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Summary: Jeff Hardy had made a successful comeback after years away from the WWE, and he should be on cloud nine but he finds himself lost with no direction. Can a person from his past come back and change him for the better or will he be lost forever?

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Series: Mended Hearts Series


So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

Her return was over, the crowd taken for the ride of their lives and she found now as she prepared to make the long trek home to Toronto, not needed again for another week, that she couldn't think of anything else but what had happened earlier in the night between her and Jeff.

She had known they would meet up again. That the fainting in Vince's office would not be the only contact they would ever have with each other, but she had been hoping for just a little more time before confronting her demons. He obviously had had demons of his own because as she packed her bag in the locker room, she let herself remember his words to her.

"Help me hold on."

He had certainly gone out on a limb admitting that he needed her, and then to go as far as to ask for help in holding on to love. She knew how she felt, how long she had waited for him to say what he had said to her only a few hours before. But she also knew that a lot had changed since then and that she had married someone because she thought she would never have what he was now giving her.

She looked around the locker room, taking it all in before heading out and down the hall to the exit. Just what had he been hoping would happen when he came back less then a year ago? Had he been hoping even then that they would be like the way they were then? Or had he come to terms with her being in a serious relationship with someone other then him and was happy to see her move on?

Did someone who claimed to need help holding onto love really ever get over the person they asked the help of? Was Jeff Hardy telling her that he loved her and wanted her help to realize it? Or was he meaning it in a different light?

So many of the same questions came at her in a barrage that threatened to weaken her sanity. She had known from the first time they met that he talked in circles and rhymes, and this time was no different. Just what was she supposed to do about this now? How was she supposed to feel?

You should allow yourself to feel what is right.

There was that damn voice again, from the inside of her mind, no better then the one of Jeff Hardy hours before. Telling her what was right would have been a help, but telling her that she needed to feel what was right was just stating the obvious. Was it right to admit that she was thankful he had put his heart on the table? Was it right to say she loved him more then life itself and finally wanted to get what she had wanted forever?

"Jesus Trish the ink isn't even dry on your divorce papers and here you are thinking about love with Jeff Hardy." she snapped at herself as she made her way to her rental car. The parking area was deserted and she couldn't be happier for it. She did not want anyone to have to bear witness to her delusions and the talking she was now doing to herself.

She just needed to get home, put some distance between her and Jeff for the week and hope that by the time she came back to work, he would be letting it all go and they could both move on.

You will never move on and you know it.

As she got into the car and started it, she heard the voice again and knew better then to listen to it this time.

"What do you know? Shut up."

She pulled out of the driveway onto the street and the darkness ahead. Whatever it took, she would do it. She was going to put Jeff Hardy completely out of her mind.


He stood at the window of the hotel room, looking down at the small world of people moving below him and wondered if she was among them now, trying to get somewhere. Anywhere but where he had put her tonight. He knew it had been a bold move, asking her the way he had. But he knew that if he hadn't then she would have walked out on him for good and he couldn't bear to go through that again.

She hadn't given him an answer, but had instead chose to walk away from him and back into the building, surrounding herself with people for the rest of the evening and keeping as far away from him as she could. It hurt, knowing that he had admitted how he felt in a round about way and she had turned and bailed on him but he understood why.

She is not a single woman, she is married and you need to give her the space to deal with that before coming on to her.

Didn't he know it? He knew she had married Ron, hell he had even thought about going to the wedding to at least say a touching goodbye to the only real woman he had allowed himself to really love. But he hadn't, but he had heard all about it from Ashley, who at the time had been dating Matt. He knew that she was freshly out of it, that the marriage was indeed not over yet and that anything he was doing was coming with a hefty price tag but he just couldn't help himself any more.

For too long he had taken his life for granted. He had not been able to tell his mother that he loved her before she had passed on, and he was hurting still to this day over that. With any other relationships in his past, he always chose to be the silent partner instead of the willing one. It had cost him and now that he had gotten his head clear of all the baggage, he wanted to make a fresh start. He did not want to leave this world knowing he had missed out on telling the one person in his life how he really felt.

He had done it, and she had rebuffed him and now as he looked out at the world below, he knew that he needed to stop at nothing to make sure she knew he was genuine. He might have taken the keys to her heart for granted years ago, but he would never do it again.

He vaguely heard his brother say something to him and turned around to find out just what he wanted.

"What did you say?"

"Off in space again dear brother?"

Jeff rolled his eyes and debated whether or not to go back to looking outside. Matt knew he didn't like to be teased this way and he was in no mood right now to state that to him again.

"I said you need to stop beating yourself up over Trish. You can't be shocked that she didn't come looking for you tonight Jeff. You did happen to trample the girl the last time you were around each other."

He still hadn't spoken to his brother about what had happened earlier in the night at the arena. He knew he told his brother everything, but at this point in time he thought the less Matt knew about his life, the better. Matt cared, but sometimes it came out as overprotective and that was something that Jeff didn't want or need right now. He had already made his case clear earlier in the night. What was the need for another go around?

"I want to make it right, so sue me." was all he managed to say, avoiding Matt's eyes in case his brother might be able to pick up on what he was really thinking.

Matt sighed loudly and took one look at his younger brother. He knew Jeff had changed in the last three years, and he was proud of him. He was worried that all of this talk about the past with Trish would mean that Jeff would revert back and he really did not want to see that for his brother. He loved Trish like a sister, and always had even when all of the shit with Jeff went down four years ago, but neither one of them saw just how bad this was.

"If you want to make it right, then go ahead and make it right Jeff, but don't expect it to be easy."

"Why do you say that?"

"Sit down Jeff, I think it's time I told you what happened when you left the WWE all those years ago. I never bothered to tell you before because I thought that you had moved on with Beth and you didn't need it in your life. I see now that I was wrong. You needed to know then and I need to tell you now."