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The world was still dark, but I could hear voices. They were all so loud. I heard the beeping of machines and felt something wrapped around my hand. Or holding my hand. Yes, someone was holding my hand. I heard voices fading and felt a pair of lips kissing my forehead.

"Bella, I'm so sorry. Dammit, Bella. This is all my fault." I felt a head lay against my shoulder and heard sobs coming from beside me.

My eyes opened slowly, and the lights were too bright in the room. It was too white. I moved my shoulder and looked over to see Edward beside me, tears streaming down his face. I opened my mouth and whispered, "The baby?"

Edward sat back into the seat and nodded, "The baby is okay. They are running some tests to find out what happened." He reached a hand out toward me, and I jerked away from him.

Hurt flashed in Edward's eyes and I held his gaze. He looked down at the ground and gripped his hair, pulling at it. He's always done that when he was upset about something; it has always bothered me.

I reached my hand out slowly and placed it over his to stop him from pulling on his hair. Edward looked back up at me and turned his hand so he was holding mine. My eyes hardened but I didn't pull my hand away. "What are you doing, Edward?" I whispered. My throat was too dry to speak at full volume, but I also didn't want to break whatever was happening here.

"It shouldn't be you laying the hospital bed. It should be me. I deserve pain, not you."

I nodded in agreement. He did deserve it. He hurt me. Edward's hand released mine and he brushed hair away from my face, leaning in close to place a kiss on my cheek. I recoiled at the touch and felt a tear land on my cheek. "Bella…I…I fucked up."

I felt a laugh bubble up in me and it came out, loud and obnoxious, "Are you just now realizing that? Seeing me lying in a hospital bed, pregnant with your child, is what made you realize that? Yeah, Edward, you fucked up."

Edward stepped back, breaking all contact from me. He looked older in the last few months since the divorce. His eyes had always been the key into his thoughts, but not now. Now they were so guarded and broken, it was like there was no sign of the man that I had married years ago. The man I loved and loved me in return. Edward turned and walked out of the room without a saying a word. That's when the tears began to fall.

Edward POV

I left Bella's room and passed by Jacob in the waiting room. He scowled at me as I walked past, but he wasn't where my interest was right now. I walked out of the hospital and felt the anger bubble up in me. I walked around to the side of the building and yelled, punching the wall. I immediately felt the pain spread through my knuckles, into my arm.

Bella is in the fucking hospital, pregnant with my baby. I should be the one with her. I should have been there. Dammit, she's my wife…was my wife.

I sank to the ground, tears already falling. I knew I was okay here; nobody would find me curled into the side of the hospital. I cheated. I'll admit that. I slept with a woman that wasn't my wife. I still don't know why I did it. Bella was my whole world, and I don't even know what made me fuck that up; there is truly no excuse. And now she's in the hospital.

I pulled at my hair as the tears fell. I felt someone kick my leg and I looked up to find Alice standing there. "Get up, Edward."

"Go away, Alice. Go see Bella."

Alice stood over me and crossed her arms. "I'm going to see Bella as soon as you leave. Now I'm not asking. Stand up."

I got to my feet in front of Alice and watched her. I barely saw her move before I felt the sting on my cheek. "Alice!"

Alice shook her hand and sighed, "What the hell happened, Edward? You loved her. And you never told anyone what happened."

I looked at the ground and Alice punched my shoulder, "Stop being like this! You did this to her. You fucked up the best thing you had. You don't get to be the one crying over it."

I met Alice's gaze and saw the tears hiding behind her eyes. She was disappointed in me. I could see it written all over her face. "Ali, I know. You're right and I know it. I can't tell you what happened. It's too much and doesn't even make sense. I cheated and knocked her up. That's all you need to know."

Alice watched me before she pulled me into a hug, "What did you get yourself into, brother?"

I wrapped my arms around Alice and closed my eyes, holding back tears. She has no idea how bad it is.

Bella POV

I was released from the hospital the following day. They assured me that the baby was fine, but they were still unsure what caused the pain and fainting. I was told to be careful, drink more water, and not be in the house alone for a few weeks to make sure I didn't faint again. Jacob took that to mean that he needed to move in with me and Nessie for a short time. I argued with him on it, but he wouldn't budge so I allowed it. He would stay in the guest room down the hall.

"Jakey, Jakey, look what I made at school today!" Nessie yelled, running through the house to greet Jacob. She was loving him staying here, and he seemed to adore my daughter. I smiled, watching him pick her up.

"That is truly the most beautiful necklace I've ever seen, Ness."

Nessie giggled and left, back upstairs to her room. I smiled at Jacob from the couch and he came over to sit beside me. "How are you feeling, Bells?"

"I'm fine, Jake. You don't need to ask me that every ten minutes. I'm okay."

Jacob stood up and went to change, kissing the top of my head before leaving the room. "I worry about you, Bella."

We had quickly picked up a routine with Jake staying here. He would get home and change out of his mechanic clothes while I started dinner. Sometimes he would help, he always offered, but he usually played with Nessie during this time. We always ate in the kitchen, very informally, while Nessie told Jacob about her day at school. He was so focused on her stories, but would give me winks and smirks throughout her stories, making sure that he wasn't ignoring me. I would put Nessie to bed around 8, and then Jacob and I would sit downstairs and watch TV together.

Tonight was no different except that Nessie went to bed surprisingly easy. She usually puts up a fight, but I guess she was too exhausted tonight. I walked back downstairs and found Jacob already in front of the TV, flipping through the channels. One of his arms was draped over the back of the couch, and I walked over and sat in the open space beside him. I laid my head on his chest and Jake's arm dropped down around my shoulders, holding me against him.

Jacob's other hand came up and lifted my chin to look at my face. I looked at him and knew he was about to kiss me. I closed my eyes and tilted my face toward his just as his lips landed on mine lightly. My hand reached up to rest on his cheek as our lips moved together in a slow kiss. He felt comforting and warm and strange. It's been so long since I had kissed anyone except Edward, but this didn't feel wrong.

The kisses became more intense and Jacob brushed my hair back behind my ear. That movement made me jerk away from him and break the kiss. My hand shot up to rest on my lips as I looked at Jacob, both of us breathing hard.

Jacob's jaw dropped slightly and he looked completely stunned, "Shit. Bella. I'm sorry. I didn't mean-"

I raised my hand, cutting off his sentence. "It's okay. I'm sorry. I enjoyed the kiss Jake. I just…I can't…I need some more time."

Jacob nodded and I wished him goodnight before I went upstairs and laid down in my bed, sighing. Something as simple as brushing hair behind my ear reminds me of Edward. I just can't get him out of my head.

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