Chapter three

She was now six months along and a bump to prove it. It wasn't particularly large but it stuck out like a sore thumb and made Toni feel so clumsy when her baby belly accidentally ran into the edge of a table or wall. (Not to mention it terrified her to the point Bruce or Steve would have to talk her down from a panic attack. Was it hurting the baby? )

She's also gained weight to and she wasn't happy with that. She has never felt so fat and huge in her life and she's only going to get bigger until she finally can push this kid out.

She was grounded from avenger duty. So when the alarm went off for the baddie of the week, she was left to hold down the fort. Which made her feel so useless. She wanted to be out there, fighting along side her family but she couldn't risk her and Steve's baby.

This pregnancy thing was not how it was shown in the movies,TV or many pamphlets given to her by Pepper. It was going so agonizingly slow. She was fat, useless and just wanted to hold her kid already. It's been months since Steve was truly affectionate. Yeah he gave her a few fleeting kisses here and there, held her when they went to sleep. She understands that he's more then likely scared he'l trigger something but damn she wanted more and was too scared to say anything.

Once they all left (with a kiss goodbye from Steve and a promise of a safe return). She went up to there room and laid down and decided to mope and brood in her misery, curling around her stomach protectively.

She wanted Steve in the worst way. She wanted him to hold her and tell her everything was gonna be ok. She also wanted him in a way she could barely think of for months. She was just so scared to bring it up. For the last couple of months she had wanted to try sex with Steve again. They hadn't had sexual contact in seven months and she wanted to try. Her nightmares have become less, her anxiety with the event had gone down dramatically In The last several months. Doing nothing but thinking of the baby and worrying about it.

She really wanted to try but what if Steve didn't find her attractive anymore? She's gained so much weight, her stomach sticks out, it has these horrible stretch marks that no matter how much belly rub she uses never seem to fade. Not to mention she was tainted. Broken. Another man violated her and even thou she's past it for the most part (she knows she never truly will be) she knows she's tainted. Steve wouldn't want her. Not like this.

She told her self the tears were just from the hormones.

When Steve and the others got back from the baddie of the week, covered in dust and grime and blood, the first thing he asked was where Toni was. JARVIS responded as he was taking off his suit to be cleaned. " is currently in the master bedroom. She has been there since you and the others left to fight." Clint gave Steve a look, his grimy vest in hand. "That was 10 hours ago cap."

Steve looked over. "It's really been 10 hours?" JARVIS Spoke. "10 hours. 26 minutes and 15 seconds captain Rodgers." Steve nodded. "Guess that battle lasted longer then I thought. I better check on her. Is she alright JARVIS?" "Her vitals and the baby's vitals are perfectly fine. I feel this is an emotional issue." Steve nodded. He knew she would take being grounded from avenger duty pretty hard.

He showered quickly the changing into a jeans and tee shirt before walking upstairs to there room. He got to there room before whispering. "JARVIS, is she awake or asleep? Can you tell?" " She is awake at the moment but she has fallen asleep and woken up several times. " "Thanks." Steve gently knocked on the door before entering. He saw the lump of blankets shift just the slightest.

"Toni? You awake?" He knew she must be pretending to be asleep. He got to the bed, seeing the dark hair going every which way from under the blankets. He sat on the bed gently then laying next to her, facing her. "Don't pretend to be asleep. JARVIS knows when your faking." He heard a mumbled "Traitor."

Then the blankets were moving and he saw her face with a bit of hair all about her face. He chuckled, moving her hair out of her face. "Morning sleepy head." She looked up at him. "When did you get in?" " About an hour ago but I had to shower and change. But Bruce is making dinner right about now." She nodded, starting to sit up. "Ok. I'l be down. Just give me a few."

Steve sat up with her, frowning. "Of corse. You feeling ok? JARVIS Said you've been up here since we left." " I was tired." She said as she was smoothing her hair down. "We were gone for ten hours Toni." She stopped her movements, swallowing the growing lump in her throat. "It has?" Steve let his hand rest on her back. "Sure your ok Toni?" She nodded, putting on a brave face. "Yeah. Let's go see what Bruce is making."

She held her belly as she got out of bed, stopping when she felt a pain. Steve went to her right away. "Toni!" She took in a breath. "I'm fine. Just baby kicking." Steve smiled, his hands going to her belly. He felt a few kicks, chuckling softly. Toni couldn't help but smile as well, seeing Steve so happy and feeling there baby move inside of her. It was such a beautiful moment. She didn't even realize when her eyes watered over and a whimper escaped.

Not until Steve was wiping her tears away with such a worried look he looked like a kicked puppy. "Toni?" She sniffled, wiping the tears from her face. "Sorry. Just a little hormonal. Let's go see what Bruce is making." Steve frowned, feeling it was a bit more then hormones but didn't want to pry. "Sure."

They made it down to the kitchen where Bruce was moving some rice and veggies around on a skillet. Clint and Natasha were leaning against each other in the couch watching dog cops while Thor was asleep on the recliner. Softly snoring.

Bruce looked over, smiling. He looked worn and opera was playing from his phone. Must have been a code green. "Toni, glad to see you out if bed. How you feeling?" Toni gave a weak smile walking over. Steve watched at a distance, getting a water from the fridge. Toni spoke. "Fine. What's for dinner?" " Just some stir-fry. Something easy but filling after such a long fight." Toni nodded. Bruce looked over at her. "Sure your ok? You seem a little off." Toni waved her hand as if waving that thought away. "You and Steve worry too much. I'm fine. " Bruce chuckled. "We worry because we care."

Toni nodded. "I know. I'm just gonna go watch TV with the rest of them." Bruce nodded while she walked into the living room, hand on her belly protectively as she went. Once she sat down Natasha put her head on her shoulder. Toni smiled, feeling a little better among her family.

Steve went over to Bruce, whispering. "Somethings wrong, isn't it?" Bruce nodded. "I think so. " Steve sighed. " I don't know what to do. She said she was feeling hormonal but it more then that. I mean she was in bed for ten hours. Is that normal? " Bruce frowned. "Sounds like she's depressed. Have you two tried anything in bed since the incident?" Steve shook his head. "I've been too scared to make a move. I know she's past it for the most part and I'm just scared I'l trigger something." "Why not try something small? Even the smallest, suggestive touch could help her ifs she's feeling unattractive." Steve nodded, hoping it'll help Toni.

So Steve waited for the right moment. A moment we're she seemed genuinely happy. After dinner they were all watching Finding Nemo. When she seemed enthralled in the movie, making comments, smiling. He put his arm around her shoulder, rubbing her neck just a bit with the tips of his fingers.

He felt her tense up, almost as if it was unfamiliar. God has it been that long since he's been affectionate? He always made sure to hold her as they slept and kiss her when he could. It must not have been enough because now she's looking at him like he's a stranger. He swallowed, feeling like the worst boyfriend in the world. He supposes he should say something. "Hey."

Yeah. Good one Rodgers.

Toni swallowed a growing lump in her throat. She was terrified at how hopeful she was. Why was he doing this? Is he pitying her now? She couldn't take that. She got up quickly making her way quickly to the lab.

Steve frowned, wanting to run after her, wondering what happened. He saw nearly everyone staring at him. Clint was the first to speak, looking over. "Arnt you gonna go after her?" Steve nodded, nearly running for the lab.

Toni ran down to the lab, leaning against the wall once she was down there, breathing so fast and so heavy she thought she was going to pass out. The tears wouldn't stop, it felt like someone was pulling her reactor out. "Toni!" She jumped, seeing Steve nearly running over to her. She swallowed, starting to calm, seeing him so worried and scared. He seemed scared to even touch her.

"I'm sorry Steve. Really. I didn't mean to ruin your movie. Just go back up, I'l be fine." Her voice thick and cracking as tears wouldn't stop. She just kept rambling. "Really, I understand, you don't have to take pity on me. I know I've gotten fat and useless and I'm not as attractive as I was but goddamn it Steve I don't need your pity-" "Damn your an idiot." Steve shook his head, staring Toni down.

She was shaking from the anxiety but when he said that she glared, feeling the familiar sass come back. Before she could speak thou he was holding her arms, staring her down with his baby blues. He continued. "How can you ever think I'm not attracted to you? Your carrying our baby. That's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."

She felt her eyes start to water again as he continued. His hands traveling gently. "Not to mention your breasts are larger and fill out your shirts perfectly." His hands gently cupped the sides of her breasts thru her shirt. He knew he was risking triggering something but as Bruce said, little moves. His hands traveled to her belly. Making sure to give her room if she decides it's too much."Your belly is gorgeous. It's home to our child where they'll grow until there ready for the world. It might have some stretch marks, it might not be perfectly round but it's one of the most beautiful sights I've ever seen. And because of your belly. " His hands traveled to her hips, her eyes seemingly transfixed by him. His hands rested , gently caressing her hips. "Your hips might be wider and gained a little weight but there very sexy with a little meat on them."

Toni couldn't believe she was blushing and getting all hot and bothered from just a few touches and words. "You still want me?" Steve smiled softer, bringing his hands to cup her face. "I'l always want you. " She smiled weakly, still a little emotional from his words and anxiety leaving her. She let out a breath, taking a huge leap of faith for herself.

She looked him in the eyes. "Then have me." He seemed taken aback yet wanting this just as much. "You sure your ready?" She nodded. "If it's too much I'l tell you to stop." He looked very serious all of a sudden. " Your not doing this on account of me are you? I know it's been a long time but if your not ready-" "Steve. Just shut up and kiss me and we'l see where it goes from there. I promise I'l tell you to stop if it's too much." Steve nodded, holding her close, leaning in gently. She pushed him back, looking nervous. He looked worried. She smiled weakly. "Just not against the wall. Sorry. I just can't against a wall or hard surface."

He nodded, kissing her head before holding her hand and leading her to the elevator. Once it opened he lead her inside, holding her close. She gave him a look, it was almost nervous. " where we going?" "Our bedroom. If we're gonna make love for the first time in seven months, we're gonna do it right." She smirked softly. He was such a romantic. "Babe, the lab is perfectly fine. Not as stereotypical romantic but fine." Steve smiled. "I'l take a rain check for it then."

The elector stopped on there private floor which was a penthouse. It was used primarily for really bad episodes they each would have if there anxiety or PTSD started to get bad or a mission went horribly south and Steve needed to be alone. Once on the floor Steve picked her up like a bride, carrying her to the bedroom.

She smiled, kissing his neck gently. Suckling on it. He gentry laid her on the king size bed. The sheets were nothing but pure Cotton and so soft. He laid over top of her, just staring a moment. Almost scared to start anything now that he was here. He swallowed his nerves down. He needed to be what Toni needed. Wither it's there first time making love in months or comforting her for accidentally triggering that horrible night. He needed to be strong. He needed to be the hero she saw in him.

"Can I kiss you?" God Rodgers, your really hitting it out of the ball park of 8th grade arnt you? Toni didn't seem to notice his embarrassment (or knowing her, found it adorable) she smiled, running her hands through his hair. "It's what I've been waiting for. "

Steve smiled softly, leaning down and kissing her. Almost too softly, until she moved her lips with his, putting more pressure on his, gripping his hair gently.

Steve smiled into it, telling himself not to move to fast. He felt her hands travel under his shirt, feeling the curves of his abs. He made a small sound of pleasure, feeling her soft hands exploring what was once so familiar that is now feeling like new touches.

He held her a little closer, feeling the top of her bump hit him gently. She pulled away, panting but he could see the insecurity still there. The self-consciousness. "I'm sorry. It's in the way. I can turn over-" He kissed her to shut her up. Then kissed her head. "Shh. Your perfect." He kissed her again then started to lift her top. He felt her tense up but didn't make a move to stop him.

He took it as a sign to keep going. He got her shirt off followed by her bra that was two sizes bigger then what it once was. Once both were on the floor he couldn't help himself. He admired her body but tried not to for too long, knowing it would make her uncomfortable or insecure. Before she could say a self-conscious word about herself he took a nipple in his mouth, suckling around the little bud while playing with the other.

She tensed this time but in a good way. She whimpered in pleasure. "Oh Steve. That feels really...really good. Like..ten times better then before I was knocked up...ooh fuck..." He could smell her juices and it just spurred him on more.

He moved to the other nipple, suckling it till it was red and perky while his free hand traveled to her yoga pants, feeling her thru the material. She moaned, arching her back, wanting more. Of what she wasn't sure. More of his amazing mouth on her breasts or move of his strong hands on her womanhood, she wanted it all.

She moaned, her toes curling , hands gripping his blonde locks. He was relentless as he sucked her nipple to the point of pain and the circling of her clit and entrance was just so much and not enough. Her organism came on strong and fast and unexpected. "Oh fuck...Steve! I'm coming! Ahh!"

He felt he come thru the pants, feeling them dampen just the slightest. The scent felt as thou it was surrounding them. It made his already painfully hard cock throb and leak. He kissed her, stopping his hands and choosing to hold her close while she came back down from the high. He kissed her neck. "You've never been so sensitive." She smirked,panting and looking up at him. "It's the hormones baby." He chuckled, kissing her head. " If your this sensitive when your pregnant, we might have a second, or third."

She playfully slapped him. "Let's just get through the first one, then we'll talk. But right now what I really want is you inside me."

It was Steve's turn to tense up, holding her close. He looked down at her. "You sure your ready?" She nodded, cupping the side of his face. "And if there's any problems I'l tell you to stop. I promise." Steve searched her dark eyes for anything that said she was lying. When all he found was love and a little nervousness he kissed her before taking his own shirt off.

He threw his shirt to the floor along with his pants and boxers. She stared at him, admiring all that sun kissed skin, those gorgeous abs that lead down to one magnificent cock that was looking painfully hard. He blushed before getting a hold of her pants, taking them off easily and throwing them with the rest of the cloths.

He saw she was nervous. He kneeled down to her warm womanhood, seeing her leaking from her climax. Before she could speak he licked a trail around her entrance, suckling lightly.

She gasped out. "God Steve, you trying to kill me?" He gently spread her legs, licking and suckling as much as he could, wanting to get her off again. She moaned, gripping the sheets until he started sucking on her clit then her hands went to her hair. "Ahh Steve...fuck..." He felt her tense before the liquid hit his tongue. She came hard and he licked up every drop.

While she was panting he moved, positioning himself to her, holding hips. She caught her breath and looked up in his baby blues. She saw the nervousness, the fear he might trigger something and be back to square one. She smiled softly, wrapping herself around him. She might be reckless, she might be stubborn but she knows when she's ready for something. She nodded to him. "Make love to me solider." He smiled, kissing her as he gently thrust in, inch of slow inch.

She gasped, feeling him move inside her. Feeling his cock stretch her perfectly. She closed her eyes, relishing the moment, the feel of him. God, he was so warm around her and inside. With Jason King, he was so cold. Cold metal, cold heart. Steve was so warm. She wondered how he could ever trigger something so cold when he was so warm. He saw this, nearly panicking. "Toni? You ok?" She smiled. "Oh perfect. Please move before I start fucking myself on your cock." Steve blushed but leaned down, over her belly to kiss her, starting to move. In and out, slowly, giving her time to adjust before speeding up or being told to speed up.

She gasped, wrapping herself around him as much as she could. Her hands tangling in blonde hair. "Ah Steve...more...please...faster."
He suckled and kissed her neck, speeding up his thrusts. Panting into her neck, moaning softly.

He hasn't realized how long it's been since he's held her so close, smelling the familiar scent of motor oil,coffee and apple scented shampoo. She moaned into his ear, panting and breathy. He knew she was close. She gasped. "Ahh harder...god...I'm so close Steve..." He panted, kissing her cheek, head, neck, lips. Everywhere he could. "Me to Toni..." She moaned, gripping him tighter until she came, nearly screaming. "Ahh..Steve! Oh god...ahhh" Her climax milked his ow orgasm as her walls tightened in a vice grip around his cock.

He moaned, riding out his own release with her. Once he was done, he pulled out gently, laying next to her and holding her close, kissing her head. "God Toni...I love you so much." She was panting, leaning her head on his shoulder, her hands gently resting over top her belly. "Maybe that's why this worked." Steve gave her a curious look. She continued, looking up into his blue eyes. "Because you love me. Your gentle and careful and I don't trust anybody more then I trust you. " Steve felt his eyes water as he kissed her. "Never forget that Toni." She smiled softly. "I won't."

Toni winced as she felt a kick. Steve frowned. She smiles. "Baby is kicking." Steve smiled, feeling her belly, feeling the kicks of there unborn child. Toni can't remember ever being so happy. She felt as though a heavy weight has been lifted off her shoulders. A weight she knows is named "Jason King" of Kings appliances. She had her captain to keep her safe from those horrors if they chose to haunt her again.