This chapter is where the themes start getting real, like, graphic af, so. Warning ahead of time.

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Chapter starts from Angela's perspective


When she got back to her quarters she locked the door and broke down.

God she hated how pathetic she was, she was so weak she even had to be comforted by a fucking stranger, her patient even, of all people. She was the one that was supposed to be helping him, not the other way around.

This time though, she had no one to stop her from crying, no one to tell her she shouldnt hate herself, and no one to stop her from doing the stupid things she did when she was like this

as it had always been.

She rushed into her bathroom, still crying, and pulled a scalpel from her back pocket.

No one knew she did this, hell, she had only started when Ana died, she felt as if she could have saved her. The only reason she wasnt assigned as the medic for that mission was because she had taken a day off.

' I was so fucking selfish it cost me her life'

she thought as she pulled her jeans down

'if I had tried harder, Genji wouldnt be a fucking living weapon, if I hadnt had been so trusting of jack and actually fucking paid attention to Winstons work I couldve expressed my anger with him and maybe given Genji a chance to actually live a normal life'

she put the scalpel on her thigh.

her thighs already full of scars, and some scabs from more recent times, she had been cutting deeper everyday she did this, but that was only because her self hate had been growing.

This day that hate was stronger than it had ever been, she felt ashamed she couldnt have done more for, disgusted that she couldnt have been less blind to what was happening

she felt grotesque

she pushed the scalpel into her thigh and pulled it across horizontally

"your fucking worthless"

she sliced again

"you say you want to help everyone, but you cant even save the people who are the most important to you?!"

she sliced again

"your a fucking trash doctor, they shouldve just kicked you out of overwatch!"

"god i wish i had the strength to just fucking kill myself!"

she sliced one last time before she collapsed onto the wall, crying much louder than before, blood running down her legs.

She knew what she was doing was stupid, but she felt stupid, and the pain helped numb some her heartache, even if temporarily. She looked down towards her thighs, sighing at seeing how deep she had cut her them. She didnt worry about her wounds though, after all, she was a doctor.

This time she had cut a lot deeper than she expected though. You could see the flesh inside her thigh, and she was bleeding quite a bit. She stood up, shambled over to her cabinets, and retrieved a metal first aid box. She took out a small device and clicked a button on it, unleashing a small healing stream on her thigh, after a couple seconds of holding it there her wounds stopped bleeding, and she pulled out some gauze and medical tape.

After she had sealed her wounds, she walked into the bathroom again, stripping off her clothes and turning the shower on to let it heat up.

She looked gaunt, her ribs showing and hip bones jutting out. She hadnt eaten in days, sometimes she just forgets, especially in the midst of work, but other times she just decides not to, she often felt disgusted with the feeling of food in her stomach.

She may be a doctor but she rarely takes care of herself, though because of her already small figure no one ever noticed, she always made sure to wear concealing clothing, and the possibility of going to a pool or beach was zero, as she was too occupied with work. She pulled herself into the shower and winced as the water poured over her thighs.

Her thoughts turned yet again to her cyborg savior.

'maybe I should try and find him tommorow? To see how he was doing, and just to see him again' she couldnt lie to herself, their spectacular introduction and the moment they had today left her with a peculiar fondness for him. That and the fact she hadnt ever had any guy in her life that did that for her. The only ones that ever did that kind of stuff for her where Jack, Winston, and Reinhardt. and jack was like a father to her, Winston a gorilla, and Rein was like the drunk uncle.

Come to think of it, she hadnt ever felt this fondness for anyone, there just had never been anyone to feel for. She only had close friends.

She finished up her shower and changed her bandages, she walked over to her bed and threw herself onto it, instantly falling asleep. That night she actually got some sleep, even if she had to wake up at 6 to head to Gibraltar.

She woke up and started her usual routine, noting the intense ache that came from her thighs, she packed and headed for the aircraft bay, meeting up with the familiar group of people she had come to know as her family.

The first to speak was a cheery british girl that had been waiting outside the door of the hoverbird

"there she is! Thought you overslept love!"

"sorry for my lateness lena, is everyone already on board?"

"everyone is ready love, we should be departing as soon as you get in too"

before they could head into the hoverbird, the brit pulled her aside and more quietly asked her

"who is the ninja looking bloke that jack brought along? He's been pretty quiet since he got on"

"that is Genji, he was the patient I was operating on for the last week, long story short he has been recruited by jack to help with the shimada problem, but I would give him some space initially, he as been through a lot these past few days"

"alright then love, ill take your advice, though we probably shouldnt keep jack waiting any longer!"

they headed into the hoverbird where you could already smell the drinks, overwatch was known to be very indulgent when they could. Immediately she could hear a western voice proclaiming

"Reinhardt! Ill bet ya 100 you cant beat me in an ol drinking contest"

with force a loud german voice replied

"bah! I could beat you any day Mcree! Germans are known for their tolerance of drink!"

her attention turned to a familiar cyborg sitting in the back, he seemed to almost be brooding.

She walked passed the group of men and women drinking away, them ignoring her most likely because of said drinks, and She sat down next to the ninja and turned to him

"is everything alright Genji? I know this must be a lot to take in, and I can only imagine how different life is now"

he sighed and turned to look at the blonde

"i am doing fine Angela, thank you for your concern , but I cannot deny this new body is uncomfortable but seeing people so cheerful does lighten my spirits, as well as you being here now"

well, at least he wasnt upset with overwatch, but she still wanted to help him through the endeavor he was dealing with. The hoverbird departed and they sat there chatting, moslty small talk, with some interspaced ramblings about their pasts, Genji reminiscing on life before the change, and how the yamada's handled things. She didnt even noticed when she fell asleep on him.

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should he move? She seemed so peaceful so he decided not to, besides, not many where paying attention to them so he figured they would avoid being noticed. He took this time alone to think, tensions with china meant they had to fly over the pacific and America, so he had 9 hours

he couldnt help but admire her, her bleach blonde hair brushing up against his shoulder 'she really does look like an angel' he couldnt help but thinking to himself, she tried so hard to help people, and he felt for her as he could only guess about how stressed she was given her breakdown last night. he hoped he could befriend his savior.

he thought on his new body. Was he a new person now? It certainly seemed so, what if his brain had been damaged? and they had replaced part of his brain with machine. Would his thoughts even be his own anymore? The thought chilled him

he couldnt feel the finer details of things anymore, the only thing that had kept a full sense of touch was his face, and his face, it looked disgusting and scarred now, it was a shred of what it used to be. He used to be a lady killer, but he figured those days where behind him now, he didnt have his ugh, big guy anymore anyway, he couldnt taste well anymore, his tongue was burned pretty badily, and his taste had degraded with it. Well, at least he could still eat, the suit somehow just filtered his waste into a small compartment he had on his butt, which he had to clean once a day.

He wondered if he could cry? He hadnt felt that sad yet, but the question still lingered painfully.

He didnt even notice that he had started dozing off, soon, he was asleep. They where both tired as they hadnt had much sleep, so them falling asleep was an inevitability.

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they both awoke to a towering german man shaking them gently.

"cmon you two, we have arrived at gibralter, I hope your sleep was restful!"

she noticed that she had been leaning on Genji, and covered her face as it became warmer amd red

'how long had she been laying on him like that?'

'did he just let her sleep on his sholder?'

she stood up, embarrassed at what had happened during the flight

she turned to genji, who seemed to be in the same situation as her, bowing his head as to avoid looking at people.

"cmon now you lovebirds! They have dinner already steaming for us!"

oh god, she'd have to go talk to people, and judging by Reinhardt's words, everyone had seen her sleeping on his shoulder. God she was never going to hear the end of it, she sighed, stood up, and gave Reinhardt a playful punch to the arm.

"Reinhardt! There is nothing going on between me and Genji!"

she said as she pouted and started walking towards the mess hall.

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Genji stood up and began following the blonde. Reinhardt put his hand on the ninja's shoulder

Genji turned to the giant man

"Genji, can I ask you a favor from one man to another?"

Genji nodded

"of course"

"even if nothing is going on between you two, she Is probably going to be assigned as your medic because of her mobility"

he patted the cyborg's chest

"keep her safe please, she has been worrying me lately and I just dont want to lose another member of my family"

the words inspired the ninja, he could see just how much they all cared about each other

he bowed and proclaimed

"i will protect her with my life"

Reinhardt gave a hearty chuckle and slapped Genji on his back

"Now now, no need to get all worked up! People might think youve fallen! Now, let us go and feast!"

'people may think youve fallen' that thought would certainly linger

they started walking towards the mess hall as well, Reinhardt giving genji a guide to Gibraltar on the way, as he would be staying there often.

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oh god, they where all bugging her about it. Tracer sat in front of her dangling a small phone with a picture of Angela and Genji leaning on each other, sleeping.

She couldnt even hide her red face anymore, as it was more red than one hand could cover

"cmon then, fess up love! Whats going on between you and Genji?"

she questiond with a sly look on her face

"it was just a misunderstanding! I promise there is nothing going on between me and him, I swear he is just my patient!"

she replied, everyone seeing her red face now as she retracted her hand to reply

"oh bollocks, I know there must be something, if you two arent together, then how do you feel about him?"

the brit said as she playingly punched the blonde

"cmon love, out wit it"

"thats enough lena"

came from the ape scientist Winston

"she has had a long week, cut her some slack"

"alright Winston, but im gonna get ta the bottom of this later"

she said dissapointed, as she bit into an english muffin.

"why dont you try the banana pudding Angela? It is exceedingly good, and you havent eaten anything since we got in here"

said the gorilla, concerned

"im fine winston, I had a big breakfast, im not very hungry"

he wasnt buying it

"but we departed at one forty six a.m last night, it has been over 10 hours since you ''ate breakfast''"

he looked at her with a stern look. She sighed, she couldnt hide it, especially not from the worlds smartest scientist. She stood up and went to get a small plate of food.

A small ninja and a towering german walked into the mess hall, you could already the mans thundering voice

"and thats when I said , What do you mean too strong? Im reinhardt! I can take on any bot!"

"there they are, we where starting to think you'd gone and given Genji the full tour love!"

"sorry for my lateness, I was just showing this young man around his new home"

they both sat down at the table.

"now genji, love, anything going with you and the doc?

She said, leaning in towards the ninja, as to try and keep quiet. She was stopped as she was slapped by the blonde behind her

"what did Winston tell you?!"

"i got it, damn, didnt have ta give me a concusion love"

she said, rubbing her head

"well you shouldve just stayed out of my buisness then"

replied the blonde

"may I sit here?"

she said to the ninja, motioning to a seat near him. He nodded and patted the seat next to him

"of course Angela, I will be back in one second, I find myself craving food"

she sat down as he got up to go and get a plate of food, the german man follwing to get his food as well.

Finally breaking his silence in the front of the table, the faded blonde man known as jack spoke to Angela

"Angela, after the week of training and adjusting Genji will be put through, your assigned to be his field medic on his campaign against the shimada, but as I see, youve already gotten acquainted with our new member quite well"

did everyone think that her and Genji where a thing now? God, she knew she wouldnt hear the end of this but, damn.

"alright, I was already guessing that I would be assigned to him"

and as such, the week of heart hell began.