I need someone who can answer questions like why I cry all the time and why I can't put things in the past or why I can't trust anything or anyone anymore!" Lorelai lays flat on the bed crying.

This is really not good, Luke says to himself. "Lorelai, baby. It's okay really, I'm not mad anymore."

After a few minutes of silence Lorelai speaks. "I'm sorry I ruined your birthday."

Luke chuckles. "You didn't ruin my birthday; the only thing I wanted on my birthday was to be with the people that I love the most in this world. Now will you please come back down and have dinner with us."

"Okay." They slowly make their way back down stairs.

Friday afternoon, the day after Thanksgiving. Lorelai found a psychiatrist and was meeting with her for the first time today.

"Hi I'm Doctor Freeman." The woman introduced herself.

"Lorelai Danes." She shook her hand and took her seat.

"Well Lorelai, what is it you wanted to discuss with me."

"I just…well I need to talk to someone, I'm not sure about what, but I…well…I just don't know."

"How about you just start from the beginning and don't stop until the end. I will take notes and then we will discuss more after that."

"How much time do you have?" The woman can tell Lorelai really needs this.

"All the time you need." Lorelai is grateful for that and begins telling her, her story…….

Her life story…. (Lorelai's POV.)

It all started when I was 15. One of my best friend's was Christopher Hayden; his family was rich just like mine. During our freshman year of high school we started dating, we partied, stayed out till morning and drank. One night Chris came into my house very drunk, he had climbed through the window. I don't know how he did it, but he did. Anyway, he hit me, yelled at me and told me I cheated on him. None of which were true. I told him I loved him, he said he was sorry for hitting me and the next thing I knew, we were in bed together. A few weeks later I found out I was pregnant, at 16. I knew I had to tell Chris and my parents, I just didn't know how to. So in the middle of classes I pulled Chris away and told him I was pregnant, he screamed at me and said it was my entire fault for getting pregnant and he wanted nothing to do with me or the baby. I never saw him again after that.

It was about a year and a half after I had Rory when I couldn't stand living with my parents anymore and moved out. I took Rory and we moved to a place called Stars Hollow. There was an Inn, called the independence Inn, I got a job there. I was so lucky. A woman named Mia was the owner and she basically raised Rory and me for the first 2 years of Rory's life outside of Hartford. She let us live in the potting shed out back, it wasn't much, but at least it was something, right. I was walking Rory around town in her stroller, well she was two so she called it her big girl chair, but anyway, we stumbled across some interesting people. Everyone was a little strange but they were all very nice and very, very friendly. While Rory and I were walking through town we bumped into some kid. That was the first day we met Luke. He was 19 at the time and I had asked him if he was going to college. He said no, his dad had been very sick and he needed to stay in Stars Hollow and take care of him, his sister and his father's hardware store. We almost instantly became best friends, he was so great to and he was a great father figure for Rory. When Rory was three she started calling Luke daddy, neither of us knew what to do. The same week Rory started calling Luke daddy was the same week Luke opened his diner and was the same week Christopher returned…….

In the Potting Shed,

"We are going to see Luke today." Lorelai told her 3 year old daughter as she helped her get dressed.

"Yay! I really want to see daddy!" She jumps up and down and Lorelai sighs.

"Sweetie we have to talk about that."

"About what mommy?"

"Honey you can't keep calling Luke daddy, because he isn't your daddy."

"Mommy I know he's not my real daddy, but I don't know the real one."

"I know you don't but the real one loves you very much."

"How comed (A/N-Remember she is three.) My real daddy never comes to see me?"

"I really don't know princess."

"Then Luke is my daddy!" She yells at her mother. Just then there is a knock on the potting shed door, Lorelai opens it and there is Luke.

"Hey Lorelai, I was wondering why you haven't been to the diner yet, is everything okay?"

"Yeah it is I just was trying to explain to Rory why she can't call you her dad."

"Oh."

"Luke, why can't I call you daddy?" Little Rory asks him from the tiny couch in the shed.

"Kiddo you have a dad, and I'm not sure he would like it if you called me that. You understand don't you?" Rory looked down at the floor and mumbled,

"Okay."

There is a knock on the door.

"Luke keep an eye on Rory while I answer the door?" She asks and he nods.

She opens the door and Chris is standing there.

"Christopher." She whispers.

"Hey Lor, I have some great news for you!" He says excitedly.

She folds her arms. "What is it? Is it that after three years you finally have decided that you want to be a father to your daughter? She says in a loud whisper and Chris looks down at the ground and back up at her.

"I'm 18 years old, I have things to do, things I want to do while I'm young and still have the chance. I just came here to tell you some great news."

She huffs. "Fine, go ahead what's your great news." She says as she rolls her eyes.

"I met someone."

"ookkayy…" She drags out.

"And I really think she could be the one, I'm mean she is perfect and-,"

Luke walks over to the door with Rory, which interrupts Chris.

"Mommy, daddy says he can take me to the diner right now." Chris hears this and throws a fit.

"Why did my daughter just call some guy daddy?" He screams at Lorelai.

"Because she wants to Chris! And because he is around much more than you are. She looks up to him and respects him and loves him like a dad. Oh and, he is not some guy! He is Luke, and he is my best friend."

Chris walks over and bends down to Rory, who is hiding behind Luke's leg.

"Hi sweetie I'm your dad."

"No your not, Luke is my daddy."

"Kid listen, this is just some strange guy, I'm your father not him!" He grabs Rory and starts walking towards the door, Lorelai screams at him but he doesn't stop, that is until Luke runs over, grabs Rory from him and pushes him out the door.

"If you ever come near them again I swear to god I will kill you, now get out of here!" Luke comes back in and sees Lorelai and Rory hugging with tears in there eyes. Luke walks over to the girls and comforts them. Chris was never going to come anywhere near them again, he would make sure of it.

That day was the day I truly realized how much Luke cared about us. I really started to like him. I later found out that he had feelings for me too. It was I think Rory's 5th birthday party, hm, yeah it was and he was helping me clean up after I had put her to bed.

"So the party was quite a hit."

"Yeah, she really wore herself out she passed out as soon as her head hit that pillow." They both laughed and smiled at each other.

A few minutes later they were sitting on the couch drinking soda, because Lorelai is still underage. They were just talking and staring at each other when before they knew it Luke was leaning in to kiss her. There lips touched and it was the most breath taking kiss Lorelai had ever experienced. They both pulled away and smiled.

"I really like you." Lorelai admits.

"I really like you too."

"So…what does this mean?"

"I think it means we are dating, is that okay with you?"

She puts her hair behind her ears and looks nervous. "I really want to, but what if it doesn't work out. Then I will be crushed and Rory, what about her. She loves you and looks up to you and if we broke up I know she would be devastated."

"We will work out." He states firmly.

"Promise?"

"I promise." And they seal it with a kiss.

Luke and I dated for, I would say about 2 and half years, and then he proposed. It was so magical. Rory was 7 then and Luke surprised us by buying Rory and me a house. It was the best gift I could have gotten. I was 25 and Luke was 27 when we got married. I was also pregnant with my first son, Mark, when we got married. He is 11 now and the best son a mom can ask for. Luke and I wanted a big family, so a couple years later we started trying again and I ended up pregnant with my 6 year old daughter Mia. Once we had them we decided it was time to move. The house wasn't big enough for, me and Luke, Mark, Mia, and Rory. We found a house just outside of Stars Hollow. It was perfect (a/n- It looks exactly like the one Emily offered them on the real show.) for our family. Luke and I had triplets, they just turned one this past September.

"Lorelai, while I love hearing all these great and important details, lets skip to something that happened in your life that may have effect you and/or your family." The therapist asks softly.

Let's see, something that may have affected me or my family. Oh here's one, how about the time when my husband cheated on me. I guess you could say that, that affected me.

"He cheated on you?"

A couple of years ago he wasn't home very much. He would have late nights at the diner and barely be home in the morning. He finally told me that he was helping out his ex girlfriend, with her kid. Which just so happens to be his kid too, I decided that we should all go to Boston to I don't know, try and get to know each other as a family. I found out the Rachel, that's the ex, kissed Luke and he never told me. From there I asked for a separation. He stayed at his apartments for two months and during that time he…he. Slept with her! (She starts getting angry and keeps raising her voice.) How could he do that to me! To his family. It's not like we were divorced, a separation still means that you are married, the last time I checked. I even called him and tried to forgive him, but he didn't call back for 2 months! Why did he do it! Why!

Lorelai was now crying on the chair and the nice women pulled her chair next to her.

"Are you two back together now?"

Lorelai sniffles and says. "Yes we are. Things have been great almost this whole year, we talk about everything. We do family stuff and have alone time, it's been great."

"It seems that you may have accepted him back into yours and your children's life too quickly. The way you were talking about Luke before, I can tell you two really love each other but there seems to be a lack of communication. If him sleeping with another woman is still bothering you, then you need to talk to him and tell him. Yell and scream at him because I think that is what you need."

"I never did."

"What?"

"I never yelled at him. Well I told him to get out but he kept saying he was sorry and I knew I couldn't live without him and the kids would be crushed if he was gone so I just didn't deal with it."

"Lorelai, you put too much stress on yourself by keeping things like this bottled up inside, it is not healthy. That may very well be the reason for your high blood pressure problem you were telling me about."

"I really never thought about that."

"I think that is all for today, you need to go home and rest. Make sure to talk with Luke and if you would like you may make an appointment for another session. I think it would be a good idea."

Lorelai looks at the Doctor and then looks around the room; she sees the papers that she threw on the floor in anger. She realizes how much just talking about certain things in her life helped her relieve her stress.

"I'll be back next time." She smiles and the Doctor nods.

"Goodnight Lorelai, it was great talking with you."

"You too, and thank you so much. See you next time." Lorelai exits the office and drives back home.

By the time Lorelai got home it was 9:00 and all the kids were in bed. Luke was upstairs in bed watching T.V when Lorelai entered the bedroom.

"Hey."

"Oh hey, you were gone for a while. How was it?" Lorelai starts getting changed while talking.

"It was great. She really helped a lot. I'm going back every Friday."

"Wow, that's great. How are you feeling, less stressed?"

"I'm feeling much better. Definitely less stressed. I'm just scared about the fact that the doctor I saw when you were in the hospital told me I was at high risk for a heart attack, it's just well, really scary."

"I know but don't worry. You will be alright." She gets into bed with him and he rubs her back. Then she pulls away from him a little.

"Listen…Uh….we need to talk."

"About what?"

"Well I haven't exactly been honest with you about my feelings on certain matters concerning us and our relationship."

"Okay……" He looks nervous.

"Why did you sleep with Rachel?"

Luke sits straight up.

"What?"

"Why did you do it? I need to know Luke."

"I told you I was drunk. Why do we have to talk about this, it was over a year ago."

"No Luke, we need to talk about it now, during my talk today I realized that I still haven't fully forgiven you for it. I got so made in that office that I threw the Doctor's papers on the floor. Did you do it because I kicked you out? Because I wasn't good enough anymore, did you do it just to get back at me for something. Did you do it because you didn't love me anymore? Please Luke; tell me why you slept with Rachel." She was coming close to tears.

"I was mad okay! And upset, I was so angry that you threw me out like that, then Rachel came to the door and it just happened. I'm sorry okay, I have said sorry a thousand times in the past year what more do you want?"

"Answer me this, were you sober enough that you could have stopped yourself from doing it?" She was afraid of his answer. He looks at her and could tell she wanted nothing but the truth, so he gave it to her.

"Yes." He breaths out quietly.

She was even closer to tears but she knew she needed these answers. "And did you hear the phone ring at all during, well, you know."

"No, that part I didn't hear."

"So you didn't bother to check the answering machine."

"No okay, no I didn't do any of that. I was just too out of it to do anything." He tries to touch her or hold her hand but she jumps off the bed. "Lorelai, come on, I'm sorry."

She was yelling at him from the bed side. "So you know how much you hurt me when I found out! It was like my heart was ripped out of my chest and thousands of tiny men were jumping up and down on it. I hated you when you told me, you are so lucky I didn't tell the kids what you did. When I look back I have no idea why I gave you another chance but I remembered that I loved you and I had thought up until that point that you loved me too! I trusted you, cared about you, yeah we my have fought and I may have issued that stupid separation thing, whatever it was, but I called you just a few hours later. Telling you I was sorry and that I forgave you, but no, you were too busy sleeping with your ex girlfriend to hear the stupid phone ring!" She laid back down and turned away from him, he could tell she was crying. He didn't know what to do.

"Lorelai?"

"What!" She says angrily.

"Can you please at least look at me?"

"Fine." She sits up and that's when he see's how vulnerable she is at this moment, with tears streaming down her face.

"Come here." She cries and wraps her arms around him; he pulls her closer and rubs her hair and back trying to sooth her. The last thing they need tonight is a trip to the emergency room with her having a heart attack from getting herself all worked up. He hears her calming down and looks down at her. She fell asleep on his chest and was tightly gripping his flannel shirt. His kissed her and fell asleep in any position that he could.

Just before he falls asleep he hears her voice. "I love you Luke." She says with her eyes closed.

"I love you too Lorelai, I love you too." And with that he falls soundly asleep for the rest of the night.