It would be an understatement to say I looked different. I transformed. It had been over two weeks and still no one has found my location.
So far, no matter how hard anyone fights to kill me or kidnap me, no one prevails.
I was bowed to and commended just for watching the fall, for beginning a lie. For some awful reason, I loved it.
During the day, I made battle arrangements to make sure I wouldn't be taken. At night, I sat on the palace roofs, shooting any passerby that may or may not be a stormtrooper. Who cares? I was protecting the power inside.
My new wardrobe consisted of long black, flowing dresses with a black cape and Ky at my arm.
My head screamed so much it began to burn through my whole body until eventually I became numb to it.
I created my own Darkness andI was reveling in its impurity with Ky.
I came back to our room exhausted one night.
"How is my darling woman doing?"
I smiled through my dark lipstick.
"I just ordered another set towards Jakku."
Ky smiled. "Perfect."
I fell onto the bed and took off my heels. My dress fell around me.
"Do you think they know yet?"
"They should by now."
Ky got on top of me, smiling. "I'm so proud of you."
His lips teased against mine before he pushed down with full force. My nails combed his hair.
We both jumped when we heard a pounding on the door.
Ky looked back then shrugged before lowering his mouth on mine again.
"Open up!"
I recognized that type of muffled voice.
I pushed him off of me and sat up.
Ky covered my mouth and whispered,
"We have to leave."
I nodded. The only way out was through the window. He opened it and looked out. We were stories up.
I looked to the side and noticed vines growing next to us. I tapped his shoulder.
"Let me go first. They may not be sturdy." He reached for them and began climbing down.
"Okay, come on," he called out.
I walked over to it but my arm didn't seem quite long enough to reach it. I heard voices muffled under a helmet. They blasted the door and I flinched. Just a little more!
I heard them running in as I caught on. I began climbing down but I wasn't fast enough. My dress got caught on a twig.
"Padmé jump! I'll catch you!" I looked down. He was so far but I was so slow.
I looked up and there he was. Not a stormtrooper but something unrecognizable. A monster. The black hooded figure was looking right at me. The mask covered his face.
"Padmé!"
I let go of the vines. The masked figure reached out to me as I fell. And for some reason, something in me told me to take his hand but I didn't.
Ky caught me and helped me back to my feet. "Go!"
I couldn't feel my legs. I was paralyzed with fear.
Once we made it to a clearing, he slowed down.
"That's him. That's Kylo Ren."
I've never been so afraid in my life. He must've reached out to me since my father wanted me. He must've ordered him to come after me.
The town we were in just this morning was on fire.
"This is my fault."
"No it's not. People had refueled hate for the First Order that is being brought back. You were just the trigger."
I wiped my cheek that was wet with tears.
I shook my head. This wasn't what I wanted. But isn't this what I've been doing for weeks? Now that I see everything on fire, I realized no one could save me.
Ky grabbed my elbow as he pulled me farther away from the chaos.
"It'll all end soon and you can get your little vengeance."
Within this mess, no one was paying attention to anything. Ky managed to steal yet another ship.
I sat in the passenger seat quietly.
"Hey. Don't look like that. You wanted to make a difference right? Well now you have."
I kept staring out the window.
How could he say such things? I shook my head. Maybe it's just me.
There wasn't anywhere safe anymore.
I told him to stay in autopilot for awhile so we could rest. The ship had a seating area for extra passengers but that was it.
I sat down and put my face in my hands.
"This was such a bad idea."
I heard Ky sit down next to me, putting an arm over my shoulder.
"Maybe this is a good thing."
The Dark side was just taunting me. I'm not strong enough for either side.
"I mean, you get to learn a little and so does your family. I mean definitely your dad. Sending out a psychopath isn't a great-"
I lifted my head. "Okay."
He sighed. "Padmé, you need to relax. Look at me."
"Hm?"
His lips were pressing on mine once my face turned. This kiss was soft, and felt genuine.
He turned his body to me, entangling his fingers in my hair. His other hand was trying to find an open piece of the fabric to feel my bare skin in the palm of his hand. My shoulders and thighs were the only vulnerable parts.
His fingers massaged my thigh. Everything he did was perfectly coordinated. I moaned as his tongue teased against my lips and his hand grabbed at the underside of my leg.
Something powerful pulled inside me, causing me to hold him closer.
A beeping in the cockpit caught my attention.
I pushed away and looked over at the noise.
"What's that?"
His eyes darted to the sound before he stood up.
"We have company."
"Go into lightspeed."
"Working on it!"
A new ship was following us other than just TIE fighters.
My father's shuttle.
"Ky..."
I heard him messing with the buttons as his ship got closer.
Kylo Ren flashed behind my eyes and I fell back.
"Ky!"
I scrambled to my feet.
"Got it!"
The second I stood up I just fell back again as we went into lightspeed.
