A/N; I'm sorry, I said I'd make the next chapter longer but it's also quite short since I'm still quite busy. I hope you enjoy this and don't forget to check out my other Emison story 'I Still Love You'.
Always Have and Always Will- Chapter 12
It had been a few days since their talk. Things weren't the same as before. At home, they were quiet and at work they walked by each other without even looking over at one another. Neither of them knew what do to do. There was this invisible pressure put upon them that put a huge imbalance in their relationship. Emily tried hard to change her mind and Alison tried hard to be okay with Emily's choice but the thought bothered her every day.
The blonde was quietly sitting reading a book on their couch as the brunette got home from work after swim practice.
"Hi." Emily quietly whispered as she out down her stuff.
"Hey." Alison's eyes didn't even leave her book as she spoke.
"How was work?"
"Good. How was practice?"
"It was good." And with that the conversation was over. Emily went to take a shower and stayed upstairs whilst Alison stayed downstairs. Both of them hated this; they loved each other so much and this really hurt them. Every single day since the talk this happened; it was almost a routine for them. They didn't seem to do anything with each other, their favourite part of the day -breakfast- seemed to not exist anymore, they eat in silence then drove to work together in silence and they came home separately. They hadn't even kissed once since everything happened.
Finally, at 11pm, Alison headed upstairs to their room. Usually by this time Emily is asleep but to the blonde's surprise today she wasn't. As Ali walked in Emily simply smiled at the blonde. Quietly, the blonde walked into the bathroom. She looked in the mirror and contemplated everything. Suddenly behind her Emily appeared just looking at her with a sad smile.
"We can't keep going like this."
"I know." The blonde turned around to face the brunette as she spoke.
"What do we do? Because I hate this so much; I feel like we're not even together when we're at home and I miss you."
"I wish I knew because I miss you too."
"Is this just a phase or something more serious?"
"I honestly don't know." The two sighed and went to sleep because the conversation was going nowhere. The two fell asleep with their backs to each other.
Then the most dreaded part of their day came; breakfast. The two walked downstairs separately then one made coffee and the other breakfast and then they eat in silence. There was no more stolen glances, kiss and hugs, no more laughter and no more smiles. It sucked for both of them. Their favourite part of the day became the worst.
As Emily put her dish in the sink she felt like she was going to explode.
"Alison, I can't do this anymore."
"Can we not do this before work?"
"Well, when else are we going to do it? It's not like we talk to each other!" For the first time in forever Emily raised her voice at Alison.
"And is that only my fault?! It's not like you try to talk to me either!" Emily sighed. Ali had a point.
"You're right, I'm sorry for raising my voice."
"Me too."
"What's going on with us?"
"I- I honestly don't know." Emily walked over to the blonde and grabbed her hands; softly she began rubbing circles on them with her thumbs. This was the first physical contact they have had since the talk. Butterflies appeared in the blonde's stomach.
"I love you and we need to sort this out because I can't imagine my life without you." Without any hesitation, Alison pulled the brunette closer and kissed her. As you can imagine, after so long without any contact the kiss became heated and passionate within seconds. The next thing they knew, Alison was pinned up against the wall as Emily pressed kisses down her neck. Let's just say they were late for work.
"You know that won't sort this out for long." Ali said as they quietly sat in the car.
"I know, we're going to have to work hard to sort this but I think we're strong enough to get through it." Alison smiled.
"Me too." The blonde pressed a kiss against the brunette's cheek and left the car. Obviously, things weren't sorted between them just yet but they had taken the first step which was accepting that there is a big problem. It won't be smooth sailing but I think they'll get through it.
