Luka's POV.

"Today is crazy" Meiko said as she threw herself on the bed. I couldn't agree more to what she said. It is indeed a crazy day.

After the teacher showed us around this tiny dormitory, Meiko and I took the best room available; In terms of the view outside the building, and it was the largest one. Crazy day, indeed, but I won't complain about the room. Much better than the one I was in.

"I'm positive the retard and the shota chose the room at the far right." Meiko stated. I, again, agree with her assumption. That room is the farthest from ours, Knowing how much of a pussy they are, they definitely went with that one.

"I'm going for a walk." I said as I walked toward the door, slowly. In hope maybe Meiko would like to tag along, but I hear nothing from her as I've already left the room. I could use some fresh air.

As I head toward the exit of the dorm, I find Len or the "shota" as Meiko calls him. Oh Meiko, when did you ever use anyone's name? I stop right in front of him. He... Obviously wants to say something. I've always had this sixth sense where I know what someone thinks. My sixth sense is always right. Each and every time, I'm always right.

"Megurine-san..." He starts. I knew it. He wants to say something. "H-Here," He handed me a piece of paper. Oh wait, this is... some kind of form? "The teacher told me to give it to you." I raised an eyebrow at him, questioning what I have to do with it. "You, Sakine-san and Ri- Kagamine-san have to fill it out."

"Why?" He is not using Rin's name anymore? Strange.

"I d-don't know. She just asked me to give it to you. So I..." He took one long shaky breath and continued, "I don't know anything." He is way too scared. It's like I'm a monster of some sort.

"Chill little boy." I brushed his shoulder as I walked past him. "I don't bite." As I said that, I put the paper in my pocket and continued walking ahead to nowhere actually, as long as I'm outside. Outside... Can we even go there? It feels just like the clouds, you can see them but you are so far from them. Yet they look so close preventing you from giving up on dreaming about them. This place is very clean and wide, makes you feel like you are free, however that's just fake. We were always trapped here. In the middle of nowhere. Go ahead, dream all you want. I bet your dreams will never come true.

We hear a lot of the "Family" word from the teachers, though why don't we own something like that?

Family... Just saying the word. Family... People who will take your side no matter what you do. People who will never doubt you, who will love you unconditionally. Does the governor even think we need them? Does he think he knows what's best for us? Do they all even know what we want- No!... Need?

I bet they don't. Abandoned we are, yet all those right-siders live like they don't have a care in the world. How? Teach me how to live like that! When we have no one to show us warmth and love. How does someone live without family? Oh wait, I am living without one. I guess the secret is to keep dreaming of illusions. That must be it. Right Lily? Dreams never come true, Right?

"You breath from your stomach, then exhale slowly. Keep doing that for now."

"Am I doing it right?"

"Yes, now try and sing a note." ... "Perfect! You learn quickly Luka-chan."

"Umm Lily-sensei, can I sing with you?"

"What did we say about that? I won't allow it until you get better than me."

"But you are very good. I can never be better than you."

"Aww Luka-chan, don't cry now. It's our promise. Promises are-

"Not meant to be broken!"

"Good girl." ... "Are you hungry? You didn't eat yet, right?"

"I'm very hungry!"

"Aww sweetie, It's not good for you. Here eat this. You can have everything, so eat as much as you like."

"I will finish it all."

"Greedy. Bad girl."

"I love you."

"Yeah, Yeah. I love you too. Now quick, eat. We have to get back to practice soon."

You stupid, big liar!

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Miku's POV.

"Why are we here?" I've never been to this part of the park before and I'm sure neither have any of the right-siders have, Since it's beyond the safe area and all, we are standing on the edge of a cliff. I never knew this place existed. The view of the ocean is very, very beautiful. You can clearly see the water's surface reflecting the clouds on the sky, Somehow, this feels amazing. the breeze is just way too calming as I can also hear the movement of the small waves. Putting all that aside I definitely don't want to jump still, The near bottom of the ground is nothing but rocks.

"There," But Rin-chan instead, points behind the wall, towards the left side. I see... graves! A whole lot of them. Lined up near the edge of the cliff. I don't recall anyone dying here, ever!

"What's that?" Scared, I let my harsh tone escape my mouth.

"Memorials." She says. "Of all the left-siders that have graduated so far."

"That's nice."

"No it's not." I turn to look at Rin-chan, confused. Sometimes, I have no idea what they think, the left-siders. It frustrates me that I can never find out whats going on inside their heads. So mysterious, So stupid at times.

"But that way you can remember your graduated friends. It's nice." I try to bring out the true answer out of her when I noticed that she wont be saying anything anymore.

"To us..." She walked forward, toward the huge poles and held them with both her hands as she kept staring at the memorials. "Graduates die."

For the first time, I thought... Rin-chan wasn't noisy. But the complete opposite.

"Once you graduate and leave this fucked up island, you never come back. We never hear anything from you. We never see you again. We are just forgotten behind this wide ocean. Isn't that just like when they die? Forgotten they shall be outside the edges of this place."

I stare at Rin-chan, speechless. I never thought left-siders think like that. Its kinda... hard to just assume they died and so stupid. I cant understand them at all. "You never know, maybe when you graduate, you will actually meet them." I try to say something to ease the mood.

"You don't graduate, You die." She sighed. Now I'm a little bit annoyed.

"No one dies Rin-chan." I let my annoyed voice show.

She sighs one more time before turning to meet my eyes, her gaze is so serious. "You don't understand." Then she walks away, toward the way back to the park. Great, Angry at this? For fuck sake.

"Wait," I call for her as I walk faster to keep up with her. "Can I ask why you brought me here?"

"You clearly won't get it." She plainly says, though her noisy tone is back.

"Do you mind explaining what I won't get?" I try to pursue for my answer.

"Forget it."

Seems like I wont get it. How can I exactly forget what I just saw? I looked at the memorials one last time before they disappeared behind the trees. Graduates die... Well. left-siders got some fucked up minds, don't they?

We kept walking in silence. Silently following Rin-chan's steps to the way back to the park. There are too many trees, one can easily get lost here. Just as soon as I saw the chairs of the park, I finally knew that we were finally back.

"I knew I would find you here." Meiko-san walked toward us.

"Are you here to visit the memorials too?" Rin-chan said with her usual smiley face. It's like I've just seen two different characters that share the same body. So hard to know which one is the real one when they both seem so real.

"No, You dumbass." Meiko-san sighed out of annoyance as she walked toward Rin-chan and suddenly pinching her ears making the poor Rin-chan jumps in her place, begging for mercy.

"Ouch, ouch ouch ouch ouch!" She keeps repeating, I can clearly see her ears turning red.

"Do you realize that curfew is in 30 minutes!" Meiko yells at her. Feels like I'm watching a mother yelling at her daughter for coming home late.

"Since when do we care about curfew?" Rin-chan manages to say with her painful voice.

"Since now! Left side rules don't apply here, you dumbass." Meiko-san sighs and then started pulling Rin-chan, never letting go of her little red ears. I couldn't hold it, I let my laughter escape. "You're too nerdy!" She looks at me and yells and I can't help it but jump and nod at her.

We kept walking towards the dormitory building with only Rin-chan's "ouch-es" filling the silence. And once we arrived at the door to the building, we saw Luka-san coming from the opposite direction of us.

"I was going to look for you too-"

Luka-san cuts Meiko-san off by whispering something into her ear that me and Rin-chan didn't get. Suddenly, Meiko-san lets go of Rin-chan and follows Luka-san inside the building. Rin-chan turned to look at me, probably demanding an answer, though I'm just as clueless as her, so I just shrugged. Then we both walked in.

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Luka's POV.

Once me and Meiko entered our room, I brought out the paper the shota gave me from my pocket and gave it to Meiko.

"What is this?" She asks, while unfolding it.

"Just read it."

Finally started to read it, Meiko's eyes only grew bigger as she continued reading. After some silence, Meiko finally spoke up, "You've got to be kidding me." With that tone, I guess she is just as surprised as I was when I read it.

"Len had the same paper as well." I pointed out.

A sudden knock on the door brings me out of my thoughts, there, Rin, Miku and her two bodyguards walked in.

"You've read it, right?" Miku said, especially to me as she was literally standing in front of me, looking straight into my eyes with her so serious ones.

"I did." I answered her questioned as I waited for her to speak what she had next.

"Now I'll ask you a question." Miku sternly said, only this time she looked at the three of us, left-siders. "Do you realize how important this is?"

"Hmm," Rin folds her arms while looking at the ceiling, pretending to be thinking. "Let's see... Next week the teachers will be testing our behavior and based on us, you will be getting your grades?" She started rubbing her chin, "How important is that? Hmm..."

"I am serious here!" Miku losing her temper, started yelling at Rin-chan.

Troublesome. We have to study to pass the exam but these three can just pass it if we act nice. No, not going to happen. "Look here," I point at the buttom of the paper. "Read it Miku." I smile as I see Miku reading it. I already win it. Basically this paper informs us about the exam, if we don't sign it, its means that we don't know anything about it, and we can easily skip it without getting into trouble.

Miku grits her teeth and I smile at the expression. "You don't have the right to do this." She says angrily yet maintaining her composure with me. Even though she lost it in front of Rin. She is scared of me. I know it.

I keep on smiling as I fold the paper and put it in Miku's hand. "Take care of it." One last smile for her before she breaks and started running outside the room followed by her bodyguards.

"Luka." Meiko face palmed.

"You are amazing!" Rin hit my back before walking outside, probably to her room with Miku.

"You are impossible." I can see a small smile forming on Meiko's lips before she closed the lights. She walked toward her bed and I walked toward mine.

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"Meiko?" I call for Meiko, she sounds asleep but I hope I'm wrong.

"Hmm?" She answers, obviously sleepy.

"..." Strange... I forgot what I wanted to ask her. Or more like... I can't bring myself to talk about it.

"Can't sleep?" She simply says. I'm always surprised by how much she knows me. But I guess it's only obvious knowing that we've been friends since childhood.

"Yes..." I answer, my voice almost coming out as a whisper. She turns her body so she can be facing me from her own bed.

"Miku?" She simply asks and yet again, she is right.

I nod.

"You are scaring her." I know but...

"How exactly do I not scare her?" She is already scared of us anyway.

"By acting nice? If you know what nice means." She rolls her eyes and I cock an eyebrow at her statement. I hate it when she takes me as an idiot.

"I know what nice means." I replay back, anger taking over my voice.

"I was just kidding." She chuckles at me, further annoying me. "But seriously..." She throws this serious look, I know what it means. "I have no idea whats your purpose of doing that earlier but if you like someone, you don't just make them yours." She is deadly serious.

"But I can't just hang around waiting for her to find out that I like her."

"Like I said, you are scaring her. Beside you don't want her to end up just like Lil-

"Stop!" I yell. In attempt to make her stop talking. I don't even want her to complete that name.

"I'm just looking out for you." She sighs and turns her back at me. I know what you are doing. But just don't speak that liar's name. I've come to despise it.

"Meiko?" Don't sleep just yet... Weak I know. But I... Don't like loneliness. In fact, I get scared just thinking of being alone because all weird thoughts comes when you are alone, all those memories you try to forget, hunts you. But when you have someone with you, you scare everything away, So it's not weak or anything to think that you want someone to be with you.

"What now?" But Meiko is seriously angry.

I smile, "Am I annoying you?"

"Very." She sighs a heavy sigh.

"Don't sleep. Talk to me." She huffs and ignores me. So you want to play that way? Very well, "If you sleep..."

"If?" She sounds annoyed as fuck but I won't lose.

I quietly get off my bed so she doesn't notice. Slowly I walk towards her bed and with a smile I jump on her probably scaring the shit out of her. But she wanted it.

"What the hell! Luka!" She yells at me with wide eyes. Mission successful.

"Told you not to ignore me." I stick a tongue at her.

"Get off."

"Nope."

"Luka, get off."

"What if I don't want to?" I anger her even more finding joy in her frustrated face.

"You little..." She grits her teeth and then with a huff, she closes her eyes.

"Hey, wake up." I shake her. She ignores me. "Meiko?" I whisper into her ear. "Come on, Koko!" Her eyebrows twitches at the sound of her nickname. Got her! "Koko." I whisper into her ears. "Is my Koko really ignoring me?" Then I receive a powerful push that threw me on the ground. Hurts but I find it hilarious. I managed to anger her. I won!

"Don't you call me that again!" She yells at me with her veins visible.

"But Koko is very cute." I smile making her lose her mind.

"Stop! Don't use that nickname anymore." She holds her head from the headache I'm giving her but I think she is just exaggerating. "I hate the memories that comes with that nickname." She whispers to herself but I do hear what she says.

"Ko-" I play with her nerves. She points at me.

"Don't say it." She warns which makes me want to say it even more.

"Kok-" I say trying as hard as I can not to laugh.

"Don't you even dare to say it." This time she gives me this serious look. She is deadly serious.

"What? You hate cocktails that much?" I can't really say it when she gives me that look and what came out of my mouth instead was a stupid joke.

She sighs and throws the blanket on her body. "I will kill you later." She says, her voice too tired. I guess I will let her sleep. Even though its a waste.

I like Meiko, She is my best friend and the only one I can show my true self to. I swear no matter how small my troubles are, she is always there wasting her time on me. Even when we were little, I was always the one being saved. She was always there for me, even when I pushed her away, she always found a way to crack my heart's wall open. If its possible to kill yourself just to give someone one more day to live, I will - Without hesitation - do that to Meiko. I just don't know how to repay her. Honestly, just her being here with me so I can be myself is a huge debt I have to repay. But I can't think of anything I can do for her. She never needed my help. I feel useless. She was always able to handle whatever that is blocking her path. Even though I know she is fighting to her limits, I can't help. By the time I realize and try to help, She have already walked pass that problem. She is just like that. A very strong girl, I wish I can be like her.

"Good night." I threw the blanket on me and closed my eyes. I don't want to sleep but there is not much I can do alone.

"'Night" I hear Meiko say before I lose awareness of the things around me.

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Miku's POV.

I open my eyes slowly and take a look at the clock beside my bed, 7 AM, Saturday. No school. I slowly stand up and started to stretch. I want to have a hot shower. Actually good idea! I will have a hot shower.

After preparing my clothes and my shower supplies, I enter the shower to open the water and find out... that there are no hot water. Damn, I really wanted a hot shower today.

"Want my help?" I turn around quickly, my heart racing as I knew that this sweet voice belongs to no one but Luka-san.

She won't get to me today. Last time she helped me and did that to me, but not now. And after what she did yesterday, I will definitely not give in. I huff and ignore her presence. But she only chuckles.

"Ignoring me now?" I can feel her walking toward me, just then I see two arms around my waist pulling me into an embrace, But I don't turn to look at her.

"Look at me." I quickly look at her. Why... I didn't want to. I don't know why but her voice posses this kind of power that forces me to do everything against my own will. "You want my help." She wasn't asking, that was more of a statement than a question.

She looks at me with that look, I want to say no, I want to talk back at her but once I lock my eyes with hers, I find myself lost, helpless, weak and so small, I can't say what I want to say, like my tongue is betraying every thought I have. "Yes, I need your help." Miku, you are very weak, damn you.

"Good girl." She gently place a kiss on my forehead. It was a soothing kiss, I feel like she is trying to take full control of me somehow. "Let's fix then now, OK?"

I nod.

We walk into the basement and I stared at Luka-san who started tightening some valves and doing some stuff I don't understand with the hot water heater. It sounded like it would take time, So I took the plastic chair that was behind me and sat on it as I kept looking around the dark place and then back at Luka-san's back. I am starting to get bored.

"How do you know how to fix it?" I ask, simply attempting to kill the time even though I have no intention of starting a conversation with the girl who almost raped me but there is not much to do in here.

"Someone I knew had a lot of problems with hot water." She answered my question without getting distracted by what she is doing.

And, conversation ended. Nice! nothing to do again. I kept looking around for stuff to pass time with until I spotted a book in the middle of the mess in a box with clearly unwanted stuff. So I walked towards the box and held the dusty small book in my hand, after wiping the dust from it, I managed to see the name of the book, "Dose of Sunshine."

Luka-san looks at me, "Hm?"

"Just a book." I say while showing her the book on my right hand.

"Oh, Where'd you find it?" She asks before going back on continuing her work.

"There is a small box, full of... dusty stuff." I answer her. I flip the book to see flowers of all kind drawn on the back of it. Curious, I open the first page, to see little small words written in the middle of the book, So I read them out loud,

"Believe in your dreams, and your goals.

Believe in all of them, even the ones they laughed at.

Most importantly... believe in yourself"

Nice, I like this.

"Lies." But I hear Luka say the complete opposite of my thoughts.

"What?" Shocked, I try to find a reason for her words.

"Done." But she only wipes her hand and walks towards to me, snatching the book from my hand, she turn the page and read the next words,

"You can hide and pretend that nothing bad ever happened.

Run.

Away from yourself.

Away from your thoughts.

But.

One day you'll have to face yourself. And move on."

She stayed silent, blankly staring at the words, though her mind looked somewhere else. What is she thinking about?

"Luka-san?" I call causing her to jump a little before she looked at me, her eyes were wide for a second but then it quickly went back to that evil smirk. Just now... I saw something I can't un-see. I've never seen Luka-san so frightened before in my life. She wasn't just surprised, she was scared. Scared of something.

She handed me back the book, "This book is shit." She said.

"I think its good." I said, then completely regretted saying it. Luka-san was glaring at me with that evil look.

"Say Miku..." I expected a yell or a crazy thing to be said but instead, she softly, gently spoke. "What do you think about the people who run away from themselves?"

"I... Don't exactly get what you mean." I nervously laughed, not wanting to get yelled at. But then again, she surprised me with doing something unexpected. She cupped my cheek with her left hand and started caressing it gently, that I cant say that I don't like it.

"Do you hate me Miku?" Why do I sense pain coming from her voice? And more like, what's wrong with that question? I don't like her obviously, with a very valid reason but... That doesn't mean... I hate her, right?

"I... Don't hate you." looking down at my feet with heat rushing to my face I managed to say that.

"Then," Never stopping the caressing, she continued, "Do you like me?"

Why... Is she asking such questions. I feel suffocated. I can feel my heart beats in my throat, and I know that my face can only be described as a tomato. I completely don't know what to say. She keeps looking at me, waiting for her answer, I have to answer or she may get angry. But I don't know what to say...

"Figured as much." She sighed. I looked at her, shocked. She just assumed that on her own? Wait, she won't force me to answer? Why is she acting so weird... Like a total different person. "You like that book?"

I nodded.

She dropped her hand from my face and went toward the stair that led out of the basement, but she stopped before taking her first step up. Looking at the ground she said, "Read me a line that I may like then."

B-but I don't know the content of the book, Shit, Shit. I have to find something quick, I don't want to make her angry. Come on. I kept flipping pages until my eyes fell on that certain line, I decided, It most be the one.

"What people say about a person shouldn't effect how you feel about them.

Make your own judgment based on the experiences you had with them."

After I finished, with a sigh of nervousness, I looked at Luka-san hoping it would actually suit her liking.

"Can I ask..." She looked at me with a confused look. an expression I've never seen on her before, "Why did you choose that?"

D-did she not like it? But I chose it because... "No.1 worst girl, a left-sider, scary and evil. That was what I heard about you from the students." I tried to look for the right words to complete what I said. Completely lost, I just... the words keep coming on their own, Words that I actually mean, not Luka-san forcing me to say, "Pervert, Forceful and crazy." I walked a step toward her, trying to ease the look she has on her face, confusion it was. "That was my first impression of you." Another step forward, "Gentle, fake and mostly, painfully lost." I was now standing in front of her, "Is what I think of you today." I gulped and dared myself to touch her cheek and caressed it just like she did to me, she was confused indeed but more shocked. "Mysterious..." Her wide eyes went back to normal but her cheeks... were red? "I may be stupid, a nerd, that likes solving mysteries and puzzles on her free time." I let my hand slowly fall from her cheeks to her hand, and with my hand, I linked my fingers hers. I have no idea what I'm doing but... this... It feels so right. "Will you let me solve this beautiful mystery? Let me solve you?" I looked up at her, my eyes wet full of nervousness. I may have just made a big mistake or did the most brave thing I've ever done in my life.

As her blush increased, she pulled her hand away from grip and patted my head, "You really have forgotten Miku." She said simple words that sounded like a complete new mystery to me. After that, she started walking up the stairs, "If only you remembered, there will be no mystery to solve." Saying another confusing words she vanished behind the door. I looked down at the book on my hand and sighed, I don't understand, I don't understand anything at all. What is it that I forgot? What is it that hurts her? Why am I so worked up about this? And... Why was my heart racing so badly when I touched her? I. Don't. Understand... Myself.

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So So So So sorry about this late chapter. Writer block hits so hard! No idea when the next chapter will be xD But Ill try to upload it faster than this one hopefully.

Until Next Chapter :D