Esme

As I finished my meal and looked up I saw that Jasper was a bit unsure of what to do.

It struck me that this may very well be the first time he ever been with a girl he liked.

"Maybe you could show me some parts of the house" I suggested and his face had a hint

of relief

"Yes, uhm this way"

We left his room and he took me in to a room that that looked like a study

"This is Carlisle's home office"

"Oh nice"I said and bit my lip

"Downstairs is equipment and tools to actually perform surgery"

"Like just in case?"

"I guess so" He said and led me forward "That's Emmet and Rosalie's room

and that Edward and Alice's ,Here is a study" we walked into a room full of books and things from all over the world.

In a glass case were at least fifteen different butterflies and next to it were other insects and hand written notes.

"Wow" I whispered

"From our travels" He said and got close to me. I looked at a picture on the wall of two birds.

"Wait Isn't those passenger pigeons?" I asked and took a closer look.

"They are" Jasper replied behind me.

"I remember my mom told me about them, they are extinct, right?

"Yes they are and so are these" He nodded to another picture I walked up to

it . In it was a black and white picture with Carlisle and Esme.

Close to them were what looked like lions with stripes but they were not bigger than a dog.

"Tasmanian Tiger" Jasper whispered to me.

"So all these animals on the wall are extinct?"

"Most of them are some are just rare, Its mostely from Carlisle and Esme's travels.

But that picture of the tiger is one that Alice took back in the seventies.

As I looked at it I felt a sense of blankness. My high school friend had traveled

to the other side of the world to take a picture of a tiger the same year my

mom turned five. I tried to shake off the feeling before he felt it. A question crossed my mind instead

"Wait how do you travel , I mean the sun must be.."

"Rain season" He replied quickly.I felt dumb and rolled my eyes at myself .I took a look at

some of the sculptures that were behind glass,some of them were body shaped.

"Nice sculptures I said" and pointed at the ones made out of dark wood.

"They are from Africa it said that they are supposed to bring fertility"

I looked down and smiled . A small knock was heard on the door and Esme walked in.

She looked at the fertility statues and then smiled ironically.

"Ah those,well they knew something" She said and looked at my face and read my curiosity.

"You know vampires can never have children, we are frozen wich means nothing can grow

and that's why we don't age" She looked at me for a response

"Oh" I said and nodded. She walked passed us and looked at a painting I realized was her.

"Never babies either ?" I asked and regretted it straight away. She looked at the statues and to my surprise responded calmly.

"I was married once,it was a horrible marrige he was abusive to me .I never wanted to marry him in the first place but my parents forced my got drafted to world war one which made it easier for a while. A small part of me wished that he would not return"

But he did and a few months later I became pregnant. I had to run away. I didn't want my child to grow up in such a dangerous home. I became a school teacher, temporarily fulfilling my childhood dream. My son was then born in 1921.I was a mother on my own but I was happy, unfortunately, my son died two days after his birth in lung fever." I saw how her perfect posture sunk a bit.

"Oh Im so sorry I can't imagen" I whispered.

"I felt like I didn't have a reason to live so I jumped off a cliff" I turned to Jasper who gave me a look .She looked at us and read my face.

"Oh did he tell you that?" She asked softly

"No he said you fell"

"You are too kind sweetheart but the truth is always better" She gave him a smile and continued.

"Then Carlisle found me and cared for me we had met once before and well it was love at first pain as the venom takes over is beyond undescribable but I was already in great pain from the fall, I barely felt any difference. Her eyes were distant as she spoke and then she came back to us.

"Sorry thats enough storytelling for one day I guess". She walked over to the door.

"Welcome Bella,truly" She said and smiled warmly and walked out. It warmed me and I could not help to smile myself. I felt Jaspers breath down my neck .

"So is there somewhere else you could show me? I asked and turn to him he thought for a while and then he smiled.

"Yes, there is a place"

He took my hand and surprisingly led me downstairs to leave the house.

"Where are we going"? I asked amused

"You will see" in three seconds he had my shoes and then he handed me my coat.

I put it on and prayed not to trip-over and fall on my face.

He took my hand and we walked out of the house, we took a left and started walking

through some trees into the woods.

"I hope that Esme's story didn't make you uncomfortable?" he asked

"Oh no , I mean it was a sad story" I said and we walked slowly up a small hill.

"Yes ,We all have sad stories and we usually don't share them"

"Yeah I guess those are hard to share"I said we walked in silence for a minute or two.

I looked at his face and saw that he was thinking about something.

"I know she felt something in a sence, she only leaves the house

to hunt and I think you are the first new person she has met in thirty years."

My eyebrows went up in response.

"Really? Don't vampires have friends" I asked '

"No , vampires are cruel and are usually not in a big group, there is is one other family like

ours up in Alaska and as far as we know they are the only other group of vampires that

owns a house." I thought to myself that the vampire life must be sort of lonely and hard

but it must have perks my head I kept seeing Esme smiling while holding a baby.

We kept walking in silence for a minute until he broke it

"Jump up" he said. Automatically I jumped up and closed my undescribable feeling of floating through the air made me peek with one was something I immediately regretted it was too fast for my eyes to grasp but it was still beautiful. I closed them again and then I heard him speak again

"We are here" he said in a whisper. I had not even noticed that he had stopped.

I jumped down and stepped to stand beside him,I immediately understood why he had whispered. Infront of us was a small meadow. It was not much bigger than a backyard the grass and bushes made my mind slip to Alice in wonderland.

Foggy mist was floating over our heads and small flowers were spread evenly on both sides.

"I found one time by mistake" he said . He gently took my hand and led me forward into it.

"You are hidden here" I said

"What do you mean?" He asked and looked at me

"You can't find this place unless you know exactly where it is" I said and turned to him.

He nodded and in that exact moment a small ray of sunshine hit his face and made it sparkle.

He looked warmly into my eyes,He was so beautiful My knees gave in and I started moving down he followed my movement we were now laying in the meadow.

I couldn't feel the ground even though I was laying on it but I didn't care.

A small euphoric feeling started rising up inside me and I allowed it to take over.

I had no sense of reality now I was completely lost in in the beauty of the meadow but mostly the beauty of him, Jasper.

It was so enchantingly beautiful my eyes wouldn't been surprised if fairies appeared and danced above us.

I closed my eyes and and thought back to this guy i had a crush on two years ago ,but that and this

was not the same thing at all. I felt him slipping under my shoulder and pulling me close to he softly kissed my forehead with his cool lips in that moment I lost time and .He softly kissed my forehead with his cool lips in that moment I lost time and place."If ever I would die let it be here" I thought.

A shiver woke me I was pretty sure i had not fallen asleep.I sit up and for a second I was surprised I was not in my was not a dream, and neither was he.

"This is too much" I said and shook my head

"What do you mean?" he asked and got up to sit next to me.

"All these feelings, You knock me out" I said with a smirk

"Well I know the feeling well" he said and repsonded with a smirk back.

"Can't you shut it off for both of our sakes?" And said and looked straight at him.

"No, besides I don't want to" he said with glowing eyes.

I saw something moving in his hair and realized it was my hand. I moved it down to his cheek. I had been around this boy for months and I still couldn't take in the fact that "yes"he did actually look like this.

He closed his eyes and my hand pushed back his hair revealing more of his perfect face. He was cold but I didn't really feel it. I was happy that his eyes were closed so I could have quality time with just the face without the distraction. My hand went down his face again and I put my finger across his perfct lips. Before I realized we were kissing.

We whent down again kissing with great passion. My fingers went through his hair and his hand were held on my lower back. I stopped for a second i met his eyes burning with desire and then started kissing his neck. He made a small growling sound he then put his lips on my cheek and went down and then froze. A flash and he was gone.

I sat and waited for what felt like five minutes before he returned. He took two small steps at the edge of the meadow.

"You could be the end of us both" He said in a low voice

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"I kill I can't live without you so I" He looked like he had a deep thought then dropped it and walked up to me. "Come I will take you home,Its not safe at dark"

"Ok" i responded and took his hand and jumped up.

Back at Charlies house he dropped me of at the same spot as that time I got lost.

I saw that Billy's car was gone so it was just to go in without a problem.

"Don't look worried" He said and interrupted my thought.

"Im not" I said and starred at my feet.

" I can not express the words for how regretful i feel for what happened, its just that its,hard"

" I know" I said and gave him a understanding look.

"I love you" he said and leaned in

"I love you t.." My response was interupted with his kiss. He stepped backwards arms behind his back gave a nod and then he was gone.