a/n: new chapter!
disclaimer: if i owned grey's there would be no little spinoff
It was nine o'clock on Sunday night and Holli was restless. Well, you try staying in bed for weeks on end and see if you like it!
This was, in fact, Holli's idea of hell. Well, not exactly, because then her mother would be standing over her, yelling at her, like she always did. Not that Holli didn't love her mom, she did, she thought she did at least; it was just that they didn't get along. Never had and never would. Her own mother hadn't even come to see her, and she was in the hospital, and she had almost sort of died! How had someone so plain nice as Addison become friends with the most self-centered person Holli knew? Of course, according to the nurses who always came, gossiped, and kept her up on what was going on outside of this cramped little room, bless their souls, Addi was Satan in heels, in fact everyone called her McSatan. She was the living embodiment of the title The Devil Wears Prada, with her rep as Satan and affinity for designer wear.
The thing was, Holli knew it was a façade. She kept her outside hard and perfect because then no one could see the soft, crushed part of her that had been broken by Derek and then stomped on by Mark. Holli got exactly why she did it, because it was the exact same thing she did. She always was bubbly and charismatic and maybe just a tad too outgoing and eager, but on the inside she was breaking, she could feel it. No, her heart had not been broken and stomped on by guys, but a self-absorbed mother and a pretty much absentee father? Not so great on the self esteem. The only time her mom seemed to notice her was when she did something that was completely brag worthy when she completely embarrassed -how had her mother so eloquently put it? Oh yes- the family reputation that was her duty to uphold, blah, blah, blah, yadda, yadda, yadda. And every single time she did something wrong, her mom would yell at her and she would break just a little more.
She was almost thanking God for the accident. Because, seriously, she didn't think she could take anymore of being broken. She wasn't suicidal, never had been. But she had been ready to snap and do something really stupid. Every day she spent in this hospital, with Addi, who had always seemed slightly more motherly than her own mother, hell, with Karev (although she continued to call him Hot Intern Guy in her mind) and Derek, both of whom stopped in from time to time, she was being fixed. Not seriously fixed or anything, more like being fixed with tape, when what she really needed was to be stapled back together. But for now that was all she needed. That was all she could ask of these people who weren't her family.
She was so fucking tired of sitting here! She needed to move. Holli always moved when she was anxious, restless, sad, angry, you name it and she probably wouldn't be sitting down. So she got up. Whoa, head rush! she thought, but even if that head rush made the room spin, it was the most welcome feeling she had ever felt.
Once that whole mess was over with, she started to pace. But pacing wasn't good enough. She had been staring at these four fucking walls for weeks now and she was sick of the generic color and the generic lighting and the generic bedding and the generic everything! So she opened the door, checked to make sure no one was watching, and walked out. She had no idea what she was doing or where she was going, but she needed to walk, needed to go somewhere.
Her feet decided to carry her to the elevators and up a couple floors. She didn't really care where she was headed; she was kind of in a daze, she was just so happy to be moving finally. They carried her down an empty hallway to the only lit room in the hall. She was suddenly curious what was in that room, so she knocked.
"Come in," a female voice answered.
Holli obeyed. For a moment she froze, because she wasn't sure if what she was seeing was real or if it was a cruel after-effect of hitting her head. Because this lady, well there was no other way to put it, she kind of didn't have a face. Well, she did, but it was not normal. But Holli had never been one to care about how normal something was, only stopped for a second. "Hi, I'm Holli," she stated simply.
"I can't really remember my name, but everyone seems to be calling me Jane Doe. Nice to meet you."
alright, so review. oh and if there's anything you want to happen or any couples you want to see tell me cuz i'll try to work them in somehow. i'm even willing to do addison or alex with other people, if you realize that it won't end well for that couple. although if the addex is what drew you in, then you probably won't want to see them with anyone else... but just a warning, they're not going to get together and live happily ever after, there WILL BE PROBLEMS. but review anyways! ok i'm going to leave you to that now.
