Chapter 2
August 15
Today, my friend Emma invited me to Starbucks so we could talk about the book "Fangirl" by Rainbow Rowell that we had just finished. That´s how Emma and I read. We chose a book and then we went to a place so we could talk about it. She was the only person who really understood how I felt and the only one who knew about my anxiety attacks. I ordered a Caramel Macchiato and she ordered a coffee frappe. I really loved Emma.
"I really don´t know if Matthew really thinks about me, you know, I think about him all the time and I really miss him, but when we text I can tell he doesn´t," I say.
"Alex, I have talked to him too and he told me about his vacations to Spain and sent me some photos. I can´t tell if he likes you, but please never think nobody loves you, okay?" she said.
You see, this is why I loved Emma, even when I felt my worst or having my attacks, she was there for me. When I talked to her, I knew she was the best friend I could ever had and she was always there for me. I wondered how she did it, always being there for me. It could be a school night at 2 AM, me feeling bad, and I'd text her and she'd answer a second after. Emma was one of the "weird" ones too.
She likes a boy named Jacob. He is one of my friends just like Matthew is one of Emma´s. Emma has green eyes and auburn hair. She is really pretty, unlike me. I have brown hair and really ugly eyes, and all the boys like her. I think Jacob likes her too but she doesn´t want to admit it because she is afraid of the next step.
"Emma, I really really loved Fangirl. Like, seriously, one of the best books ever," I said, it was a really great book.
"I know! Best thing ever," she said.
It was a hot day, so after this we went for ice cream.
An hour later I had to go home, so I said goodbye, school started the day of my birthday (August 21), so I stayed all night hearing Shawn Mendes.
But I got you this rose and I need to know, will you let it die or let it grow?
After this, I was already snoring.
