Chapter Two
Somewhere in the end of all this hate
There's a light ahead
That shines into this grave that's in the end of all this pain
In the night ahead there's a light upon this
House on a hill
The living, living still
Their intention is to kill and they will, they will
But the children are doing fine
I think about them all the time
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will
Somewhere in the end we're all insane
To think that light ahead can save us from this
Grave that's in the end of all this pain
In the night ahead there's a light upon this
House on a hill
The living, living still
Their intention is to kill and they will, they will
But the children are doing fine
I think about them all the time
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will
I am not afraid
I won't burn out in this place
My intention is to fade and I will, I will
In this house on a hill
The dead are living still
Their intention is to kill and they will, they will
Keep your children safe inside
Out of pocket, out of mind
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will
Emma walked into Regina's office so they could have lunch together and help with Operation Mongoose. Though Emma wanted to help Regina find her true love and her happy ending she was more along the lines of hoping that Regina would give up on trying to be with Robin and be with her. Even though Regina and Robin were 'soul mates' Emma didn't believe they were true love. Hell Emma didn't even believe her and Killian were true lovers but she did love him and he knows that. But what he doesn't know is that I've loved Regina since the day I met her.
"How do you feel about kale salad?"
"Like someone found someplace other than Granny's for takeout."
"I'm fine with her grill cheese but I know it gets to you."
Regina chuckles, "You eat like a child. Is that a root beer?"
Emma smiled, "Two. I got you one. I thought you could use a break."
Regina sighed and down at the book and back up to Emma, "A break from what? Dead end after dead end? Emma lowers the two bottles to the table while Regina continued "This Sorcerer- or Author- Whatever he wants to be called- Doesn't want to be found."
Emma sighed trying to open one of the bottles while looking at Regina "It's only been a few weeks."
"Exactly, and I've conquered entire realms in less time."
Emma sighed again "Can you conquer these bottles? I thought they were twist-offs."
"Do I look like I can pry them off with my teeth? Emma looked back at her with a smirk while Regina responded sassily "I'm a Queen and a bit more refined."
Emma laughed internally "Yeah I got that." the blonde cleared her throat looking through a few draws. "My mom had a bottle opener here during her brief tenure, somewhere."
Regina looked up to see the blonde just before she opened the drawer " WAIT! Don't..." But the brunette was too late as I looked into the drawer my heart fell to the bottom of my stomach and my breath hitched as I looked at the taped up page that looked to be from the book. I tried to hide my disappointment and hid it well enough when I turned around to look at Regina who was now standing from her seat looking at the page I was holding "What's this? Did you take it from the book?"
Regina sat back down eyes cast downward at her desk "It's not from the book. Robin found it…" Regina sighed "Before he left with his family. It appeared to him." Emma sighed but looked up at Regina a little bit of both intrigue and curiosity. "It's not your story. What is it?"
Regina looked into Emma's blue-green eyes but then averted her gaze. "Robin thought it was hope…a sign that….." My beautiful brunette inhaled deeply wit a look of sadness in her eyes "things would work out for me." She replied before looking back up at me. She smiled bitterly before responding barely above a whisper "Turns out it was a cruel joke." I handed Regina the page and asked "Have you heard from him?" Regina looked fondly at the page shaking her head with her voice wavering "No."
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She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, she's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
A catch in my throat choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no!
I don't wanna be this...
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real
Regina's P.O.V
I stood there, just standing frozen to the spot jaw dropped, Emma had just screamed at her and slammed the door in her face. What the hell? I can hear her sobbing on the other side of the door and it breaks my heart and sent of pang of guilt rushing through my body. I had caused Emma to feel this pain. Emma…...oh god. Oh god I caused this, Jesus Christ Regina great job another fuck up to add to the scrapbook. What the fuck am I going to do to fix this?
"Emma? Please let me in? I'm sorry Emma…...I'm so so so sorry." Nothing all she heard were Emma's broken sobs and it only killed Regina more on this inside. So Regina did the only thing she knew what to do at this moment and that was to give Emma her space and give herself the time she needed to sort out her feelings and make thing right with Emma. I can't stay on Emma's porch because it is very clear that Emma does not want me here. I do not want to go home to and empty and unwelcoming home with no one to go home to because Henry is away wit his grandparents. I don't want to go back to the office because it is too late in the evening to continuing paperwork. In that moment Regina knew the perfect place she wanted and needed to go to get some fresh air to help clear her head.
In that moment Regina flashed herself to the docks, her car be damned in this moment, on her arrival it was a little chilly and realized she was not in the appropriate outfit to be spending a few hours near the cool water just want single blow of the wind causing her to shiver in the dress and heels she was wearing. Regina quickly enveloped herself in a cloud of purple smoke revealing her black Nike free runs, her black tight (yet comfortable) Victoria's secret & pink yoga pants, a grey thick long sleeved knitted shirt/sweatshirt with a whitish grey tank top underneath, with her glasses on. Regina never normally dressed this way in public but at this point her mind was elsewhere dwelling and more important matters and not her appearance. The sea breeze was starting to push my hair into my face to the point of annoyance and tied it back into a messy ponytail my bangs coming to rest on the sides of my face.
All thoughts entering my mind at this point was just Emma, Emma, Emma and the words she said/screamed/cried out to me coming back tenfold and getting louder and louder with each relapse. I don't know what to do I'm getting so frustrated I just want to.. I just….want...to….."AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH" Regina just screamed out her frustrations and just shot balls of fire into the distance of the ocean not knowing what else to do. After a few deep breaths and looking out across the water Regina started to calm down. She was so drained she just sat down in the sand plugging her head phones into her phone and then her ears blaring her music and as soon as she clicked play Vermillion part 2 by Slipknot started and Regina quickly put this song on repeat and continued to stare out at the calm waters. After an hour or so just sitting here just breathing in that salty sea water smell when two major thoughts started to overwhelm me just coming of nowhere when I those thoughts start to calm a little I realize they are about Emma…..and…...Robin. Oh god Robin he's gone he's really gone and Emma oh my Emma what am I going to do wit-Regina was suddenly pulled out of thoughts when she realized that someone was holding her and was rocking her lightly. I looked behind me and was relieved when I saw that Zelena was the one holding smiled at me as I pulled out my earbuds as she wiped away the tears that I hadn't realized were streaming down my face.
"What are you doing here so late Regina?" Zelena asked me and all I gave as a response was a choked sob that I hadn't realize I was holding back.
"Ssshh…..Ssssh…Regina darling it's alright whatever happened it's going to be okay." I sobbed even harder into her chest as i wrapped my arms around Zee's neck knowing that it wasn't. Not knowing what to do about Emma while my sadness for Robin was still so strong.
"Zee I-I-I do-don't k-know wha-what to DOOOOO….." I sobbed out
"Do about what Regina? Honey do what?" Zelena knows about my feelings for Emma and how I've struggled with them and knows how torn I am between her and my love for Robin.
"Eeemmaaa I-I-I don't know whaaat too doooo Z-Zee." Zelena only noded and continued to soothe my sobs. She knows only some about what went down between Emma and I. She knew that Emma told me she loved me and she knows that I've developed feelings for Emma and how much they have blossomed even more so after Robin's funeral. Zelena also knew how much this was tearing her up inside. Regina could barely eat and when she did sleep it was mostly because of how emotionally drained she was from the many many tears she shed.
