So here is the newest chapter, thank you for reading and reviewing, you guys are the best. I really can't wait to hear your reviews after this one. Anyway thanks again and the next update will be on LTC, its actually done, so I just need to proof and maybe add a few things here and there, so watch out for it. Ok enough about me...enjoy!
Chapter 20 Isn't It Romantic…or is it?
Brenda sat quietly at the pub while Jonesy commented on every pretty girl that walked by. She would every now and then pass glances at Dylan who always glanced back. Maybe he felt her stare, maybe he was looking too but there was always something comforting about his eyes and she couldn't help but want to look into them. She had definitely not been herself since Dylan showed up. It wasn't awkward but it wasn't comfortable either. Dylan was most definitely holding back and God knows Brenda was. A familiar voice brought a smile to her face.
"Alright…the party can start…I am here." Olivia smiled as she took off her jacket revealing a black tank top with a lace trim.
"I thought Sean was coming with you?" Brenda asked looking past her.
"Nah…he stayed in…said he had some quiz or something tomorrow he wasn't ready for yet, his loss."
"Oli!" Jonesy stood up, "You look irritatingly scandalous. Put your jacket back on." Jonesy hugged her tightly.
"Oh Jones, chill out…a few years ago these puppies showed up out of no where and now I have too much trouble keeping them indoors." Olivia smiled referring to her breasts.
Both Dylan and Brenda smirked as they looked at her and Jonesy sighed, "Kid…you're going to put uncle Jonesy into an early grave."
"That's the idea." Olivia joked.
"Thanks kid, I love you too." Jonesy took his seat again and smiled.
"Oh Jonesy…you know I love you more than hemorrhoids." Olivia smiled and leaned down kissing the top of his head.
Brenda shook her head and laughed; Dylan looked over at her and smiled. It was actually the first real laugh he had heard from her all night.
"So…what are we drinking guys? I'll buy a couple rounds."
"Scotch and soda for me." Jonesy didn't hesitate.
"Got it…Bren?" Olivia looked at her with a small smile.
"I am good." Brenda said not looking towards Dylan.
"Why…you always have at least one?" Olivia questioned her.
"I just don't feel like anything."
"Bren…you can drink in front of me, I am fine…I promise." Dylan gave her a sweet smile and crossed his heart.
Olivia smiled at Dylan and then looked back at Brenda. Brenda took a deep breath as she looked at him, she didn't feel 100% comfortable drinking in front of Dylan but it would calm her nerves. "Just get whatever." Brenda shook her head knowing that neither Dylan nor Olivia would give up.
"Ha ha you asked for it." Olivia said with a smile as she approached the bar.
"Olivia seems great." Dylan said as he looked at her making small talk. "I am glad you have such a good friend here."
Brenda nodded, "Yeah…she is a good friend." Brenda looked toward the bar uncomfortably.
"Bren?" Dylan spoke softly. Brenda looked at him, "What's in that pretty head of yours? I usually can read you but…since I been here…I have no idea what you're thinking and…" Dylan took a deep breath and leaned in a bit closer to her, "It's scaring the crap out of me."
Brenda looked away and shook her head, "A million things. You are probably getting so many mixed answers from me." Brenda looked over to him with a smile, "Your radar is in overdrive." she joked.
Dylan nodded with a laugh, "Probably." he turned serious, "Are you even a little happy to see me?" As Brenda looked into his eyes she knew he was trying to read her. She felt him look through her almost and she went with the truth thinking he would know if she was lying.
Brenda took a deep breath, "I am…but I am scared too. You make me nervous." she admitted, "My life had order and a goal and you being here disrupts it. Getting over you was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and I never succeeded. Seeing you here…just proves that the second time isn't any easier."
Dylan looked at her sadly and slowly looked at Olivia as she brought over drinks. "Alright…Dylan…I hope you like coke, Jonesy…and Bren, she set down two shots and two cocktails. "Let me be the first to introduce you to the blowjob." Olivia smiled as Jonesy took a deep breath.
Dylan almost choked on his coke, "I don't think any introduction is needed." Dylan laughed and lifted his eyebrows looking at Brenda.
'Well…the shot anyway." Olivia smiled.
Brenda's mouth dropped as a smile spread across her face, "Dylan." she shook her head embarrassed.
Dylan playfully wrapped his arm around her and pulled her in close to him. He leaned in kissing her softly on her cheek as she blushed. "Sorry couldn't help myself." he whispered in her ear before pulling away.
"Yeah…I am sure." Brenda playfully rolled her eyes.
"Alright…Bren, hands behind your back." Olivia stuck her hands behind her back and waited for Brenda to do the same.
Brenda sighed and did what she was told. "So the object is to lean down, and take the shot with no hands…watch and observe." Olivia smiled.
"Ok…I'll be back…this is actually disturbing for me and that's a disturbing thought in itself." Jonesy said taking his drink and getting up. The three of them watched Jonesy approach a blonde he had been giving eyes to for the last 10 minutes.
She leaned down wrapping her mouth around the rim of the glass and lifted it back as the shot emptied into her mouth. She brought her hand to the glass and took it out of her mouth. "Your turn."
"How the hell did you get your mouth around this with no hands, it's so wide?" Brenda looked down at the shot glass.
"Whoa…déjà vu." Dylan smirked as he took an elbow to the rib cage.
Olivia laughed, "Man…I like you…alrighty Bren…show me that you are just as slutty and crazy as me."
Dylan laughed as Brenda looked in disbelief at both of them, "You guys have dirty ass minds."
They both smiled and gave her an innocent shrug. She shook her head and took a deep breath. She leaned down and opened her mouth, wrapping her lips around the outside of the shot glass; she picked it up gently and shot it back. She proudly removed it from her mouth and smiled.
"I knew you had it in ya." Olivia smirked.
Dylan smirked, "I thankfully knew already and…now I'm officially turned on."
The girls laughed as their attention went to a guy that had made his way over to the table, "Do either of you girls want to dance?"
Dylan stared at the stranger thinking he had some big balls considering either one of them could have been with him.
"Well…Bren here has a boyfriend but I would love to dance." Olivia said flirty as she got up.
Brenda pulled back her arm with a smile as she walked past her. "Last time I checked you had a boyfriend too." Brenda kept her smirk.
Olivia shrugged giving her an equally smart ass smile, "I am 19 years old Brenda…I'm not getting married tomorrow or anything…hint hint." Olivia followed the gentlemen out to the dance floor.
Brenda shook her head with a laugh and looked over at Dylan. She smiled at him as she looked into his eyes, "Olivia is crazy."
Dylan slowly gave her a nod as he kept his stare. He slowly brought his fingers up and brushed her hair behind her ear as Brenda leaned into it.
Dylan got closer to her as he saw her tense up, "I would give anything to kiss you right now." Dylan whispered.
Brenda looked down and met his stare again, "How about a dance instead?" Brenda slowly let a smile spread across her face. Dylan let out a small sigh and gave a quick nod as he felt Brenda place her hand in his. He gripped it back tightly.
Their moment was cut short, "Hey guys." Sean said with an uncomfortable smile as he stood at the table with Mike.
Dylan looked down at their hands as she let go of his quickly, "Hey." she said awkwardly, "I thought you had to study." Brenda tried to pretend Mike hadn't seen it.
"Yeah well…if I don't know it by now I never will." Sean said looking at Dylan, "I am Sean…and you must be Dylan. I have heard a lot about you."
Dylan gave him a small smile and met his hand in a handshake, "Well…don't believe everything you hear about me…everything is only half true." Dylan joked to try and lighten the awkwardness of the situation.
"Nah…only good things. You remember Mike I presume."
Dylan gave a small nod, "Of course, how you doing man?" Dylan had to force himself to be nice to him.
"Good." Mike took a deep breath as he ran his hand down the back of Brenda's head. "Hey beautiful." Mike said softly as he leaned down kissing her temple.
Dylan swallowed hard running his fingers around the rim of his coke.
Brenda smiled up at Mike, she wasn't sure if she was happy he was there or not. After seeing him smile back at her she was sort of relieved. "Come on baby, their playing our song." Mike took Brenda's hand and directed her to the dance floor.
Dylan watched sadly as Mike took Brenda in his arms and began slow dancing with her to what was suppose to be their dance. Sean's eyed Dylan, "So Dylan." he tried to take his attention away from them. Dylan looked up at him. "How do you like London?"
Dylan took a deep breath, "It's good…I have been here before but its been years."
Olivia came out of no where as she ran and jumped into Sean's arms. She straddled him and kissed him hard on the lips. Dylan watched them passionately kiss and then glancing over at Mike and Brenda. He brought his coke to his lips and took a sip as he stared at them. His heart ached for her and after setting down his drink he found himself clinching his fists.
"So Dylan I see you met my better half." Olivia smiled as her and Sean sat down.
Dylan smiled back and tried not to lead on how much he wanted to punch Mike's lights out but didn't have a real reason to do so. In reality Dylan couldn't blame the guy for coming there, Dylan would have done the same thing. Dylan looked over at her, her eyes met his as her and Mike danced closely. As they stared at each other, Dylan unclenched his fists as he realized, he was more of a threat to Mike and not the other way around. At least Dylan was pretty sure anyway.
Brenda looked away from Dylan and looked at Mike, "I am glad you came." Brenda whispered.
"Yeah…I am sorry…I hope you aren't angry at me. I just couldn't get our conversation out of my head from earlier. I'm sorry for the tone I took with you, I am jealous." Mike admitted and shrugged shyly. "I mean he comes into town and just like that…you are off helping him with whatever he needs. I know the history with you two and in reality how can I compete with him."
"Mike." Brenda breathed out feeling guilty.
"Brenda…I love you…and I know things with us are new but I do care about you a lot and even though I know I shouldn't I do trust you. I am not going to give you a hard time about spending time with Dylan or helping him with his sister. I am not going to be like that."
Brenda tilted her head as she looked at him, "You are pretty amazing." she said softly.
Mike smiled and leaned in and kissed her softly as the song ended. They parted and held hands as they walked back to the table.
Olivia got up grabbing Brenda's hand, "I got to pee." she dragged her toward the bathroom.
Sean got up as well, "I am going to get a round…you guys want anything?"
Dylan shook his head, "Nah I am good, thanks."
Mike shook his head as well. They both watched as Sean left them alone going to the bar. They looked back at one another.
Mike leaned forward towards Dylan as he sat across from him, "Look Dylan…I don't know what your intentions are with Brenda. I know she cares about you a lot and your sister. She has an amazing heart and she is the nicest person I think I have ever met. She would do anything to help you and I am ok with that. I also know that you were her first love, and I am assuming she was yours as well. I am not going to compete with that and I don't have a problem with Brenda spending time with you and trying to help you get your life back." Mike leaned even closer as his tone changed getting deeper, "But what I do have a problem with…is you taking advantage of her kindness, she is with me, not you. You had your chance and you screwed it up. And I am not going to sit back and watch you mess with her head and fill it with promises just for you to break her heart again. You two…are over. And don't think for a second I am going to lose her to you." Mike kept his glare and for a second he was proud of himself. He wasn't this guy but he could tell Dylan was so he had his chance to lay it out and that was exactly what he was going to do.
Dylan smirked as he leaned in close as well, elbows on the table, "My intentions with Brenda are none of your damn business. Me and Bren, know each other better than we know ourselves and Mike, it would be damn hard to compete with me in that department. The one thing you should know about Brenda and I…is that things are never over between us. And they won't be because we belong together." Dylan continued to glare at him, keeping his closeness, "And you can keep telling yourself that you aren't going to lose her to me, but Mike…you already have because you never had all of her to begin with. She may be in a relationship with you, but you will never have her whole heart because I do."
Mike took a deep breath and stared at Dylan. They both had to hold back from just socking each other out but both of them were actually too good to cause a scene in that pub and it wouldn't help either of them with Brenda.
Both guys leaned back at the same time and looked up at Brenda and Olivia as they stood at the table. Mike got up and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I am going to get out of here, I'll see you at home…if not then tomorrow for sure." Mike said only looking into her eyes. He knew Dylan was staring at them.
"Everything ok?" Brenda asked concerned wondering what exactly she and Olivia had walked in on.
"Yeah…everything is fine. I am tired and I guess I just wanted to see you before I called it a night."
Brenda smiled and gave him a nod. "Ok…goodnight." she said softly.
Mike leaned down and kissed her gently. He let his mouth cover her lips, gently gliding his tongue against hers. The kiss turned passionate and inappropriate quickly. And Brenda was taken back.
Dylan bit the side of his cheek as he glanced at Olivia quickly. She shook her head looking at Mike knowing his PDA was done purposely. Dylan looked back at them, with a lump in his throat; he tried to swallow it down.
Brenda broke the kiss and looked down as she ran her index finger under her lip.
"Goodnight." Mike leaned closer to her resting his forehead against hers, "Love you." He said softly but loud enough for them to hear him. Brenda looked at him oddly as he took off. Brenda looked at Dylan and shrugged as she slid in next to him.
"Ok…did I miss something?" Brenda said taking a sip of her cocktail.
Dylan smirked and shook his head, "Nope…I think someone just wants me to know you're taken and who you belong too."
Brenda lifted her eyebrow and smirked, "Excuse me…I don't belong to anyone."
"Well." Dylan moved his elbows to the table and leaned in closer to her, "In that case…how bout that dance?"
Brenda smiled feeling the effects of her shot and half a drink. "Sure."
Brenda and Dylan had danced the night away. She could always count on Dylan to set aside his tough guy exterior and let loose and act goofy once in a while. They had shared some intimate slow dances but mostly they had fun. They even had a swing dancing block and they even attempted to swing dance. Jonesy had disappeared with the blonde and Sean and Olivia had left, by the looks of them making out everywhere they stood, Brenda figured they wanted some alone time before she arrived back. So it left Dylan and Brenda alone walking back to Brenda's dorm hall. The moon was full and bright and it lit up the street making their surrounding glow a bluish white.
"I can see why you like it here Bren." Dylan spoke softly gazing over at her. "It seems almost far away from the real world. Different faces, different places, I could get used to it here."
Brenda slowly looked over at him, "How long are you planning to stick around?" a question Brenda had been dying to ask him. Not sure what she wanted or expected his answer to actually be.
Dylan stopped and sighed, "Well I guess that depends on a few things."
Brenda stopped and faced him, "Like what?"
"You." He said softly looking deeply into her eyes.
Brenda swallowed hard and stared back, "You said a few, what else?"
Dylan tilted his head back and forth, "Did I say a few? I just meant one."
Brenda felt her heart beat faster and she looked away from his eyes in hopes to stop herself from doing what she had been trying hard not too.
"Dylan." She breathed out as a whisper.
"Bren…I miss you so much…just because I didn't come here sooner doesn't mean I don't still love you. I have never stopped loving you." Dylan took a step toward her.
"We should go." Brenda began to walk away from him. He gently but firmly gripped her arm pulling her back.
Then the climatic scene Dylan had a feeling was coming…came, "I was ready to give this all up for you." Brenda yelled, not an angry yell but one full of emotion as she broke down. "This was my dream Dylan, but you were more important. I would have given it up an instant and I almost did." Brenda pointed in his direction, "You have no idea how crushed I was to get that stupid letter. You telling me that I needed to go back to school and that you needed to concentrate on yourself. And then to find out you threw me away again because of a letter from a girl you didn't even know. I stuck up to my parents again for you…Brandon wasn't even talking to me. And you get one letter from Olivia and you went selfish on me, just like you did during that summer. That fucking summer that will haunt me for the rest of my life. And I only went to Paris because you said too. I knew we needed something and I saw it in your eyes, you welcomed the break too."
"Bren." Dylan took a deep breath as the emotions hit him as well. "I didn't get the letter from Olivia until after I had already got home from rehab. Me writing that letter had absolutely nothing to do what she said. By the time I got her letter and plane ticket you had written me the letter you wrote about moving on from me. That's why I didn't go." Dylan's voice became softer, "That's why I was scared, I was scared you were serious and now I come here and you are wrapped up with someone else. You just keep tossing aside whatever feeling you have for me for what? A two month relationship, you don't even know him." Dylan said rudely.
Brenda shook her head getting angry, "You have no idea what my relationship is with Mike and it's none of your business anyway." She said angrily.
"I know it isn't what we have…you can't stand there and tell me you love him more than me. I know you and I see it in your eyes." Dylan quickly wrapped his arms around her pulling her almost roughly into him. He leaned in to kiss her but Brenda pushed him away.
"I can't do this with you." Brenda broke down and took a couple steps back. She shook her head and turned covering her mouth as she cried, she ran from him toward her dorm hall which was still a block away. She had to escape him; she couldn't be there with him and not want him.
Dylan took off after her as he caught up with her quickly he wrapped his arms around her from the back in a bear hug stopping her from going further. He closed his eyes holding her against him, "Don't do this Bren…you know how much I love you…and I know you love me too." Dylan whispered as she stopped struggling a bit. He quickly turned her around and looked at her, it was a scene from their first date, but this time instead of pined up anger and frustration and fear there was passion and hurt, with a different kind of fear. Not because of outside influences but because what they had felt was so intense that it scared them. The thought of being together was scary but the thought of being apart was more terrifying. Dylan let his body envelop her as he brought her into him, embracing her tightly.
"I can't breath without you Bren, you are it for me. I can't stand the thought of him touching you or kissing you. You're meant to be with me." Dylan whispered.
Brenda closed her eyes as she broke down, trying her hardest not to cry loudly but having trouble as she sobbed into his chest. Dylan pulled away from her and took both hands placing them gently on the lower part of her face, he leaned in and kissed her relentlessly. Their lips hit so hard it ached. They both sighed so hard through their nose you could hear it. They opened their lips together moving their faces to opposite sides as the kiss became more heated. Slowly Dylan moved his arms around her back as he felt Brenda grip her hands to his back almost holding on for dear life. She grasped his back so hard she actually clutched his shirt in her hands.
They kissed passionately for several minutes. As they slowly parted, staying close to each other. Both kept their eyes closed as they lingered there with their lips almost touching, both shaken and warm, both with labored breathing as they tried to catch their breath.
They both opened their eyes simultaneously; they looked deeply into each other eyes and stood silent. Dylan leaned in again and kissed her tenderly. Dylan moved placing smaller kisses on her cheek and neck as they held each other. "Come back to the hotel with me." Dylan whispered as he made eye contact with her again.
Brenda sighed; it was like a scene from her play but it wasn't. The realness of it all set in. "I am sorry." She whispered tearfully shaking her head. She stared into his eyes as she backed away from his embrace. "I can't come back with you."
"Why not?"
"Because...I can't just go back to your hotel and make love to you. I think that it's best if we just…don't cross that line…again, you and I both know, it never works. I am in a relationship Dylan. I don't want to be that girl. I don't know what is going to happen with us…but whatever it is can't be coming from someplace dishonest. It's not that I don't want to, making love to you is always amazing, I just don't want to cheat on Mike more, I care about him." Brenda gave him a sad expression and backed away from him further.
Dylan reached out to grab her but missed her as she turned and starting walking back to school. Dylan watched her leave, he didn't call out to her he didn't try and talk to her. He was surprised and…utterly heartbroken. What did it mean? Was she choosing Mike, someone who she had just started dating over something that could potentially be forever? Dylan felt his eyes water, he looked up to the sky and blinked them away. He took a deep breath inserting his hands in his pocket and started walking the opposite way in search of a cab.
Surprised? Agree…disagree? So don't kill me everyone but let me explain something. I personally am a Brenda and Brenda and Dylan fan. There is no one else I believe belongs with her. I think no matter what they have been through together they belong together and it only makes them stronger. Now the Brenda fan in me, honestly doesn't think Dylan deserves her just yet, not so much for recent stuff but for everything. And I'm all for making him sweat a little. Dylan was a cocky son of a gun, and he had right to be, he was smart, he was sexy and yes very irresistible. I myself would not be able to do what Bren did in this story haha. And all you guys may hate Mike and that's ok because well…we are B/D fans so naturally we want her with him. But in my opinion the show did not ever let Brenda deal with feelings with any other guy's but Dylan and maybe Stuart. Dylan got to date and hump everything in sight, but not Brenda, which I also take into fact that she wasn't on long enough but in my mind, Brenda spread her wings a little in London and Dylan deserves to hurt a little. Also Mike just may be more of a threat than he thinks. That's all I am going to say. : ) stay with me guys because B/D will be together but it won't be that easy. It is only Dylan's first day in London and hello drama…Valerie is coming. Please review or I may withhold important life saving information haha.
