Blue sat against the side of her bed on the carpeted floor of her room. Her heart ached as the thoughts continued to infiltrate her mind, clouding her once strong faith. She found it kind of funny that God chose this very moment to make it stormy outside, with clouds rolling in and threatening ti cover the sun, but surely that meant He did exist? "My God," she began to pray, closing her eyes and bowing her head. "Why can't I feel You near?" She felt the tears begin to swell in her eyes. "I've spent so much time growing close to You, reading my Bible, singing Your praises, and preaching Your name. I've experienced Your loving presence and have felt You so close. How is it that a single thought can rob me of the faith that once moved mountains? Are You real, my God? Have I been wrong this entire time?" She wanted to believe she wasn't wrong. She'd endured so much for the God she loved, but now she was wondering if it was all in vain. She was humiliated and made fun of by people who once claimed to be her friends, and she fought so many battles and God had always won her the victory. She'd been through so much, so how was it that doubt could cloud her mind so easily? "Where are You, my God?" She continued, choking up. "Why can't I feel You? I have something to say, it feels like You're slipping away and I can't find You anywhere. It feels like You found me, but now, somehow, I'm lost again, but I know that faith could mean there won't be any answers, and hope might mean enduring through the night. Please, help me not forget in the darkness, the things that I came to believe in light. Please, my God. You are my life." She finished. She opened her tear-filled, blue eyes and lifted her head to the window on the wall in front of her. Outside, the clouds were a dark indigo color, but somehow, they couldn't managed to cover the sun and seemed to just loom around its rays with hollow threats. They wouldn't be able to block out the light. Blue smiled at the thought. No matter what the Son still shines, and I still have hope for tomorrow.
Moral: No matter what, never give up on God. This lesson is very important to me because when I was a younger Christian, I wanted to give up so bad. There were times that I seriously wondered if God was real or if Christianity was even for me. I still wondered sometimes if God is real, but the fact is that it is part of our Christian walk. Even John the Baptist doubted that Jesus was the Messiah. No matter what, you just need to keep fighting! Don't give the devil victory, he only seeks to lead you away from God and the only way that will happen is if you let him! Keep fighting the good fight, my brothers and sisters. Endure 'til the end.
This is based off the song "Something To Say" by Starfield. It is a beautiful song that talks about doubting God and one powerful line in the song helps me out whenever I'm doubting God or if I'm struggling with temptation. As simple as it is, it says this:
"Faith might mean there won't be answers,
And hope might mean enduring through the night.
Help me not forget in darkness
The things that I believed in light"
It is an absolutely beautiful song that is truly a blessing. Persevering has great rewards, just hold on until the end. God bless!
Also, do any of you have stories of how persevering or simply sticking close to your faith and to God has helped you? I would love to hear what God has done in other people's lives!
