A/N; I know this chapter is very short and I'm sorry; I'll definitely make the next one longer. Enjoy!

Always Have and Always Will: - Chapter 11

"Babe, what you doing out here? Who were you talking to?" Emily asked as she walked outside to find Alison on the front porch.

"I was just having coffee outside since it's a nice day." Ali said with a fake smile.

"Okay but who were you talking to?" The blonde sighed.

"I was on the phone to your mum." A confused look came over Emily's face. "Why?"

"Because of what you said last night." Emily looked down at her feet in guilt.

"Ali, I-"

"No, Em, the thing is I want kids and I've told you that before."

"I know you have."

"Exactly and now I'm questioning a future that I have dreamed of for so long; a future in which I was married to you and we had beautiful twins. Now that I know what you want, what I had imagined will never happen." Tears began gathering up in the blonde's eyes.

"Ali, you need to understand that we have busy and consuming careers which-"

"If you're going to say careers that stop us from having as much time to look after our own kids, it's not true; plenty of teachers and coaches have kids. What is the really reason? What are you not telling me?" The brunette sighed. She looked deep into the blonde's blue eyes and only saw pain and torment.

"I- I'm scared; my parents were always so great and I'm scared that I can't rise up to that and be like that with my kids."

"Em, you will be an amazing mother." Ali said as she grabbed the brunette's hand.

"You don't know that."

"No, I do; you are amazing around children and children absouelty adore you." Emily still wasn't convinced; she truly believed that she would be a bad mother. She, in her days, had seen kids who grew up to be bad people because of their parents and it ruined their lives; she could never live with herself if she did that.

"Ali, I wish I could tell you that I want kids so that you would stop questioning our future together but I can't, I don't want to lie to you."

"I don't what to say." Ali was being honest; she didn't know what to say or even do. She of course loves the brunette but once again; how can they have a future together when they want different things?

"Ali, I love you; please don't do anything stupid. Have some patience with me, maybe I'll eventually change my mind."

"Maybe eventually? I can't wait forever, Em, I'm not getting younger." Tears began to stream from both of them.

"Alison, please give me time." Emily begged.

"I will but how long?" Alison knew this question was unfair; Emily would never be able to know how long it would take to change her mind but she had to make it clear that she can't and won't wait forever.

Silence filled the air; neither of them knew what to say. They loved each other and wanted to be together so badly but neither were sure it would work anymore. Alison's thought went through her head at a million miles per hour; she looked at every option and thought about her future. Eventually she came to a conclusion.

"Em, I love you and I'm not going to make any decisions right now but you need to remember what I said."

"I will, I most definitely will." Emily pulled the blonde in for a hug.

"I'm so sorry about all of this." She whispered in her ear.

"I know."

From now on Alison would do anything in her power to show Emily how amazing she would be as a mom because she didn't want to break up with her; she loved her beyond words and do anything for her. Obviously, a person can only take so much and so Alison would deal with this for as long as she can; she's strong and she will manage to do it for a long time but everything now is up to Emily.