The next morning Alex woke up with her Head on something warm and comfortable. Confused for a second, she lifted up her head to find that she was laying half on top of her little sister. Her head had been on the Aliens chest while her arms were tangled around the girls midsection. The blond had Alex wrapped up so tight, that she had no chance but to lay still against her. Even if she wanted to move out of this comfortable position she couldn't do so, without having to wake her. She tilted her head to look up at her sister, who was still sound asleep. She didn't looked very restful. More like she would jump up at the slightest noise, ready for a fight. Heroes don't really take breaks, there is always someone that needs saving. Alex frowned only realizing in that moment, that her sister probably haven't rested, really rested, in a long time. At least not since becoming Supergirl. And now she was only making it harder for her.
Kara started to stir under her, slowly waking up, she blinked a couple of times and then Alex immediately felt her body stiffen. The Agent felt a twitch of guilt in her stomach, she knew that she was the reason for her sisters high stress level.
"Hey.", Kara slowly said as she stroked her sisters hair, who's head was still lying against her chest, but looking in the different direction. There was a moment of silence, the brunette wasn't sure how to address last nights events.
"I'm sorry I used you as a punching Bag.", she whispered, knowing her sister would hear.
A soft chuckle escaped the blonds lips before she spoke. "That's alright. You can use me as a Punching Bag whenever you feel the need to."
She continued to play with her hair until Alex pulled away, sitting up in bed facing Kara now. The peacefully moment was cut short and a cold empty spot was left where her sister just lay. Kara looked at her sister, waiting for her to say something. If she had learned one thing in the last couple of days, it was to let her sister speak and give her the time to do so.
"You should go."
Well that was unexpected. Kara pushed herself up on her hands so she was more in a sitting position now.
"Alex? What-"
"No. I want you to go. I don't want you here. You should go back to your own place. Your own life. I'll be fine here. Just..Go."She was calm while she spoke, looking at her feet. Kara frowned and scooped closer to her sister, not reaching out for her yet.
"Alex? Why? What's wrong? You know I'm here for you and I love being here. I don't want to go."
"There are..." She took a deep breath and looked up at her sister now. "There are people out there that really need your help. Not me..I'm not..."
Kara kept her voice low, when Alex didn't continue after a while.
"You're not what?"
"Nothing, Kara. Just go. Please? People rely on you."
The blonde scooped a little closer to her sister, this time resting one hand on her leg.
"Alex. You are the most important thing to me in this world. This Galaxy. I won't leave you all alone when your not doing good. No matter how much you are begging me, I don't care if you don't want or need me here. I would never leave you. When it comes to you, everyone else just has to wait." She finished with a smile, hoping her sister would do the same, but her face stayed emotionless.
How much Kara missed that smile. Alex smiles were a special kind. The younger Danvers could smile all day long and usually did so. Her older sisters smiles on the other Hand, they were a little bit more rare. Making them all the better when they came out. It wasn't because she was unhappy, but simply because of her personality. And when she smiled at you it was a little bit like a reward. So full of love that it could sting your heart. And her laugh, her laugh could fill an entire room, so contagious and beautiful.
Kara pulled herself back into reality and looked at her sister, who's head still hung low. She placed her hand under the Agents chin and lifted it up so she had to look at her.
"Alright?"
A tiny nod came after a while and the brunette crawled into her sisters lap. The Alien dragged them back slightly so she was resting against the Headboard while Alex head was resting on her legs. She started playing with her hair again, feeling like its the only thing she did these days. The Agent was thinking how wonderful the world could be if they would just stay in this room forever. A comfortable silence settled between them until, without a warning, Alex began to speak.
"It took us a while to locate Cadmus, we were on the run for a long time."
Kara stiffed, not expecting Alex to talk about what had happened all of the sudden, but happy she was finally getting some answers. She stayed still and clung to every word, knowing better than to interrupt.
"I wanted to contact you everyday, but J'onn..J'onn said it wasn't safe." She was staring blankly ahead while she talked, letting her sisters touch calm her.
"When we found it, we created a plan on how to get in and then out with my Dad. It seemed like it would work, but we were naive. Not prepared enough. I..I rushed us in." She paused for a second, swallowing her Tears.
"They..They captured us. Separated us and then they..Experimented. I didn't know where J'onn or my Dad were. The days all blurred together. There was nothing. Just pain, screams..Hopeless. I was out of it most of the time, I think. Injected and then...tested."
Tears formed in Karas eyes. Every word stabbing her like a knife.
"I don't know how or what..One day the fire alarm went off and all the cells opened. I wasn't that sedated that day so I ran. I didn't even think twice if it was a trap or not. I just...ran. And then someone grabbed me."
A single Tears made her way down her face.
"My Dad. It was him. Him and J'onn. They somehow made an escape plan. They both looked terrible, just like me probably. I couldn't even say anything. It happened so fast, they dragged me along. The lights were flashing, the sirens were so loud and the guards and other prisoners were shouting. Just..Chaos. The Hallway we ran down was full of smoke. I couldn't see..Someone was holding my hand. I think. I don't know..."
She looked down at her hand as if she could figure out who's hand it was.
"No. Someone was definitely holding my hand."
After another long breath she let her hand fall down again and continued.
"The guard were getting closer. We ran as fast as we could, but we were so tired, they were faster. All I heard was an explosion. Then I fell and everything was a blur. I heard them argue. He wanted to carry both of us, we were both hurt...Dad Insisted on getting me out first so J'onn picked me up and we were outside all of the sudden. The fresh air and the sunlight felt so good."
She closed her eyes while reliving that moment. Almost as if she could feel the breeze on her face.
"He told me to run"
Her eyes opened again.
"I argued, but he told me he would go inside and get my Dad. I told him..He said..."
She closed her eye tightly, but tears were still spilling over.
"You don't have to keep going."
Kara placed a soft kiss on the top of her head.
"Its alright.", she whispered against the brown hair.
"He said that 'he was OK with it' and then he ran back inside."
Alex knew she had to continue, if she wouldn't get the words out now, she never would.
"I took me a few seconds to regain myself and hold myself on my own feet, but then I tried to run after him. But then...the Explosion knocked me back a few feet. Everything was in flames..The whole..Cadmus was in flames, burning to the ground. My Dad and J'onn right in the middle of it all. I screamed so loud, but no one was left there to hear me. I knew there was no way someone could have survived that. I know it."
She finally broke out of the inhuman grip her sister had on her and sat up. She moved over to the end of the bed and let her legs fall over the side. Sitting on the edge of the bed with her head resting in her hands, Kara still leaning against the Headboard, trying to let the words sink in.
"So I ran. I took one last look and I just ran as fast as I could. As far as my Feet would take me..Until..Until you found me."
She turned around now, looking into those blue eyes making everything even harder.
"Kara..I-I left them. I left them to die! It's my fault. They died for me. Because of me!"
The Alien went over and wrapped her sister in a tight hug, letting her cry into her shoulder. There were a Million thinks she could say to her. Tell her she was there now, that she was safe. That she would be alright, but what was the use really? Her sister was broken and a couple of nice words wouldn't fix this, so she settled with just holding her in silence instead. She was relived that her sister had finally opened up, but it was beginning to become to much for the young girl. She coulden't handle seeing her sister breaking like this over and over again. Kara didn't know how, but she would fix this. She would fix her sister, even if its the last thing that she would do.
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