Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do own some of the poetry and the songs used
Song used: Never Again-Kelly Clarkson, song used in last ch. was Very Last Moment In Time-Lindsay Lohan.
Chapter 3: New Choices
I ran out of the room and down the walk. I stopped for a minute to catch my breath and then I walked back down the beach. I kept walking for what felt like forever. I just stood there in the surf and let the water was over my feet. I just stood there and let myself think.
I made my decision, I was done. I walked to Tommy's and I knocked on the door. Two young girls answered and then Jessica appeared at the door.
"Jude, come in." Jessica said.
"Hey, I was looking for you're dad."
"Oh he's upstairs in his room."
"Thanks Jess."
"No problem. Is something bothering you?"
"Nothing that I can't handle." I said walking up the stairs and knocking on Tommy's bedroom door.
"Come in." He said. I opened the door and I walked in the room.
"Hi." I said shutting the door and I just stood there.
"Jude, what's wrong?"
"I'm done."
"What are you talking about?"
"Kat followed us down here and I walked in on her and Jamie."
"What?"
"Yeah, I think he's been doing her, this all along." I said.
"Jude come here" he said and I came and sat down next to him on the bed.
"I don't know what to do. I mean he was my best friend for most of my life and then we got married and he cheats on me." I said letting tears fall from my eyes
"Jude, he wanted you because I did. He lied to you, he played you." Tommy said. He put his arms around me and he kissed a tear off of my cheek.
"I was so stupid to actually believe that this could work."
"No you weren't. It was my fault, I left before you could tell me anything."
"Don't blame yourself. Please don't, I had the ticket I could have came after you if I wanted."
"You could have but you didn't have to."
"I'm sorry about everything; I shouldn't be dragging you into this."
"Yes you should. He shouldn't have done this to you and you know it."
"I know but, I don't want him to know that I found out."
"Jude, you know it's the right thing to do."
"I do, and I'm doing it." I said letting another tear fall and Tommy kissed it off my cheek. Then he kissed my forehead and the tip of my nose. Before I knew it, I kissed him hard on the lips.
He didn't hesitate to let me in at all. We fell backwards onto the bed and we jut laid there kissing. Tommy kissed my neck and my collar bone, and he nibbled on my ear a little bit. I knew it was wrong but, I didn't care. I was leaving Jamie and I didn't care that he wanted Kat, I was done.
I unbuttoned Tommy's shirt one button at a time and I slid it gently to the floor. Tommy slid his hands under my shirt and unclasped my bra. I raised my arms over my head and he pulled my shirt over my head and it fell to the floor. Tommy kissed me all over my body. He unbuttoned my skirt and it fell to the floor. I unbuttoned his jeans and his belt and they fell to the floor.
I pulled his boxers down and I kissed his chest and his stomach. Tommy slid my panties down and got on top of me. He carefully slid himself inside of me, and I let out a little moan and I nodded for him to keep going. I kissed Tommy with everything I had inside of me, and I was happy now.
The next morning I was wrapped up in a sheet with Tommy sleeping beside me with my head on his chest. I just looked at him and I didn't regret my choice. I didn't do it for payback, and I didn't do it for revenge. I did it for me, I loved him and as soon as I dealt with Jamie I was going to be with him.
I got up out of the bed and I slid Tommy's shirt on from the night before. I grabbed is guitar and a piece of paper. I went out on the balcony and I looked out into the ocean. The water was crystal blue and it was perfect. The sun was rising and it looked gorgeous. I started strumming chords and humming words. I started to sing the words that I was thinking of.
I hope the ring you
gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you're in bed
with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
But I
don't wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned
your words
I never read your letter
Cause I knew what you'd
say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try make it all
okay
Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
bet it
sucks
to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end
it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly
what you would do
Don't say
You simply lost your way
She
may believe you
But I never will
Never again
If she
really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife Oh, how
cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he's
through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die
together, but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say
it right to my face
Well, give me that Sunday school answer
Repent
yourself away
Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
bet
it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end
it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly
what you would do
Don't say
You simply lost your way
They
may believe you
But I never will
Never again
Never
again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again
will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never
again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!
Does
it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my
face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I
was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
Don't
say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I
never will
I Never Will
I never will
Never again
I finished the song, and I was satisfied. The song was about Jamie and Kat and what happened last night between the. I looked beside me and Jessica was standing there with her friends.
"Jude, that was awesome." Jessica said, I looked at the two girls standing beside her. "Oh this is Alana, and Melissa."
"Hi, I'm Jude."
"Jude, did you stay here last night?" Jessica asked me.
"Yeah, since your going to be nosy, I'm leaving Jamie."
"YES!" She shouted and then she shut up when she heard movement in the bedroom.
"Cold you be any louder?"
"Oh yeah, does this mean what I think it means?"
"Yes, after I go back home and settle things down."
"Whoop, whoop!" She said and she started doing what looked like her happy dance.
"Now, go back inside and be good I need to talk to your father about everything." I said.
"Right, you need to talk to my father. We'll let you guys go and 'talk'." She said and they left.
I walked back in the room and placed Tommy's guitar back where it was before. I looked at Tommy, and I melted. I knew I was doing the right thing but, I wasn't sure how to leave Jamie. I saw Tommy open his eyes and he pulled me back onto the bed with him and he wrapped his arms around me.
"Morning."
"Morning to you too." I said and kissed him.
"Do you regret last night?"
"No, but I do have to go back and face everything."
"I figured."
"What are we going to do about us?"
"Well, if you must know, Jess and I live in Toronto."
"You what?"
"Yeah we moved there about a month ago. She goes to school up there now."
"Why?"
"Because, I was coming back for you. I was going to fight for you. I figured that you were with Jamie and I wanted you back."
"Oh my god."
"Yeah, so get that look off you're face." He said. I was shocked.
"I think I know how I'm going to do this. I'm going to tell Jamie that I want to leave now, and then when we get home surprise the hell out of him."
"Good idea. Jess and I leave tomorrow morning."
"Great, then I will see you back in Toronto." I said.
"Yeah but, you don't have to leave just yet." He said pulling me closer to him and kissing me.
"No" I said and I let myself fall away into his arms.
