I'm not dead I promise! Just a lot of things happening right now


Voices from my parents, the light of the rising sun, and Xach's body as well as his lips on my forehead woke me. One arm held me around my shoulders, holding me to his body.

"I thought he said she wouldn't know."

"Ben. Shut up."

My eyes were open a slit.

"They remind me of us when we first fell in love. Remember Ach-To?"

My dad grumbled. My eyes shot open when I realized they were reminiscing their love story.

I pushed him away and he woke up as well.

"Sorry," I got up quickly, walking back inside.

I followed my memory back to my door.

It clicked with the touch of my finger. I walked inside and fell on the bed.

I never want to feel that way again, especially when I know my feelings won't be reciprocated.

I changed into a gray tank top and some pants with a blaster holster. There was a clip for my lightsaber which I picked up immediately.

There was a hard knock on my door that made me jump out of my skin.

I was forcefully turned around as my arm twisted behind my back. I could use the Force right now except whenever I do use it, I lose control.

I felt cool metal touch my throat.

"You're coming with me," Ky whispered against my ear.


I knew by taking a ship I'd be followed except I went to the only place I knew. I went home.

Ky was watching my every move. I didn't dare say a word.

I landed in front of the house I grew up in. I wish I could just go back and start over.

"Go inside."

His voice startled me. I could've killed him by now but I'm trying to maintain myself.

I got up and began walking towards the front door.

"Padmé! Move!"

I looked over my shoulder.

The second I did, an explosion went off.

The impact pushed me to the ground.

I felt wood and glass hit my entire body.

My ears were ringing and my vision was fuzzy as I got up.

My home, my childhood, was burning and broken before me.

Blood ran down my cheek.

I stumbled through the smoke say it burned my eyes.

Glass crunched under my boots. Xach was lying on the ground, not too far from Ky.

I wiped at my cheek before pointing my saber down at Xach.

He opened his eyes, looking at me in disbelief. I brought my finger to my lips.

I walked over to Ky who was trying to get up but failing.

He looked up at me. "I can explain-"

I kicked him in his side. He fell on his back, wincing.

I stomped my heel onto his shoulder and he cried out before I pointed the tip of my saber to his neck. "Talk before I slice your head off."

He was trying to catch his breath, words mingling in the air. "I wanted to prove to you what's going on. They're targeting anyone they could get to. What if your parents walked in there?"

My face didn't change even though the thought of seeing them dead turned my stomach.

"I do care. Didn't you feel something when we kissed?"

No. I didn't. I got off him and he stood.

A smile worked on his lips before he reached out to embrace me. I let him before punching him in the gut. He hunched over on me.

"Don't ever use me again."