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We'll find out if Dizzy is gonna be a mommy or not, what do you think the baby should be if she is preggers? Message me and let me know please, always nice to get the opinions of my viewers. I am taking in your opinion Shiloh for a boy and filing that. Boy don't I sound like a nerd…

I stared at the tests lined up along the hallway railing, my hand over my mouth as I leaned against the wall on the opposite side of the hall. Lizard was standing in the doorway of our bedroom, leaning against the door frame with his hands tucked into his jeans, staring at me with curious eyes. I had claimed this part of the hallway as mine. I had growled at Erica, snarled at Goggle. They had resorted to pissing in the desert for the last couple of hours.

It took a lot of time to grow the balls to even take the tests out of the bags. Then it took an extra long fucking time for me to open the tests, piss on em and line them up out here. poor Pluto was sitting beside me on the ground, his back against the wall. I just couldn't bring myself to be mean to the poor behemoth. He didn't understand what was going on when I was yelling at everyone to stay out of my bubble. He was picking at the old red carpet right now, giggling (if that's what you wanna call it)at a strange little bug that had taken a liking to his large left hand.

I sighed and ran a hand through my sweat drenched hair. I sweat really badly when I'm nervous or anticipating something. The blistering heat didn't help at all. We had the fan on in Lizard and mines bedroom, but I couldn't go lay down. I just can't sit down while I am waiting for something that decides my future. I sighed again and started pacing, feeling Lizards fingers brush against my arm when I reached him and Pluto's fingers touch my bare leg when I passed him. My eyes stayed glued to the tests, my sweaty palms pressing my hair back and away from my face. This was driving me fucking crazy. How long did the boxes say? Five minutes? So I had only been here for a little less than five minutes.

"Di…Dizzy gonna 'ave a babay?"

I froze at Pluto's words, turning my head slowly to look down at him. He was smiling sort of, his fingers circling each other while he stared up at me. I looked at the tests, down at Pluto and back to Lizard. My mate nodded and pushed away from the door frame, slinking into our bedroom and shutting the door quietly.

I sat beside Pluto, knocking my head against the wall a couple times. How d I explain anything to Pluto? "Well, I might be havin a baby. Why you ask Pluto?"

He looked up at the tests. "It…it been a while since we…we…we hads a baby in house. I like babays." He giggled again.

I blinked at him, at his huge hands. Has he ever held a baby? If he has, was it carefully? Was he gentle with them, would Pluto ever have a baby of his own? Not that he could get pregnant, but would he ever find a mate for himself?

"What do you think my baby would be Pluto? A girl or a boy?"

"I…don' know."

I smiled and stood, my hands shaking as I approached the first test. I reached out, and then retracted my hand. Did I want to know? Maybe I would let it be a surprise. Nine months later, surprise surprise right in your eyes!

I took a deep breath and picked up the test. My stomach twisted. "Positive." I whispered, reaching my free hand up to brush against my lips.

A large hand picked up the next one. "There…there pus sign."

Another positive. I walked around Pluto and grabbed up the next stick, another plus. Pluto picked up another one, spitting out 'Pus sign'. We kept going down the row, one after another they said plus, plus, plus. When it was all done, cradled every test in my hands and backed against the wall, sliding down with tears pouring down my face.

I don't know how to feel right now. I don't know if I should be happy, or sad and excited….I don't understand it. There's this feeling coiling inside of me and its making me want to jump up and run. So that's what I did. I let the tests fall and bounce on the floor, scared Pluto shitless and ran to Lizard in our room. The door slammed shut and I attached my lips to his, crushing him beneath me on the bed.

When I let his lips go from mine I was smiling. "Wha' was that fer?"

I chuckled. "It's a tiny thank you."

"Fer wha?"

We let each other go and I sat back on my knees while Lizard just sat up. "I think you…I think you cured me Lizard. I think you cured me of y crazy, I haven't spazzed out in a long time. I haven't been afraid of the dark, I haven't been afraid of a fucking thing. You saved me…" I leaned forward, crying into his shoulder. "You saved me…"

It took me until that little moment to realize Lizard meant more to me than I thought. Sure, I loved him, but he was my savior. He cured my crazy, he made me not fear everything I did because I know he will always be there for me, no matter what. Him saving me took our love up a whole 'nother level. I never want him to not be there for me. I never want to have to go one night without him because…

"I'm pregnant Lizard." I whispered.

He pulled away from me. "You pregnant?"

I nodded, wiping tears out of my eyes. "I guess with your mutated DNA it mixed with my fucked up cells and made life inside of me." I held onto my stomach. "Were gonna have a baby, Lizard! A baby, can you believe it?!"

He stared at me for a super long time, his expression blank before he smiled at me. An actual smile, one that made my heart twist so beautifully. He pulled me against him, pressing his face into my hair. I froze for a moment, surprised by his reaction. Lizard was no heartless monster, he was no thrill killer. He was a lonely man, one that was so convinced he would never have someone to love him. I wrapped my arms around him and moved around to lay us back, Lizards head on my stomach.

I stroked his hair, singing softly while he rubbed soft circles into my hip bones, nudging my shorts further and further down on my pelvis. My eyes fluttered while his hands slowed down, us slowly succumbing to our exhaustion. I smiled and laid my head back, letting the darkness consume my happy thoughts.

DATE: October 29, 1990

LOCATION:

621 Mayflower Avenue, Upstate New York

I didn't want to be here, I didn't want to be back in this house. Everything was the same as it had always been. The walls were their same pretty mauve with butterflies dancing along the wall and pale pink flowers along the bottom trim. The bed was still the same, still so small and fluffy. Pillow top, thick and perfect to use as a trampoline. The thick pink comforter was an extra layer of fluff to the nest, and it made it hard for my tiny toes to reach the ground without having to jump down to the fluffy white carpeting.

It looked like such a normal little girl's room. The toys stacked neatly in the corner from a maid's handy work, the layer upon layer of stuffed animals in the corner beside a play kitchen. Glow in the dark stars danced on the ceiling, glittering in the light from a PowerPuff girl lamp.

But it wasn't a normal little girl's room. It was far from that. There were no happy memories here, no old laughs hanging in the corners, no piggy back rides from daddy.

No there were no happy memories in here. Only screams when daddy got too handsy, when momma was mad because I didn't tell her I was coming home a little too early. There were only sobs of terror when ever wave of pain was forced tenfold by my father's 'work'.

"You know daddy loves you right?" his whiskey stained breath brushed over my thin neck.

I was shaking, my body unmoving other than that. My arms stayed glued to my side, my tiny legs spread to my fathers assault. His steel eyes ran over my tiny form and it made vomit rise in my throat. But I swallowed te rancid concoction down. If I threw up daddy would be even worse, if that was even possible.

DATE: August 6, 2007

LOCATION:

TEST VILLAGE

I woke up screaming, reaching out for anything to anchor me to the real world. I grasped the sheets, the pillows and finally flesh. Hands grabbed onto me, shaking me while also pulling me against a rock hard chest. I opened my eyes, panting against his bare flesh, my body rocking back and forth.

"What the' hell is wrong wit' you?" his gruff voice murmured into my hair.

I shook still, looking into his familiar eyes. I searched those steel blue eyes, searching for the venom and horrible traits I had grown familiar with over the years. Guess Lizard couldn't fight my dreams for me. All I saw in his eyes was confusion and aggravation alongside tiredness. I sobbed, laying my head against his chest, wrapping my arms around him as best as I could. He grunted but didn't stiffen or pull away, he just stayed completely still, letting me use him as an object of comfort.

My sobs slowly softened to sniffle, then to hiccups and finally rapid breathing. I looked up and around the room, at the yellow polka dot walls, at the dust floating through the open window.

I started at his rough chest, my eyes working up his thin neck and pale hair. His off centered jaw and fucked up teeth, his cleft lip and those beautiful, confused eyes. I gave the saddest of smiles and melded my lips against his, digging my fingers into his hair.

I wanted to see if he could fight those dreams away, fight those horrible memories carved into my bones. It wasn't just sex with Lizard like it was with my father. It was making love. Sweet, sweet love making. Tender kisses along my hips, hot breathing against my core before a mouth licked its way back up to take in the point of one of my breasts.

It made me cry, made me beg him for more like I never had before. It was body rush after body rush, hot flush, raging blush. His tongue played with the small pink point there, one calloused hand cupping my other breast and kneading it while the other travels lower, cupping my core. It made the heat unbearable ad moist. I panted against his temple, my eyes closed as I played with his hair.

His tongue traveled down again, taking in the planes of y stomach, making the flesh tingle under his menstruations. I wish it could be like this forever, this burning that was pleasant and this pleasurable like fireworks. Everything was fire with Lizard, everything was pleasurable with Lizard. No matter what he did it sent those perfect chills up my spine and sent those goose bumps across my skin. He was the first to help me derive pleasure from the act of love making. He was the first to show me how to make love. Before all of this it was only sex, and it was only with my father.

Have you ever seen another galaxy with your own eyes? Have you ever reached out to touch infinity? Have you ever memorized every freckle on a lover's neck, their shoulders, their cheeks? I have. I can pin point every freckle and remember what it looks like.

We attached ourselves to each other like octopuses, grunting and groaning into each other's skin. I love the way he groans into me, I love the way I can old myself to him so perfectly. I love the way his rough skin feels on mine. I love the way his hand slips between us and plays with my button sending me into the most pleasurable convulsion in my life.

I cried out, not afraid of waking the house anymore. Lizards name flies from my lips and I feel the heat burn on my cheeks, but I'm too lost in the moment to care. It feels amazing, it feels like exctasy. Even as I fall while Lizard gives his last few thrusts I feel like the pleasure is never ending.

I can't tell where I end and he begins in this bundle of us. We are one being right now, two halves of a damaged whole. What is he thinking now with his head tucked under my chin?

"I love you, Lizard." I whisper, let it linger in the moist air.

He gives this strange sound and says it. "I love ya too.

I smile, hearing that wonderful truth behind his words. I'm happy about this, I'm happy about this moment and all of its imperfections. He stirs in my arms, moving down to my stomach, suctioning his ear to my pale skin. I stroke his head, watching his hands run over my hip bones and thighs; I shiver in delight.

"You was screamin' when ya woke up…"

I hesitated with my fingers in his hair, but ultimately continue, giving a heavy sigh. "I…I was remembering my past…my father."

"You're Pa?" He rolled over to look at me, leaving his head resting on my stomach.

I nodded, swallowing my tears. "Yeah…he was a lawyer in New York. He…He died in the fire that took away my old home. I'm happy that place is gone."

"Wha' did he do to ya?"

I looked up at the ceiling, letting the tears soak into the rim of my eyes. "He said all dads did those things to their good girls. He said it made him love me more." I choked on my words, squeezing my eyes shut.

Lizard didn't console me while I wept, and I'm glad he didn't. I didn't want to be pitied for this, it was pure hell I went through and I'm proud I survived it all. I should have gotten a medal for it, but that's just being ridiculous.

I finally got myself together and looked down at Lizard, saw his childish wander in his pale eyes and laughed. It was beautiful to see such a pure look in his eyes. He looked like a child that was confused when his momma cried. He didn't know what to do, he wanted to do something but was at a loss. Every other time I initiated the coddling, not him.

I reached down, trying to hold back my sob, and stroked his cheek, smiling at his innocence to my crying. His marred face smiled at me, an actual smile I was surprised to see on his face. It was wonderful to see besides a scowl or half hazard frown on his face. I stroked his hair again and looked out the window, watching the stars twinkle above the desert. The moon was swollen and red on the horizon, sending an eerie tone over us. I looked down at Lizard and found his eyes still on me, still full of that innocence I wasn't used to.

"What is it Lizard?"

"Yer beautiful…" he whispered, reaching his hand up to touch my neck.

My breath hitched in my throat and my chest swelled up with joy. Butterflies started in my stomach for the first time with Lizard and I grinned, one tooth baring grin I rarely let out. Lizard grinned the best he could too.

"You're so handsome when you smile," I breathed.

He sat up on his arms, crawling forward to lay beside me, his arm straight against mine. I watched our toes wiggle beside each other, smiling against his shoulder. He was a head taller than me, and it showed when we were beside each other.

These were the only moments I enjoyed Lizards company, when we were still bathed in the afterglow of love making and riding high on our own hormones. Lizard was actually kind of sweet in this time, I knew by tomorrow it would be over and he would be back to his gruff self, but that didn't mean I would mope because this would be over, I relished in it.

"You happy you got a babay?"

I smiled, running my fingers down the side of his face. "Of course Lizard, why would I not be?"

"Cus of me. I not…"

I knocked my head into his shoulder, making him flinch and me grin. I sighed and closed my eyes. "Lizard, I have already told you I love you. Your looks do not put me off one bit. And if the baby is like you I will love it no matter what."

The words rang true. I loved Lizard, and I would love this baby. No matter what. i want a boy, I always wanted a boy. A boy with my eyes, and now Lizards hair. That snowy hair and golden eyes. Oh he'd be a beautiful baby.

"What do you think about names?" I asked.

Lizard was quiet for a long time. "Uh…I thin' Gauge, fer a boy."

I smiled. "I think Eva for a girl, what about you?"

"Pretty…"

I chuckled at his simple mindedness and kissed his freckled shoulder, closing my eyes again. I could sleep peacefully now. I love you Lizard, no matter what you might think. I don't care about your looks or your gruff personality. I will love this baby too, and I hope you won't regret me.