Nanjou's POV
After another day of rehearsal I decided to visit the new apartment. I decided a couple months ago that we should get a bigger place. My place is one bedroom and small, there wasn't enough room for the baby to grow up in. The new place is in a fancy new neighbourhood and it's got Ai's favourite shop across the road from us. I decided to get a three bedroom four bathroom house as it would be more convenient for us. It's got large kitchen, dining room and living room in one large area. A giant office and a family room. The balcony was huge and had a great view of the city, each bedroom has a bathroom in it. I entered the place and it felt empty, it needed me to go furniture shopping to truly make it ours. I wanted all new furniture for a fresh start. Only the best for my Ai. I decided to write notes on what to order. I wanted Aina's taste into decorating so I mapped up the house plan and drew where the furniture was going to go. Once that was all done I arrived home and went straight to sleep, cuddling up next to Ai.
The next morning we didn't have anything to do today so I decided to use this opportunity to buy some furniture. I grabbed my computer and sat next to Ai and started showing her the furniture. She decided on a black leather couch for the living room and a white dinner table with matching chairs. I placed the order when she went off to do something I also purchased a couple of other things as well.
Aina's POV
I started feeling weird so I decided to get into bed to rest my aching body.
I laid in bed thinking about Yoshi and the baby. Why was Nanjou looking at furniture? I wonder what the baby is going look like? My body started to ache all of a sudden; I couldn't move and was in so much pain. I wanted to scream for Yoshi to help and comfort me but I didn't want to worry her. I bothered her enough as it was. Eventually the pain went away, it took away all my energy that moment. I couldn't keep my eyes open, so I rolled over and went to sleep. The concert is in 2 days so I need as much energy as possible.
I woke from sweating a lot and becoming really hot, I looked at the time it was 4:37am. I wanted to cry it was an awful feeling. In an attempt to feel better, knowing I was not going to get back to sleep, I got out of bed to have a shower. I was daydreaming about something I don't fully remember when suddenly I felt a familiar pair of arms wrap around me. I quickly turned around and saw Yoshi, who was hugging me from behind.
Her: What are you doing up?
Me: I felt like a shower
Her: You're weird but I love you.
She kissed me and quickly washed herself before exiting the shower.
The shower didn't do anything besides make me feel refresh, I forced myself to sleep. We have our long day tomorrow with it being the last day till the concert.
I woke up and felt the cold, it was summer so I shouldn't be cold. I thought I had a flu but I need to push through the day, I had another quick shower with nanjou. We wore similar outfits by accidents, we looked cute through.
We were about finish running through day 1 concert when I felt a sharp cramping pain in my stomach. The pain was very intense enough to make me almost go down on the floor and cry. I quickly hobbled over to my bag to take some painkillers to help ease the pain. When we got to practicing concert day 2 the pain went away mostly, there was the occasional sharp sensation but nothing that could stop me from dancing.
I love watching Nanjou perform, she has such a wonderful stage present. I sat in the seats watching BiBi do their performance, the baby seemed to enjoy hearing its mom sing as it kicked a lot as if dancing to the beat. I could already tell it was going to be very energetic and a good dancer, just like its cmama Yoshi. After lunch break we ran through the day 2 concert, which was mostly the same to day 1 but with some different songs so it wasn't too difficult. I honestly don't know which one I liked better.
After that long day I was so tired that I collapsed on the couch as soon as I got home. I wanted to fall asleep but I know yoshi wouldn't let me as she hates it and thinks it would hurt or make the baby uncomfortable. She's adorable being over protective and will make an awesome mom. I turned on the tv and started watching it, I believe yoshi was making us dessert since I was craving chocolate. In the middle of the show I felt someone kissing my head, i turned around to find nanjou holding two bowels. She placed the bowel on my lap, it was a microwave self saucing pudding. It smelt great and tasted even better, I was proud of her for learning how to cook. We both decided we want to cook for our new family, so we have been practicing and cooking. The baby seemed to enjoy the pudding as it craved more but I didn't want yoshi to make another so I battled through the cravity.
After an hour there were some sharp pains in my stomach, I started to panic and excused myself to the bath. The pain was super strong and this is what imagined a miscarriage being like so i sat on the bathroom ready for the blood to come. There were millions of sharp pains until the blood finally came out. (I know it's too late for a miscarriage like this but kussun doesn't at this stage)
I sat there crying as it came flooding out, I couldn't believe we lost our child - Our own child which we made as a product of our love together. My head began spinning as the situation overwhelmed me. Yoshi was going be heartbroken but I knew I had to be brave and call in Yoshi.
Me: YOSHI-CHAN! HELP!
Her: AI-CHAN!? I'M COMING!
she came running into the bathroom and froze when she saw all the blood around me.
Her; what happened?! Are you okay!?
I trembled in fear as the words I had never thought I would ever say left my lipsā¦
Me: I had a miscarriageā¦
She went down on her knees and brought me closer to her,I cried into her chest, my whole body feeling weak and numb. I could hear her crying as well. We just spent some time crying into each other and didn't know what to do.
We had to get up early the next day so we had to go to bed soon. Neither of us wanted to get up and deal with the mess and go to sleep. After our crying session together our sobs petered down and we eventually got off the floor and went to get change. I didn't want Yoshi to clean up my own mess so I forced her to let me clean it up. It wasn't too difficult to mop the blood, it was also very upsetting just mopping up the baby. We never found out the gender and what it looked like, the doctor would have known the gender so I decided to ask him after the concert. It was around 11:30 when I finished cleaning and went to bed, burying my exhausted head into the pillow and clinging onto Yoshi for my life, reflecting on that day having been the worst day of my life.
I felt a pair of arms around me and kissing on my forehead. Yoshi was always sweet when it comes to waking me up, she knows I don't do mornings. So she does it in the sweetest way that somehow gets me out of bed. I changed into my favourite yoshi tshirt and my adias tracksuit pants. Today was the concert but we have to be there at 9 for all day rehearsal and final costumes. It's gonna be a long painful day.
I wasn't in mood to talk, I was tired, cranky and depressed. The last thing I wanted was to do this concert and act all happy, maybe if I told people about the pregnancy I could have got out of this concert but I didn't feel like opening up about such a thing - at least not yet. The wounds were still fresh so to speak.
I had never seen this side of Yoshi; she looked so down and half asleep. I went up to her and cuddled her in my arms before we left. In the car ride I noticed her wiping her tears, it breaks my heart seeing her like this. She's too upset to do the concert and I have no idea how she's going to cope.
After a long day I was tired and wanted to sleep but we had to get ready for the concert. The hair and makeup person helped put my extensions in my hair and put it into pigtails. The makeup was done quite heavy to cover my eyebags from the lack of sleep and my freckles. The company doesn't like us showing freckles and having flaws in our skin. The only freckle I absolutely refuse to let them cover is Yoshi's one on her ear; It's so cute and small, it's one of the millions of things that makes her perfect in my eyes.
The first section was the hardest thing to do. Around the second song 'Bokura wa Ima no Naka de' I felt this sudden loss of energy. It felt like my body wanted to faint but everyone's energy made me keep going and somehow made it to the end. As soon as I got off stage I made my way to the backstage couch to take a breather. I was weak and couldn't even pick up the water bottle. While laying there I dozed off
And woke up to nanjou looking at me. She was all dressed in the school uniform, ready for the next set and was looking really cute as always.
Her: Ai-chan? Are you ok?
Me: I'm fine don't worry...
Her: Are you sure? Cause you just passed out for 20 minutes...
Me: Yeah, I'm just tired but I should get changed.
I got up and slowly walked to the dressing room to get changed into my school uniform, barely able to even put my sleeves through the blazer before I felt a fresh set of tears press against my eyes. I quickly blinked them away, it was not the time or place to get sentimental, I had a job to do after all. So I quickly checked over my makeup - which thankfully hadn't ran - practiced my smile in the mirror before making my way out of the dressing room.
Nanjou's POV
When I was done changing I headed to the main area to wait around. When I got there I noticed Ai lying down on the couch and that she was still in the last costume. It was unusual for her and worrying so I decided to check on her. Upon closer inspection I noticed she was fast asleep. She also didn't look well; she was pale, shaking and her breathing was frighteningly laboured . This started to freak me out and coaxed me into trying to me wake her up. It took a few minutes before she was fully awake which was another cause for alarm.
As she blinked her eyes open I noticed they were dark and her pupils really small. Her voice didn't help at all, it sounded more deep and quiet. I started to worry she was really sick or whether it was an effect of the miscarriage. Either way it was scary and I hated seeing her like that.
She finally got up to get dress, as I sat there thinking about Ai. She finally came out and start cuddling into me, I could clearly tell she was warmer than usual. Pile came out of the dressing room and towards us
Her: What's wrong with Kussun?
Me: I think she's unwell...
Her: That's not good, I hope she gets better soon.
She leaned down and gently stroked Aina's hair.
I could feel her body temperature rising, it made me wonder if the uniform was making her hot or whether she really was sick. Pile stopped stroking her hair and looked down trying to see Ai's face.
Her: is she asleep?
I looked down and could just see that her eyes were close.
Me: yeah she is...
Her: she's burning up
Me: I know, she's getting overheated.
We still had 5 songs before Garasu no Hanazono, so we decided to take off her blazer. The tshirt still had long sleeves, so I rolled them up to help her body cool down. As I did that Pile pulled down Aina's socks, which caused Ai to wake up. She sat up and gave me a confused look, as if she was in a daze. It was an adorable look and made me kiss her gently before I could really focus on her face - which I knew would still be as beautiful as ever despite her obvious signs of sickness. Her face was a reddish colour and had sweat slowly coming off it. Her eyes were more puffy and her pupils had gotten even smaller. At least her breathing has gotten better. if it was up to me I wouldn't make her perform but unfortunately it wasn't my decision to make, luckily it was an easy song. Pile just stood there, watching over us, not knowing what to do.
We sat there until it was time do our duet, I was super excited for this and couldn't wait to perform it with the girl I loved so dearly. While waiting backstage I gave her back the blazer and fixed up her hair and socks to get her ready. Her temperature was alright and didn't seem like it had increased which was a good sign but I was still worried.
I kept holding her tightly, as if she would slip away the second I let go, until it was time to go on stage - I just couldn't escape the feeling that something bad was going happen.
We started off strong, there wasn't much movement and even though we couldn't really see each other because of the distance between us but Aina looked happy and full of energy, which in turn spurred me on. We finally got the part where we dance together, when I touched her hand it felt very hot. I didn't think about it too much until we got the face touching part. She was burning up and I could tell she was growing weak and more pale. I wanted to stop the performance and take her off stage but we couldn't just stop the performance. So we carried on until we had to stand up. She had a hard time standing up, her legs seeming to shake as she attempted to bring her body off the ground. I looked at her with an expression of concern but before I could do anything else she collapsed.
