When he was younger Jon always wanted to be a musician just like his father Rhaeger, whos relation to him he wasn't aware of at that time. Over the years Ned had told him so much about the man he used to distrust so deeply but came to accept and respect when he saw the love his sister had for him. He must have been a great singer but was never able to pursue this dream thus leading his fathers business. When Rhaeger and Jons mother Lyanna died the company paid Ned off, the money of course destined for the little orphan boy he took into his custody. They paid the bills with some of the money but most of it was saved so Jon could actually go and study, be able to pursue his passions and live the life his parents had wanted for him.

Well by now you could say that Jon was coming down to reality pretty quickly. His adoptive mother Cat had always wanted him to join the army. Not only because she couldn't stand the pressure of lying to him in his early years but because she was a very honourable woman and believed that his awareness of duty and his will to protect other people would be something their country should benefit of. Wouldn't it have been for Daenerys storming through their family home, screaming and shouting like there was no tomorrow, he might have even done it.

Everyone had deep respect for Catelyn Tully-Stark. Dany did too. But when it came to her best friend Jon these things were irrelevant to her.

Jon could vividly remember the shocked look on her usually so graceful face when she first heard about the idea over dinner. Jon could tell that she had actually been trying to hold back in that moment.

"Excuse me asking Mr. and Mrs. Stark but how is this fulfilling his fathers dreams and letting him follow his passions?" An eighteen year old Targaryen asked very bravely.

"Don't be ridiculous, Daenerys. It's Ned and Catelyn for you." The older man corrected her with a small smile earning a glare from his wife. Cat came around harder and more restricted than she usually was. She could be a very caring mother most of the time, but she was also similarly determined as the small silver haired women opposite of her. It was rather obvious that Ned was not too found of the idea of sending Jon to military academy either but he must have decided not to intervene when his wife set her mind on something. After all she had raised six children almost on her own while he was trying to save the firm of their family friend Robert by advising him. On the other hand, Lyanna had been his little sister. The woman had meant a lot to him you can tell by the way he talks about her still and he would never force her son to do anything he wasn't interested in. so the conflict was pretty complicated.

"Jon is a very smart and athletic young man. He respects orders and is very aware of his duty. After his basic education at the military academy he can still decide rather or not to continue that path." Catelyn said.

"But by then he was waisted his entire potential! He could not easily go back to university, he will have rough and less ambitious friends, he will not be able to make music or research history. This is not what he wants and I will not sit by while you deliberately ruin his chances and put him into danger!" Dany almost shouted over the huge table, earning a giggle from young Arya while Sansa seemed to support her mothers plan.

"Watch your tongue, young girl!" Cat warned her in a yet polite manner.

"I think it should be up to Jon entirely. Like I got to decide for myself." Robb went to Daenerys help.

"You are studying economics to follow up in Roberts footsteps and lead his business. Not so much free choice there either and you like it, right?" Sansa intervened now. Her tone was mirroring her mothers but you could tell that she was a lot less confident. Dany had no doubt that she would learn to lead the family like her mother in a matter of time.

"But at least he was offered a choice!" Daenerys replied, an enraged look still on her face.

"When Robb and Jon were little boys they always dreamt about serving in the police forces or the army. I believe this current irritation will pass rather quickly."

Irritation?" Dany could not believe her ears. "Those are the job wishes every little boy has at some point in life. Studying music or history has been his dream for way longer than this."

"For all I know Jon is still a boy and has no capability to make such great life decisions." Catelyn sounded angry now, she was not letting herself get played by Daenerys.

"Please stop." Jon finally said. He was no one to challenge his (adoptive) parents wishes or object with them. Still, he knew that Dany was right, she always was when it came to him. Joining the military didn't sound bad in his ears but he wanted to do so much more than that. In that point Daenerys had always been an inspiration to him. She wanted to be a politician ever since she was a little girl – well there was this one phase where she wanted to become a pyromaniac but that had just been a silly idea and he was glad that it didn't stuck – and she wanted to travel, meet new people, stand up for the people who didn't have a voice in this kind of society and change the world for the better. Jon had always admired that and it had seduced him to dream big as well. To study and become a university lecturer or professor one day, to be able to teach and help young people find their way. Daenerys was right, he could not give up on that dream without even trying. If it didn't work out he could always join the army. His uncle Benjen was an high-ranking officer and he could get him in any time.

"I am going to university. I will get a place with Robb and come back if it doesn't work out."

So that's what he did.

But life at university wasn't as easy as he had imagined. By deciding to follow his own path he agreed to let Catelyn save half of his inheritance as an emergency found, in case things didn't work out. But damn uni was expensive. Jon had been paying his bills and tuition by working 3 jobs at once. He was assisting in the local middle schools library, attending a troubled child as a social worker and playing guitar at a bar late at night when the main gigs were over. It wasn't bad, at least he had enough money to effort an old rusty car and his shared apartment with Robb while also making great experiences. Well at least that's what he told everyone else.

One day when he dropped down on his small bed fully exhausted he was barely awake enough to notice Dany entering the room.

"Robb let me in." Her voice was smaller than usual and he could swear there was something sad to it. But then again he was tired as fuck so maybe he was overinterpreting things.

"Come and cuddle." Jon demanded in a sweet and dozy voice. It was their thing – cuddling late at night when both of them had exhausting days behind them. Sure it wasn't really a normal thing to do for "just friends" but when have they ever been normal?

Dany followed his instruction quietly, snuggling up against his side while he was wrapping an arm around her.

"I was offered an internship at George Washington University in D.C." Dany told him, her voice barely a whisper. "I know it's not Harvard or Princeton but I could work at a small government office and socialize, maybe even make it into one of the ministeries or politicians offices." She explained further. Dany seemed torn even though that is what she always wanted.

"But it's Washington." Jon slowly combined. It was visible that he was just realizing the full consequences of this offer step by step. "You really wanna go halfway across the country?" He didn't mean to scare her off but it was impossible for him to imagine a life without her. Jon would never keep her from living her dreams but it slowly dawned on him that she was his'.

"I know, I know." Dany admitted quietly. She knew that it was impossible to keep contact when you were in different time zones even, parted by entire states. She loved Jon but she also wanted to do something bigger with her life, she wanted to make it in politics and therefore she knew that she had to start early. She had to take every opportunity given.

"But what about becoming a human rights activist, fighting modern slavery?" Jon asked, still baffled from the new information. Dany had always been so idealistic about her future. She wanted to be an activist and work at a law firm where they actually did something for the people. She wanted to be the new Amal Clooney or whatever her new role model had been that day. But working for the government she always criticized? Moving to Washington to have this classical and super boring career path. That just wasn't her.

"I can still do that once I made it. It's not that easy gaining influence to change stuff." Dany admitted quietly. He could tell that she still had those dreams in her but somehow she seemed disillusioned now, so different from when they were younger.

"So you really wanna do it?" It was so obvious in the way she was fantasising about the offer. It wasn't her dream entirely but Daenerys wanted to purse it even when it meant leaving him behind.

It was quite for a minute and Daenerys felt a great distance between them. How was he not seeing that she had to do this to live her dream even it was far away. They had always supported each other, she had stood up to Catelyn fucking Stark for god's sake. And now he was starting to doubt her? Daenerys was overwhelmed by the entire situation. Just last night they had been sleeping in this bed together, snuggled up under the blankets, stealing little kisses now and there, and now they are spiralling into a fight and she can't stop it. Jon meant the world to her but so did her future career.

"And what about us?" Jon asked with a heartbreaking look on his face. There had always been a them and then again it hadn't. Ever since their little pizza date they had been more than friends, then again they always had. But this time it had actually physically been more. She had kissed him every time she came into his apartment in the evening. He had woken her up every morning with a big cup of coffee, breakfast and a kiss. They went to the cinema together, tried to cook crazy tv-show meals they had seen the night before and studied together in the library. Jon and Dany had been a couple without being a couple and maybe that was their great mistake. Both of them had dreamed big when it came to their future but up until now they had always planned it together.

"I am not choosing to leave you or any of this. I am just taking this once in a lifetime chance. Can you understand that?" Dany asked, her hands finding the way up to frame his face, desperate to make him understand. "We can still see each other and keep in contact."

Keep in contact. It sounded like some empty phrase you tell your college friends when you graduate or some client that doesn't bring enough money in but definitely not the person you have been friends with since pre-school, who you have been hanging out with basically every day and where kissing good night had become a habit over the last couple of months. For a moment Jon was angry at himself for letting her do this to him, for letting her stomp on his feelings like she didn't even care. He was in love with her for god's sake and he really thought they were on a good way to finally make it work between them. Jon felt like an idiot. Maybe it had been his fault because he never actually told her how he felt but on the other hand she just had to know. Maybe he shouldn't have gotten his hopes up in the first place. After all she never really made a move to actually establish a romantic relationship between them of make it official. How could he have been so blind?

"Actually Daenerys, I can't understand." Jon said, his features hardening and his eyes getting distant all of a sudden. If Danys decision has been made, if she is not even considering staying anyway than he would not let her hurt him even more. For the first time ever he was actually angry with her. He had always taking her advice when making great life decisions, they had always worked them out together and now all of a sudden she decides to leave and that's that. "It's a selfish decision and you know that."

"Selfish? Excuse me?!" Dany was furious now. She had been nothing but honest and opened up to him about her troubled with this decision and now he was calling her selfish? As if she hadn't enjoyed this last couple of weeks and it hadn't been killing her to tell him that she would leave.

"Yes selfish. You've been using me as your emotional trash can for the last couple of years and now when there's even the slightest opportunity you bail on me." Jon exclaimed in an angry voice. He had no idea how he could get so mad at her, he loved her and he would never do anything to hurt her but by blaming her for leaving that's exactly what he did. It was like a storm that he was not able to hold back even though he knew better. He wanted to hurt her the same way she was hurting him. He wanted to see any kind of reaction on her face that showed regret or that she was sorry for leaving him. He didn't want her to turn down this chance but he wanted her to ache like him. It wasn't fair or noble of him but he couldn't stop the bitter words from slipping out of his mouth, hurting the only person he ever truly cared about. "How long have you known? Have you known when you asked me out on a date? Or when you kissed me after? Have you known when you slept next to me every single night since?"

Dany grabs her small purse and gets off the bed, her legs shaky and her brain shutting down. "I'm so sorry-" She starts but couldn't bear to counite. She couldn't bear looking at his face because she knew that she would change her mind in a second so she just grabbed her stuff and fled the room. Like it was on fire and she had to get out to save herself but she was leaving behind the man she had loved for her entire life.