When I woke up the bed was empty and Edward was nowhere to be seen, I looked out the window and it was still dark which suggested it was early in the morning. Turning over I saw the time on my phone and it said 4:30...great I was wide awake, warm and feeling lonely "Edward?" In a flash I was in his arms " Bella why are you awake it's really early love, are...are you feeling ill?" as usual he was worried.

" What no..I just..um woke up for some reason, cuddle me please..?" he held me close humming softly to me, I soon drifted back to asleep which was a little un rested due to a bad dream. I finally woke up around 10 in the morning, the first thing I saw was Edward watching me with his breathtaking smile and bright golden eyes. " good morning!" he gave me a deep kiss and looked in to my eyes " morning my human" he took a deep breath and sighed

" Love today I am going on a hunt with the boys and Alice wants to spend time with you today as you haven't for a while, is that okay?" My body went into panic mode, I wasn't ready to spend a day without him yet, he had already been gone for two days and only just got back yesterday, however I didn't want to be selfish and deny him of his hunt.

"Y..Yes" I didn't look up to his eyes as I would break out into tears, He sighed a little frustrated " look at me Bella, Please?" I refused which drove his frustration further "Baby please?" I looked up at him with tears slowly building up behind my eyes " Bella! why are you crying love!" His voice filled with panic and he pulled me into his chest tightly

" I don't want you to go Edward...Please don't go" I cried into his chest, "Bella I wont be gone long I promise I need this hunt and you need to spend some time with Alice" I don't know what happened but I got angry and it overpowered me

"NO!" I ran down stairs grabbing my keys but was stopped by his cold but gentle grip "Bella what has gotten into you this morning!" His eyes filled with worry and regret " I don't want you to go please Edward! I am not ready to spend time without you yet" His eyes filled with tears he couldn't cry "Look ill go for a short hunt and be back in an hour okay?" I just nodded and he kissed my head leaving.

I ran back up into his room and got stuff ready to have a shower, Edward came up behind me sliding his arms around my waist " I promise I wont be gone long, please don't be upset, have a nice warm shower and ill be back soon" he hugged me for a good few minutes not wanting to let me go, this was he way of telling me he was worried and fighting his urges to stay with me. Letting go Edward looked into my eyes and left.

During my shower I accidentally cut my leg and Esme was in the bathroom before a drop of blood fell, I explained I was okay, she understood but the person who wont would be Edward, the second he comes in my blood is all he will smell. I cleaned up my mess and curled up on Edwards bed waiting for him to come home, Alice made a few appearances showing me dresses for the wedding. I am now down to three and will have my chosen one ordered by next week. 1 hour passed and as guessed Edward came bounding through the door in a panicked state "What happened!, Why has Bella been bleeding!"

"Son calm down it's okay, she just cut herself in the shower, she's fine" Carlisle's voice was calm as he tried to calm his frantic son. Edward crashed through his bedroom door and looked at me checking I was okay

"Edward I am Okay, I promise it was just a razor cut off my razor" He looked at me with worry filled eyes " I thought you had really hurt yourself, I am sorry for freaking out Bella..I just cannot loose you" he took me into is arms

" so..Alice has got you looking at dresses again, how did that go? his voice was filled with restrained worry " It was good, we are down to our last three dresses, I think I know which one I want but Alice said I need to try all three to be sure.." He chuckled slightly pulling me closer to him

"No matter what you where, You will look stunning, just like you do everyday I see you" I blushed deeply as he pulled me in for a kiss " Just try and look after that beautiful body of yours Mrs Cullen to be" He gently poked my ribs throwing me his massive crooked smile.

" Eeek no don't poke me you know it teases me Edward!" He raised his eyebrows with a playful grin " Exactly!" he poked me again then kissed me deeply, I don't know if it was the blood lust or talking about my body but something drove him crazy and now he was turned on " Edward! noo stop" I giggled into his pokes and kisses, which soon stopped when he was aware of what he was doing.

" I am sorry love, i got a little carried away" he looked down ashamed of himself, ashamed he let the teen in him take over his restraint.

"Edward it's okay...I liked it and you didn't hurt me" His lust filled eyes met mine and he sighed "I..I don't want to loose control, I might hurt you Bella I could never live with that" He looked at me pleadingly "Edward just try and loose a little self control for one night, I liked what we were doing.."

He walked towards me slowly and cautiously, he bent down and kissed me gently, slowly deepening it. After a few moments he pushed himself against my body lightly as he deepened the kiss, he then did something completely unexpected, I felt is tongue ask for entrance which I granted. He gently wrapped my legs around his waist pushing into me as he kissed me using his divine taste. I was breathless from his sent and presence, I never wanted it to end. His kisses became more urgent and lustful which sadly brought the session to an end, but i wasn't going to complain, I finally got to be closer to Edward than ever before... and I loved it.