THIS IS THE CHAPTER YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR! OMG!
This, will be rated T from now on. Sorry if you really don't like this chapter, It has the mildest of mildest nudity in it. Don't like any of that stuff? You'd probably want to skip it. If you do not like it, I will change the story, and if you DO, do you think I should do a lemon or something? Or is this just perfect? You have a say in this. It's straight off the bat Rated T. Warning.
Love you all, wonderfuls!
-authorofwonderful
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OMG, I can't believe I did this. I felt so embarrassed as I did, and I pulled off my top. I knew I was flat-chested, well, at least not completely (well, ok, I wasn't REALLY flat-chested) but I felt so small as his eyes roamed my body. My black lace bra was covering me, and I did not realize until a couple of seconds later that Brandon's eyes were full of only love as he looked up to my face.
"Nikki," he said quietly, "Do you really want to have...?" he stopped short as he realized what he was saying. "No!" I said urgently and quickly. "I mean, no. I don't think I'm ready for that yet," I said, my face flushing. "Well, anyway, your beautiful," he said, smiling shyly at me. I blushed and slowly kissed his lips. It slowly went into a make out-session, and before I knew it, we were lying on the bed as I was tugging the ends of his shirt, practically asking to pull it off. He threw the shirt off and I rested my hands on his abdomen.
Wow, he was toned. I didn't know how strong he was until I felt it for myself, his muscles tensing under my hands. (Haha, if any of you got that, it was from the Divergent Series!). He pulled away, with a confused look on his face, which only words could explain why. "Nikki, if we're not having sex, then what are we doing?" he asked. I leaned in closer to his face, "I don't know. Fooling around, I guess," I said. "Well I don't mind some fooling around," he said, and he kissed me, and once his lips touched mine, all I felt was fire burning for him.
And I guess I only THOUGHT I liked him until now. Only NOW I know what love is, as I realize things when we continue to kiss. What real passion is, and, yes - it's strange I'm saying this as a virgin, whatever - is actually truly wanting to be with someone and liking them not for their body and but the person they create in you, and help you become. But anyways, from what I said about the virgin thing, I don't think we need sex to really feel love. Love is when you can withhold yourself from intimacy and just fully enjoy the person's warmth and company, and really feel fire and protection towards that person. Lust is when you want to hook up with someone because of hormones and it feels good. It's completely different.
I've been spending too much time with Zoey.
I pull away and smile as Brandon's laugh tickles my cheeks. I get up off him as we are exhausted from kissing. I pull my top back on, and he just kind of puts his to a side. I cuddle in his chest and close my eyes. "I love you," he says. "I love you too," I said, smiling as I lift my head up to kiss his cheek. I lie back down on his chest and circle his abdomen with my finger. "Brandon, do you think we're cheesy when we say 'I love you' all the time?" I said.
A small laugh erupts and I feel it in his stomach. "Yes," he smiles, and kisses my forehead. "But I don't mind that."
I smile at the wall, and I know he can feel and sense it. "Neither do I."
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Well, wasn't that chapter full of love! A little something for you romance birds out there.
I, personally LOVED the withdrawal from intimacy, even though I know some of you wonderfuls don't. I apologize if I mislead you to some sort of fluff or smut in the chapter before. I will, later maybe put a lemon in there, but that would definitely be later.
But KEEP FOLLOWING! I have more in store for Nikki.
Hint: MacKenzie and Brandon are featured in this next chapter.
And it involves Pizza! Guess where the next chapter we'll be located in!
