A/N: Been sitting on this one for awhile! Early in the Densi relationship. Post Humbug but pre Season 7. Enjoy!
She needs him.
She's lying in his bed after an incredibly long day, watching him sleep, watching him breathe, and the realization is so sudden, so glaringly obvious, that it steals her own breath away. Kensi Blye, who has spent most of her adult life valiantly not needing anyone, ever, needs a shaggy haired detective with a penchant for cronuts and surfing.
She's not sure when it happened, not sure when she transformed from a completely solo creature to one who can't go two days without hearing his laugh, seeing him smile, tasting his lips. But as she watches his chest rise and fall she realizes that what she's feeling is more than just love; it is an overwhelming, fierce desire to have him by her side all the time.
She needs him to kiss her awake in the morning and make her breakfast. She needs him to sneak his hand into hers under the table in Ops when he's sure no one else is looking.
She needs him to hold her when the nightmares shake her awake at three am. She needs him to tell her they are going to be all right after a bad day at work. She needs him to assure her that she is okay, that she is not broken, that she is strong, because sometimes she's just not sure.
She needs him to make her a better agent. She needs him to watch her back. She needs him to know all her moves, to sense what she's going to do before she does it.
She needs him to make her a better person. She needs him to push her to her limits and beyond. She needs him to challenge her mind and lighten her heart. She needs him to make her laugh and cry and everything in between.
She needs him like she needs air, like water. She needs him every day and all night. She needs him more than she's ever needed anything in her life and it scares her tremendously.
Deeks stirs, interrupting her thoughts, and she leans over to kiss his cheek.
"You okay?" he mumbles, his eyes still closed, completely unaware of this revelation that has struck her in the middle of the night.
"Perfect," she whispers in response.
He drifts back off and a smile touches her lips. She's scared, but she has him. And it turns out, he's all she needs.
A/N: Leave your love in the reviews!
