Sorry, I deleted the previous Chapter 5. I posted it in a rush and didn't notice that there were a lot of mistakes. Anyway, here is the one after edition. So, enjoy.


Chapter 5

Two people made two really similar phone calls that night. They even both began with the same sentence.

'Addie, I screwed up. '

'Teddy, I screwed up.'

1135 miles away(in LA), Addison Montgomery picked up the phone.

'No, no, Henry you have to add one to both sides of the equation so y equals to four,' Addison instructed her son before she went back to the phone again to see who's calling. The number of people who had called to talk about their problems throughout the years was surprisingly high. She couldn't identify who that was just by listening to the first sentence.

'You're teaching my godson algebra? He's six, isn't he a little too young for that? Addison, tell me you're not turning into one of those 'tiger moms' now,' Amelia overheard Addison teaching Henry some pretty advanced Maths for his young age, so she couldn't help to step in because she did care a lot her godson's interest after all.

'For your information, Henry told me what the teachers taught in school is too easy and asked me to teach him something harder. And Amelia, I know you're not calling just to criticize my parenting style. What's wrong? ' Addison defended.

'No, I'm certainly not. But I don't think it's a good idea. If my memory serves me right, you weren't exactly the best Maths tutor. Remember the time when you tried to teach me Calculus when I was in high school? I didn't even know taking the derivative means finding the slope of tangent of a curve after doing a bunch of differential equations,' Amelia babbled.

'And you are certainly not calling to insult my poor Maths teaching skills. Seriously, Amelia, why are you calling?' Knowing Amelia well, Addison was well-aware of her habit of diverging from the subject when things were too overwhelming for her.

'I did something stupid. I kissed Arizona and misled the whole hospital into thinking we're dating. It was originally a practical joke but now I think, I think I may have actually fallen for her,' Amelia confided to Addison, her former sister-in-law, who knew her better than any of her sisters or perhaps even herself.

'Ok,' Addison listened patiently and gave a short answer in order to let Amelia continue and think about what Amelia had just said.

'I don't know. I'm scared. Addie, I don't know what to do. I haven't felt this way towards a woman in a long time. I'm scared,' Amelia went on, and didn't notice that she was subconsciously stressing on the fact that she had not date a single female in a long time.

Addison knew she was anxious. She was concerned because of her past history with dating female.'You know she is not Chloe,right?' Addison emphasized. She needs Amelia to understand that. She was the only one who knew the part of Amelia's drug addiction story that she withheld from everyone else.

Amelia had never mentioned how important the friend who introduced her to drugs was to her. Chloe, her first girlfriend, the first person she ever dated. She introduced her to the captivating world of drugs, illusions, the world without any pain and suffering. Like drugs, Chloe was beautiful and intoxicating but extremely bad for her in every single possible way. She messed her up badly and still she had never stopped thinking about her.

She thought she never felt like that again, until Ryan came along, but he's dead. And now, all those feelings resurfaced from nowhere for Arizona. Amelia could not distinguish her feeling for Chloe and Ryan from the influence of drugs. She knew more or less those little seemingly harmless pills messed up her reward pathway and her reuptake of neurotransmitters. Her attractions towards them could be fallacious and even worse hallucinatory. However, she could not unravel why she was feeling the same way with Arizona. She was 100% sober this time. Her judgment was totally neither impact by either those chemical compounds nor her brain tumor.

'I know, but the feelings, it felt so much alike,' Amelia sighed.

'I know, but that's what happens when you fall in love. It felt like the same every time,' Addison shared.

'Every time? I thought you are a big believer in 'the one',' Amelia was confused.

'Yea, I used to. But then I realized I had these same feelings with Derek and then Mark and Sam and now Jake so I changed my mind,' Addison sighed as she recollected every little moments she spent with all these men.

'If your feelings for her is really that intense then go for it, you don't really want to re-enact my whole drama with Sam again, do you?,' Addison knew her little sister deserves better, someone who can be able to take care of her. She didn't know if Arizona would be the one right for her, but she sensed that this might be the beginning of a budding relationship so she just encouraged her to go for her.

'No, I don't.' Amelia replied. Then, they switched to talk about the new things happening around in Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital.

After listening to Addison's pep talk, Amelia still wasn't sure about what she should do. Given her history of substance abuse, it's not wise to make any moves without careful considerations. Otherwise, she would be pushing herself to the brink of relapse again.

5093 miles away in Darmstadt, Germany, Teddy Altman picked up the phone.

'Arizona, do you have any idea that it's 6 am here?' It was the first sentence Teddy said. Even though Arizona was an old friend, she helped to be cranky and yelled at her a little. Afterall, she had just got 2 hours of sleep after 3 back-to-back surgeries the day before.

'Oh, sorry I waked you up. Do you need to go back to sleep? I can hang up the phone, 'Arizona said. Her voice trembled a little. Her authority issues seemed to be getting worse through time and now even extended to her friends who yell at her.

'No. It's okay. You've already woke me up. What's up? 'Teddy asked in a more gentle and concerning voice. She realized her harsh voice earlier may have spooked her friend a little.

'I did something stupid. I was so upset after Carina and I accidentally broke up. I went out drinking and then Amelia fished me out of the bar urgh… Owen and Carina walking into the bar, hugging. Oh, did I mention that Carina and Owen started hooking up after we broke up. Anyway, and then Amelia had this great idea to kiss in front of them as a revenge. I know it was meant to be a joke but then I started to have all these feelings for her. Oh, gosh, really, I mean, she's attractive,very attractive, I thought that the first time I saw her in Hopkins, but…'

While Teddy was impressed by her friend's ability to talk really fast, she couldn't keep her mind off thinking about the fact that Owen is now dating someone else. 'Wait, you're talking about Amelia Shepherd, as in Owen's ex-wife, 'she interrupted.

'Well, soon-to-be. I heard they had filed their paperwork and everything had not been finalized yet,' Arizona added.

'I can't believe Owen go for someone else again. I always thought we are meant to be, but I guess it will never happen, huh? Him being with someone is not an excuse anymore, he never wanted to be with me,' Teddy said.

'Oh, Teddy,' Arizona had forgotten that her friend did not know about Owen and Carina, she felt sorry for her. She was also guilty that she had been too involved that she forgot to give her a head-up or at least break the news to her in a more delicate way.

'You already have your plate pretty full now. Don't be too hung up on my problem. Let's talk about yours first,' Teddy said.

That was what Arizona loved about Teddy. She always put others before herself, no matter how miserable herself is at the time. She is not a good friend as she promised to be, Teddy is.

'You deserve someone better. You deserve someone who's not playing hard to get, some who won't leave you hanging for years,' Arizona tried

'You're not telling me you love me in the next sentence, are you?' Teddy joked. She didn't know what else to say other than teasing her friend in that time. She didn't want to make their conversation more tense.

'Of course, no,' Arizona chuckled.

Arizona and Teddy then moved to talk about interesting cases happening in their hospital, like the idiotic girl who tried to smuggle a gun into the prison for her boyfriend.

'It's nice catching up with you,' Arizona said at the end of the call. Like all her best friends in life, she and Teddy somehow became estranged. The geographical location difference became their barrier and separated them into two different zones.

'You too,' Teddy recognized that feeling. She felt that same way the last time she was in Seattle, chatting and laughing with Owen like in the old time. All that seemed like so many years ago, and yet that was just a few weeks earlier. That kiss was so mesmerizing, she wanted to forget it, but she found herself not able to. She was still sure that it was the right thing that she didn't kiss back, but she couldn't help wonder what might happen if she did. Would Owen be with her now instead of Carina? And then she realized how stupid she was thinking about all these what-if situations instead of seizing her time to go back to sleep after hanging up the phone.