Chapter 4
"The Cullens"
There had been so much stuff going on in my life that was new and unreal that
I wanted to spend my Saturday by myself with things that were familiar.
I took the quilt my mom had bought me for my first sleepover and my favorite
teddy bear and sat and watched old favorite movies I had not seen in years.
The next day on Sunday I was happy that Charlie had gone fishing as usual.
I sat in the living room watching my last Disney movie finishing my breakfast
when I saw a small glimpse of sunlight. I put on my boots and my rain coat i didn't care
how I was dressed I was going into the forest. Not long after the house was gone
behind me I found a small trail and decided to take it with the hopes of not falling
as easily.I came across a fallen tree and walked around it. The forest was deep green and the fresh air was exactly what I needed especially since I had spent the entire Saturday inside.
It was a bit embarrassing to spent the entire day as if you were seven years old again but
I had felt like it was much needed ,still all I could think about was blood.
What else was there to the story? What more could Jasper tell me?It had been so obvious
that Carlisle didn't like me around at lest Edward and Alice seemed friendly.
I had walked so far in to the woods I had no idea where I was or wich way to go back.
I looked down on my feet and realized I wasn't standing on the trail anymore.
I looked around to see if I could find it but I couldn't. Then I heard something
behind me , what ever it was it moved slowly, my heart started beating faster.
Could it be a animal? A mountain lion? Then I felt panic rising up when I realized what else
was out there and the 'cuse of the other murders.I stared right at the spot where the sound came from ,I heard that it was definitely a human wich confirmed vampire. I was ready to pass out when the character stepped forward. The creature was blonde.
"Bella , you shouldn't walk around in the woods by yourself" He said
"Jasper! Oh thank god" I said and started breathing , he walked up to me.
"I think its a good thing you were so terrified, It will keep you from going out again"
He said with a smirk. I couldn't put in to words how happy I was to see him.
"I will never again" I said and gave him a hug. He made small growl and stepped back.
"Sorry I was not prepared for that" He said and looked down.
"But you have been around me before" I said. He looked up and smirked.
"Well you smell so good I usually hold my breath?" He said and looked me
He actually held his breath!? I was right all this time
"For how long?" I asked He gave me a crocked smile
"Vampires don't need to breath" He said.
"You don't need to breathe!?" I said and my voice echoed.
"No,Carlisle swam from England to France once" He said and took a step closer.
I couldn't even think straight
"But, wow"I said
"Its not that far Bella" He said and was right in front of me
"Ok sure" I said and forgot what we even talked about since we were standing like we had
at the field trip. It was embarrassing since I knew he could hear how fast my heart was beating and exactly how I felt. He looked at something behind me and then back at me with a smile that made my knees week.
"I wanna show you something" He took my arm and then lifted my up on his back.
"What is going on?" I asked
"Close your eyes" He replied and I did as he said. All of a sudden small movements followed
and I felt like I was flying It didn't last for long and then he carefully put me down on my feet, we were standing in a new part of the forest were the sun peaked in right in front of us .I held his cool hand and he led me forward towards it.
"I thought you should see what I looked like in the sun" He said and let go of my hand.
If I had ever thought he was dazzling before it was nothing compared to what he looked
now.I just gasped . He stood in perfect posture with his hand behind his back chin up,his skin sparkled in a thousand small diamonds and his perfectly blonde hair lit up like the sun itself.
I was completely stunned and speechless I had never thought that this was what he would look
like in the sun, I had actually imagined the opposite. He turned to look at me.
"How you feel about my appearance is surprising to me" He said in a controlled voice
"What? You are so beautiful" I whispered. He looked away and walked pass me.
"I am not beautiful Bella, I am a killer and a monster" He said in a low voice
"And a hero"I Interrupted him he didn't turn to look at me.
"I am designed to kill "He said sounding sad and distant
"I don't care" I said and slowly walked up to turned and looked at me with pain in his eyes.
"I have killed people Bella" He said swallowing hard
"But you feed on animals now" I said in a steady voice
"I have killed other vampies that were compleatly innocent"He said.
I was surprised now and when he feelt my response he looked up at me.
"I don't care ,you are difrent now"I said and slowly put my hand to stroke his cheek.
He took my hand and moved it away.
"I have never wanted someone's blood more then I want yours"
"You said that" I said and met his eyes
"I want to kill you all the time, I want to drink you dry all the time" He said and got closer
"I trust you" I said in a shaky voice
"Thats foolish of you" He said with dark eyes and a grin.
"Maybe but I can't stay way"I said
"I will never know If I can control my self Bella " He said his arm touched mine.
"But Alice will.."I said. His eyes got wide and then he broke in to a took a chuckle he took a
few steps back and then he stopped .
"I can't believe a human can say that" He said to himself and looked up at the tree tops.
"Do you regret that I know so much?" I said and he looked at me again.
"Yes and no" He said and looked brooding.
"I know you can feel other peoples feelings, like you know mine"
"I can also control other peoples feelings"
"Really,could you make me feel something?" I said curious
"Well what do you wish"? He said and looked guarded
"You know how I feel so I think I want to know how you feel"
"Ok" He turned and stood right in front of me.I waited and then I felt it coming over me
like a mist, feelings of passion, lust ,desire, and pain.
"Oh" I said and the mist vanished
"So now you know" He said and looked a bit shy.
"How does it feel to want my blood?"
"I can't show you that" He said with strength
"No I am just asking" He looked like he was trying to find the words
"Like your throat is dry as the dessert and hot as the sun, in your mouth is a big sip of
cold water but you can't swallow it, you have to keep it there. With you its ten times harder and whenever I leave you is like I spit it out."
"Oh its must be hard for you"
"It's hard for any vampire, drinking animal blood is like one drop, its not enough but its a hunger you never feel full you just not hungry anymore"
"How do you become a vampire" I realized it was the question I had never thought about."
"You get bitten, then three days follow of excruciating pain and then you become a vampire"
"So you were bitten by a vampire"
"Yes" he said short
"What about the others"
"Carlisle bit them all actually" I walked up to him
"So how did he choose them?" He took my hand again and we started walking
"The didn't get chosen, they were all dying, Emmet was attacked by a bear, and then
Rosalie found him and brought him to Carlsile to let him live on, so to speak."
"So what happened to Rosalie" I asked
"She was bleeding in a street after she had been beaten, Edward had the Spanish influenca and Esme his wife, had fallen of a cliff, Carlisle would never do this to some one who had another choice" I tripped and then took his arm to walk with better support.
"So you and Alice?" I asked carefully
"We were people who had another choice I guess" I felt like there was more but I didn't
wanna push .It impossible to think of Rosalie as a bitch after I had hear what had
happened to her, to all of them.
"Don't be sad" he whispered to me.
"I'm not, not really I'm just processing I told him.
"So nice with some fresh air?" he asked and looked around
"Yeah " I said and took a deep breath
"Can't imagen standing inside all day is healthy for you" He said and smirked
"Wait how did you know I was inside all day?" I looked at him.
"I was standing close to your house watching you" he said and looking forward
"Why?" I asked
"It is my duty to keep you safe Bella" I said and swallowed again.
"Ok ,so all day?" I asked
" and night" He said
"Night?" I said and raised my eyebrows
"We don't sleep?"
"Like at all?"
"No" He said and gave me a smile. He lifted my arm up and I knew what that meant, I jumped
up on his back and closed my eyes then he put me own again. I opened my eyes and saw that
we were right behind Charlies house.
"Promise me that you won't walk in the woods again" He said and looked in to my eyes.
"I promise, and if I did you would be there to save me from the big bad wolf" I joked.
He chuckled quietly and looked at me with a look that made me feel like I had missed something.
"I can't remember the last time I laughed" He said and looked at me with a honesty.
"Well I'm glad I could help" I said and shyed away from his eyes.
"No I am serious Bella, you have changed me in to someone I never thought that I could be.
Especially not in this life you have brought out a human side in me I thought I didn't have"
He looked like he was surprised by it himself.
"You do have good qualities" I told him
"I suppose I do, you should get back in to the house now"
"Ok" I said but I didn't move I didn't want to.
"I will see you soon" He said and took my hand up to his mouth and gently kissed it.
I gasped quietly then he slowly leaned forward, I closed my eyes and felt his cool
lips softly pressed against my right cheek .Then his lips left me I opened my eyes and he was gone.
I looked around to see where he went but instead I saw that Charlie was back. I rushed across the backyard and I stumbled in to the house and took of my jacket and my boots.
"Hey Bells having a good day?" He asked from seeing my face
"Yes, absolutely"
"Yeah I did't expect you to be outside but , wait is that an actual smile?
"No" I tried to lie and smiled again.
"If I didn't know any better I would have thought a boy had something to do with it"
he said and smiled and thankfully walked in to the kitchen and missed my blushing.
Later at night I had said goodnight to Charlie and got back in to my bedroom after I
had brushed my teeth.I laid on the bed starring at the ceiling, I could still clearly
feel his lips on my cheek
That Monday I got up as usual and was not surprised to see a black Mercedes pull up as I was eating my breakfast.
I got up to open the door and he was already there about to knock
"Hi" I said
"Morning" He replied in his perfect voice. I looked away to not to pass out.
" I'm not ready yet but uhm come in" I stepped back so he could walk in and closed the door behind him. Having him here was weird. I walked back to the kitchen and finished up.
Jasper watched my every move with a soft face and I probably would have been very uncomfortable if it wasn't him.
"How do you always look so good? I asked him as I grabbed my backpack
"How do you mean?"
"Your clothes, they are so perfectly coordinated in color, I never would have thought that that kind dark grey would work with blue"
"Oh I guess that's all thanks to Alice, she keeps all our wardrobes updated with the latest,
except Rosalie she likes to shop for herself." It was a new way he spoke about them I
couldn't put my finger on it as I closed and locked the door on the way out.
"You know with you spooling me like this I never get to drive my own truck."
"Being with me is safer" He said with a smirk. I almost got offended.
"I'm a good driver I will let you know!" I said as we crossed the road.
"I'm sure of it ,I meant the actual vehicle , It's not safe to drive something so ...old"
He raised an eyebrow.
"Wow, you do realize that's my first car, just don't ok. "I said and got in to the car.
"Fine" he said ,he obviously found the conversation amusing.
On the way too school I thought to myself that i liked the conversation too
We arrived at the school as usual. Jessica and the others were standing and chatting next to Tyler's car and they glanced as we got out of the car.
"Hi Bella" Eric said and waved. I started walking towards them with Jasper behind me.
"I will see you later " He said in my ear.
"Wait" I told him and walked up next to Angela.
"Hey guys ,this is Jasper." Everybody froze and I could tell the introduction caught him off-guard. I continued
"I just thought that I would properly introduce him since he will probably join us for stuff." They were all still, Jessica gave a nervous giggle. Angela was the only one that moved , she turned to him
"Hi" She said with a warm smile
"Hello" He replied. I had to save us before the situation got too awkward so I quickly took
his arm and shoved us away.
"See you later" I said and we walked away behind us I could hear Angela gasp "You guys!?"
"I can't believe you did that" He said
"What?"
"Introducing me to your friends" I got confused.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"I don't know I just thought that you wanted us to be separated"
"No, I mean I would like for you to join me for stuff , out" Without warning a strong
indescribable feeling hit me in the gut. "Was he even my boyfriend?
"I am flattered but don't expect to much" he said .I looked at him and followed what he was looking at, Alice was waving across the corridor.
"I see you later" He said and looked in to my eyes before joining her.
I was reminded that he was the most quiet and held back of the Cullens.
Spending time around too many humans was might be difficult for him, I
brooded feeling dumb for being a bit inconsiderate of his challenges.
For the entire day the gang was quiet I felt like it was not to be rude but
it was more that they didn't know what to say to me. At lunch we sat as usual and
I exchanged a look with Jasper as he sat at the Cullen table.
As the two of us walked in to bio together the others sat and looked at us
with unreadable faces but i felt like they were ore used to see us together by now.
As we sat down Mr Molina walked in and started the class as usual, I couldn't focus on what he was saying my head was filled up by how this was were we
first saw each other and how everything was so different since that day.
School ended and we just got in to the car before it started raining.
We drove for a while before he interrupted the silence
"I thought about something"
"Ok"
"Would you like to come with me to my home and meet my family?"
"Uhm yeah I mean haven't I already met them?" I felt a bit uncomfortable thinking
about standing in the same room as Rosalie.
"You have never met the matriarch of my family ,Esme , she has heard things
and she is interested in meeting you." I immediately felt different.
"Oh, Ok when?"
"Tomorrow?"
"Sure" I said and he seemed pleased with my answer. I started to worry about it a bit
untill I remembered that he could know what I felt and stopped immediately.
I would just have to save that for later. The car pulled up outside of Charlie's
"Dont worry about it" He said convincing
"Damn it! I tried" I said and quickly shrug my shoulders. He turn to me and took my hand.
"I could feel you a mile away" he said and kissed it . My other hand was already opening
the door to get out.
He put the hand on his
"No!" i said. He gave me a small smile as I tumbled out of the car embarrassed and with a face the shade of a tomato. "How could he do this to me? "I walked around the car and
he rolled down his window.
"Anything wrong?"
"No just, you don't have to be over polite with me uhm it's nice don't get me wrong but
let me open my own door at times and let me drive myself to school tomorrow"
"As you wish" He said. I was a bit surprised that he didn't argue
"I will see you later" he said and rolled up the window and drove off.
I walked in to the house repeating the last moment over and over. I was just the way he said
"see you later"
I hade cooked chicken for me and Charlie and was cleaning up in the kitchen. I tought to my self "I hope that Esme like me".
After I was finnished i said goodnight to Charlie and got upstairs.I was too occupied in my head to actually do any homework but I tried my best
to at least take a glance at it. When I was done I whent to the bathroom to brush my teeth and freshen up. When I walked back in to
my room I walked over to my chair to grab the quilt I had left on the chair but saw it was gone. "It had just been there the entire time
I studied " thought. I didn't think that much more about it and layed down in the bed and there it was. I had barely time to think before I heard a small thumping
sound I turned and there he was standing in my room."My room!"
"Jasper!" I Gasped
"I didn't mean to scare you" He said and slowly walked closer
"I can't believe you are here" I said and sat up
"I wanted to uhm see you I uh ,may I?" He said and made a gesture at my bed
"Sure" I sad. He slowly sat down at the edge of the bed.
"You should'nt let your head spin like that" He said softly and quietly
"I did you get in here?" I asked a smirk flew across his face
"The window" He replied and looked up at me in away as if he was a little embarrassed.
"Thats interesting have you done this before?"
"No" he whisprered and shook his head like he was surprised by himself. "I'm usually more a gentleman" He moved closer and now sat right in front of me
"I find you fascinating" He said and looked in to my eyes
"You are over a hundred years old and controll feelings and I'm fascinating?" I joked without breaking eyecontact he smiled in that way I only had seen twice before.
"I guess you have a point" He said close enough for me too feel hos cool breath. I silently gasped and he leaned in and softly kissed me.
We kept kissing and the more we kissed the more I wanted it. I opened my mouth a bit more and we kissed with our tounges.
I slowly leaned back and pulled him down with me.
"I can't" Jasper said I opened my eyes and found him across the room.
"Why?" I asked him, he looked tortured looking away
"Its hard ,your blood pumping,heart beating faster"
"Oh Im sorry"I said and felt like the arousement dropped and vanished. he turned and looke straight at me
"Don't apolagize, I should have hunted before I came here"
"Don't worry we will figure it out, I promise" I told him in the best way I could. His face changed.
"I belive that" He said and stood straight again.
"Come closer , please, we will be more careful" He slowly walked back to the side of the bed I moved over and he layed down next to me.
"I will be gone when you wake up" he wispered
"Ok "I said and pulled the cover over me and turn to see his face one last time.
I closed my eyes and my sleep fell on me as his kiss on my forehead.
The next morning when I woke up he was missing like he said ,for a second
I thought that it was all a dream but then I found the quilt in the bed and not on the chair.
Charlie had already left, he spent so much time at the station I was surprise I could saw him at all, atleast he was still today was the day, I was going to walk in to his world. I thought as I got in to the truck. When I parked in my usal spot I saw Jasper standing with Alice and Edward ,he said something short to them and then walked towards me. The entire parking lot was following him with their eyes. "I will never be used to this"
I wispered and then he stood next to the door about to open it and then stoped himself.
I opended it and stepped gave me a small smirk
"Had had to stop myself, reflex"
"Well at least is not a bad habit." I said and slammed the door behind me and took his arm.
People were staring to the ground or pretending to continue a conversation as we walked passed them. On our way to my locker we passed the principal, Mr Molina and our gym teacher who tried their best not to have dropped jaws.
"What were they feeling? I asked trying to hide my amusement
"Shocked/ relief,its unclear" He whispered with his cool breath in my ear.
"So today is the day" I said biting my lip putting my backpack in the locker
"Don't worry" He ordered me
"I will try I hope they accept me" I said and saw him shaking his head.
"What?" I asked him
"You worry more about if they will like you then the fact that you will be with, our kind"
"Yeah sure" I said avoiding his eyes.
"And you should introduce me to your father, too, I think."
"He already knows you," I reminded him as I grabbed my gym bag.
"As your boyfriend, I mean." I stopped breathing. I slowly turned to meet his eyes
"I,uh yes" I said forgetting what we even talked about all I heard was "Boyfriend"
"Bella about last night" He started
"Yes?"
"That was wrong of me"
"No, it was fine"
"No ,it was dangerous, I kept my breath for a few hours but" He looked a bit frustrated.
"I understand" I said and tried to not sound dissapointed. He stepped closer and put a lock of my hair behind my ear.
"I hunted this morning wich makes it a bit easier ,for now"
"Yeah I can tell" I said and explored in to his glowing eyes.
"Oh the eyes, I keep underestimate your skill for detail " I smiled to him "Edward told us people think that we wear matching eyecontacts ,to be cool or something like that"
he rolled his bell rang
"I will find you later" He said and walked away. Behind me I saw a few girls that
looked at me with faces I didn't know how to read ,then I realize that it was something
I had never expected,Jelousy. Nobody had ever been jelous of anything I had, done
or owned in my life.
It was not untill I walked in to gym class I realize it was the first time I had seen Jessica and Mike that day. I turned around and found what I was looking for a door that said WC.
I grabbed the towel I had and screamed at the top of my lungs in to it .He had said boyfriend! I was beyond euphoric and new that the state would make me suck
more then rest of the day was a blur.I got home to change in to something better I whent to the closet and found a nice purple blouse and put it on.
I had told Jasper that he could pick me up after I had "fixed up" and eaten dinner.
The door opened downstairs and I quickly rushed down.
"Oh hey Bells , you look pretty," Charlie said and took a look at me twice
"Hey , I was just about to start dinner"
"Oh no need, Billy is coming over with Harry Clearwater's fish fry, were going to
you know drink a few beers and catch up on the sports"
"Ok" I said and was happy to see him showing something that resembled a smile for the
first time in what felt like months.I had to tell him about my plans.
"Uhm I won't be able to join, I actually have a thing" I slurred out as he sat down.
"What thing?" He said and looked curious wich made it all a lot harder.
"I sort of have been asked to meet the Cullens, It's Jasper he wants to introduce me to his mom" I said staring at the floor"Beacuse he is my boyfriend now" I continued in my head.
"Oh ok ,so you and the cullen ,you two..."
"Dad just don't ok! we are just gonna hang out" I said as quick as I could.
"Alright" He said and threw his hands up in a surrendering gesture.
Outside I heard a car slow down and pull in, I thought that it couldn't be Jasper cause it made too much noise. Charlie got up and passed me in the kitchen to get outside.
"Well that was easy right?" I thought
"Billy" he said as he walked out.
"Hey Charlie" I heard Jacob say. "Jacob?" I thought and peeked out.
He was getting Billy's wheelchair as Billy handed charlie a big bag of what must have been the fish. It looked like it was going to be a nice evening and it was a pity it was on the same day as.I didn't get any further until I saw the black Mercedes appear and Immediately my heart rushed. I grabbed my jacket and stepped out.
"Hey Bella!" Billy said with a big smile. He had the case of beers in his lap.
"Hey guys!" I said and took the last steps and Jacob's face lit up like a Christmas sign.
"So what team are you gonna cheer on Bella? " He asked me
"Uhm I" I started but got interrupted
"Bella don't do sports at ,all trust me and she wont be joing us she got plans."Charlie said
"Oh, really!?"Billy teased. I glanced at the Mercedes parked a bit away.
"Yes he will be here to pick her up any minute now" Charlie told him with irony in his voice.
Jacobs face turned to mixture of disappointment and sad puppy.
"Yeah actually he is already here have fun guys" I said
"Whats is this boys name anyway? Billy asked
"Jasper Cullen.." his face turned to stone. I took a good look at his reaction because I was not sure I was seeing right.
"I will see you later have fun" I nervously said and rushed away from Billys piercing eyes.
I opened the door and got in I closed it and put on my seatbelt.
"You seem confused" Jasper told me
"Nothing" I said . Jasper turned the key and I took a look in the review mirror
and too my surprise Billy was still starring with the exact same face.
After a few miles outsideod town Jasper took a right turn I barely noticed and
after another mile of misty forest I saw a house appear to my left.
It was unlike any house I had ever seen it looked timeless but more classic than old which
was funny since it clearly looked brand new in my head I heard Angelas voice say "from Alaska a few years ago" this house must have been built then .Th car stopped and in a wink Jasper had opened my door and held out a hand for me
"Don't protest" he said . I took it and got out.
"I won't" I smiled at him. It was all truly beautiful behind me I saw the mist dance in between the trees and over the house.I took a deep breath.
"Wow" I sighed
"You like it" He said I nodded. I just nodded in response he shut the door behind me
and started walking up the stairs to the porch I followed behind him.
He opened the door and we walked inside.
The inside was open and clear with large windows.
"Let me take your coat" Jasper told me and I gave it to him. I felt a small quick breeze behind me and I turned to see what it was. Ten inches from my face was Alice.
"Hi Bella!" She said and smiled
"Hi" I said . Her voice and her enthusiasm was hard to brush off
"Alice what are you doing?" Jasper asked with a hint of a warning
"Don't worry Bella and I are going to be great friends" She told him and then looked back at me with a smile and flew up the stairs.
"Sorry about that" He said and took me hand
"Its ok" I said and he led me up the stairs
"She just gets very excited about ..everything" He muttered. His face made it hard not to laugh.
"Thats uhm refreshing I said" grinning, He just shook his head.
We got on top of the stairs and took a right and there was the kitchen.
"Hey Bella" Emmet said in the back next to Alice.
"Hi" I said shy "Wow he know I exist" I thought and was surprised that he was smiling.
Next to the sink was Dr Cullen, I was so mesmerized of what they looked like in the light
I didn't realize that they were cooking at first.
"Hello Bella" He said with a warm smile
"Hi, uhm ,is it Dr Cullen or Mr Cullen?" I asked polietly
"Carlisle, please" he said.
"What are you doing?" Jasper asked them letting go of my hand.
"Cooking silly" Alice told him
"We finally get to use the kitchen for the first time" Carlisle filled in.
"Bella" Said a voice behind me .I turned around and there she was.
"Hi I'm Esme" she said with a dazzling smile. She was the most beautiful woman I had ever
seen In my life. She looked like a Old-Hollywood moviestar straight from the forties only
ten times better Rosalie and Alice were beautiful but they didn't have her face of a more mature woman. Her fashion was straight from the fifties. and I thought that it must have been her favorite decade.
"Hi" I responded trying my best not to drop my jaw as she smoothly walked passed us.
"We are making Italiano for you ,I hope you're hungry" She said in a dancing soft voice.
"Uhm yeah" I said. I put in to a haze of how beautiful they all were.
"Rose" Esme said .From the other angle Rosalie appeared with a bored face with Edward behind her, he whispered something to her very quick and then looked at me.
"Hello, Bella" He said and smiled"
"Hi" I said I watched them put it all together, frying,chopping, pouring.
I knew that they lived together but now that I got to see it I actually believed it.
"Give this to Bella" Esme ordered and gave Rosalie a glass of what looked like lemonade.
She took the glass and walked over to me and Jasper she held it for a while before
reaching it out for me slowly, I took it. She took a big step back and opened her mouth.
"So are we not gonna talk about this?!"
"Talk about what?" Carlisle asked.
"That her being here could be a danger to all of us" She responded calmly.
"I have not said anything to anyone" I insured her
"She wouldn't do that Rose" Carlisle said and walked up to us. Esme joined him holding a
big bowl of salad and cheese.
"Rose sort of got a point, I mean this is new" Emmet continued
"Well ok you have not said anything yet but what could happen in the future?"
"Ask Alice" I said and a chuckle broke out and they were all kind of turned away from Rosalie to hide it .I Iooked at Jasper who broke in to a chuckle aswell, I didn't even have time to react before I heard a loud smashing sound.
Terrefied I looked at what it was and found the bowl in small peices all over the floor.
I looked at Esme's face who was a reflection of my own shock but she was not looking at the floor neither was Carlisle they were all looking at Jasper another few seconds of silence Esme then held a hand over her mouth and smiled.
"What was that?" Alice whispered , .I looked over at Jasper that stood there everybody else took a closer look.
"Your starring" He said with a wide smirk
"Sorry sweetheart its just that, we have known you for around sixty years but never seen you.."
"Smile" Rosalie filled in. She took a deep breath looked at us both then she nodded and walked away.I followed her with my eyes and behind me I heard Esme
"Oh I'm so sorry Bella, let me just clean up" She said.
"No, I compleatly understand"I told her
"Come Bella I will show you the rest of the house" Jasper said and softly pulled my arm.
"Ok , we will have dinner ready" Esme said. We had barely left before
they started the chatter "Oh my god!" "I know "Did you see!?" "How could I have missed!?"
"So funny..." I followed Jasper up another staircase
"Well that was uncomfortable" He said
"Maybe a little but it was nice too" I said
"Well I suppose so"He said and shrugged his shoulders. Had he really never even smiled before?So what he said about that I had changed him was really true.
"This is my room" He said and opened a door. Inside was a huge bookcase full of books that took up half the room I could smell how old they were before I saw them.
It was small and cosy.
"No bed?" I asked as I stepped on the carpet
"No sleep remember"He said behind me.
"I feel weird stepping on this with my shoes on is it ok to take them off?"
"Sure" He said and took the glass of lemonade out of my hand and put it on a desk.
Behind me Alice flew in with a plate and put it next to the glass.
"We hope you'll love it" She said and dance out closing the door behind her.
It looked really good I took a sip of the lemonade and it was like drinking happiness.
I took my fork about to take the first bite I recalled what Charlie was eating and then I got reminded of Billy Black's face.
"Whats wrong?" Jasper asked me
"Nothing to worry about" I said and took the bite.
