Dick walked down stairs to find his brothers sitting at the kitchen table eating breakfast. Dick walked over and sat next to Jason.

"what are you doing today" Jason asked eating a peace of bacon

Dick scrunched his nose at the smell, honestly he wasn't feeling good but he wasn't about to tell his brothers that. "I don't know what about you"

"We were thinking of training before we left for patrol" Damian stated getting up and placing his plate in the sink

Dick crossed his arms debating if he wanted to join them or not but he knew if he told them no they would question him. "How about you practice later and then ill join you"

"Why what are you doing" Tim asked

"I have to go visit a few friends" Dick said patting himself on the back for thinking of a new excuse

"Friends 'Jason asked

Dick mentally cursed himself "ah ya some new friends I made at the library, you don't know them" Dik said looking at the clock "well I got to go bye". Dick grabbed his phone off the table and left without waiting for a response from his brothers.

-/

Dick ended up spending the whole entire day in the hospital giving blood sample after blood sample and numbly signing the documents the doctor gave him. Since he was eighteen he was able to start the chemo without parental approving but that didn't stop the doctors from telling him to tell his brothers.

The doctors kept telling him more and more about his condition as time went on, It honestly didn't feel real. Only when they told him when his first chemo would be did the whole thing come crashing down.

Dick looked at his hands and realized they were shaking. None of this honestly felt like it was real but at that moment he realized it was. Once he was done with his test and had the appointment set for his first chemo, Dick left the hospital.

Dick covered his eyes from the harsh sunlight that was shining on his eyes. He took out his phone and saw that it was almost ten pm and that he had a few missed calls and text messages. Dick sighed and looked at his messages and saw he had on from Jason and Damian. Jason s text said where the hell are you and Damian's where are you Grayson.

Dick placed his phone back in his pocket not wanting to deal with them right now, he knew he would pay for it later but right now he wanted to be alone.

Dick decided to go the Wayne cemetery, for some reason he often came here after Bruce's death. He felt so stupid going to the man he killed for comfort when he couldn't bring himself to tell his brothers.

Dick leaned against Bruce's headstone "I don't know what to do, if I tell my brothers it will just make them worry" he said sitting down "what do I do".

Dick looked up at the sky and squinted from the bright sun. Only then did he realize how tired he was , slowly his eyes began to close and he fell into a deep slumber

-/

Jason mentally cursed as he turned to the clock the seventieth time in a half hour. It was now one am and Dick was nowhere to be found. Damian and Tim went to find Dick, Jason despite how much he protested was told to wait home just in case he returned.

Jason picked up his phone and tried to call Dick once again with the same results. He jumped off the coach "screw waiting" he yelled as he went down to the batcave to get his redhood outfit. "I swear Dick if you're doing this on purpose I will kill you" he hissed.

-/

Dick slowly opened his eyes and wondered why he was so sore. He looked around "oh my god I fell asleep" he shouted as he grabbed his phone and saw it was one am. "Jason is going to kill me".

Dick got up and brushed off his pants and looked at the headstone then looked at his phone again. He had 20 missed calls all together and fifteen texts, he looked at the sky and took a deep breath. "So much for not worrying them" he then dialed Jason's number.

"Where the hell are you, are you trying to give me a heart attack don't you know its one am and not to mention you didn't answer any of our calls" Jason yelled on the other side of the phone.

"Jay look im…" Dick began but a dark shadow dropped beside him "Jay go back home and tell Tim I'm ok, I'll explain later" he said as he hung up.

Dick put his phone in his pocket but kept his back turned from the shadow. "Look Dami I'm sorry" he said as he turned around to look at his brother in the eyes

"What the hell Grayson do you know how worried we were, we have been looking everywhere" Damian hissed

Dick sighed and lowered his head felling like a little kid again "Sorry Dami, the last thing I wanted to do was worry you"

Damian put his hand on Dicks head and ruffled his hair "what are you doing out here, this is the last place I expected to find you"

"Actually ive been coming here a lot" Dick whispered. Dick looked away before he spoke "don't tell Jason or Tim"

"why" Damian asked "Its fine that you come here I just never expected to find you here"

Dick looked at Damian and glared "Its not ok, I killed my own parents and my second father" Dick yelled "I killed him with Jason's gun, my own father and yet you still treat my normally"

"we don't blame you for killing F..Bruce" Damian stampered

"That's the problem why don't you blame me" Dick yelled "I killed your father and I go to his grave for comfort, I'm messed up Damian"

Damian stepped closer to Dick and brought him into a hug "You will be ok, I promise and we will always be there for you" Damian looked at Dick and realized that he wasn't crying "Its ok to cry you know"

Dick gave a half smile then squirmed out of Damian's grasp "My tears dried up the day I killed Bruce" Dick turned around "I'm sorry but I'll meet you at home" Dick said as he walked towards his car.

Dick parked outside his house and leaned back in his seat. Why did he tell Damian those things, he kept them locked inside for three years, yet he brings it up now. Dick sighed and got out of his car and walked inside only to have Jason and Tim run towards him

"I was worried" Tim said

"Where were you" Jason hissed

Dick rubbed the back of his head "i..uh.." just then Damian walked into the room

"Don't worry I know where he was" Damian stated

"Which was where" Tim asked

It was silent for a few minutes before Jason spoke "Where the hell were you"

"Todd.." Damian began but Dick put a hand up to stop him

Dick took a deep breath knowing that by not telling them they would worry more "I fell asleep"

"You fell asleep" Tim asked looking halfway amused

"I uh went to Wayne cemetery and fell asleep after I met my friends" Dick said, it wasn't a total lie.

"Why would you go there" Jason asked

"listen guys I already talked to Damian about It and really don't want to bring it all back up if you want to know I'll let Damian tell you" Dick sighed and rubbed his eyes when he felt a headache coming on

Jason noticed this and his anger vanished "are you ok"

"ya just tired I'm going to bed goodnight" Dick said as he made he was up to his room

Once Dick was out a sight Jason looked at Damian "spill it"

Damian sighed and motioned for them to join him in the kitchen. Once they were all seated his began "Have you guys noticed that Dicks been acting weird lately"

"Actually yes, he's acting like he is hiding something" Tim answered

"Im sure he is, also I called Wally and it seems Dick lied about going there, he never went to Wallys" Damian stated

"he what" Jason yelled "You mean he's been lying to us this whole time"

"yes and that's not it, he told me something today that worries me" Damian started

"Something that worries you" Tim asked

"He told he that he was messed up because he goes to Bruce's grave for comfort and that he can't cry anymore" Damian said

"but he…" Jason began but realized that he hasn't seem Dick cry in about three years. " he's only cried once or twice after Bruce's death didn't he"

"we need to keep a closer eye on him" Damian added "somethings up and for him to bring this all up three years later"

"That worries me, something happened to bring it all up now and knowing Dick he won't tell us if we ask" Tim stated

"yes , I'm sure he is hiding something the question is what" Damian said looking up at the stairs "and we will find out"