Chapter 16

"Kat, take Haiden for me?" Kelda asked weakly. Her friend saw that she looked strange, "Okay Kelda." Kat said and she took her friend's son. Then she saw that Kelda was about to pass out. "Thor, catch her quick!" Kat shout. Thor caught his sister in his arms and he pick up her. He carried her into the healing room and passed Loki's bed. Loki sat up so quickly his head spun, "K…elda…ar…e you okay?" He asked croaked out. Thor ignored his younger brother and he carried his younger sister to another bed far away from Loki. Thor laid her down on the bed then he went to get Eir and the other healer while Kat kept watch over her. Loki got up and he went to Kelda and he sat down next to her. Tears streamed down his cheeks. He cradles her face in his hands. "Please…. please Kelda. I'm…. I'm sorry…I did thi…. this to you." He said. Haiden started reaching for his mommy but his auntie held him close. Loki sobbed quietly. He did this to her…he did. Haiden kept crying for his mommy. Kat bounced the little one on her hip trying to soothe him, but he won't calm down until saw his daddy. Kat sighed and brought the baby over to his father. "Da-da." Haiden said reaching for his daddy. Loki pulled from Kelda and too his son holding him closely. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Loki kept saying. Kat rubbed his back, "Hun. It's okay it's not all on…okay to be honest it is quite a bit on you. When she needed you most you weren't there she wept till she passed out every night it was only a matter of time till she broke. She tried to take care of your son all by herself." She said. "Sh…she did?" He asked in a hushed whisper. "Yes, Loki. Thor and I tried to help her, but want she really needed was you." Kat said.

"Oh, Kelda, I failed you…as a husband, a father, I was selfish." Loki said through a fresh wave of tears. "Loki you had just seen your mother killed and she died in your arms. I don't think you were really selfish. "Kelda, loved her as well…and I shut her out when she needed me the most." Loki said. "Yes, you did. She thought that she did something to make you not love her anymore." Kat said. "What? I would…sh…she would never do anything to make this happen." Loki said. "Well is what she thought. Each night she would cry for you. Begging you to still love her and to please forgive her for whatever she did." Kat said. "But…I just…I am so sorry love please…" Loki stammered as more tears streamed down his already wet cheeks. Then they heard Kelda groaning Loki handed the baby to Kat and turned to his love. "Kelda? Please are you okay?" Loki asked full of concern. But she still couldn't speak for she was still to weak. He wept on her chest, "I can't lose you too." Kat placed a hand on his shoulder, "She needs rest." Loki looks at his beloved Kelda's best friend, "How can I raise my son all by myself when I can't leave this room?" Kat shook her head, "Hun…that's something you will have to figure out. I can't tell you what to do." Kat gave him a sad look and one last pat, "Little man here needs a bath so I will be back." She knew that he really didn't need one, but Loki needed to talk things out with Kelda ever if she wouldn't be answer he needed to get things off his chest.

"Kelda, I am so very sorry my love." Loki said. Everything sounded like it was under water to Kelda. She tried to open her eyes, but she couldn't. Loki kept talking, "Kelda, I am so sorry for leaving you to raise our son…and I know you loved Frigga…I left you when you needed me the most. But I swear to you I will stay by your side until you are all better." He took her hand and kissed it gently. Loki heard Kelda moaning and he saw her eyes flutter open. He took her face in his hands and kissed her all over her face washing it with his tears.

"Kelda, thank the Norns you are a wake. I was so worried about you my love." Loki said. She moved her hands to cup his face, "L-Loki, wha…. what happened…. where am I?" She asked confused. "He…healing rooms." He croaked. "No, I am not in the healing room I was with Thor and my son. Haiden? Haiden? Where is my baby?" She asked and she started to panic. "He is fine he is with Kat." Loki said. "Are you sure Loki?" Kelda asked for she is still a little worried. "Yes, Kelda, he will be alright I trust Kat with my life and your life and the life of our son." Loki said as he gave Kelda a hug trying to calm her down. "I know Loki, but what if something happens to our baby?" Kelda asked still nervous. Loki shook his head, "She would never harm him." He assured her. "I know that Loki, but what if He comes back?" Kelda asked her voice full of fear. "He won't. I will kill him before he does." Loki said. Sounding brave. "Loki, he had mother, killed. I don't want to lose you too." Kelda said her voice choked with tears. "I won't die…I promise." He said. Kelda couldn't speak for she was crying to hard, "Shh, Kelda, my love I need you to calm down before you make yourself even sicker." Loki said as he picks her up and placed her on his lap. He began to rock her back and forth trying to calm his sweet Kelda down. She tried to calm down, but she just couldn't for she was worried about everything and if the All-father wakes up and finds out that his wife died saving Loki. What will he do to him and if he wants to hurt or kill her Loki. She would run away with him and they would raise their son far away from Asgard and Odin. Loki watched her face closely, "You seem worried over something…what is it?" He asked. "Loki, I'm scared." Kelda said.

"I am as well, but fear…is just a shadow." Loki said. "Loki, I don't want to lose you again. I am scared that I will do something to make you not want me or our son anymore." Kelda said tearfully. "Kelda, love, that would never happen…I…. I go…got locked up in my own grief. I blocked you out." He whispered. "Loki, I needed you. I was mourning and you weren't around to hold me when I cried. I lost the only mother I had ever known and you on the same day." Kelda said. "You mourned me?" He asked softly. "Yes, Loki, I did." She said her voice choked with emotion. "Why? She deserved it more then I." Loki said. "I mourned you both equally." Kelda said.

He nodded and ran his thumb along her cheek, "I thank you. I have been far from what you need dearest." He said. "Loki, when we both leave to the healing room we will go on picnic just the three of us." Kelda said. Loki kissed her cheek thankful she didn't block him out. "We can ask the…. All-Father when he wakes if I am allowed out for this one time." "Loki, we don't have to ask to ask Odin. Thor has already set you free my love." Kelda said. "Wha…what do you mean?" He asked shocked. "Kat, talk to Thor and she talked him in setting you free for our son." Kelda said. Loki paused, "I need rest… this has to be a dream." He said. "Loki this isn't a dream it is real my love." She said. "It can't be true…I took on your sentence as well as my own…now I am pardoned?!" Loki asked. "Yes, you are my love." Kelda said. "But how? She must have agreed to marry him to get him to change like that." He sighed laying back with her still in his arms. "I told Kat that you were sad that you couldn't do things with me and our son so she said that she would talk to Thor about it." Kelda said. "I shall have to thank both of them. I doubted this would ever happen." He muttered. "Loki, go and spend time with your son. Give him the toys that Kat and I bought for him and give him a big hug and kiss for me." Kelda said.

"I will bring him in here." He said softly. Kelda shook her head, "No. Loki, he needs time with you not with a mother who is too sick to take care of him." She said sadly. "He needs no one or the other but both us." He said, "Too long has he been with only you." "Take care of him Loki." Kelda said weakly. "I will." Loki said. "Thank you, Loki and tell him that I love him so much." Kelda said and with that she passed out. He watched in silent horror as she fell back. Kelda!? Eir! Nooow!" He called for the healer. Eir and the other healers along with Thor came running. "Loki, what's wrong little brother?" Thor asked. "She…. she she just fell over." Loki said trying hard not to cry in front of his brother. "Eir, will help, but let her do what she needs to do." Thor said. Loki wanted to glare at his brother, but he couldn't not after what Kelda told him what Thor did for him. "Go find your son. Hold him." He said placing his hand on his brother's shoulder. "But-but what if something happens and she needs me?" Loki asked worried. "Then we will let you know." Thor said. "You promise me brother." Loki said. "I do my brother." Thor said. "Thor, I want to thank you, for setting me free." Loki said. It was nothing. Now go." Thor said. Loki nodded he gave Kelda one last kiss and then he went to find his son.