And if we dream - Draco Malfoy/ OC

Chapter 2- My name is Avery Greenwood

Summary: Like some magnetic force, like some unbreakable bond she was drawn back to him again and again. And now, staying away was an inconceivable notion. "Always." she murmured, one hand finding his, the other tangling into his platinum hair, "Always."

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This is a sort of look into Avery as a person and her first person feelings on everything so far, then we'll start from sixth year next chapter.

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HOGWARTS YEAR ONE.

My name is Avery Greenwood.

Matilda once told me that it is sometimes good for someone to write down their innermost thoughts and ideas. Not like a diary because I think she knows I'd give up after a few weeks. More of a one off thing, a sort of venting, or a huge session of telling nothing but the truth. She also said I had to send it to her once I was finished, for proof I guess, or maybe just because she's really nosey. Kidding! It's some kind of thing she did when she was my age, she was bullied by the Slytherins a lot for being in Hufflepuff. Personally I wouldn't have minded being a Hufflepuff. If I had been sorted there I would probably have waited to tell my mum to her face, then I could have watched her pass out!

But, venting and complaining isn't my thing, not really, not when I have Ron to do enough complaining for the whole of Gryffindor and Hermione to shut him up again. Yes. I'm a Gryffindor, unlike my mother. I don't know how she reacted to the news, she never owled me back. Though I'm guessing she wasn't too happy with it. To be honest I didn't even think it would be so important! Mum had never really had many Slytherin traits herself, sure she doesn't like me very much, then again she doesn't like many people and she's got snobbish views and is quite rude but shes not a bad person. Not really. Maybe.

Anyway, ignoring the looming presence in my life that is my mum, I'm quite happy to be in Gryffindor. My friends are there, Hermione Granger, she'd really smart, should have been a Raven claw I think. Ron Weasley, well his second name tells you all you need to know really. Neville Longbottom, Fred and George and Harry Potter, the Harry Potter, who is a lot more normal than I would ever have imagined, to be honest I don't think he realises how famous he actually is!

The lessons here arent too bad. Transfiguration with McG is great, I wouldn't mind turning into a cat myself. Potions, is, well , I'm not really sure yet. Snape likes to unfairly take house points from Gryffindor then give them to his own house, but like I said, I wont complain, I could be in his house with people like Draco Malfoy and his chubby goonies that don't seem to have their own brains. So house points are a small matter really. Apart from that, Snapes not so bad. I don't like him! Don't jump to conclusions! I just don't think he is as bad as everybody else does that's all, but of course we've only done half the year so we'll have to see what happens wont we. So.. Matilda… yes I know you've read this whole thing and not burned it straight away like you promised, yes I am having a great time. Yes I do love it here. Ill see you soon.

HOGWARTS YEAR TWO

There's a muggle saying isn't there? Things can only get worse before they get better? Or something like that. Well, things definitely got worse. Hermione, who I consider my best friend, is in the hospital wing, petrified. They called me, Harry and Ron there late one night. She didn't die- cause she only saw it through the mirror. It's attacking half bloods and muggle borns so I know I'm safe but a lot of my friends' aren't. Now Rons little sister Ginny is missing. They say she has been taken to the Chamber of secrets. A place supposed to be a myth and yet she's there. She's so young, Ginny is, first year, doesn't understand a lot of things Ron's beside himself with fear and without Hermione around there isn't much me and Harry can do, 'Mione always has been the smartest one after all. We have theories, at least we did, Malfoy was our first accusation. It's not him though. Ok. So we had one theory. Ron has faith though, that Harry will sort this, he's parcel mouth after all and if this things just a big snake then surely he's got some chance. I'm sure we'll all be fine Matilda. I'll owl you as soon as I can.

HOGWARTS YEAR THREE

I think its going to be a pattern. If your friends with Harry Potter nothing will be simple and things will more than likely get worse year after year. And I say that in the most loving way possible. Course I didn't get told any of this 'til we were on the train cause I'm not aloud to go places in the holidays unless they're family events. Anyway, some prisoner has escaped from Azkaban and is trying to kill Harry. That's what I get told before Ive even had a chance to take a seat, next to some guy whose asleep. Then, not five minutes later it goes cold and I feel this utter, despair, like I'll never feel loved or whole, and then something, so inhuman is reaching into the compartment, and its concentrating on Harry but I can see Ron and Hermione are feeling this despair too, like our worst fears have come to life in front of our eyes. Then everything bright and when we can see again the guys putting his wand away and waking Harry who must have passed out. That chocolate looks good though.

Turns out he's Remus Lupin, new DADA teacher. Seems like a good man. The dementors, the things on the train will be staying at Hogwarts because they think Sirius Black, the escapee will be coming here. I hope not. That's all Harry needs, some other weirdo trying to kill him. Of course Malfoy and his Slytherins are having a field day with this, any chance they get they'll mock Harry for passing out. Though I hard a rumour that Malfoy ran screaming into Fred and Georges compartment, could be true, hopefully it is, but you never know with those twins.

Lupins classes are amazing, much better than that extremely good looking but totally useless burke we had last year. We fought boggarts. They manifest your worst fears and you can use a spell to repell them, turns out I'm scared of clowns. Who'd've thought it? Considering I've never seen one. Neville was scared of Snape, Ron of spiders, Malfoy of, well strangely enough his own father and Harry of dementors. When Lupin faced it, it became the moon, I never did get why 'til much later on.

I'll never admit it, but I was one of the few students who didn't laugh when the Hippogriff in Hagrids class went all mental at Malfoy. Sure the git deserved it, but no one deserves an injury and now there's this whole lawsuit thing and Buckbeak may have to die. Poor creature. Matilda said once that you've got to stick by your friends which has to be why I keep getting into these predicaments with them. It turns out Rons rat Scabbers is actually the guy who betrayed Harrys parents all those years ago. Sirius Black is the good guy and Lupin is a werewolf- explains the moon fear I guess. He transformed in front of us, nearly bit Hermione as she, stupidly, went towards him. Then Harry and Hermione disappeared, leaving me with Ron, who was bitten, and a werewolf. Thinking about it now I feel sort of betrayed, I had always assumed that they would need me, yet neither even turned to look at me before they used Hermiones time turner to sort things out. I haven't mentioned it. Probably wont. They surely just wanted me to watch out for Ron. I'm a little down that Lupin quit too, thinking the kids wouldn't like the idea of a werewolf teaching them. I said no one has to know, but he's a good guy like that and wont stay. Sirius is safe, Buck beaks alive and Harry didn't die. Though the rat did get away.

HOGWARTS YEAR FOUR

Harry is a Tri Wizard champion. He's fourteen, far too young to have put his name in. But Ron wont listen, and they're fighting and me and Hermione are sort of torn between them, though I can sense her heading closer to Ron, so I tend to stay with Harry more, because its only fair right? He's got to face Cedric Diggory, the cute Hufflepuff we met at the Quidditch world cup before the Death eaters attacked. Also Fluer Delacore and Viktor Krum from the other schools. He's too young, but once your name is called you have no way of backing out. Some think that he found a way past the age barriers, but even Fred and George couldn't do that so how could Harry have? Others think someone else put his name there in some sinister plot. Looking back on the years it is more than likely the latter. Nothing is innocent or safe when it comes to Harry Potter. Who thought of these challenges anyway? Bloody dragons and golden eggs and mer-people and mazes and stupid spells that could and did get someone killed. Though of course it wasn't the tournament that killed Cedric Diggory, it was Voldemort (Sorry Matilda, I mean You Know Who). He's back. Harry saw him, fought him, suffered at his hands again. He says the ghosts of his parents and then Cedric saved him. It would sound ridiculous in a muggle story but here, where ghosts roam the school halls on first name basis with the students its more than plausible. He told me something else too, Harry, something that should have shocked me, but didn't. I guess I had always known , the way she spoke of Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy and Bellatrix Lestrange and the way she spoke of Slytherins. Did you know Matilda? Mums a death eater. She was there when they stole Harry. When they brought back Vo- Him. Said she looked like me but older, I did suppress the 'no shit' that just called to burst forth. I kinda wish he hadn't seen her, they all sort of look at me weird now, like I am going to break down in tears at any moment, or turn into a death eater myself. I guess I don't see Draco Malfoy as that much of a monster anymore, it must have been hard for him all his life, people knowing of his father allegiance to the Dark Lord. But then there he is now, snarling at us from across the room. I take it back Matilda. I hate him again. As soon as I get home, I'm packing my things and moving with Matilda.

HOGWARTS YEAR FIVE

Sirius is dead. Everything's still sort of numb for us all, like no one can really grasp what just happened, I can only imagine how Harry must be feeling right now. We're hurting and we barely knew him, not like Harry did. The poor boy just seems to lose everyone he loves, all we can do now is be there for him. Be there and give him what he needs. He's fifteen years old and what he went through at the Department on Mysteries was as unbelievable to watch as it probably was for him to go through. Voldemort inside his head, conquering it all with love. It seems too magical to believe, like one of the stories Matilda would tell me before bed time, except right now theres no happy ending in sight, the only good to come from all of this is that Dumbledore is headmaster again and we've gotten our teachers back. Umbridge is finally gone. The evil hag. Fred and George are gone too though, decided not to come back even though Dumbledore would have allowed them to. We already miss the comic relief they brought. Dumbledores army has sort of merged with the Order of the Phoenix especially after our escapades at the department of Mysteries. Mother was there, with Malfoys dad and aunt. If we think about it, Luna, Neville, Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Harry and myself wouldn't have stood a chance if Sirius, Lupin and the order hadn't arrived. Which is the hardest part I think, if we hadn't needed them, they wouldn't have been there and maybe Harrys godfather would still be alive now. It was Bellatrix who threw the curse, Lupin who held Harry in his grief, Dumbledore who fought Voldemort and Harry who ultimately won. The rest of us, we just sort of stood there, what could we have done? Hermione was crying, so was I, and even Luna didn't look as untroubled as usual. Harry said something, something I think we all agreed on. We have something, that Voldemort doesn't. We have love, friendship, loyalty. But like I said before, I cant see a happy end in sight to this story Matilda. Things are happening too quickly. People are dying, hurting and losing things. As Harry said, we have love, but doesn't that also mean that we have more to lose then? I'm scared.

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So a little glimpse at the vulnerable side of Avery too. Please let me know what you think.