Erica

Is it wrong that my eyes are watching his ass as he walks beside Dizzy, his hand resting on her ass as she giggles about it? I think it is. I think it's sick, and disgusting and oddly attractive. He was strong and protective of his family. I had seen that one day while Dizzy was bed ridden.

A man had gotten free from the slaughter shed and had went for Ruby, but the ferocious look on his face was attractive, even when the blood had coated his whole front. But Lizard hated me, Lizard was out for my blood the same amount as day one. I didn't like that, I wanted someone like him, even if his face was fucked up and his breath was kind of rank.

"I'm gonna put these up in our fort," Dizzy cooed, holding the pictures close to her chest with one arm while the other had a large trash bag slung over her shoulder.

Lizard snorted. "Why we keepin that shit up in ma closet?"

Dizzy huffed in annoyance ad stretched up onto her toes, whispering something in his ear that made him look down at her with that hungry look he always gave her. I wanted that. I wanted someone who was always hungry for me and my body, who never seemed to get bored with me. I hated Dizzy for the love she had. I hated her for being prettier than me. I hated Dizzy for having that walk, that way of speaking. I hated all of her. I hated the way her hand brushed her hair from her face, the way her eyes took that glaze when looking at Lizard. I hated Dizzy for having those curves and everything I didn't have.

"What are you thinking about, Erica?"

I looked over at Goggle, unclenching my fists. "Nothing you need to worry about Goggle."

I smiled a sickly sweet smile and he blushed, backing away and adjusting the garbage back on his shoulder. Why were they carrying her shit? Why did they like her so fucking much? I knew no one but Goggle like me. It was pretty fucking obvious.

Big Mama always got aggravated when she was talking to me, Ruby was scared of me, Pluto was just to scary to get close enough to and Papa Jupiter just wanted me gone. He didn't like this many humans in his clan and honestly I didn't want to be here just as much as he wanted me gone.

I sighed and scratched my arms. My skin was so fucking dry. I don't like the desert. I never was a heat kind of girl. Maybe I can escape tonight. I can try, I hope I can succeed.

Dizzy

You know, I don't like Erica.

She always has those flirty eyes on Lizard, thankfully he wants nothing to do with her. I'm watching him wave her off now, from our bedroom window while I fold close. I look towards the closet, see our picture in the tent. Goggle has the other in his room.

I sighed when I heard Lizard curse loudly and his pounding footsteps on the front porch. "Rubay! Where Dizzy at?!"

I didn't hear Ruby's tiny answer but heard Lizard grunt and that was enough to assure me he was coming towards me. His footsteps thumped on the steps and I smiled a little, setting down the shirt I was folding. Lizard stomped in, falling into the loveseat we had moved in here and tossed his head back. He took a deep breath and exhaled for a long time. I chuckled a little at his frustration and moved around the bed to sit on his lap. He jumped then growled when he saw me, curling those scratchy arms around me. I shivered, leaning into him.

"Why you so upset, dear?" I murmured against his throat.

He growled again. "That stupid bitch won't leave me alone. I might kill her…"

I chuckled at this again, but did not disagree. If he didn't do it, I probably would. But my decision had backfired on me. That's what I get for being nice and letting her live, I could have left her in that truck, let her rot in the sun, let her become a meal. But no, I had to be the good guy and save her from that hell. I raised my hands and rubbed my face, nestling it under his chin and breathing in his leathery scent.

"We could do it…blame Pluto."

Now why did it hurt when I said it aloud? God was I really that fucking mean that I would do such a thing to poor sweet Pluto? Speaking of the behemoth, I could see him out of the corner of my eye, following Erica around the village. Did he like the little creature? The Demoness?

Lizards' eyes followed my gaze and he smirked, nipping at my neck while we watched him hide behind a building. It suited him, it was probably the only thing in the Test Village that could hide his large self. I giggled when Lizard found my sensitive spot, kneading my inner thighs with his rough fingers. I purred under his touch, cupping his face so I could bring my lips to his and assault him with my tongue. He didn't like that, my sense of control, but he didn't push me away.

But I did. I didn't want to have sex right now, I wanted to just enjoy being in his hands for once.

"So, wanna go have sex in the desert tonight?"

Damn I have become a real horn dog. Ugh it was so good thought, him and everything about him. His hands, his tongue, his hips…

"Nah, Hades' clan go huntin at night."

I raised an eyebrow. "I don't know who that is."

"Papa Hades is Papa's brother. He and his clan live in the mines along the hills. They hunt cote at night."

I nodded, looking out towards the hills that lined the distance. There were more mutants in the hills, literally? "Are they like yall?"

Lizard tightened his grip on my waist and growled softly in my ear. "No, they not. They mean and vicious. We tame compared to dem."

I blinked, really slowly and looked back out to the hills they were tame compared to those out there? I shivered in Lizards' arms and hugged myself closer to his neck. That was impossible, nothing else was more dangerous than these mutants, my mates clan. Lizard had to be just joking with me, trying to scare me out of being in the desert. But why would he have to mess with me like that? There was no reasoning for it. So he had to be telling the truth.

I clenched my teeth and shook my head subtly. "Doesn't matter. We aren't talking about them anymore ok?"

Lizard stared into my golden eyes, looking like a wounded pup. Why did he have to look at me that way, with that look in his eyes that said why? Why would he look at me like that? Was it because I said to never speak of his vicious extended family again? They were all about family out here, family was all they had. But he talked about that clan with such venom in his voice, why would he be concerned about them?

"What?" I asked.

He shook his head. "Nothin…Mama wanted to talk to ya bout somethin."

I nodded, kissing his cheek softly before I wormed my way out of his arms and started walking downstairs. My thighs hurt because of his kneading. I grimaced and rubbed the tender flesh before I winced. Damn, he hadn't been that rough, maybe it was the marathon fucking the other night. How long had it been since then…three days? One week since we all ventured to the pit and scavenged my truck.

I rubbed my sore belly walking into the kitchen, catching a worried glance from Mama. It made me hesitate, but I ultimately sat at the table, waiting for her to sit before I questioned her. "Um, Lizard told me you wanted to talk to me about something?"

Big Mama played with her thumbs for a moment. "Um, well dear I wanted to ask you…have you been sore for no reason lately?"

I frowned. "Well, yeah. Up in my inner thighs. Why?"

She scratched the back of her bald head. "Well, I think you need to go get a pregnancy test from Jeb."

I felt my heart give a heavy thumb, felt my palms slick with sweat. "A…A pregnancy test?" my voice was barely a whisper.

My hands immediately fluttered to my stomach, my finger tips grazing over the bare flesh like butterfly wings. No…no I couldn't be pregnant. Could I? We weren't bein safe, not by any means.

"Yes honey. I have noticed the look you have when you walk around the village. You looked like me when I was pregnant with Lizard and Goggle. And you been touching your tummy a lot. I think you're pregnant."

I looked around the room through the tears in my eyes and felt the sob clawing its way up my throat. I bit my lip, holding that sob in. What would I do if I was pregnant…I don't want to be pregnant. but did I really have a choice in the matter? I can't go to the doctor to get rid of it. Not without Lizard, not without the cops finding me. No. I'd bear a mutant child against my will.

I frowned to myself, cradling my face in my hands. I made it sound like I didn't have a choice in the matter of conceiving this child I started it, and I knew this was one outcome. I rubbed my face and looked up, sighing to myself and Mama.

"Ok, ok I'll get Lizard to take me to Jebs and we'll be back by sundown."

Mama nodded. "Ok honey, I'll be waiting here. Remember to get more than one. Tell Jeb what you need and he won't make ya pay."

I smiled and nodded, standing up and walking towards the stairs. Lizard was still in the chair I had left him in, staring at his leathery hands. He looked up I came in, giving me a strange look when he saw my arms wrapped around my middle.

"So were going on an adventure…"