A/N: Thank you to everyone who comment on my last two chapters! I love hearing about how much you love this story so far! I am to say a special thank you to Thepuppiesinpink for editing my chapter. I had this chapter written back on Friday but didn't really like it. So after many many hours of editing, I think I am finally happy with it. Love reading your comments! Next chapter will be up as soon as I can get it. Any suggestions on what you would like to see in this story, please let me know. What did you think of the season finale?

Chapter Three – I love you

It was only eight and the house was quiet. The kids were downstairs in the kitchen doing homework. They wanted to make sure not to disturb their parents. Elizabeth and Henry laid in their bed wrapped up in each other. She was glad to be in her own bed. He could see the pregnancy glow now. After three pregnancies, he probably should have recognized it before now.

The moonlight glowing through their window played shadows on her face. She was absolutely beautiful. He rested his hand on her stomach. God's amazing blessing was growing inside her. A beautiful miracle. The worry about chasing around a toddler at his age was playing like a record in his mind. He'd be going into his 70s by the time this child was in high school. That freaked him out to no end. But on the other hand, people had been raising kids well into their old age. They could do it too.

Worry about being pregnant at her age was running through her head. This pregnancy was going to be high risk. Was she going to be able to carry this baby to term? Was she going to be able to have a natural birth? Was she going to be put on bed rest? This couldn't be as bad as she was thinking. She had carried three beautiful babies to term. Even with all the crazy hormones, back pain and driving Henry mad, their three angels turned about perfect. Even with all the questions and worries she had, she thanked God for this wonderful blessing.

"Babe, you're so beautiful!" Henry said rubbing circles on her stomach.

"I feel fat already," Elizabeth said playfully with a laugh.

"You're not fat! You're beautiful!" Henry kissed her lightly. He pulled her shirt up and laid kisses on her stomach.

"But am I hot?" Now she was teasing him.

"Very…very hot." Henry whispered hovering over her lips. His warm breath tickling her nose.

Elizabeth put her hand on his chest and smiled devilishly at him. Two can play this game. "No more sex after this baby!"

He was so drawn in by her lips, it took him a second to realize what she had said. "Wait...what?" Henry said propping up on his elbow.

"That's how we got here." She said teasing him. "Honey, we have five more months to have sex." She placed a hand on his chest as she kissed him lightly.

"Well, I guess now counts as a time," He whispered against her lips.

She moved her hand from his chest to his neck. He kissed her with longing. He couldn't keep his hands off of her. Her tongue graced across his lips asking for permission. He let her in as their tongues started dancing. It had been almost two weeks since they had sex. It was the longest they had gone in a while without some form of intimacy. He let his hand roam along her body, making sure to run over ever curve. She was so familiar to him. She was home. He moved from her lips down to her neck with kisses. She couldn't help but run her fingers through his hair. As his hand went down her side, he ran over her stitches.

"Mmm..." She moaned not in pleasure. She quickly pushed at his shoulders as the picture of Fred lying on top of her came rushing back. She tried to wiggle out from under Fred.

"Baby...Elizabeth!" Henry said face scrunched up in terror, rubbing her shoulder trying to snap her out of it. He made a mental note to stay away from that area on her back. That her scar was going to trigger a flash back.

Elizabeth opened her eyes and the panic attack was in full bloom. She turned her head away from him as her breathing increased.

"Shh..." Henry said against her hair trying to hold her.

Her breathing was quick and very shallow. She could feel all of Fred's weight laying on her chest. She quickly sat up moving out of his embrace. The feeling like she couldn't catch her breath was terrifying her. She put her hands to her stomach hoping the baby would pull her out. Henry quickly sat up and wrapped her up in his arms. He nestled his head into her shoulder. He felt so guilty for putting her in this state.

The thoughts of their in-born, beautiful child and Henry's loving arms around her slowly pulled her out. She felt awful for letting what was a beautiful moment turn into panic.

"I'm sorry," Bess whispered so softly he almost didn't hear her. She lightly turned her body away from him.

"Honey." Henry said lovingly. He lightly turned her towards him. "There is nothing to be sorry about. I am sorry." His heart broke for causing her into pain. He kissed her lightly as tears started running down her cheeks. This was something he was going to have to be patient with her.

She desperately wanted these panic attacks to stop. It couldn't be good for the baby. Plus, she wanted her life back. She wanted to be able to let her husband put his hands on her scar without flashing back to Iran. She curled herself into him like she was a little girl. He tightened his arms around her as he pulled her down on the bed. She laid her head on his chest listening to his heartbeat. Her breathing echoed his. She didn't feel like the strong women that she really was.

"I...love...you," She said squeezing her eyes closed as tight as possible.

Henry held her tightly as he heard the question in her voice. Did she really question his love? The last time she had questioned her own strength or his love was when Conrad offered her the station chef position in Iraq.

The kids were young, especially Allison and Jason. Conrad had offered her a wonderful position. But she also felt obligated to take it. Now she had to choose between going to Bagdad for a year and missing her family or quitting.

"Elizabeth. If you feel like you have to go, then go. But I can't promise you what it's going to look like when you get back. Or what we're going to look like." Henry said through gritted teeth. He didn't want her to go. He knew they could make it work but their children were so young.

Jason and Allison wouldn't be able to understand and Stevie would try. But did she really want to put her children through that when they needed her the most. She would do anything for her children and most definitely for her husband. But did she have the strength to give up her job? It was either her job or her family and husband.

After everything they had been through, he promised to show her that she was still strong and that he loved her unconditionally.

He kissed her lightly as he felt her finally release fully and her breathing slowed down drastically. He listened to her as she fell into a deep sleep.

Allison stuck her head into her parent's room seeing them wrapped up in each other. She smiled as she left and went back to the kitchen. Stevie and Jason wrapped up in their own activities at the kitchen table.

"They are asleep." Allison said going back to her studying. "Is she really okay?" Concern for her mother ran through her voice.

Stevie looked up from her book, 'Mom's fine. She will tell us what's going on when she is ready." Stevie knew this wasn't going to help her siblings but she didn't have anything else.

"What did I say? The government breaks people." Jason responded with anger. He started pushing the keys on his laptop even harder.

"She is just stressed Jason. The government isn't out to get everyone!" Stevie said in slight frustration. She was just as worried as her siblings. But she had to be strong for them.

"We need to do something for her." Allison said not even bothering to look up from her math homework. "Both Mom and Dad need a night off, especially Mom."

"What did you have in mind?" Stevie asked putting down her book. As much as she didn't get along with her mother, they really did deserve a nice night to themselves.

"Maybe have dinner delivered to them and we go out leaving them alone?"

" Jason? Any input?" Stevie tried to get her brother's attention.

"Yeah, whatever." He said gathering his things and heading to his room.


The pain of their constant fighting finally hit her like a ton of bricks. The pregnancy had put stress on their relationship. She was so tired of fighting with him about work, her health, the baby and the kids. She ended up spending nights in her office instead of going home. They had gotten so used to not talking about things going on all day that they even stopped talking about their feelings. Henry started to become resentful.

She walked into their bedroom. Her entire body completely drained. She tried to keep herself healthy for the baby but with everything going on it was tough. She wasn't sleeping, drinking too much coffee and not paying attention to really anything. She didn't even bother to look at him. She just went to the closet to change.

"Where the hell have you been?" Henry screamed at her. He was so tired of her spending so much time at work. For neglecting their children. He was tired of her stubbornness. For not taking care of her health. He was just fed up and done trying to reason with her.

"Henry! I'm tired!" She screamed back. She had been fighting with Russell all day about Russia and didn't need this when she got him too. When did their relationship get so messed up? What happened? How did their marriage go from love and respect to resentment and not having time for each other?

"Elizabeth! I am tired of this. I want a..." Henry yelled back just as he saw her slowly collapse against the wall.

She screamed in pain as she held her stomach. The pain was so bad she thought she had been shot.

"Oww..." She cried with extreme pain.

"Nice try Elizabeth." Henry said not believing her.

"I think I'm miscarrying." She squealed through sobs. She could feel the blood starting to drip down her leg.

Elizabeth's fingernails dug into Henry's chest. The pain woke him up. He looked down and rubbed her back trying to wake her up.

"Baby...wake up." Henry said lovingly.

She stirred out of her dream with tears streaming down her cheeks. It took her a second to realize it was a dream. It had felt so real. She released her fingers from his chest and saw the indents. She quickly looked up at Henry. He pulled her up further to him as she buried her face in his neck. Her hormones were so messed up.

Stevie quickly woke up hearing loud sobs coming from down the hall. She quickly got out of bed thinking it was one of her siblings. She was super surprised when she walked into the hall hearing the sobs coming from her parents' bedroom. She stuck her head in as she saw her father trying to soothe her mother.

"Is she okay?" Stevie asked with worry in her voice. This was the first time she had ever seen her mother so messed up. She couldn't recall her mother ever not being strong.

"She is fine honey. Go back to bed." Henry answered tightening his grip around his wife.

Stevie just nodded and left her parents' room. Instead of going back to bed, she decided to go make her mother some tea.

Henry just held her tight as he rubbed her back. He wanted to help her so badly. Elizabeth heard Stevie walk into their bedroom. Guilt started rushing over her, she didn't want to ever let her children see her other than being strong and confident.

"Thank you sweetheart." Henry whispered to his oldest daughter. Elizabeth just nestled her face further into Henry's neck so that their daughter didn't see her tears. She let out a deep breath when she heard Stevie leave and their bedroom door closed. She turned her face to take a deep breath of fresh air.

"Baby...it's time to talk about this." Henry said not wanting to push her but knowing he had to. Maybe if they worked through this together then she wouldn't have so much anxiety about everything.

Elizabeth let go of him and sat up. She was scared to tell him. He could see the fear in her. He sat up and placed an arm around her.

"I am right here!" He said reassuring her. "Take your time." He kissed her head, showing her he was listening.

"I'm all messed up." She whispered through quiet sobs.

Henry just pulled her in tightly as he waited for her to keep talking. The comfort of his embrace helped her to talk.

"We were fighting. You had started resenting me." Elizabeth said slowly.

Henry pulled her in closer, surprised by what she was saying.

"You asked me for..." She now started sobbing harder.

A tear rolling down his own cheek now. He understood her hormones were going crazy but he never thought she would doubt his love for her.

"You asked for a divorce and then I miscarried." She said between sobs. As she said it out loud it sounded ridiculous. She knew that this was an absurd thought.

"Honey, it was just a dream. I will never leave you!" Henry said determined to make her believe it.

"I know. I just..." She said quickly getting out of bed and pacing back and forth. "We are having another baby! I can't get these panic attacks to stop. I already don't spend enough time with our kids now. I don't spend enough time with you!" Elizabeth said getting angry with herself. What had happened to her and her life? He was going to start resenting her for not believing in herself or their relationship.

"Elizabeth, you have to stop this." He said a little too angrily. He realized how it sounded and got out of bed. He went over to where she was frozen in her spot and hugged her. "I'm sorry. That didn't come out right. I'm so sorry."

"I know...I'm sorry too." Elizabeth said snaking her arms around his neck and kissing her passionately. She knew how crazy she sounded.

Henry broke their kiss and took her hand. He led her over to the window sill and they wrapped themselves up in each other. She knew they were going to get through this.

"Sweetheart. This baby is a miracle. I am over the moon about this. I couldn't be happier. I promise!" Henry said laying his hands on top of hers as they rested on her stomach. "I love you so much!"

She turned her head back towards him. He leaned down and kissed her lightly.

"I am going to make a promise to you." He stated resting his head on her forehead. "I promise to remind you every day how much I love you and this baby. To remind you how sexy you are. How much the sight of you turns me on. And most of all, remind you of how much your children and I need you." He tightened her embrace around her and kissed her once again.

"I love you so much!" She said resting herself into her loving husband. "Let's go back to bed babe."

Henry just nodded his head as she got off the sill. She held out her hand waiting for him. He took her hand and followed her back to their bed. They tangled themselves into each other and fell back to sleep.


Henry walked into the kitchen as his children were quietly talking to each other. Right as Stevie saw him, she grabbed a cup and poured him some coffee.

"Good morning, Daddy." She said handing him the cup and kissing him on the cheek.

"Thank you. Good morning sweetheart!" He took a sip of the coffee and walked around to kiss his other children good morning. He could feel the questions that they were holding back. "Your mother is fine. She just needs some time to rest."

"What made her go to the hospital?" Jason asked finishing his cereal.

Henry put his hands up to stop him. "Your mother will tell you when she is ready. Please give her some time and space. She is having a hard time after Iran. She will be fine though." Henry said sitting down at the kitchen table and pulling out the newspaper.

They kids didn't ask any more questions. They finished their breakfast and headed off to school.

Henry carried a tray into his room as he saw Elizabeth waking up. She sat up and smiled as she saw him walk in. He set the tray on her lap. He went back to his side of the bed and crawled back in next to her. She looked at the roses. They were beautiful. She took the card and opened it.

(To an amazing wife,

Just to remind you how beautiful, special and wonderful

you are. I love you to the moon.

Your loving husband)

"Baby, thank you!" She said kissing him. "You didn't have to do this." She laid her hand on his.

"Yes I did! You must feel special every day love. And if I have to bring you flowers every day I will!" Henry said with a smile

"The food can wait right?" Elizabeth asked looking seductively into his eyes. He just nodded. "I love you!" With that she put the tray on the ground and jumped into his embrace. They tangled themselves up in each other and the blankets.