*Author's Notes- This chapter is more looking back based than looking forward until the end. Kaidan is mentioned and please don't destroy me if you think I hate him because I don't, but I don't like how much he seems to whine for a top notch Alliance Soldier. As always write those reviews and let me know what you think!

Chapter 3

A Look Back

" Garrus, I'm glad you're here. You're the only one who HAS been here," Laura scoffs with irritation.

" Well, everyone in the crew wanted to give us space Laura," Garrus replies as he gets up from the cot that the hospital staff had brought in a few days ago. The fact that they not only bought him a cot, but a Turian egg shaped one made with heavy fabric is a surprise to her.

They must've brought his cot that he stowed away in the battery after I had him sleep with me in my quarters, she remembers.

With that she comes to the realization that she should have known that. Now that she thinks about it, she doesn't remember anything that happened that day. The last thing she remembers is the night before.

With stress getting to her she had taken Garrus up to her cabin to relieve stress. With the weight of the galaxy on her shoulders and the Primarch whispering in Garrus' ears for the entire duration of of the mission, they both needed it. She had seen Garrus' temper fray and needed him at his best. If that meant him unleashing his Turian instincts on her, so be it. It also helped her take her mind off the fact that the weight of the world was on her shoulders.

With remembering this she smiles. It was one of the only times she was truly happy in the last few years. She had spent her time with someone who truly had understood her, who would let her break down in front of them and comfort her.

Back on the first mission as a Spectre to take down Saren, she had relations with Kaidan. She felt empty. She had wanted someone who would help her instead of look at her like a mountain to climb, a feather in their cap. She had gotten that vibe from Kaidan on the mission and was surprised to find that his feelings were hurt on Horizon. That he had more feelings for her.

She was so taken aback on how he had changed his feelings, how he could make her feel like shit for something that was out of her control.

He had claimed that the two years were hell for him, that he saw no way to continue living as he had felt for her.

His emotions paired with her hard personality that she wouldn't let anyone hold her hostage like that when his emotions could've fooled her on the SR-1.

When she had let him have it over how she had felt there was no going back. Any sort of relationship she had left with Kaidan was over, and it showed in the race to unify all organic life for the battle over Earth. He had been short with her and continued to accuse her of working with Cerberus, thinking that she was a traitor. This was to the point that she had refused to allow him on the Normandy when he had recovered from his bought with Dr. Eva's body. The ship was no place for personal issues to get in the way of saving the Galaxy, and she didn't have faith in his ability to be professional, Spectre or not, after his breakdown on Horizon.

Garrus had been with her every step of the way and she is thankful. Even when they weren't dating he was the only one she could talk to. It probably was because she had done the same for him at first, but they grew on each other. For everything they were taught and thought about Turians, Garrus acted like a human. His emotions were nothing like the stereotypes had made Turians out to be. He wasn't rigid, hiding his emotions for the sake of acting like a Turian outside of acted more Human than any of the people on her ship.

His hatred of red tape, and C-SEC had shown her that he wasn't anything close to a normal Turian. When he had opened up to her on how he was in pain both physically and mentally over his time on Omega, she was surprised. A Turian whose entire race is known for machismo opens up to someone, much less a Human, over how he feels, you must be a trusted person or unconventional. With her being Human she liked to think he was both, and was confirmed when he opened up on his sexual exploits.

It was something that Humans did only in the confidence of their most trusted friends. She didn't know if Turians spoke of it in the same company, but it made her feel trusted, and above all, wanted.

When she had merely suggested them spending the night together to gauge his reaction, she hadn't expected him to be so open to the idea even when they had no idea how to do it. It had made an awkward night, but they openly told each other that it was the best thing that had happened to them in a long time as it was the first thing that had gone how they intended. No criminal being let loose, team being killed, or being shot at. Just them spending time together.

A year ago if you told her she would be dating a Turian she would straight up kill you. Even now it seems unreal, but she's glad that it had worked out this way. She is with someone who truly loves her for her and the same with her. If they didn't they had no reason to deal with the ridicule they get from both races.

At one point while trying to gain support for the Human fleets the Terra Firma Party had created a full campaign to denounce her based on her relationship choice. Gars hadn't had to deal with a open denunciation from anyone of power in the Hierarchy, but overtime they went out on shore leave they would get scowls from Turians in their direction. The fact that they both had no problem with the public disagreement made her feel better that they would put the time in their relationship not caring about the public response.

" Hey, you okay?" Shepard hears as her train of thought is interrupted.

She sees Garrus looking at her with a worried expression of his mandibles. She has trouble containing her embarrassment and blushes while replying " Yea, sorry."

As she starred at him he had started to get a weird feeling. His chest had started to heat up and he was getting dizzy. He had started getting these fits of sickness before they had left for Earth but hadn't told Laura about them as he knew they wouldn't be a problem in combat. In their relationship is another issue entirely…