Chapter 2
BPOV
I walked into the forest where Edward left me and stood in that exact spot. I stared mindlessly into the depths of the forest and just smiled. I took out the knife I had stored under the bottom of my bed and touched the sharp edge of it. I'm going to end this pain once and for all. Just the thought of it made me laugh. I placed the sharp side of the knife on top of my pulse and pressed. I lifted up my head to feel the pleasure. But my happiness disintegrated when the truck of my old friend Jacob Black came into view.
He tried to stop me, but I backed away fast. He pleaded me, but I showed him no mercy. He had no idea how I felt. In my mind I shouted my reasons, but he cannot hear. You have no idea how I feel. You have no idea how it feels when your loved one leaves you, but you are helpless to fight back. You have no idea how it feels to take a picture with him but to see in the picture, such a dramatic contrast. You have no idea how it feels to be looking as your best, but still dull and plain compared to him and his family. You have no idea how it feels to be left alone with no one care for. You have no idea.
I slit my wrist, and the blood ruptured out. Jacob reached out for me, but it was no use. I smiled at my success. I fell down onto the ground and the blood continued to ooze out. I replayed the happiest moments Edward and I spent together in my mind and I knew, that even in my death, I would love him. Slowly, my vision faded, I could still hear Jacob calling out to me but it was in light echoes. I was plunged into the bottomless depths of darkness, forever.
