In life we experience many things, some good some bad. Sometimes we dont know which and experience is until weve had time to reflect on it.
Ayame didn't know what she was feeling, all she knew is it felt like her chest was going to collapse in on itself. Not even running would get the feeling to fade. She had spent the last week going back and forth from Shinra's to try and figure what her emotions were. They had tried to teach her when she first came to them but she didn't care much to understand. She didn't have a need for emotions or what they were called so long as she could run she was fine.
Lately though she had a need to know. She wanted to know the name of the things she felt and what they meant. Why would her heart feel heavy or light, why did these feeling make her want to do certain activities. The only thing she hadn't been able to ask is the way Shizuo made her feel. She hadn't been able to make herself ask her brother why one person could effect her so. She would always find a way to leave when he came up in their conversations. She would do the only thing she knew, she would run away. Why though? Why was she so afraid of knowing what she felt, was it because she somehow knew it would cause this pain in her chest? Was this a side effect of what she felt for the man?
She wasn't sure where she was running to. All she knew where the thoughts swirling through her head and her feet on the ground. She didn't care where she ended up she just had to get away. Maybe if she was far enough away from the events that took place it would be like they never happened.
She hung her head and stopped at that thought. She knew better. She knew that somethings you couldn't run away from. It wouldn't change that it happened. She wondered how far she had ran, her legs were shaky and her breathing was labored. It had been a long time since she had ran until she was this tired. Her hands found her face and confusion took over as she felt tears streaming down her face. She was crying? Why!
Ayame sank down the side of a brick wall not caring if she got scraped up by the rough surface. She took a deep breath. She would just go back to not caring, go back to the darkness inside her mind where it was safe. She pushed all her thoughts aside as the sound of foot steps caught her attention. Her heart swelled a little. Had he come after her?
"A pretty girl like you shouldn't be crying all alone like this." An unfamiliar voice called out, "Why are you hiding your eyes behind that cloth? I'm sure they're as pretty as you are."
Ayame's heart dropped, somehow she felt worse now than she did a minute ago. She stood up causing her legs to protest. "That's not your concern. Leave me alone."
"It is a concern of mine though. If your eyes are just as pretty as you are then you could be the center point of our auction. Yes a living doll. That would attract people from all over." A handsome man with long black hair came into view. He had a wicked smile and dark blue eyes that matched them. He wasn't dressed to be in an ally like this. He was wearing a black suit with a light blue tie.
Ayame was too focused on trying to figure out what the man meant. Sell her? Why would anyone want to buy her? Could they even do that. She didn't hear the foot steps from the other side of the ally. She didn't notice the other men in the ally until in was too late. Someone pulled her away from the wall and she felt a needle be injected in her neck. She hadn't fallen asleep like they expected but she did find herself unable to move.
"Be gentle with her, we don't want to damage the goods." The man in the suit smiled as the others tied the girl up.
Shizuo ran as fast as he could. Stupid Tom! If he had just told him which direction she had ran from the beginning he may have caught up to her! He may have had some idea on where to go next. He had already check the warehouse where she had brought him when he was running away from the gang who wanted to kill him. He would tear this city apart to find her!
A bike caught his attention. He caught the black rider's attention by running infront of her causing her to swerve. She tilted her helmet to the side asking what was wrong.
"Have you seen Ayame around here?" Shizuo didn't really want to have a conversation right now but it was necessary.
No I haven't did something happen? She typed seeming both annoyed and concerned.
"Sorta. There was a misunderstanding and she ran off. Tom said she ran this way but I haven't been able to find her anywhere!" He was getting antsy.
I can help look for her! There's rumors of people kidnapping attractive women and selling them at underground auctions.
"Shit! If they touch her I'll kill them!"
Calm down. Ayame is normally in a giant hoodie when she's out. They won't even know she's a girl if they see her.
"We need to find her dammit! I convinced her not to wear the damn thing because it was so hot." He didn't want to admit he may have caused her to run. That he had upset her. It was his fault she wasn't wearing her hoodie. If she was wearing it he wouldn't be as worried because it hid what she really looked like. Without it that group of people would probably do anything to find her.
Get on! Tell me EVERYTHING we'll find her!
Celty knew there was more to the story than Shizuo was telling her. Usually she wouldn't push the unstable man, but she suspected that he was the cause of Ayame's unusual behavior. She had been acting strangely since she woke up from her healing sleep. Not necessarily strange in a bad way though, she actually wanted to interact with those around her. If he had done anything to hurt her she didn't know what she would do!
Shizuo growled in frustration and jumped onto the back of Celty's bike. Reluctantly he told her about today. He started rambling, which is something he normally didn't do. He told Celty about today how it all seemed normaly and that Ayame had stopped avoiding him finally, he ended the story on the fact that Verona had kissed him infront of her and how he didn't realized what was happening and it may have looked like he had kissed her back.
Celty resisted the urge to stop the bike and give the idiot a piece of her mid. Her helmet flew off with a puff of black smoke. How could he be so stupid! A pick up truck pulled out of an ally infront of them causing Celty to swerve to avoid hitting them. Usually she wouldn't bother fallowing them but Shooter wouldn't let her steer away when she tried to take a turn. She was confused usually Shooter didn't care where she drove around. The truck had picked up speed and her familiar reacted by doing the same.
After a few minutes of fallowing the truck she finally realized what had her familiar on edge. A small girl stood up in the back, her arms where held behind her at an odd angle and a cloth was tied around her eyes. The wind stole whatever words she yelled as the truck slammed on it's brakes. The girl flew back and hit the back window of the truck, sliding back into the bed. Celty was surprised that Shizuo hadn't jumped into the truck yet. Normally he wouldn't think twice about doing something rash.
"I need to save her but I can't touch her." Shizuo growled he needed to be mad to kick the kidnappers asses.
Celty tilted her head to the side confused at the mans statement.
"I can't be mad if I touch her! I don't know why but at even the smallest touch my mind calms down." He was frustrated.
Celty's shoulders shook with silent laughter. Her friend wasn't aware of the cause of his affliction. This gave her an idea though. If he didn't want to just grab the girl and go then that meant they would have to take out the people in the cab of the vehicle. She pulled her bike to the side and sped up passing the truck and pulling out infront of it.
Shizuo smiled, he knew what she was doing! He stood up on the bike and jumped towards the truck landing on it's hood. He punched through the windshield and pulled the passenger out of the vehicle. Without wasting a second he threw the man as hard as he could away from the truck and crawled into the hole that the passenger's body had opened up. Shizuo punched the driver hard enough to knock him out of the truck taking the door with him. It was at this point that he realized he didn't know how to drive. The truck was slowing on it's own but at this pace it would take forever to stop. He looked up through the broken wind shield. Celty had already thought of his predicament. She had created a net up ahead that would catch the truck and stop it.
Once the truck had stopped Celty met Shizuo at the side before he could get out. Her phone was held out to him. The question on the phone made Shizuo's brow furrow at the thought and then realization hit him. He didn't want to answer her. He wasn't sure he wanted to admit it. He destroyed everything he touched causing him to always be alone. He never thought he would ever be asked that question.
Do you love her? Celty held out her phone watching as the mans face changed from confusion to defeat. She hadn't seen that look on his face the hole time she had known him. She knew she was being unfair but she wasn't going to let him go before he told her what she already knew. He had to admit it to himself before he proceeded.
"yes." His voice was quiet. His hands shook a little. He didn't deserve to love anyone, after all he was just a monster.
Don't worry Shinra's been routing for you for a while now. He says that what better pairing than his best friend and his little sister.
Shizuo blinked surprised about how those words made him feel better.
If Ayame has a connection to a person she's able to calm their emotions. She doesn't know she's doing it though the only person I've heard of it happening to was Shinra. I'm not sure what it means.
Shizuo wasn't sure what to make of this information.
You might want to go after her by the way. Celty held up the phone and pointed as the girl hopped out of the truck. Sure she could have stopped her but she had interfered enough.
"Dammit!" Shizuo swore and jumped out of the seat as Celty stepped back. He was tired of this day already.
Ayame wasn't sure why she ran. She had managed to get the ties off her wrists and hopped out of the truck. She was still tired from running earlier, her head hurt from hitting the truck, and the cocktail of drugs they injected in her earlier made her movements a little sluggish. Normally she was safe from the effects drugs, but that must had been a combination she had never had before. She was a little unfamiliar with this part of the city, if this was still even Ikeburkuro.
For some reason allies were her go to for places to hide. They usually had pathways connecting them that were hard to see. This one, however, did not. Maybe Shizuo hadn't been able to keep up? She looked for a place to hide until she noticed the figure huffing at the entrance of the ally. Shit! She'd been found.
She looked around for an escape but there was none. She braced herself and took a fighting stance, "Fight me!" She wasn't sure why she yelled it. Why she thought it was a good idea. Her chest hurt and her mind wasn't working. If she couldn't run then she had to fight right?
Shizuo blinked at the girl standing in the ally. Fight her? She couldn't be serious right? He would kill her if he hit her. The look on her face told him he didn't have a choice. If he walked away he would lose her. That would be the last time he saw her and he didn't want that. Maybe...Just maybe that would work. He took a deep breath and ran at the girl swinging to hit her. She dodged his strike and the one that fallowed it, being driven farther into the ally until her back hit the wall. Shizuo place one hand by her head and punched through the brick on the other side.
He couldn't see her eyes but by the set of her shoulder he could tell it wasn't fear.
"I don't want to fight you I just want to talk!" He did his best not to touch her.
"What is there to talk about?" Ayame looked away. Her heart was pounding.
"Why have you been avoiding me before today?" Her lips held his attention as she bit the side of them.
"I haven't been avoiding you." She glared up at the man hoping he believed the lie.
"Yes you have." He was feeling irritable again.
"So what if I have been. It doesn't matter."
"Yes it does. If you won't tell me why you've been avoiding me then at least tell me why you ran away today." He voice gave away the hurt he felt. She had ran from him. He realized that now, it wasn't the situation she had run from but him.
"I-I'm not sure. Seeing the two of you kiss. My chest felt tight, I wasn't sure what to do so I ran. Then when I saw you again my heart began to race. I felt conflicted and confused so I did the only thing I could. I ran away." Her heart was racing and she couldn't look him in the eyes.
"I didn't kiss her. She kissed me, I think she was trying to get at you." He couldn't control his irrationality as he pulled his right hand out of the wall and placed it on the side of her neck. The girl flinched away at the sudden contact but relaxed after a moment. Shizuo's heart raced and he ran his thumb along her chin pausing when he came to the middle and gently pushed upward. The girl's head tiled back so that she was looking up at him. He could feel her heart race under his hand as he studied her face. She didn't look like she was afraid of him, but she had that mask on again. He couldn't remember a time when he had been this afraid as he leaned down and pressed his lips against hers. He was about to pull back when it seemed as if she wasn't going to respond but was shocked when he felt her hands brush against his chest and wrap around his neck. He couldn't help but groan a little as she tangled her hands in his hair and pulled.
Her heart was racing, this was different than when she had first kissed him to catch him off guard. Her mind was completely blank as she pressed herself against him. She was dissapointed whenever he finally pulled away but that disappointment turned into something else as his mouth found her neck. A sensation she had never felt before flooded her body when he gently bit her neck. She couldn't find the words to tell him that he could bite harder so instead pressed her neck against his mouth when he opened it to bite her again.
Shizuo was a little surprised when the girl pulled his hair and pressed against his mouth when he went to bite her again. He was trying to be careful, he didn't want to hurt her but he understood what she wanted. He hadn't thought about the fact that her sense of touch would be dulled from the pain she experienced in her life. He hadn't been thinking of anything if he was honest but he found himself complying to her desire. He sank his teeth into a little harder each time judging her reaction until finally he was was rewarded. Hearing her moaned caused him to bite down a little harder than he meant to.
She wasn't sure what to do, her nails scrapped the back of his neck and she clung to his shirt. Until finally he was kissing her once more. After a moment of kissing Shizuo rested his forehead on hers. She hadn't wanted it to stop, but she wasn't sure where it was leading either. Her heart raced and she slowly sank down the wall. He legs had given out from both the running and the kissing.
Shizuo blinked down at the girl. Had he been too rough with her? "Are you ok?"
Ayame couldn't find her voice yet so she just nodded, her face flushed.
Shizuo wanted nothing more than to finish what he started but he knew that wouldn't be right. He hadn't realized, until she had spoken earlier, how much she didn't understand about herself. She didn't know what her emotions meant and he wouldn't take advantage of her. "You should probably talk to Celty or Anri before we do that again." He paused for a second, "if you wanted to that is."
"Why would I need to talk to them?" Her breathing was starting to slow finally.
"Um...well...you should understand yourself more before anything happens." He wasn't sure how to describe it. He hadn't been in this position before.
"Hmmm, and you won't do that again until I do?" She didn't know why but she was dissapointed by this.
"Right." Shizuo wasn't too sure about weather or not he would be able to fallow through with it or not but he was going to try his best at least. "Shall we go.get dinner?"
The girl fidgeted a little, "can you help me? I can't stand." She blushed and looked down, her legs felt like jelly, "and i think i need to change first but getting food sounds great."
Shizuo couldn't help the smirk on his face as he picked up the girl. She gave a small squeek but didnt complain about the method of his help.
"Hey Shizuo?" they had walked for a while with him carrying her and she could couldnt help the thoughts going through her head.
"Hmmm?" He looked down at her realizing that was the first time she had said his real name.
"I know you said we shouldnt do that again but what happens if i do this" they had made it to the hall way of Shizuos apartment whenever Ayame leaned up and kissed his neck. Timidly she did what he had done to her and bit his neck gently sucking on it. Her tummy felt funny as the sound of his quick inhale and his tightened grip on her.
She wasnt thinking rationally as she kissed up his neck and nip at his ear, one hand tangled in his hair. In a quick motion Shizuo had brought them inside his apartment dropped her just enough to pin her to the inside of the door. His breathing was heavy as he looked down at her with hungry eyes. Very slowly he realeased her hands and took off the cloth covering her eyes. Before she could reach out and touch him he grabbed her hands once more pressing the result of her teasing against her.
Ayame squirmed her body feeling as if it was on fire. She didn't think her heart could beat any faster until Shizuo leaned down as if he was going to kiss her, at the last minute though he stopped and put his forehead against hers.
"Don't push me." His voice was a growl as he fought to control himself.
Ayame felt her face flush, "Why does your voice sounding like that effect me pipe this?" She squirmed a little as she asked the question.
'Damn it!" He couldn't help.the growl in his voice. His mind racing of course the one person who was interested in him would test his control. He still could not believe the look of desire on her face was directed at him, let alone just at the sound of his voice. He'd give almost anything right now to give into his desires, but he knew he wouldn't forgive himself afterwords. Yes she was definitely a consenting adult but her case was a little different.
Shizuo managed to take a couple deep breaths and step awake from the girl. He couldn't help the small feel of glee atbher whimper of disappointment. Someone actually wanted HIM.
"I'm going to shower, you go get dressed and we'll find somewhere to eat." He forced himself not to look back as he walked towards the bathroom.
Sometimes things don't go as planned. Sometimes our morals are treated, but sometimes that's a good thing. It let's us know that we're strong enough to stand by them.
