Chapter 186: A New Beginning

"The eyes see only what the mind is prepared to comprehend." – Robertson Davies

"Of all the senses, sight must be the most delightful." – Helen Keller

"Tenderness is the rest of passion." – Joseph Joubert

"The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart." – Saint Jerome

"When our eyes see our hands doing the work of our hearts, the circle of Creation is completed inside us, the doors of our souls fly open, and love steps forth to heal everything in sight." – Michael Bridge


He stopped thrusting instantly, "No…Sydney…I can't…not…no…" he said, shaking his head and starting to move away from her.

She locked her legs around his, not letting him go, "Relax baby…it's ok…take it easy…look at me…"

She made sure he was looking at her before she continued, "What do you see when you look in my eyes?"

Vaughn thought a moment as he stared into the windows of her soul, "Love…passion…acceptance…patience…bliss…" he stopped, smiling widely, "my children…"

She beamed at him, "Yeah, what else?"

"Oblivion…my whole world…"

"And what don't you see?"

"What do you mean?"

"Do you see fear?"

"No."

"Anger?"

"No."

"Blame?"

"No."

"Forgiveness?"

"Yes."

"Ok then…I'm going to roll us…you just stay relaxed, keep your eyes on mine…ok?"

There was a pause.

"Vaughn? You ok?"

He nodded shortly.

She gripped his hips and slowly rolled on her back, taking him with her.

"Just relax…we're just gonna lay for awhile…ok?"

"Yeah…"

"Can you just lay with me?"

"Yeah, I can do that…"

She smiled and kissed him before pulling him down to rest on her chest. She held onto him, running her hands over his head and back as he lay still, just resting inside her warmth.

After she knew he was calm, she tilted her hips slightly, sending him deeper inside her. He couldn't help the groan the erupted as he felt himself slip so far into Sydney's core. His cock was throbbing, aching with need, Sydney's own pulsating center only serving to make him more aroused, harder.

She managed to keep him moving in and out of her with small movements from her hips, but eventually, she whispered in his ear, "You can move honey…it's ok…you're not gonna hurt me…"

He pressed a gentle kiss into her neck and slowly pushed himself up, trying to keep most of his weight on his right arm while still trying to keep balance.

"Go ahead baby," she encouraged.

He threw his head back and thrust inside her, pulling all the way out and slowly and deliciously sinking back into her heat, making her walls shudder from the slow pleasure. He looked down at her face, and suddenly, it all started flashing back…his hand on her wrist, holding her down, his erratic and powerful thrusts, making her cry out, the look of fear in her eyes when he realized what he was doing.

"I can't do this Sydney," he said, tears springing to his eyes.

Sydney had been lost in a haze of delirious pleasure, when she realized that he had stopped, "Vaughn…honey…I'm ok…"

"I can't…I just see…I can't…" he said, starting to pull out of her.

"No Michael," she said gently, her hands framing his face, her legs moving to hold him inside her, "Honey, it feels so damn good when you're on top…I know it feels good for you too…just give yourself a break. This is an entirely different situation, you're doing fine…I'm fine…you're not hurting me. Try to relax…"

Vaughn shook his head, "I can't…I don't want to hurt you again…"

"You're not gong to – we're making love…" an idea flashed in her mind, "Just like The Pier baby…"

He looked down at her, slightly surprised, "The Pier…"

"Yeah…remember what you told me? And when I suggested?"

He smiled, "Yeah…I remember…"

"Ok…well what did we do there?"

"We were on the beach…we made love in the sand…"

"Right…who was on top?"

"I was."

"Right," she said, tilting her hips and sending him deeply into her again, "What else, tell me about it…"

"We were walking in the sand and then we fell to the sand and started to kiss…then we made love…"

"Where was the water?"

"All around us…"

"We were in the water?"

"Yeah…"

"How did that feel?"

"Amazing…the rush of the water hitting us from behind, the soft sand under us…"

Sydney smiled, "What are you doing now?" she asked, their eyes still locked.

"What do you mean?"

"Look down," she said, her own eyes traveling down to where they were joined, "You've been thrusting for the past few minutes."

Vaughn stopped, dumbfounded, "How did you do that?"

Sydney smiled, "I didn't…you did."

"Did I?" he asked, a smile breaking out.

"Yeah…you did baby…" she pulled him down to kiss her, "Start again…you're doing great…"

Vaughn smiled back at her and continued to kiss her while he thrust. He did it slower and gentler than he had in the past, but he needed to acclimate himself again before he was going to be back to 'normal.'

He looked down again, watching himself slide in and out of her wet core. Suddenly, something caught his eye. He slowed even more, "Sydney?"

She looked up at him, meeting his eyes, "What honey?"

He smiled, "What is this?" he asked, looking down to her curls.

"That would be show and tell Vaughn…"

"Mmmhmm…is that a heart?"

"Yes it is…do you like it?" she asked seductively, running her hand over his chest and stubbly face.

"Yeah…I love it…it's perfect…" he said, his eyes slipping closed as he pushed himself in her at a slightly faster rate, "The heart's desire…"

She giggled, "Yes, that's true…among other things."

"Didn't that hurt?"

"Like hell…but it was worth it to see the look on your face," she said with a smile, pulling him down to her mouth.

With all the foreplay that they had built up, Sydney couldn't have thought of a better way to finish. His rate was languid, taking his time; a perfect way to end their gentle lovemaking. She could see that he was close, his body tensing, his balls moving closer to his body. She was so ready; she was convinced that she could have come at will, anytime she wanted. He kept hitting deep and sensitive spots inside her. She mused that every time they made love, it seemed he could find or hit a new spot.

"God Vaughn…uhnnnn…"

He smiled and changed angles again and Sydney purred as he repeatedly hit a spot right at the back wall.

"Vaughn…I'm so close…"

"Me too…"

Sydney pushed her hips against him one more time, the delightful ache spreading through her as her orgasm tore through her body, letting go of hours worth of tension. Vaughn followed quickly, his body lurching into her as the force of his release pushed its way through his body. Spurt after spurt of hot seed splashed into Sydney, his orgasm triggering another one of her own as she felt the head erupt deep inside her.

It felt like hours before they stopped; Vaughn's body continuously convulsed with his huge climax, Sydney's body accepted it all, joining with her own mind-blowing release.

Vaughn let his body fall on top of Sydney's, his shoulder crying out for relief from the position it had been held in. Sydney wrapped her legs around him and kept him deep inside her, mumbling soft words and exchanging 'I love you's' with him as they started a gentle round of post-coital kissing.

Sydney ran her hand through Vaughn's damp hair, his length still trembling as aftershocks forced their way to the surface, making him shudder every few moments.

"I love you," she said, looking up at him.

"I love you too…thank you…again…I would be lost without you…you have more faith in me than I do in myself."

"That's my job…" she smiled.

"How did you get me to do that?"

"The thrusting?"

"Yeah."

"I told you – you just started – it's just like riding a bike baby…"

He chuckled, "That was masterful."

"Thank you, but you did it."

"Not without your help."

She smiled, "You ok?"

"Yeah…I think my shoulder has officially had it now…but…yeah…I'm ok." Vaughn let out a long yawn.

Sydney chuckled, "Why don't you take a nap baby…" she looked at the clock and smiled, "Know what?"

"What?" Vaughn said through another yawn.

"We've spent…like almost three hours right here…"

Vaughn craned his neck and looked at the clock. Sydney could see the wince as he did.

"Wow…" he turned to her, "It was really nice though."

Sydney smiled, "Yeah it was…you in a lot of pain now?"

"Nah…it's not bad…"

She started him down, "Liar."

He grinned, "I must be a really bad one, huh?"

"No, you're pretty good at it, just not with me."

"Yeah…I suppose that's good…unless I want to lie to you…"

Sydney grabbed his chin and pulled him over for a kiss, "Why would you lie to me?"

He smiled, "I wouldn't…"

"Good…"

"Unless it was to protect you…"

"But then of course, I'd know you were lying, so you'd have to tell me anyway…"

"This is true."

"Ok, you nap, I'm gonna get dressed again and go scout out dinner, since I have no clue what Will and Francie are doing," she paused, "Whatever it is, I'm glad they didn't come home yet, otherwise…" she looked at him with a raised brow as she extricated herself from the warm bed.

"Well you could have bolted to the door and slammed it shut, I'm sure they'd get the idea…"

Sydney laughed, "Yeah, that'd do the trick…really…they must be working late, it's almost six." She thought a moment, "Huh…well you nap, I'll start dinner…"

"Ok," he said with another yawn. She bent down, finishing the buttons on her shirt, and kissed him before she walked out of the bedroom.