I guess I had become that weak now.
Why Tsukasa? Why did you become so vulnerable? I should just drop the efforts now, before I get any deeper in this hole. But...whenever I saw him, my heart would run a marathon in place, forget skipping a beat...
I could not stop thinking about Junichi, especially since he was my assistant class representative. Both work and affection related thoughts constantly ran about my daily train of thought, like children unrestrained by their parents, spreading disorder. There was no mistaking, I was infatuated and love struck about Tachibana-kun. I guess, I could ask him to accompany my to the Sousetsai Festival this year, we could go together. That may settle things down, I hoped. Recently, Tachibana-kun has been quite the reliable assistant and friend. He has carried heavy loads to various rooms, he had done a considerable amount of paperwork, and he had even taken my workload from me every now and then, making sit there and "take it easy and rest." Although not doing anything, especially when I could be doing my workload of class rep duties, irritated me and made me feel useless...it was a change of pace and Tachibana-kun was really kind and caring. I want to be by his side as much as possible, there were times when I felt his mere presence would make the workload go by faster sometimes. And if I happen to collapse and fall asleep at my desk during late hours, he would always make sure to drape his coat over my back and leave it there until I woke up, even if it meant leaving it with me until the next day.
This year I will go to the Founder's Day Festival with Tachibana-kun. Maybe. But there were a few problems with that. For one, Tachibana-kun knew of my "second character" since he had peeked in my notebook. Since then, I had been a bit abusive...considering him my slave. I don't see why he would want to go with me if I asked him, I don't know why he treats me so nicely now. And...umm...there was this other one issue...
"Tachibana-kun! Ohayo!" A cheerful and happy voice fired from just outside the door to our classroom.
Early on this year. Really really early in the year, just within the first month. Tachibana-kun had fallen in love and became official. With the girl of all the boys' infatuation and lust.
"Morishima-senpai! Ohayo gozaimasu!" Junichi ran to the door.
He became the boyfriend of the Haruka Morishima. The "Goddess of Kibitou High School."
Now and then Morishima-senpai would come bursting through our classroom doorways before class would start or resume to greet Tachibana-kun with a hug. During the times she comes to see him, Tachibana-kun would beco e the envy of all the boys in the class, and Morishima-senpai well...she would be the envy of me... I shrug it off and avert my gaze elsewhere...for the single reason that if I were to look directly at them, I would probably lose control of my emotions and my "second side."
Looking only with my eyes, I could see Tachibana-kun in a tight embrace with Morishima-senpai. This was almost a daily scene every morning.
"Hey, Kaoru," Umehara-kun asked,"How do you think Taisho did it? Struck it good with Morishima-senpai?"
"I don't really know how he did it Umehara-kun. People tell me he confessed twice."
"Ahhhhhhhhhh, I'm so jealous! If I knew to just confessed twice, I would have gone straight to Morishima-senpai!"
"Get a grip Umehara-kun, it still would end up just as all your have. Junichi has this caring, cute, gentlemanly touch to his character."
Ahhhhh Kaoru! At least lie and tell me I could've done it!"
"But that's boring. Hahahahahahahahaha!"
I for one was almost like Umehara-kun at this point. But, being the class-rep did have some perks...
"Tachibana-kun!" I called out to him.
"Eh? Ah! Yes Ayatsuji-san?" He got interrupted from his connection with Morishima-senpai.
"Could you here for a bit? I need assistance with something really quickly."
"Yeah, okay."
"Morishima-senpai?" I called,"This might take until the start of class, so it'd be best if you went to your classroom. Gomenasai."
"Oh, yeah! It's fine. See you at break Tachibana-kun!"
"Yeah, see you at break, Morishima-senpai!"
And with a smile she left the room.
"Yes? Ayatsuji-san?"
"Actually, I just realized I finished that work last night, so I actually don't need any assistance at this moment."
"EHH?!"
"Don't be so explosive. You'll see her again after class. Seriously Tachibana-kun," I shrugged.
"Yeah, I guess you're right."
"What if I want to spend time with you, huh?"
"Eh? We're with each other for most the day working together," he responded.
"Well yeah, but why can't we just hang around together like you and Morishima-senpai? Since we're both technically responsible for representing the class, I thought we should get to know each other more. Right, Tachibana-kun?"
He scratched his chin, "Hmm, I guess you're right."
"Yokata! Very well, after school today!"
"Eh?! What about the class work?"
"We can hold off the representative work just for today, Tachibana-kun. Come on let's just hang out, get to know each other!"
"Ehhh, I guess you're right Ayatsuji-san," he surrendered.
He returned to his desk and sat, waiting for class to begin. Recently I've been trying to reduce the amount of times I split personalities at Tachibana-kun. So far I've abstained for a week. He always ends up doing something to agitate me, if only he'd never have accidentally looked into my notebook, then we could have just stayed on pleasant terms. However, strangely I have the slightest strangest notion that Tachibana-kun actually, may...like my other side. No, that's impossible, no one would.
Well, I'll have an entire session after school to get cozy around Tachibana-kun- I-I mean get to know him...
