I looked at him and smiled while thinking "Is he punishing me?"
"Then just do it harder," I demanded.
He fulfilled my wish by doing it deeper inside me.
"Ahn! Erwin, I am coming…"
"I won't let you."
"No don't, stop, lemme come."
"Unnn!"
"Ahn!"
"Hannn!" We both panted for a while then he grabs my face firmly with his both hands.
"Levi" He called out my name with love.
"Yes", I answered.
"Do you wanna live with me? I don't know what the future holds, but I wanted to be with you."
"I doubt that."
"Why?" He inquired me with a distress.
"Because you do not belong here."
"You don't want us to be like that?"
"That's not what I am saying."
"Then?"
"Right now, I pity you."
He kept looking in my eyes to find whether I mean it what I am saying. He takes a long breath and said: "You want me to go back in the corps?"
"Some things are better unsaid."
He gets up and went to the washroom. I snuggle the white sheet beneath me which was painted in red. My bed has completed its age. After some time I manage to get on my feet. Erwin came out he was all cleaned up the sunlight had made his body visible to my eyes, I can see the scars he was holding with proud.
"Levi."
"Hmm."
"Where is the body?"
"I took care of it."
"Don't get caught."
"I learnt from the best. If I do, I rather die."
"I know you well."
"You can have a shirt from the drawer, I bought some for you."
"Where is my uniform?"
"You never had since you are with me."
"I do have one, the one was wearing on the last day of my service."
"I took care of it."
"Then that's good."
He then wears the clothes I bought for him. I kept on looking him. This was the first time I ever interested in looking at him with an intense feeling inside me. I wanted to jump on him and cuddle him, but these things look good in imagination, in real life, they are impossible to perform. Right now everything is impossible as I choose him as my commander instead of my lover. The world we live in is cruel.
"Levi."
"What?"
"Nothing I just wanted to call your name."
I went ahead and took my time to shower and get dressed up. When I came out he was nowhere to found.
Erwin P.O.V:
I think Levi was not certain to do deal with such kind of feeling. Maybe, I hurried in my confession. I can understand why he pities me, I took my grievances on him, I yearned for him for such a long time, that not for a single moment I stop and think of his feeling. I couldn't help to curse myself. "Will I ever be able to look into his eyes the way we did in past", "will I?" I kept on asking myself.
I took a cape from his drawer that's the last courtesy I can ask for him, I depended on him for such a long time, I took him for granted. For a moment I turned back and look his back, he was on his way to take a shower. As always his slender body the one which was beneath me shuddering a while ago is caring the humanity's stance proudly, making me ashamed of my doings.
He didn't even turned back and went ahead so that is your answer, Levi. I really gonna miss him a lot.
Levi P.O.V:
It's been few weeks since Erwin left us, everyone in our division never bothers to talk about him. Most of them consider him dead, nobody ever questioned me like: "Where is Erwin? What happened to him? Blah, blah!"
Such a selfish bastard he is, always thinking… I was interrupted by kuso megane.
"Oi, Levi?"
"Just shut-up!"
"I haven't said anything."
"I know what you are going to say, quit following me."
"Erw…"
"I said shut up."
"I am your superior now."
"The hell I care."
"Hahaha!"
"Do you wanna get killed?"
"I know right you will kill me, just go meet Pixis, he was calling for you."
"What the heck he wants from me."
"Answers."
"Of?"
"You know right, don't you? You have been avoiding him for such a long time you have to face him one day."
"I don't wanna."
"It's not up to you."
"It's an order."
"Shut-up kuso megane, I don't take orders from you."
"What about having a chat, Levi?" Pixis interrupted.
"Hahaha, you get caught", Hange flees out from the scene.
He stares at me then take a sip from his bottle. "Come with me Levi, we had to chat for a moment." I followed him to his room. There was two security personnel guarding his room entrance. As we get near to his gate they both checked me thoroughly and demanded me to leave my 3D manure with them. After they gave me the ticket to enter his office. He addressed me, "Take a seat."
I get myself seated on the nearest sofa. "What you wanna talk about?" I questioned him with a blank face.
"Don't you know?"
"No!"
"Lets' cut to the chase, have you killed Erwin?"
I was unable to respond to his query. He came close to me grabbed me by my neck and try to strangle me as hard as he could. It took me some time to get away from his ferocious grip. In the next moment, I was on the floor and he was sitting on me. He kept on looking in my eyes, then he took his time to have rum, he pours some on my face too. "Have some!" he suggested. "I never developed such taste for rum" I answered while catching my breath.
"Oho, my bad", he replied while chuckling. I can feel his urge to kill me in the thin air. My body started sweating.
"You haven't answered my question, Levi."
"I don't know what you asked."
"Have you killed Erwin? Where you buried him? "If he is alive, where he is?"
"I did not kill him."
"You haven't answered my question, Levi. I don't like being in the dark."
"Like I said, I don't know."
He hit me hard as he could. It took me some time to concentrate what he is saying.
"I don't…"
He again hit me. "I think, Levi you and I had to join some private exercise."
He threw me on the sofa, wipe my blood, set my hairs and made me look decent. "Guards". He yelled.
The guards enter the room. "Take Levi to my private room, he and I had to discuss something important, bring me Darjeeling tea too, our guest has a unique taste."
He gets up and looked back at me. I followed him to a small gate. The place was dark I can only hear his footsteps echoing and I followed them. After a period of a walk, we reached a place. A room which can be entered by only one door. There was a window opposite to the door. Which was small in size only a cat might be able to get out from it.
The room I am in reeked with the smell of blood. It has a centre table with two chairs, from all sides there were shelves loaded with books. It looks like an old library.
"Sit over there "He ordered.
I sat down on the chair I can see a window in front of me, outside it all, I can see is the sky. I wonder where we are. Is it even in the place we were in before? The underground path leads us where?
Then I waited for my destiny which was in his hands. "Ok, let's talk about from where it started."
I remained silent and he was observing me. Then the guard enters the room and placed the tea-set and some sweets. The silence in the room was killing me. Then he served me Darjeeling tea and insisted on drinking it at once. "You love tea, right?" He broke the silence. "Yes," I answered.
The aroma mixed with blood's smell made me not to have it. I pick up the cup and sniffs it then put it back. He locked his eyes on the moment of separation of the cup and saucer and rejoining of them. He exhaled and slapped me making me fly over in few meters.
"This was the tea you served Erwin on that day."
"It is."
"This was the tea who made Erwin like that resulting his death."
"He didn't die."
"Not on that time, he died later, in your home. Am I right?"
"No, Erwin didn't die because of the tea."
"Ok, then you killed him?"
"No."
He sighed. "Then…" he takes a long breath and continued "where is Erwin?"
"He left."
"Where?"
"I don't know."
"Don't lie, Levi. I just need your confession." He smashed the cup on my head. The clattering sound of cup hitting the floor echoed. The blood and tea both get amalgamated, completing a journey from my forehead dripped down from my chin.
"I am not lying."
"So, simply you are saying, that crippled guy left your house without getting noticed."
"He wasn't crippled "
"He was faking it?"
"No, He gets better and left."
"Hahahahhahahha" the room enlightened by his awful laughter.
After he done laughing he pick up the broken piece of the cup and put in near my windpipe. "Where is the head of the corpse whom you buried near the border of Shiganshina?"
My body get chilled and I wasn't able to move. Then a sharp pain made it all black. The drowning sun I glimpsed from the window was the last thing I remembered.
"Erwin's bitch."
When I regained my consciousness I was hanged upside-down. The rattling sound of chains made Pixis aware of me. "Oh, you are awake."
"Why are you doing this?" I demanded.
"Where is the head of that corpse?"
"I burnt it."
"I always reminded Erwin to look over his back, but he had entrusted that to the bitch like you."
"You can't keep me here."
"I can, you know, I can. How many times have you did it with him?"
I averted my gaze. He left the room.
As I get alone I started making the picture how it all started. "If he wanted to kill me he already did it, why he haven't killed me yet? Does he know about Erwin whereabouts? He just wanted to tease me. Maybe it's all Erwin's idea as I get caught he is making me repent for my sins. Why in the first place that guy was in my room? Why he go after Erwin, he can easily kill him whenever he wants too, but he choose not to, instead of that he made him suffer making Erwin to take such a step. How come Erwin gets better while having intercourse with him? The liquid he used to stimulate Erwin's organ the one I found near my bed must be related, but I try to find about it and nobody knew what kind of liquid it was.
My picture shattered as Pixis enters the room. He addressed me with hatred in his eyes.
"You sure are his bitch, he loves you more than Marie."
He cuts the ropes down, a thud sound was made as I get in contact with the floor.
"How many days had passed?"
"A day."
"What you want?"
"Leave from my sight." He yelled.
"I won't until you tell me where is Erwin?"
He laughed. "In his office."
"You knew it from the start?"
"No, as I spread the news that I am going to kill you he showed up."
"Erwin is back in corps?"
"See by yourself."
As I try to flee, he hugged me from back. I remained frozen for the next few minutes. "That pervert" I tried to get myself free from his grasp. "Stop it, you disgust me."
"You are way too loyal, Levi."
I try to struggle hard to get myself free from his hold. He came closer and blows the air in my ear. Then he whispered, "Do you love him?"
I was astonished myself by my body reaction. The tears started to fell down from my eyes. "I do" I hiccupped.
"You know Levi when it comes to Erwin, you ain't the mankind strongest you are the weakest as we all are when it comes to our loved ones."
"I pushed him away." I sobbed.
"Does it hurt?"
"Lot more than the pain you gave me."
"I am sorry."
"I know you aren't." I again try to struggle to get myself away from his disgusting self.
"Can you please let me go?" I demanded rationally.
"Such words coming out of your mouth doesn't sound right." He loosens his grasp. I ran away and didn't look back. Passing the dark alley I busted open the door, it was the same room in which Pixis invited me. I came out the guard didn't budge from their position. I left them behind running straight to Erwin's room. Dashed inside with a bang, what I see is that he is having a tea. He looked calmly at me like he was waiting for me then he placed his cup elegantly on the saucer the way he always does. He stands up and came close to me. I rushed into his arms and he embraced me with all of his love. We remained in this state for a while then I let go of my grip, but Erwin was still glued to me. "Erwin", I called upon his name.
"Levi, I love you." He proclaimed in front of me.
"Me too."
It was on impulse we did it while standing. On the second round, I interrupted, "Your back gonna hurt later, put me down."
"I don't wanna let go of you, and you aren't heavy. Have you lost weight?"
"Hey, look the sun is up." I avoided the question.
"Hmm, a new day with you in my arms isn't bad. "He chuckled.
"Erwin, do it."
"Let me tend your wounds."
"You already did."
"But you are bleeding."
"This… it is already healed, don't bother."
"Ehe! Then I gonna lick them up."
"As you please."
He licked my open wounds. "I tickled, Erwin." I resisted.
"Who did this to you? Name him."
"Does that even matter? Right now I only wanna say your name."
"I am hard." He whispered.
"Me too."
We moved ourselves to the settee placed in Erwin's room. The room is filled with Erwin's scent. The one I'm missing for such a long time.
"Ahn! Harder, harder. I wanna feel you more." I begged.
"Unnn! Not down there it tickles."
"I wanna do more perverted things with you, Levi."
After some continuous kisses, marking hickeys all over my body. I asked him. "Am I the only one?"
"Why you ask?"
"Just…"
"Yes, you are. No one can replace you, you are my true love, Levi."
"I am glad."
"Ahn! I think I am going to come."
"Not so fast, honey."
"Aaaah…."
"You came first, such a pervert little guy you are." He smiled and gave me a kiss.
"I missed your kiss."
He licked my lips. After a while we get ourselves presentable and attended the meeting regarding the upcoming expedition.
At night he made me cry again in his arms it's not like I hate it, but I just don't want this time to end.
"Not there, Erwin. Ahn! You always come up with new idea to tease me." I gave a muffled moan.
"Haven't I told ya, I am perverted, Levi." He whispered.
